Chapter 5
A/N - Ok I have to go through the whole I don't own the characters nor am I associated with the WB in any way. Anyway thanks so much for the reviews and I hope you all like it. If you have any ideas that may help or that you wanna incorporate please tell me. Also I'm thinking about putting a song into the story at one point so if you have any ideas tell me. I'm thinking the song would be for Luke and Peyton's situation so give me some ideas. Keep reviewing and I'll keep writing so here it is and I hope you enjoy!! Also after seeing Hanging by a moment I am aware that a few images from chapter 4 do mirror a few images from the episode. I assure you I had a few spoilers but no idea any of what happened was going to be the way it was. My apologies for looking as though it was taken from the episode.
There still was no motion on Luke's monitor and Peyton just couldn't find the way to get out the emotions she was feeling. She began to feel lightheaded and as Haley and Nathan were trying to pick her up she just passed out. Now on top of Luke technically being dead Peyton had just passed out and Haley felt as though she was gonna pass out too. She decided to be strong though for Nathan and she called a doctor over to get Peyton. The doctors in the emergency room were taking out the paddles to jolt Luke's heart and were calling clear. All Nathan and Haley could see was Luke jerking up in the air and falling back to the bed. This was the third time and the doctors said they were only going to do this 4 or 5 times so the way Haley was looking at it was that if he didn't wake up soon he was basically dead, and that just killed her inside. In the emergency room the paddles were just about to make contact with Luke's chest as the doctor called "CLEAR" the monitor began to beep. Haley had been crying and all of sudden she was now laughing and she jumped over into Nathan's arms. He was still crying and Haley had never seen him so emotional. "Nate, what's wrong? He's ok, didn't you see the monitor and the doctors? He's alive...why are you still crying?" "No reason...I was just watching him lay lifeless there and that just threw the reality at me that he's my brother. I was upset ya know at first because he was a good guy but as they shocked him and his line was still dead I just had this brotherly feeling sweep over me and I felt really close to him...I don't know where that came from, Hale. I just felt like we were really brothers for once. And I was gonna lose him. I was gonna lose my brother Haley..." Nathan said in a whisper Haley could barely hear. She smiled at him and kissed his cheek. They both looked over at Luke still laying there with only his chest moving to breath.
Haley walked over to the doctor and tried to get his attention. "Excuse me...hey sir...can I ask you a question?" "Yes, what is your name ma'am?" "I'm Haley James and I'm a close friend of Lucas Scott's. I'd like to know what his condition is and when visitors can see him." "Ah, Ms. James. Your friend Lucas is in critical condition. The alcohol poisoning left him fighting for his life and we couldn't get the alcohol out fast enough and his system also absorbed a lot of the alcohol in his body. As far as we know he's in a coma. We have no prediction as to when he will be waking up but right now he is stable. He also may have some memory loss if he does wake up. Visitors will be allowed in shortly but only one at a time. That's all the information we have at this point in time Ms. James." "Well, wait what about Peyton? The girl who passed out a little while ago on the floor." "She is in room 212 and it was just minor. It was almost as though her body went into shock. She'll be fine and she'll probably be out of that room in a few minutes. Just as the doctor finished his sentence Peyton walked out of the room. She had a look on her face that said don't mess with me, I'm pissed. "Peyton what happened?" Haley asked her trying to be happy. "Well, first I passed out but then when I woke up the nurse wanted to keep me for tests and I got in an argument with her. I wanted to come see Luke and I told her he was like dying but the bitch still wouldn't let me leave so I nearly punched her and then she let me leave. But I don't care about that...what happened to Luke is he alive? I mean he's gotta be because you're not looking too sad at this point." "Yea, he's alive but the bad news is he's in a coma and they have no idea when he's supposed to wake up. He also may have suffered some memory loss but they're very optimistic and they said he has a good chance to live." "Well, that really boosts my spirits, Hale" Peyton replied sarcastically. "They also said we can see him now but only one at a time, and Nathan and I both agreed to let you go first." "Thanks guys. I really need to do this."
