Gordo had finally told me how he truly felt, hearing his speech about
how wonderful I am was almost exhausting. I loved hearing it but so much
emotion can drain you. I wanted to say something as wonderful right back to
him, but I lacked the words, so I did what I could and gave him the kiss I
had been waiting for.
Gordo and I had fallen asleep on the couch that night, holding each other closely. I awoke in the morning to a wave of sadness, I slowly sat up, and watched as Gordo, breathed in and out, I tried to shake the wave of emotion off but it stayed. Why was I sad? I had just had the best night of my life, and here I was clearly disappointed.
I shook Gordo's shoulder in an attempt to wake him, unsuccessfully I sighed deeply and shook him with much force, his eyes fluttered open, and he looked up at me confused and said, "Was last night a dream?"
"No Gordo, it wasn't."
"Thank god."
"Gordo, we need to talk" I said in a very serious tone, he bolted straight up and stared at me concerned.
"What's the matter? What did I do?"
"What's the matter? More like what's the problem. Gordo, I truly care for you, but when our parents return we can't carry on. I don't want to face my parents. I don't want to have to explain to them what's going on between us. I'd feel as though I was defending us, trying to justify our love and that I can't deal with. It should just be accepted without question, but I know that's not how it will work."
Gordo stayed silent for a couple minutes before looking directly at me and saying, "Lizzie I have waited years to be with you, I don't exactly know what you're getting at now, but I am not going to lose you. I will not let you go. I love you. I don't feel that I should have to hide it from anyone, especially those close to us. I don't want to hide it. I want to scream to the world that I love Elizabeth McGuire."
I looked down ashamed at how I felt, Gordo was so passionate about me, yet here I was trying to wiggle my way out of these feelings. I didn't doubt how I felt for Gordo. I just didn't want to explain this to the world.
"Lizzie, what are you not saying?"
"Well, I guess. Since we're alone this week we should just be together, but when my parents return and I'm actually grounded. I don't think we should stay together." I trailed off
"What? Lizzie, tell me you're kidding"
"I wish I was sweetie."
"Will we ever be together again? Or do you not want that?"
"I want it, I want it more then ever. I want to be with you and you alone. I want to free of Hillridge and the restrictions it brings. I don't want to have to hold back how I feel, and I'm willing to wait, to delay truly starting our relationship until we can have that."
Gordo's face dropped, I had hurt him. I was torn inside, how could I do this to the one guy I had ever loved? "Lizzie, I'd wait forever to be with you, and I guess if that's what you want.I guess I can deal with it."
"Do you really mean that?"
"I do."
I sighed again, what did I do to deserve a boy so sweet, why did he love me when I was trying to avoid something. I realized I truly didn't understand what I was doing. Gordo and I had been together for one night and I was already breaking it off, why am I doing this to myself?
"I'll miss you" I whispered before kissing him again.
* Authors Note * Yes I am aware this chapter is completely short and unbelievable lame, but I've decided to take this story in a completely different direction then what I had planned when I had started writing it. I also have another story idea in the works, which I think I'm favoring. I'm not sure I like this one so it may be discontinued at a moments notice, sorry guys.
Gordo and I had fallen asleep on the couch that night, holding each other closely. I awoke in the morning to a wave of sadness, I slowly sat up, and watched as Gordo, breathed in and out, I tried to shake the wave of emotion off but it stayed. Why was I sad? I had just had the best night of my life, and here I was clearly disappointed.
I shook Gordo's shoulder in an attempt to wake him, unsuccessfully I sighed deeply and shook him with much force, his eyes fluttered open, and he looked up at me confused and said, "Was last night a dream?"
"No Gordo, it wasn't."
"Thank god."
"Gordo, we need to talk" I said in a very serious tone, he bolted straight up and stared at me concerned.
"What's the matter? What did I do?"
"What's the matter? More like what's the problem. Gordo, I truly care for you, but when our parents return we can't carry on. I don't want to face my parents. I don't want to have to explain to them what's going on between us. I'd feel as though I was defending us, trying to justify our love and that I can't deal with. It should just be accepted without question, but I know that's not how it will work."
Gordo stayed silent for a couple minutes before looking directly at me and saying, "Lizzie I have waited years to be with you, I don't exactly know what you're getting at now, but I am not going to lose you. I will not let you go. I love you. I don't feel that I should have to hide it from anyone, especially those close to us. I don't want to hide it. I want to scream to the world that I love Elizabeth McGuire."
I looked down ashamed at how I felt, Gordo was so passionate about me, yet here I was trying to wiggle my way out of these feelings. I didn't doubt how I felt for Gordo. I just didn't want to explain this to the world.
"Lizzie, what are you not saying?"
"Well, I guess. Since we're alone this week we should just be together, but when my parents return and I'm actually grounded. I don't think we should stay together." I trailed off
"What? Lizzie, tell me you're kidding"
"I wish I was sweetie."
"Will we ever be together again? Or do you not want that?"
"I want it, I want it more then ever. I want to be with you and you alone. I want to free of Hillridge and the restrictions it brings. I don't want to have to hold back how I feel, and I'm willing to wait, to delay truly starting our relationship until we can have that."
Gordo's face dropped, I had hurt him. I was torn inside, how could I do this to the one guy I had ever loved? "Lizzie, I'd wait forever to be with you, and I guess if that's what you want.I guess I can deal with it."
"Do you really mean that?"
"I do."
I sighed again, what did I do to deserve a boy so sweet, why did he love me when I was trying to avoid something. I realized I truly didn't understand what I was doing. Gordo and I had been together for one night and I was already breaking it off, why am I doing this to myself?
"I'll miss you" I whispered before kissing him again.
* Authors Note * Yes I am aware this chapter is completely short and unbelievable lame, but I've decided to take this story in a completely different direction then what I had planned when I had started writing it. I also have another story idea in the works, which I think I'm favoring. I'm not sure I like this one so it may be discontinued at a moments notice, sorry guys.