Rimnerel: Okay, I want to clear things up for everyone who may be confused. This chapter was suppose to be chapter 21, but now it's like chapter 20. That's because ff.net took out my introduction chapter. This story still has as many chapters as before, just no introduction chapter anymore.

Hilary: And next you're going to tell everyone exactly what you did to Kenny!

Rimnerel (smirks): Hey, ask my two very favorite muses about that. They had more influence from the shadows than Kai did. He just followed along with the idea.

Hilary (~_~): Please don't tell me you mean "maniac" and "bondage?"

Rimnerel: Sephiroth and Nakago, yes I do. You do remember that they are my ever constant muses who I choose not to have around or everything I write would be desolation and sorrow. So let's get started with the reviews.

Thanks to B. Tiamat Atardecer, DarkNight, Jay Kamiya, Raven Star, FREAKO14 (by the way, where did you get plushies of me from? 0_0), BlackDragon, Silverm, and jen wit l n. Oh and Merodi, I sent you a note about the change. ^_^ Okay now everyone enjoy the chapter.

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Kenny hadn't heard right. He hadn't, he told himself over and over again as he stood with the phone to his ear. It was just a joke. Kai had to be joking with him. That had to be it. Tala really wasn't gone. Not like that. He couldn't leave. Not after Kenny made a promise to himself to stay by Tala no matter what he did. No matter what Tala said, Kenny had come to a solid standing that he wasn't going to leave Tala's side for nothing. This had to be a very bad joke or a dream.

Kenny closed his eyes, counting backwards before asking the voice on the other end of the phone line to repeat the words. This time he would hear them correctly.

"Kai. . .you're joking about Tala right? Please tell me you're joking or this is a really bad dream that I'm going to wake up from soon."

"No Kenny. It's not a joke," Kai said.

"Then this is a bad dream. I'll wake up from it soon," Kenny whispered. His eyes misting with wetness.

"It's not a dream either. I'm sorry Kenny."

"But. . .how. . .how are you so sure?" Kenny was aware he was gripping the phone to his ear, but he couldn't help it. He had to be sure, certain that Tala wasn't just messing with his head once again.

"I was heading out for my morning run. The door to the room he was using was open. I went inside and found his things gone. I have no idea when he left, but it had to be some time after I went to bed last night. I doubt he would wait until dawn to sneak off," Kai stated.

"We have to go search for him. We found him last time, we can find him again," Kenny said. "If we hurry-"

"You know he's gone. Stop it now," Kai interrupted. "I know you're upset- "

"How do you know how I feel?" Kenny snapped. "You have Max and Tyson has Ray. How can any of you possibly understand how I'm feeling now! If you aren't going to help me find him, then I'll do it myself."

Slamming the phone down, Kenny hurried back to his room, pulling off his sleepers and putting on a pair of pants. He couldn't believe Kai! The one person he thought he could put his trust in to help him was not the friend Kenny thought he was. If Kai wasn't going to help him then fine, he could bring Tala back himself, without Kai's help. If he hurried he was sure he could find Tala. The male had no money to catch any planes or trains, so he would be on foot. The red head couldn't have gotten too far on foot by now.

*Not unless he started early last night. Then by now he could be out of town. * His brain countered.

"Shut up!" Kenny told it. It wasn't true. He wouldn't believe it. Tala could still be found. He wasn't going to give up that easily.

*Why are you kidding yourself? You know Kai's right. Why are you fighting it now? The battle's over already. *

"Please no. . .just let me look." Kenny slumped down on his bed feeling the energy leave his body. He knew both Kai and his brain were correct. Tala was gone by now. And it was all Kenny's fault. It had to be his fault; Tala wouldn't have left otherwise. He pushed Tala to that point and now he was gone. "No. . .please come back Tala."

Placing his face in his hands, the young man felt the first shock wave of emotion hit. It came small, like an ocean wave rolling over the toes of individuals standing at the water's beginning motions towards the beach. Eventually the waves grew bigger and bigger until they were a tsunami. Crashing violently into the beach.

A torrent of tears pooled into his hands, then leaked into his lap. Why was this entire thing happening to him? What did he do to deserve such unnecessary pain? He had been a good person hadn't he? Always polite to everyone around him and modest about things, rather than being outspoken he kept comments to himself when he felt them inappropriate. Never complained about anything really and yet life was throwing him coconuts. He couldn't go through the day with this on his back. He would surely break down before the morning was over. Right now all he wanted was to be left alone. With what little control he had left to function, Kenny got up to lock his door.

Dragging himself back to his bed, he collapsed onto it, his moans of anguish muffled by the pillow. So this was how it all was going to end? If Kenny had known he would have been with Tala more. At least he would have had more memories worth holding on to. Nor would he have pushed the male so hard, or whined for his attention so often.

