Chapter 9
By Crystal
Author's Notes: I know I said I wouldn't update for quite a long while, but it's so hard not updating because when I have nothing to do, I think about everything, and somehow, my thoughts drift into writing this story... *sighs* I guess even my conscious is not letting me have a break, eh? Anyhow, happy readings.
*We all know that anything that has to do with 'Lord of the Rings' belong to J.R.R. Tolkien...*
The day passed quite uneventfully... Well, kind of. I left Legolas in the care of four immature brats, Bruce, Eddie, Josh and Alan. Hopefully, he'd survive their stupidity, but I feared for the health of my beloved Elf.
I spent the day with Irene, Iris and Carrie. I filled in all three of them on exactly what happened in Middle-Earth, which, may I add, was crystal clear to my memory; it had felt so long ago. Iris filled them in, in detail, everything about Legolas coming to Earth. We were pretty much amused and also laughing over at the fact that Legolas did not know how to use a washroom and other technologies in our world. Irene talked about Legolas' first car ride. I felt sorry for him, truly, but of course, that never stopped me from laughing.
Carrie nodded with mock seriousness, "You have a funny Elf." She stated. Then she looked at the grins plastered on our faces and she dissolved into giggles and snorts soon enough.
The three of them made me retell every single detail about the whole meeting with Legolas at least a couple hundred thousand times. Of course, I was slightly exaggerating on the 'couple hundred thousand times'. I finally stopped when they whined pathetically about their own useless boyfriends, while Iris started ranting on about Zach. It was finally then that we talked about everything else...
I didn't tell them everything, and I kept my leaving for Middle-Earth out of it. I wanted to have a normal day first, or more like some normal time together, then at the end of the day, I'll finally tell them.
So we talked about everything that came to my mind. But of course, there was only one thought on my mind and that thought was about a certain blond Elf with the name Legolas Greenleaf, who was also a Prince. So I never really started a topic. Like most girls, they stayed on the topic of guys. I sat there on the sofa and listened to them most of the time, and at rare times, I inputted my own opinion when I felt or was asked to do so.
Iris told us all of Zach and we sympathized with her and I even tried hinting her that there might be a guy that was interested in her. But nooo... She just had to be a pessimistic like me and say, "Nobody likes me. I mean, if they did, why did Zach cheat on me?". Of course, I added with my usual beautiful replies. "Zach is a retard, my dear Iris."
Conversations were carried like that and soon enough, the sun was setting and Irene decided that both she and Bruce would stay with us as well as leave with us tomorrow. Funny how we spent our Valentine's Day with our friends instead of boyfriends. And it's funny how's it was only suppose to be Iris, Alan, Carrie, Josh and I living in the cottage, but Eddie, Legolas, Irene and Bruce joined us... Come to think of it, Alan needs a girl.
I was lost in the thoughts that clouded my mind and it was only when Carrie shook me by my shoulder that I came back, "Wha...?"
Irene raised her eyebrow, "What are you thinking of? You seemed quite deep in your thoughts."
"Nothing. What were you talking about again? Like you all know, my mind decided to drift off somewhere else."
"No shit." I heard Iris muttered and I sent a glare at her.
Carrie rolled her eyes, "You've got to stop visiting la-la-land, my dear. We were just talking about a certain Elf that has captured the heart of a dear friend of ours and we're just wondering what our dear friend's future plan is."
It was my turn to raise an eyebrow and raised it I did. "Future plans? Care to explain?" I asked.
"What do you have in mind for your future together." Irene said.
I shrugged, "Wherever the wind takes us, really..." I paused, sending a glance at Iris, "But..."
"But?" Carrie questioned.
I held Iris' gaze for a second before I looked out the window and at the sunset. The sky was painted gold, orange and yellow, mixed together softly as the sun slowly descended behind the hills. The wind blew the reddish clouds across the skies, the birds cried as they flew back into their nests... I closed my eyes peacefully, letting out a breath of air, "But..."
"She's leaving." A male voice said.
I opened my eyes and looked at the doorway and standing there, was five men. Well, four men and an elf. I nodded, "Indeed, Alan. I am leaving." I confirmed.
Irene narrowed her eyes, "Where is she going?"
Bruce opened his mouth, "She is going to--"
I cut him off, "Home." I said, and then said again, "Home. I'm going home."
"If that is how you look at it..." Alan spoke up, "Then yes, it is indeed home."
"Indeed..." Iris said quietly. I could feel her gaze on me.
Carrie frowned, "You all know something Irene and I don't know."
Josh sat beside Carrie and wrapped his arms around her shoulder, "Jess... She's going back to Middle-Earth with Legolas."
Calm was their reaction, that is, until everything finally sunk in. Irene blinked confusingly, "Did I hear wrong, or did Josh just say Jess was going back to Middle-Earth?"
"They're going back." Iris stated firmly. "And they're never coming back. Which is why, I have decided, to make the rest of their time worthwhile."
Surprisingly, Irene was calm, "I see..."
Carrie, on the other hand, was shocked, "You're leaving us? When? How? Why? When was this decided?" She ranted and kept asking questions.
Finally, Irene left with Bruce. Eddie, Iris, Alan and Josh left with Carrie. I watched them as they left, one by one, bitterness filling myself up. I hated myself for causing everyone pain... Éowyn, Aragorn, Boromir, Gimli, Haldir... Then Alan, Iris, Irene, Carrie, Josh, Bruce, Eddie... My parents...
Legolas...
