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AUTHOR'S NOTES ON "IN THIS FINAL REVERIE":

At first, I wasn't planning on writing down my thoughts, but I received a few emails asking me questions and trying to get me to explain some things that, truthfully, I'm not real sure I can explain.

This entire thing was written off the top of my head. I know that I always say that in my fics, but it's the absolute truth. I used the song as a basis for the irony I was trying to achieve (I'm not sure what the song is called anymore, but if I find out, I'll be sure to credit it. I DIDN'T write it.).

When I first realized that I needed to write a conclusion to all of my Cowboy Bebop writings, I knew that it needed to be from Spike's POV (point- of-view). I'm not sure why I was so set in my ways in this issue, but I felt that it was necessary to portray Spike's feelings for once.

All Cowboy Bebop fics that finalize everything after Episode 26, The Real Folk Blues Part II, seem to be about or from the POV of Faye or Ed or Jet. (I know, because I have quite a few fanfictions that are written as such.) I felt that this is a great injustice done to Spike Spiegel, who is, after all, that main character of Cowboy Bebop.

I had this crazy idea that Spike had to be thinking about SOMETHING in the last few moments before he died, and I wondered what sort of thoughts he would have about finally, and I quote, "waking up".

And so, I began In This Final Reverie. I had no idea where it would go, and it all began with a blank document it Microsoft Word, the song "In the Rain" from Ep. 5, Ballad of a Fallen Angel, and some sort of insane whim I had.

In my opinion, it turned out pretty well, considering I was, at first, so unsure of the consequences of writing such a story. It seemed almost like blasphemy, like I was going against some sort of code of honor that applies to all that write C.B. fanfiction.

I've never read a fic that is done the way mine is, but I suppose that this can be a good thing. Maybe the originality will draw people into reading it. All I want is to know that people read this fic and enjoyed it.

I didn't write this just to satisfy my own needs, you know.

I also wrote it to do justice to Spike Spiegel, and all the hell he was forced to go through.

- Himiko_sama