"Tala why did you leave me? I forgave you for yesterday. Why?" Kenny moaned into his pillow, unable to get a grip on his rising sorrow. What was hurting him the most was the silent leave. Kenny never managed to get him to say he loved Kenny.

Because of that it was as if he and Kenny were meaningless to each other. That had to be a lie. Surely Tala didn't think of Kenny only as a sex partner. There was more. It was in his eyes yesterday. That flicker of emotion that with time would be constant. Kenny didn't understand why then life chose to allow this to happen.

Was it already preordained that Tala would leave, taking Kenny's heart with him? Leaving Kenny to attempt running after him, but his feet becoming glued to the ground? Was the world and those that controlled fate that cruel? Cruel enough to shatter his heart this way? He hated the world then if it were true.

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"Shinoda." The teacher looked over to Kenny's seat, which was empty. "Odd, he's usually here. Oh well." The teacher marked the boy absent and continued to call roll. Zeo looked over to Hilary, who shrugged, puzzled at Kenny's absence also. He was always at school unless the Bladebreakers had a tournament. And both were sure that there would have been talk about a tournament approaching by now.

Maybe Tyson and Max knew what was up. Time in class seemed to tick away slowly, as if wanting to prevent the two from discovering Kenny's whereabouts. Finally when time could hold them back no longer, class let out for lunch. The two immediately went searching for the other two Bladebreakers. Zeo and Hilary found them seated under a tree, Tyson trying to steal a chocolate muffin that Max had.

"Hey guys," Zeo called to the two. Tyson and Max looked up, waving at the two to come sit down with them.

"Hey, have you and Max seen Kenny? He wasn't in class today," Hilary said.

"Well. . .actually, your guess is as good as ours," Max said. "We went by his house this morning, but his cousin told us she thought he left already."

"But if he left where is he now?" Zeo wondered.

"Don't know, but his cousin said the phone rang early this morning around because it woke her up and she heard Kenny talking to someone and that he said he was going out to do something. Then she went back to sleep because she figured he wasn't coming back," Tyson said. "I was thinking he went to see you, but since you're asking that must mean no."

"So Kenny's missing?" Hilary said worried.

"I don't think missing. Maybe he just needs to be alone for a bit," Max said. He wondered if Kenny might be off with Tala. Not that it was a problem, but Max wished Kenny had let someone know his plans. It was okay to be a little risky in life, but not to be foolish. Maybe Kai had an idea about it. After all, Tala was Kai's houseguest for a small duration.

"Wants to be alone for a bit? What do you mean he wants to be alone? You know something don't you Max?" Tyson stated, giving his friend a suspicious stare. "You are keeping something from me, I just know it. So you might as well spill the beans now."

"I can't quite yet," Max said. "Not unless Kenny says I can. Or you figure it out yourself."

"You guys really burn me up when you keep things from me. I bet if you know it, then Kai and Ray know too. Don't they?" Tyson crossed his arms over his chest.

"Actually Ray doesn't know. Kai, yes. . .but he didn't tell me. I figured it out myself. I'm sure that Kenny will tell you and Ray real soon." Max left out that Zeo knew because Tyson would prod the other until the poor young man was made to tell him. Then Tyson would take it all out of proportion when they found Kenny. And they would not hear the end of it for a while.

"So you and Kai know. Why didn't Kenny tell Ray and me too," Tyson asked.

"Because you would take it to the extreme and then go ballistic if you had known from the beginning," Max said. "Believe me, it's not as light as you think it is. I think I might be taking it too lightly myself. Obviously I don't know all of it. The only one that probably has any real idea of the whole story is Kai. So you shouldn't be mad."

"That's easy for you to say because you already know. Ray and I have no clue what it is," Tyson huffed.

What Tyson didn't know was that he was going to learn part of it sooner than he expected to, because that afternoon when Max and Tyson headed out of the school, they found Kai and Ray waiting for them. Kai looked a bit agitated by something, while Ray seemed oblivious to why he was there with Kai. Max had a bad feeling in the pit of his stomach when he studied Kai's expression.

"Hey, what's going on? Afternoon training?" Tyson asked, walking up to Kai who opened his eyes to look at Max and Tyson. He frowned when he obviously didn't see Kenny with them.

"Kenny not with you?" Kai inquired.

"Speaking of Kenny, what is this about you and Max knowing something about him that you haven't told me and Ray?" Tyson demanded. "I think both Ray and I should know too."

"Tyson, I'm going to say this currently. That's not important right now. Just tell me if you've seen Kenny any time today," Kai said.

"No, he wasn't. His cousin said he left this morning some time early after talking with someone on the phone," Max stepped in before Tyson could add in more of his two cents. His eyes became worried as he stared at Kai. What was going on? Was Kenny really missing now?