Why did everything have to be the way it was? Why couldn't I just have died so I wouldn't have caused these friends pain? Why couldn't I just stay on Earth so I didn't have to cause the people in Middle-Earth pain? Why?
Hatred for myself filled up and I glared hatefully at the floor, a tear unwantedly rolling down my cheek.
"Amin hiraetha..." (Forgive me...)
I didn't reply.
"Melamin? Amin dele ten' lle..." (My love? I am worried about you...)
The hate in my voice surprised even myself when I answered, "'Tis not your fault, Legolas. Do not bothered with worrying about me. I am not worth it. I never was and I don't know why people bother with me. I'm a selfish bitch that causes pain to everyone around me."
"Jessica!" He turned me around, "Tampa tanya! Lle del amin..." (Stop that! You worry me...)
"Don't be bothered to." I clenched the fists at my side. "Amin delotha amin..." (I hate myself.) I said more calmly as my voice suddenly quivered.
He lifted my head up, "Mankoi?" (Why?)
Tears painted my cheeks and I looked at him, my face pained, "Why do you ask, Legolas? Is it not obvious? I hate myself because I cause everyone around me pain. Do you remember the day I died, Legolas? I'm sure you do. I caused everyone pain... Éowyn, Aragorn, Boromir, Gimli, Haldir... I caused you pain! Now... Now that I'm leaving, I've caused everyone of my friends here pain."
"I hate it when everyone's so sad. Especially if I am the one who have caused it. I hate it, Legolas."
"Jessica..." Concern was in his eyes, "If anyone is to blame, it is I. Do not blame yourself. It pains me to see you so bitter and sad."
I looked down, "Forgive me... for making you sad. All I end up doing in life is make people miserable."
"En ie'amin Jessica." (Look at me Jessica.) He ordered.
I lifted my eyes up slowly to meet his intense crystal blue eyes.
"Do not torture yourself like this, Jessica... You have brightened all our lives, above all mine. Do you not understand? You cannot be perfect every minute of the day and you cannot make them happy every second of the day. But the good you have done overcomes the bad."
I closed my eyes and let a small breath of air out of my mouth, "Tell me, Legolas... What have I done that is any good?"
"You have given us your love, your friendship... And you have given me a reason to live. Do you not remember how you cheered us up when we went down the mountain of Caradhras? Remember how you saved Boromir and Haldir, how you cheered us up with your jokes or sarcasm when we were down?"
"It is not worth the pain you have all suffered." I stated, opening my eyes.
He kissed me on the forehead, "Tell me, melamin. Who is to say if it is worth the pain or not? Should it not be the people who suffered the pain to judge it and not the person who caused the pain? I know I would never have traded anything in the world for my memories of you, and I know that not anyone you have come to known in Middle-Earth would want to forget you. Nor anyone here on Earth."
"Legolas..." I found myself pretty much speechless.
"Lle sinta amin il'coie avaena lle..." (You know I cannot live without you.)
I did not speak, nor did I even try to, for the next second, Legolas tucked some of the messed up ponytail hair behind my ear and kissed me on the lips as his arms snaked around my waist quietly. Every time he kissed me, I wondered how a person could be that gentle, and this time was not an exception. But thoughts once again quickly disappeared and flew out of my head as his kiss deepened and finally, I allowed his tongue in my mouth and he tickled the insides of my mouth gently...
After what seemed like too short of an eternity, we broke away and I smiled softly up at him. "Diola lle..."
He frowned, "For what?"
"For talking some sense in my head." I replied.
Legolas chuckled, "There is nothing to thank. Now, let us go and have something to eat, then we shall take a walk."
"The two of us alone?" I asked.
"Aye, it seems forever that I have spent time with you alone, although it has just been this morning."
I nodded, "All right then. Wait, I'll scribble a note down just to tell them..." Then I added bitterly, "Although I doubt any of them care now."
He let go of my waist, "Do not think like that. They care about you, although they might not show it."
I sighed, "Perhaps." I walked to my handbag and took out an useless receipt and a pen, then scribbled a small note.
Hey everyone,
Legolas and I are going out for a walk and dinner... We'll come back pretty late tonight and I'm also aware that there aren't enough beds and couches. You can do your own organizing. Legolas and I can go sleep outside into the wilderness. See you later.
-Jessica
I taped it right in front of the television so they would see it and I brought my handbag along, and then locked the cottage.
Afterwards, when we began our long walk to the area where all the restaurants were. Suddenly, I turned around. "By the way, what would you like for dinner?"
He shrugged, "Pizza? Pasta? Your choice."
I raised a brow, "Pizza? Pasta?"
He smiled amusedly at me, "Aye. Master Bruce let me tried it once. It was quite good."
"What else did Bruce and Irene teach you?" I muttered quietly.
"That, my love," he replied, "You will have to find out yourself."
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Author's Notes: I've decided to stop bragging about my life, so yeah. But I want to thank you all those regards for my friend and I. Thank you. I appreciate them a lot and you have no idea how it makes my day. Oh yeah, 64 reviews for the last chapter!
And I know the story is going slow. I'll try to slow it up later... And two questions...
First of all, I want to ask you all if you want me to make a sequel for when Jessica and Legolas gets back to Middle-Earth, or keep on continuing 'Until We Meet Again'.
Second of all, someone has asked me to put a lemon. I'd like to bring to all your attention that it will actually be the first time to write a lemon for me (I might make it a lime, less graphical), and if you are all against it, of course, I won't make one. If not, I'll raise the rating to R and add a lemon. Tell me what you think.
-Crystal
Thursday, October 09, 2003