Chapter 1
By Crystal
Author's Notes: Legolas won't show up in a few chapters... Maybe earlier though. I know without Legolas, it will be boring, but it's necessary, so I hope you stay with me. This is all kind of a like an introduction of what happened in the past year of Jessica's life. Sorry if it goes slow
And last thing, I KNOW that Legolas is an Elf and that he won't enjoy staying in Earth... Which is why, I promised all of you, this story ends in Middle-Earth...If not this story, then perhaps another sequel. I haven't given a thought for a sequel, but I will make one if the ending does not end nicely for this one. And the VERY last thing, if you want to chat with me (I'm sure I want to chat with all of you), add me on your MSN list at clear_crystalglobe@hotmail.com. Thanks!
Okay, the VERY, VERY, VERY last thing... It's my one-year anniversary at fanfiction.net! Woohoo!
*We all know who this belongs to... ^^;;*
I felt my heart clench painfully as I thought of everyone... It had been so hard to push them in the back of my mind after I had attempted suicide...
Boromir, Aragorn, Gimli, Haldir, Éowyn...
Legolas.
It was so hard to push them at the back of my mind... I had locked myself in my room all the time until I moved out. I knew I had worried all my friends and my family, but I could not help but do that. Earth was no longer home to me... But Death was not an option, for even Fate did not allow me to die...
Fate is horrifyingly cruel.
Indeed, fate is cruel. I have found that out so long ago...
I ran across the streets without a care in the world, the rain was soaking my shirt, my pants, and my hair... My shoes were drenched, but I did not care. I needed to run, I needed to hide... I needed to forget everything. And yet, at the same time, I needed to think.
Finally, I ran to somewhere that I did not recognize. For how long I ran, I did not know, but I know I was not too tired. After returning from Middle-Earth, or my coma, I had done sports, ran in the mornings for at least one hour per day...
I looked at my surroundings. The park was empty; the pavement was wet with rain, the grass was soaking up the water... I closed my eyes, my clothes were sticking to my skin, but I did not care. I felt free in the rain, I felt clean and I was surrounded by nothing but nature... It felt like home, it felt like Middle-Earth, except it was missing a certain smell. It was missing the smell of Middle-Earth. I sighed as I walked towards a tree, and touched it softly with my fingers, "It's a shame I'm not an Elf, or I can just talk with you about all my problems..." I said quietly.
I sighed quietly, "And it's a shame you're not a tree from Middle-Earth... If you were, I would live here. I don't find comfort here on Earth anymore. The Men are polluting everything; they cut down trees for money... And to think that I was one of them an year ago, it's disgusting." I closed my eyes, "I love him, you know... Even it was probably a dream and nothing but a dream, I have fallen for him. Prince Legolas of the Woodland Realm, Mirkwood. Have you heard of him?"
I laughed at the thought of myself talking to a tree, yet I felt a comforting feeling when I did, "I wish he was here right now... I wish he were always with me. You have no idea how much I have fallen for him... When I awoke on Earth, I had attempted suicide, hoping it would either give me Death, or maybe it would bring me back to Middle-Earth. No such luck though... My mother found me lying on the floor with a puddle of blood on the ground and called in the ambulance immediately. She gave me a lecture about killing myself, making me feel guilty about everything..."
"The only thing I felt guilty about was thinking that Earth was no longer my home, but it's true, no matter how pathetic that sounds. Perhaps Legolas and I... Perhaps we weren't meant to be. It's almost been a year, you know... Nothing has happened and I doubt anything would."
I traced the tree with my finger, "I wonder if he has children with a she-elf worth of his attention? I would be glad if he did..." I sighed quietly at that, "Glad, but sad. But it should happen. I am a mortal, not worthy of his attention. I should be glad that he has paid me so much attention during those months we were together... I should be thankful, but I'm not. I wish I had never known him, I wish I had forgotten about him... Maybe then, this pain would go away..."
"I wonder how everyone's doing... Perhaps things have gone on like they have in the book... Aragorn and Arwen married, Faramir and Éowyn married, Gollum dead, Boromir dead, Legolas and Gimli traveling... Or perhaps they would've gone like how I wanted it to be... Aragorn and Arwen married, Boromir and Éowyn married, Legolas and myself married," I laughed without humor, "Silly me, I'm on Earth... Finally, Gimli finding a woman dwarf with beard..."
