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For Kami on her birthday, Happy Birthday Kami, thank you for being my friend.
She's Like The Wind
She's like the wind through my tree
She rides the night next to me
She leads me through the moonlight
Only to burn me with the sun
She's taken my heart
But she doesn't know what she's done!
Rei sat on the grass as he watched the sun set before him, a beautiful array of colors and shapes before him. He had really notice such things before, at least not to the extent he did now but that was her influence. Her love of color and life had begun to color his vision so that he'd begun to notice things like sunsets and other stuff like that. She'd love this, it was too bad he hadn't brought her with him. But she'd had stuff at home she needed to do and plus he would imagine her mother was giving Kira a hard time about him, no matter what Kira said. Then again when wasn't he getting Kira into bad situations or in trouble, Rei thought with a cruel twist of his pale lips. It seemed like everything and everyone was against them, even though they didn't understand what he and Kira were. They were kindred spirits in a way, they needed each other more then they realized and though he didn't know how she felt about him he knew deep inside that she had become something necessary to him. He needed to see her, to walk beside her, to hear her laugh. He needed her simply there to hold his hand and tell him that everything was going to be all right in this twisted, fucked up world they lived in.
Feel her breath on my face
Her body close to me!
Can't look in her eyes
She's out of my league!
Just a fool to believe
I have anything she needs
She's like the wind...
What would she say if she knew how much he depended upon her Rei
sometimes wondered. She thought she was
so weak and that he was so strong but she was wrong, so wrong about that. He wasn't strong, he just pretended he was to
get away from the shrinks and his dad and everyone else that had tried to run
his life. The only one that had ever
understood him, truly known him from the inside out was Sei..and Sei was gone. Dead because he hadn't realized how bad it
was, how close to the edge his twin had been and he should have known damn it,
he should have known and stopped it.
Instead his brother had jumped, his twin and other half. After that he'd walked around half a man,
never again to be a boy as he pretended to recover, to get all better so that
they'd just leave him the hell alone.
Then she'd entered into his life, amazing that it was all because he'd
gotten lost and asked her for directions.
And from there it had been a downhill battle against the emotions she
was setting loose. She'd reminded him in
the beginning of Sei so much, her shyness, her isolation from others and her
need to be cared for and protected. It
had been that picture she'd drawn that had caught his attention but in truth it
was the look in her eyes when he'd complimented her that had snagged him so
completely. She'd looked like he'd given
her the greatest gift she could ever receive, such happiness for something so
little. And when she'd asked him to
model for her, even with his extreme hatred of such things he'd agreed. Not because he'd wanted to, but because she
had asked HIM.
I look in the mirror and all I see
Is a young old man with only a dream!
Am I just fooling myself
That she'll stop the pain
Living without her
I'd go insane!
Of course he hadn't done anything then, he'd known how Tatsuya felt about
Kira after all and Tatsuya..well he was
the closest thing he had to a true friend at their school though he'd be damned
before he admitted it. So of course he
couldn't get involved with Kira, she was only a girl after all right? No big deal, plenty of chicks out there, ones
certainly better looking and more his usual style then Kira. But it seemed like every time he looked into
those eyes of hers he'd forget and just think of her as Kira, not Tatsuya's
Kira. And then Harumi had begun hassling
her, because of him. Harumi had been
nothing more then a distraction, another chick to lay because she was offering
and he was willing, no strings attached.
But Harumi hadn't felt that way and Kira had paid for it. And being the idiot he was he'd made it worse
by doing something he'd allowed no other girl to do. He'd allowed her on his bike, his most prized
possession. Boy had her mom ever freaked
out about that, Rei thought with a sigh as he raked his hands through his long
blonde hair that he never remembered to cut.
Then again Kira had been crying so it wasn't like he blamed Kira's mom
or anything. And those tears had done
him in, gone straight to the heart he tried to hide so carefully. So he'd tried to force Tatsuya to go out with
Kira, to make it official so that Rei would have no choice to forget Kira. But it hadn't worked and the fear he'd felt
when he realized Harumi was going after Kira again, when he'd arrived in that
musty gym to find her on the floor cradling her hand, her beautiful, delicate
hands his heart had stopped beating completely.