"Shit." Kai ran a hand through his hair as he sighed. "This is not good. Let's just hope he's at home by now. Or that he never left."

"Why? What's up?" Ray replied his voice coloring with concern.

"I called Kenny this morning," Kai remarked.

"You were the one that called him?" Tyson said. "What did you say to him?"

"I told you that isn't important right now. What is important is finding him if he isn't locked away in his room. Now let's go, hopefully he's in his room."

"Hold on one second Kai!" Tyson shouted grabbing the male by the shirt. Kai looked down at the blue haired male with a rose brow. "Before we go searching all over the city for Kenny or whatever, you have to let us in on what's going on. He's our friend too, and we know you're worried about him as much as we are. So what is it that you and Max know?"

Kai, knowing that Tyson was going to be annoying and stubborn until he found out what was going on, growled with defeat and impatience. He wanted to make sure that Kenny was all right now. "Fine, I called him this morning to tell him about something I discovered. He's not thinking clearly right now and might be doing what I think he's doing. He got angry with me and I don't know if he is around town or his house."

"Okay, so what id you tell him?"

"I told him that Tala was gone," Kai said. "Now let's get going."

"What does Tala leaving have to-" Tyson started.

"Will you just shut the hell up right now and bring your ass on? If Kenny gets himself lost trying to hunt down that idiot then I'm not going to be in too compliant a mood to finish this conversation. Now shut up and move out," Kai snapped. That managed to shut Tyson up for now, but it would not be long before his persistence came back. Kai just hoped that Kenny was still at him house. That was his main concern. He would deal with Tala later.

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Amy opened the door to find a dual haired young man standing on the doorstep of the Shinoda household. Behind him were the two boys from that morning, and a Chinese young man with gold eyes. Amy turned her attention to the tall sexy young man in front of her. "Yeah, what is it?"

"Do you know if Kenny actually left this morning or not? Did he come home any time today?" the young man asked her.

"What do you mean? How should I know? I'm just here until his parents come home. Do you think I keep him in my back pocket," Amy snipped. She didn't like the tone he had with her. She was the only one around here who had the authority to talk to anyone like that. Who was he to catch a tone like that with her?

"Kai, that's his cousin," the blond kid remarked.

"Kai? You mean leader of the Bladebreakers?" Amy inquired.

"Exactly. Also the exact same team your cousin happens to be part of. You know, if you're supposed to be watching over him while his parents are gone you're doing one hell of a job," Kai spat. "Do you realize that he could be somewhere across town or locked away in his room threatening not to come out? Or maybe you don't care."

"What if I don't kid," Amy said, stepping up to his challenge. "Do you think I want to watch the kid? He's a pain in the ass."

"Oh, so these are your real colors. If that's the case, then why don't you ship your ass out of here now and let things continue its descent into hell," Kai said.

"How dare you-" Amy started.

Kai narrowed his eyes, one of his infamous Kai smirks rising to his lips. "I dare because I can see the type of bitch you are. You pretend to be sweet and innocent around authority figures but the minute you're around peers you let your bitter heart strike out at everyone around you. I'm sure that no one would want to care about a thorn like you, which is what you've wanted because your heart has finally gotten to the point that you can lash out without remorse anymore. Those closest to you more specifically get hurt, or should I say those that try to tolerate you. Am I right?"

Amy's face turned bright red as she tried to glare daggers at Kai, but all of them fell short under his icy disposition towards her. How could he come out of no where and speak to her like that. She hated him. Hated him for all that he said. "You-"

"What? Bastard? That I may be sometimes, but only because of people like you. Tell me, have you ever sat down and tried to get to know Kenny? You probably think he's a weak little pain in the ass. I use to think that way, but as I got to know him I recognized qualities about him that I doubt you know exist. Or maybe you have and that's why you're pushing him away. Is that it? Afraid that you're cold, damn heart might actually want to feel something? Damn I hate people like you," Kai said with disgust.

Amy stood there for a long minute trying to come up with something to say. Her hands were clenched at her side, and her entire body shook. She hated him truly and deeply. How could he have said all those things with such audacity?

Kai's eyes flickered over her. "Have nothing more to say? Good. Now would you like to step aside and let me find out if he's here or not. Or should we stand here some more and go over more about you? It's your call."

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Rimnerel: Damn, Kai's mean! But I think Amy had that coming to her.

Hilary: Sometimes I forget Kai could make a grizzly bear cry. But she did deserve that for hurting Kenny two chapters ago. So what's next?

Rimnerel (blinks): Wait. . .I just noticed that you're the only one here! Where's Kai or Tala? Where's everyone?

Hilary: What? You don't like me being here?

Rimnerel: It's not that, it's just that I'm use to banter from them. Oh well, I hope everyone likes the chapter. I think I'm going to have to take a break for a few days to come up with new material, so you'll hear back from me Saturday! Good-bye!