I sighed, "If things have gone like that, everything would've been perfect..." I whispered quietly. "I'm so changed, you know... Iris was right... I would've never dumped Alan nor would I have attempted suicide. I was never this calm about anything, let alone death, pain and especially blood. I have never wanted to swordfight, I would've never listened in class and done my homework... I would be checking out guys right at this moment instead of talking to a tree that gives me comfort. Believe me, nature is the only thing that gives me comfort anymore... And yes, I don't swear anymore..."
I paused, feeling a painful memory crawl in my head, "I don't swear anymore... Because everything a swear word comes out, I look around, half excepting a blond elf to look at me disapprovingly with a raised eyebrow..."
A sob escaped my throat, "I hate how much I remember about him... I hate how everything that has happened to me in Middle-Earth is so clear in my mind... I hate how I can't die or forget anything. I'm a coward, I admit... But what can I do? I hate living my life without him; I hate everything in my life and the only thing that can comfort me... The only thing that can comfort me is the thought that perhaps, a miracle will happen. I might go into a coma again and land in Middle-Earth. Or perhaps Legolas will one day, suddenly knock on the door to my apartment and sweep me off my feet. Or perhaps...It was all but a dream."
"Amin delotha mel lle, Legolas... Amin kai avaena lle, amin il'coie avaena lle..." (I hate loving you, Legolas... I am nothing without you, I cannot live without you...) I whispered quietly in Elvish. I clenched my fist, "Why are you so cruel, Valar? Mankoi?" (Why?) I closed my eyes and put my forehead to the tree, "Mankoi? Why do you have to be so cruel?" I whispered again, "I love him so much, yet you have taken him away from me, just like that... Do you not know that it can cost him his life and how much pain it has brought me?" I said again.
I sighed, clearing my thoughts away as I listened to the rain hitting the cement. I felt my body tense and my eyes snapping open as all thoughts disappeared when a pair of footsteps came closer and closer, followed by another one. Slowly, I used my right hand to reach over to where my dagger laid in my pocket and I took it out. As their hand came in contact with my shoulder, I turned around and drew my dagger, holding it to their throats menacingly and almost dropped it due to shock, "Alan!"
"Holy shit, Jessica! Put the knife down!" Alan said shock and fear clear in his eyes.
Immediately, I withdrew the dagger, or as the others would call it, knife. "Do not ever do that again, Alan. I could've killed you." I said as I put my hand to my heart, "Why are you here? And why is Iris following you?" I asked, looking at Iris, who was still running, trying to catch up to Alan.
Alan waited for Iris to catch up and when she did, she was gasping for air, "I just finished my course and Iris called me, telling me you ran off into the ran after you read a Valentine Card or something." He said, "Iris said you went this way, and I knew there was a park nearby. You always loved going to parks, so I just guessed... And there you were."
I nodded, "I see..."
"Are you all right?" Alan said as he touched my shoulder, "What was wrong with the Valentine Card? You know you can tell me anything, we're friends... It's got to be something bad if it caused you to run all the way here in the rain without pausing..."
I shrugged it off, "The run was nothing." I saw Iris shiver and I felt guilty all of a sudden. It was because of me that she was soaked and tired and shivering with cold. "Let's go to my house. I'll make some coffee or something. All right?"
"All right." Alan said, "My car's over there," he pointed to the direction where he came from, "It's not too far away. Just outside the park."
I looked up at him, his wet dirty blond hair covering some parts of his gray eyes. If I had not met Legolas, he would have been one of the best-looking guys I've known. And if only I forgot about Legolas... Then maybe... I shook my head as I cleared my thoughts away. It was impossible... Legolas and I... We were bound together. No matter what. I nodded my head. Alan turned around and started walking towards his car and Iris followed him quickly. I turned around and looked at the tree I had talked to, "Thank you for listening. Thank you." Then, I turned around and followed the two of them out of the park and to where he parked his car.