Peyton walked into the emergency room where Lucas was hooked up to so many wires he looked like a robot. She felt all the emotions start to hit her again but she kept them in and pulled a chair over next to Luke. "Hey, Luke...uhh it's a little weird talking to you knowing you can't respond or anything. But I need to tell you something. I'm gonna be here for you the whole time you're in a coma and I'll be here when you wake up. But I have to leave after that because I can't stay here anymore...I know I should stay but I can't, because doing all this is too hard. I also found something else out when I was in the hospital room and I thought you should be the first person to hear it. I might be pregnant Luke. I asked the nurse because I wasn't sure what happened last night and she said I probably won't be able to tell for a week or possibly more and I just thought I should tell you even if you're not awake. So I can't stay here. I can't put this all on top of you and you deserve better than this. You deserve better than me...you belong to Brooke and I can't keep taking you from her when I'm not sure if I've grown enough to hold this relationship. I feel horrible but I need to do this. I'm not sure if I'm gonna keep the baby but I guess I'll be in touch at one point. I love you, Luke more than you'll ever know." Peyton had a hard time getting all of this out without crying too much. She finished and with tears coming down her face she walked out to Nathan and Haley and they both grabbed her and hugged her. There was a lot of crying and Nathan told Haley to go in next but she insisted that he should go so she could call Keith and have him get a hold of Karen. She'd just realized Keith had no idea what happened so this is why she let Nathan go.
Nathan very slowly walked into Luke's room and began already to feel very depressed seeing him lay there. One tear escaped his eye and he sat in the chair next to the bed. It was time for Nathan to have a heart to heart with his brother. "Luke, it's taken me too long to be able to do this, and I don't know why. Maybe it's because I was a jerk and I didn't realize how precious life is. So what I'm trying to say here is I'm sorry, and you don't have to forgive me, and you probably can't even hear me...but I need to say this or I can't be happy. If I don't do this I'm never gonna be able to happy with myself or with Haley or with anyone. Seeing you...laying there, not breathing...it just really scared me and I mean so scared that I wasn't sure if I could do this. I was terrified, Luke, and I just wish I could take everything back I've done to you. I saw you on the bed and it clicked that it could've happened to any of us. What happened to you was so simple that it could've happened to anyone at that party. I wish I wasn't raised the way I was because I can see what a good guy you are and how happy you make anyone that's around you, especially Haley and Peyton. I wish I hadn't missed out on all the years that me and you coulda had, we coulda been friends, and more importantly...brothers. It took me years and you in a coma to realize that." Nathan grabbed Luke's hand and squeezed it tightly, letting Luke know he was there. "I don't deserve you as a brother, Luke...and I don't deserve Haley as a girlfriend...and I don't deserve any of what I've been blessed with. It should be me on that bed Luke. You deserve everything in your life and more. You sure as hell don't deserve to be laying here. It should've been me Luke, I want to take your place so bad that it kills me. So promise me something. That you won't leave me Luke...don't leave me. Don't leave Haley and don't leave Peyton. You need to be here and I need you to be here. I need my big brother and I need a friend. Haley needs you and you can't leave because she doesn't have a lot of friends. Peyton needs you too. She needs a guy like you that will love and take care of her. Something I never could do right. So don't go, not for anything. Stay right here because I want you to, Luke. My dad isn't gonna stop me anymore from having a brother. I don't want to be an only child. Just don't go...don't ever leave me." Nathan put his head down on the railing of Luke's bed and cried. He cried for a long time before he was able to calm down. He squeezed Luke's hand once more before he left and he walked out of the room looking back once more before he closed the door.
Nathan walked out into the hallway and looked at Haley with swollen red eyes. He just stared at her while she sat in the chair patiently waiting to have her turn with Luke. He just looked at her and how beautiful she was. He vowed right there never to ever take anything in life for granted because it wasn't always gonna be there. He made that vow specially for Haley though. He continued to stare until she saw him. "Nathan, are you done?" she asked him. He said nothing he just sat down next to her and looked at her. "Nathan, what's the matter? You're acting really weird tonight." "Do you have any idea how beautiful you are?" She laughed at him a little and then realized he was really serious. "No, I guess I never really thought about it..." He smiled at her because she was confused. "I mean Haley you are gorgeous and I am so thankful to have you. Do you know how much I love you? I didn't...not until tonight. I love you more than anything in this world and nothing could break that, Haley. Do you get it now?" She looked at him still a little confused but she knew he meant it. "Well, Nathan...wow I didn't expect it but now that it's out in the open. I love you too." Haley had never said those words to someone she was in a relationship with. She was still a little shocked that he said that but she'd always loved him. Neither one of them had ever said it though. Haley gave Nathan a quick kiss and walked over to the door to Luke's room. She was a little reluctant to go in, but it was something that needed to be done. She turned the knob and walked a few steps. All of a sudden she felt very alone and very scared.
