Author`s note: very very sorry that this took sooo long! i`ve been too lazy. *slaps herself* i`ve had a lot on my mind and since i heard a relle cool song that goes with this story, i knew i had to continue it.
Disclaimer: i don`t own spike. :( wish i did tho. he`s mucho sexy.
Two to Make it Right
You`re my heart`s desire
Spike sat there thinking about Tanya. He was seriously hooked on her. He took a deep breath in. Tanya`s smell was still there. He smiled as he recognized it, but he knew what he had to do. Spike got up and walked over to where he heard Faye sobbing. He had never seen her cry or even show a bit of remorse. This was new to him and he was not good at dealing with feelings. He had kept his hidden deep inside his broken heart for years. As soon as Spike was getting closer to Faye, he stopped. He had no idea what he would tell her, but it was worth a shot. Spike knelt down beside Faye.
"Hey, Faye, what`s wrong?"
"It`s nothing," Faye said, sobbing.
"Please tell me because I know it`s not nothing."
"Look, I`ll be fine," Faye said getting up and wiping her tears.
"OK."
As Faye began to walk, Spike called out her name.
"Faye....."
Faye stopped right in her tracks, but did not look at him. It hurt too much.
"If you feel anything for me, it can never be."
"You know what?!"
"What?"
"FUCK YOU!!!!" Faye screamed and then stormed off to her room.
Spike was alarmed at her response, but didn`t seem to care much for it. He never understood Faye. She was very unpredictable and this little emotional outburst would pass. He did try after all. He didn`t know that she would react like that to him. Oh well. I don`t care about her. She`s always been such a bitch. I can`t believe we even let her live on the Bebop. What good has she done for us anyway? She`s just taken our woolongs and not been much help at all. Jet and I were just fine without her.
"Spike..."
Spike turned around and saw Tanya`s face. All the aggression, frustration, and tension in his face instantly went away. The only thing on his face was a smile.
"Yes?"
"I heard what happened... I guess she didn`t take it so well, huh?"
"I guess not, but she`ll get over it. I was nice enough to come up to her and ask her what the problem was. I didn`t know that she would be all bitchy to me. I didn`t have to be nice to her."
"True. I just hope she does get over it, and soon. I don`t like the feel of bad karma."
"Karma?"
"Yea. I`m Buddhist."
"Oh really?"
"Yes, but I used to be Jewish."
"Why the change?"
"Buddhism just made more sense to be and seemed more practical. Simple as that."
"I see."
"Wow, Spike, I`m soooooo tired," Tanya said as she yawned.
"Yea same here."
"I`m a little lonely in my room. May I join you in yours?"
"Sure, but no funny business," Spike said as he laughed.
Tanya punched him hard in the arm.
"Ow!!! That really hurt! I didn`t think you would hit me so hard."
"I may be small, but I have a lot of power in this little body."
"I`ll be sure to remember. By the way, I love a woman that can kick my ass."
"Oh, I can do that and more," Tanya said as she looked at Spike in a sexual way.
"I love the sound of that."
Tanya took Spike`s hand and walked with him over to his bedroom. Ed, Ein, and Jet were sound asleep. Tanya hopped on Spike`s bed and got under the covers.
"Ahhh, sooo comfy!"
"It sure is."
"Do you feel a little hot?"
"Huh?"
"I feel like I`m burning up," Tanya said as she fanned herself with her hand.
"It feels fine to me."
"Do you mind if I take my clothes off?"
"Are you serious?"
"Yes. Is that a problem?"
"Well since you`re feeling hot...... I don`t see why not."
"Thank you soooo much!"
Tanya took off her tank top and her boy shorts. She was lying naked on the bed, drifting off to sleep. Spike was staring at her in awe. He had never seen such a beautiful woman in his bed before. Seeing her naked made him forget Julia ever existed. The part of his heart still holding onto her, finally let go. He couldn`t explain how wonderful finally letting go felt. A tear went down his cheek. As it was going down his cheek, he put his hand on his cheek. Wow a tear. I didn`t know that I was actually capable of feeling anything ever again. The tear wet his hand a little. It was a refreshing wetness that showed him that he was still alive, despite how dead he had felt for three long years that seemed like an eternity. Spike realized that he did feel a bit hot himself. He took off the jacket of his suit and unbuttoned his shirt. He lay back on his pillow and looked over at Tanya. Her delicate back faced him. Her skin was so pale that it added a frailness to her. He smiled and turned over to her. He put his arms around her as gently as he could so as not to wake her. Spike felt so comfortable that he fell asleep quicker and slept more soundly than he had ever had before.
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"Spike, get out here! You sleep too much," Jet called.
Spike woke up, but still had his eyes closed. He wasn`t ready to wake up. He slowly opened his eyes and saw Tanya. She was still asleep. Spike let his hands leave the comfort of her body gently. He walked out to see what was up.
"Hey, Jet, what`s up?"
"Now look at you. What did you do during the night?"
Spike remembered how he had gone to sleep and by now he knew that he might look a little disheveled.
"Just sleep."
"With who?"
At this moment, Tanya walked out to where Jet and Spike were, covered in a sheet from Spike`s bed.
"What`s all this commotion about?" Tanya said as she yawned and rubbed her head.
"I see my question is answered."
"Tanya! Ed is sooo happy to see you!"
"Oh, same here Ed, but I`m going back to sleep."