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I dried my hair with a towel and stripped my drenched clothes that were sticking to me like a second skin off myself and wiped myself clean of water. I took a pair of dark green shorts and a white t-shirt and wore it as the coffee boiled in my kitchen. Finally, I threw myself on my bed, tired. A few minutes went by and slowly, I got up and went to where I had left my bag. I took the card and letter out of my bag and went to my closet. Inside was a blue box, one of those gift boxes that were huge. I opened it and laid the card and the letter on top of a crimson turtleneck...
The one I had worn when I had fallen into Middle-Earth. I felt my eyes water and I closed my eyes immediately. Hands shaky, I went to get the top of the box and closed it and sighed, "Who knew... Even now, it only seemed like yesterday that Boromir saved me. It only seemed like yesterday that I fell on top of Aragorn by tripping, it only seemed like yesterday that I met my best friend Éowyn, it only seemed like yesterday that Gimli was laughing with his booming laughter... And it only seemed like yesterday that I had kissed Legolas.
I closed my eyes, trying to picture Legolas' face. His perfect cheekbones, his bow-shaped lips, his nose, his pointy ears...His beautiful eyes. I opened my eyes and stood up abruptly, not wanting to think anymore. Every time I had those thoughts, I would end up crying on my bed, and it was not the time to cry right now. Not when both Iris and Alan were outside waiting for my coffee. I closed my closet and slipped my feet into my blue slippers, and then I opened the door to my room.
I walked towards the kitchen softly and I heard the television on. Shrugging it off, I went to the kitchen and grabbed three cups and poured the hot coffee into them. Iris came waltzing in, grabbing the coffee and dumped four sugar cubes in there and poured some milk. "Thanks for the coffee!" She took Alan's coffee and then disappeared out of the kitchen. Alan liked his coffee without sugar or milk.
I frowned, "Iris, if I see the coffee cup on my piano, I will slaughter you." I said quietly. I put two sugar cubes in my coffee and poured some milk and walked out the kitchen...Only to let out some dwarfish curse that I had learned from Gimli. "How many times have I told you, Iris?" I said, frustrated, "Do not put the coffee on my precious piano, all right? There's a coffee table right in front of the television."
Iris rolled her eyes, "My preciousssssssss..." Alan snorted in his coffee.
And I felt myself frown again, "Iris... That is not funny. Not the slightest bit." Iris and Alan looked at each other, and then cracked up. I rolled my eyes, "I'm going in my room." As I closed the door to my room, I could still hear their laughter and I sat down at my desk. Yes, my desk was in my bedroom, due to the apartment being extremely small, but decent. I had one washroom, one bedroom, one living room and one kitchen.
Plus one grand piano my mother decided to rid at their house because I was the only one in the family who knew how to play it.
I was not by any means rich, nor was I poor though. My pay is barely enough for where I live and what I eat, but my parents, being the over-protective parents they were, kept putting money in my bank every few weeks. Sometimes every few days, so I end up saving all those and I use some of it when needed. I'm not complaining about the money, though. I wouldn't be surprised if they still gave me money after I got married, actually, more like if I get married.
My parents, along with the rest of my friends, think Alan and I were just meant to be. Oh Valar... My mother kept telling me how I should get a boyfriend, now that I'm in university and that Alan was a very good choice. He was a respectable young man, one that could study and would most likely have a good future...
There were a lot of pros. But the truth remains... I don't love him. Plus, I never will. So what was the point? None.
As I looked at my clean desk, I opened one drawer. There, in the drawer, lay two dozen of origami flowers. I smiled as I picked one up. "Seventy-five more to go..." Of course, I had heard the legend of the windmills... And this time, I would finally have a chance to set the flowers free... Perhaps I would see Legolas, perhaps not... If not, perhaps... Perhaps it really is time to let go. It was probably no more than a dream...A realistic dream, but nonetheless, a dream.
I put the flower back down in the drawer and took out a sheet, one that was never folded and started folding the flower, with the hope that one day... One day...
I would see Legolas again.
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Author's Notes: I got 55 reviews! For those of you wondering... Yes, I am aware that Jessica is contradicting herself sometimes, but isn't that what humans do?
-Crystal
Thursday, August 28, 2003