It had been like before in that instant only it was Kira instead of his
brother, too late to save her. And when
she'd told him that it was alright, that she was okay all he'd been able to do
was pull her to him and hold her tightly, so afraid to let her go.
Feel her breath on my face
Her body close to me!
Can't look in her eyes
She's out of my league!
Just a fool to believe
I have anything she needs
She's like the wind...
And when Tatsuya had come running in he'd let her go, trying to act like
it was nothing but it hadn't been nothing and he and Tatsuya had known it. Then, as if his stupidity hadn't ended there
he'd gone to her apartment building, needing to make sure she was alright
however stupid he'd known it was. And
then she'd come running out the door and to him, a smile on her face and it had
been like something shifted inside him.
They'd talked about Harumi, the idiot trying to defend Harumi who would
have been more likely to push Kira into heavy traffic then do the same. And then she'd nearly fallen, in the process
her hair had tangling in his bracelet, another one of his most precious things. He'd untangled her smooth as silk strands of
hair from his bracelet and had been overcome with the need to give it to her,
because she'd liked it and thought it beautiful. Then he'd kissed her, sealing his fate
forever with the first brush of lips against lips, damning him for all
eternity. He'd ordered her to go as soon
as their lips left each other, making her go back before he did something
stupid while his emotions were begging to be expressed. How he'd wanted to drag her back to him and
kiss her until the whole world collapsed down on them. And that had scared him, when before he'd
been afraid of nothing. She'd passed it
off as just one of his whims and he'd let her, better that then the truth. But Tatsuya had known the truth and decided
to give up on Kira, deciding that simply that he would let Kira go for his
sake. The way he'd felt when he realized
what Tatsuya was doing, that Tatsuya was basically giving Kira up because he
thought Kira belonged with him had been like a whack in the head with a two by
four. Of course he'd played dumb and
thought Tatsuya was an idiot to think it could ever work but there had been a
part of him that had begun to hope.
Feel your breath on my face
Your body close to me!
Can't look in your eyes
You're out of my league!
With Tatsuya out of the way it really hadn't made a difference he'd told
himself, even though it had made all the difference. Then that bastard Kurasawa had taken Kira's
sketch, the one she'd given to him and he'd only seen red. She was under his protection and this ass had
thought he could just get away with taking credit for Kira's brilliance and
creativity. He'd been suspended of
course for knocking the little weasel around but that was fine with him, he
would have done far worse if Kira hadn't been there. He hadn't wanted her to see him like that, as
the monster he knew he could be when he got angry enough. But even seeing him the way he'd been she'd
risked coming to his neighborhood, skipping school all for him and because he'd
been ditching school. They'd gone out
that day and he'd had one of his stupid attacks, hanging over his head as usual
like the guillotine waiting to severe his head and end his life. But Kira hadn't let the blade get him this
time, she'd breathed her life into him and called him back, back from the
darkness that always threatened to take him, as it had taken Sei. And that day he'd truly kissed her, known
what it felt like to hold her in his arms and lose himself in her, forgetting
everything else. It had terrified him
the feelings that had arose over something so simple and normal for him, he'd
kissed and done more with countless girls but with Kira it had been so
different...like being reborn anew. A
fanciful thought maybe, but that's how it had felt, Rei thought as he got to
his feet as the sunset faded away before him, gone for the day until it
returned tomorrow to light the world for a time before being over powered by
the night once more. Brushing off his
jeans Rei grabbed his helmet and putting it on walked over to his bike and
swinging a leg over it turned the key and feeling the familiar rush of
adrenaline pump through his veins roared off and onto the road, becoming a blur
as he drove with no real destination in mind, only of speed and being free to
be himself. There was only one thing
that compared to this rush and he was beginning to fear that the truth was she
had become more then that. That maybe,
just maybe Kira had become the air he breathed and that one day she'd no longer
be there at his side, smiling at him in that way of hers that made him feel
that there was nothing he couldn't do or accomplish if he tried. He'd do whatever it took to keep her in his
life, no matter how foolish it was to believe he could.
Just a fool to believe
She's like the wind.
Just a fool to believe
She's like the wind.
Just a fool to believe
She's like the wind.
Just a fool to believe
She's like the wind.