"Don`t leave Ed."
"I`ll be back before you know it."
Tanya turned around and walked tiredly back to Spike`s bed and flopped down on top of it. She slipped into a wonderful slumber.
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Spike sat on the couch and began to smoke a cigarette.
"So, you really like her, huh?"
"I`m not sure yet."
"Ed is sure you do!!!"
"Ed, you don`t know anything!"
"Spike person is wrong, wrong, wrong," Ed said as she giggled.
"I`m so tired."
"What wore you out so much?" said Faye as she walked into the room with anger all over her face.
"Faye… Oh, nothing."
"Yea right. Ok well I`m off to the racetracks. I have a feeling that I might just win today."
"Bye, Faye," Jet said without much interest in his voice.
Spike got up and went back to bed near Tanya... his love.
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Spike awoke when he moved his hand and didn`t feel Tanya`s naked body. He jumped up and scanned his room for any trace of her. The only trace was her smell. It was insinuated in his room. It didn`t want to let go. Spike walked out and saw Ed at her computer. He ran right up to her.
"Ed!"
"Doodley, doodley, doo, what is up with you?"
"Where is Tanya?"
"Oh, Ed`s sister... she left."
"Where?!!!"
"Ed`s sister will be back. Ed thinks you need to relax."
"OK."
"Ed is glad to be of help."
Spike sat on the couch and began to watch a show on tv. He was bored....... so bored...... so alone...
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Eventually, Spike fell asleep on the couch. Tanya walked in quietly and tip-toed inside. She saw Spike sleeping on the couch. Aww, now look at him. So adorable, so vulnerable.... Tanya walked over to Spike and pressed her lips softly to his. When she saw that Spike was still asleep, she just sighed and walked to her room. She took off her clothes and got under the covers. Tanya looked up at the ceiling. This was a really nice ship and it also held a lot of secrets that have been held in private. They all had a story. Jet, Spike, Faye,...... even she had a story to tell, but she wasn`t ready just yet; the time wasn`t right. Tanya put a hand over her mouth as she let out a long and loud yawn. She felt something on her hand and as she looked at it, she noticed that it was blood. Her secret had followed her here. Tanya was so sure that she had left the scene clear with no one suspecting a thing. She jumped off her bed and rummaged through her bag for her mirror. When she found it, she saw a tiny spot of blood by her mouth. That one little spot was so incriminating, the only evidence needed for people to figure out what she really was. She wiped off the tiny spot of blood and sat awake in bed. Thoughts were running through her head. Did anyone see that blood by my mouth? I really hope not. Maybe that man.... No..... That woman who was looking at me the wrong way.... No.....
Spike woke up from a dream. Of course, it was about Tanya. Who else? Wow, that was some dream. Did Tanya kiss me in the dream? Spike licked his lips and he tasted something very different from what he had ever tasted in his whole entire life. It had a kind of sweetness to it that could not be achieved with mere sugar. Spike swallowed whatever this was. To him, whatever tasted good was worth eating... or drinking. Spike got up and felt a weird sensation pass through him. He couldn`t explain it, but it was a better rush than when he was fighting some losers or gangsters. He tried to shrug it off, but the feeling clung onto him. It wanted to tell him something, but he wasn`t able to comprehend. Spike walked over to his room and saw that Tanya wasn`t there. Is she still gone? Where could she be?
"Ugh! I can`t think clearly!"
Spike heard Tanya instantly. He listened to every syllable that was uttered from her mouth. Her voice was so much more soothing to listen to than any waterfall, crashing wave, or shootout. He cherished this short moment. Her voice kept repeating in his head over and over again. It calmed him down and soothed every cell in his body. Finally, Spike walked over to Tanya`s room and saw her lying there, with nothing but a thin sheet to cover her delicate and fragile body. Her eyes were closed, but Spike sensed that she was still awake.
"Still awake sleepyhead?"
Tanya heard Spike`s sexy voice and wanted him near her right that second. She moved over, making space for him on her bed. Spike walked inside Tanya`s room and put his body right beside hers. Tanya rolled over onto her side. They looked into each other`s eyes. It`s like they were telling each other a story; a story of happiness, hope, hate, pain.
"Spike..."
"Yea?"
"Do you want to.....?"
"Do I want to what?"
"You know.... make love."
"Tanya...," Spike sighed and ran his hand through her hair and left his hand on her cheek. "I can`t right now. It`s just not the right time. Please don`t take it the wrong way. I`ve never felt this strongly for anyone before and I think I just want to take things slow, I guess."
"All right then. I tried... and failed again."
"It has nothing to do with you. It`s me and my personal issues."
"OK then. I`m tired."
"Goodnight, or should I say good morning?"
"What?"
"It`s daytime on earth now."
"Yea, I know. I like to sleep during the day. I`m a night owl," with this Tanya let out a big yawn and drifted off 2 sleep. Spike wasn`t that tired, so he just stayed by Tanya`s side, not wanting to leave for anything in the world.
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A/N: so... wut u think? i read a relle good book wit like all cool wording n stuff and i sorta applied it to the story. i hope ya`ll like it. i`m relle sorry that i`ve taken so long, it`s just that i`ve had a lot of things 2 do and i`ve had a lot on my mind. enjoy and give a review.
thanx 2 mi amiga, iNiGmA, who proof-reads my stores and puts them on the site :)