She sat next to him and held his hand. She had no idea where to start. Haley James had never dealt with any of this and she wasn't sure how to handle it. "Lucas Scott, my best friend since I can remember. Look I know I didn't think this was ever gonna happen. I don't think you did either. But I called your mom and Keith. She said she's comin home. I would tell Brooke, but the funny thing is at Tim's party I kinda caught her and Tim together. I know that's probably not the best thing to tell ya now but...anyway well Nathan has kind of taken a liking to you. He tried to reconcile with you but he said you didn't answer." Haley told him, laughing to herself. "Peyton's really havin a hard time with this. We all are. Why didn't you just wait for me and Nathan to go to the party with you? Huh? I wouldn't have let you drink so much and you'd still be here with me. We'd probably be drinking coffee at the café because it'd be open now. We'd be talkin and laughin and then I'd probably go hang with Peyton later. She'd dish out the details of what happened to you guys last night. We'd all go out later even though I know you'd end up trying to sneak off with Peyton so Brooke wouldn't catch you. God, Luke. Why'd ya do that? I think the next thing I'd ask you is why Brooke went with Tim to that party. But I guess all things happen for a reason. There is a reason why you're laying there. The thing is I wish I didn't think there was a reason for everything, but I'm just one of those people. I'm trying so hard to believe you're coming back. I hope you do because I have all kinds of things to tell you that we could laugh about. I heard a new joke but you're not gonna laugh this time. Peyton also has been acting really weird after she woke up and I thought maybe you'd know. I can't stand this, Luke! You can't answer me, and you can't be there and I feel so alone! It's not fair, what did you do? I just have so many feelings and I have no one to help me! Please come back to me! Please!" Haley was screaming so loud that Nathan heard her. He cracked the door and saw Haley having a tantrum. He ran in and pulled her away from Luke but not before she punched the wall as hard as she could. "Hales, whoa, let's go calm down." "NO!" "Haley, I know how this feels but we cannot go break our knuckles over it." Her knuckles were bleeding all over her hand and they were swollen.
She sat for a while as the doctors wrapped her knuckles in and ace bandage. Her hand looked like hell but she wasn't feeling any pain at the time. Nathan said he wanted to go sit with Luke so she let him go. It was cute that Nathan was finally trying to fix things between the two of them. She sat there patiently, and then she saw Keith walk in but instead of going to Luke's room he walked into hers. He looked at her and gave her a hug and asked her how she was doing. He asked what Luke's condition was and she told him with no hesitation. He looked at her hand strangely "Haley, what in the world did you do?" "I kinda had my moment and flipped out a little. I went into the anger stage of things. But Keith you should go see Luke. Nathan's in there now." She made him leave and he went with no argument. She hopped up off the table and was getting ready to walk out the door when she heard Peyton talking to the nurse in the hallway. "Ok, Ms. Sawyer here are your pamphlets for "What to Expect When You're Expecting" and "Learning to be a Mom". Peyton took them just in case she was pregnant and began to walk down the hall until Haley jumped in front of her. She had squinted eyes and she looked at Peyton very confused. "So...what's up Hale?"
REVIEW!! I NEED TO KNOW THAT YOU GUYS ARE LIKING THIS SO I CAN KEEP GOING!! I APOLOGIZE AGAIN THAT A FEW SCENES LOOK LIKE THEY'RE TAKEN FROM THE HANGING BY A MOMENT EPISODE BUT THAT WAS UNINTENTIONAL. ALSO AGAIN IF YOU HAVE ANY SONGS THAT MAY WORK WITH THE WHOLE PEYTON LEAVING SITUATION PLEASE TELL ME I NEED IDEAS. THANKS EVERYONE WHO REVIEWED AND KEEP REVIEWING SO I KNOW!! HOPE YOU ENJOYED AND SORRY IT TOOK ME A FEW DAYS TO UPDATE!!
A/N - Ok I have to go through the whole I don't own the characters nor am I associated with the WB in any way. Anyway thanks so much for the reviews and I hope you all like it. If you have any ideas that may help or that you wanna incorporate please tell me. Also I'm thinking about putting a song into the story at one point so if you have any ideas tell me. I'm thinking the song would be for Luke and Peyton's situation so give me some ideas. Keep reviewing and I'll keep writing so here it is and I hope you enjoy!! Also after seeing Hanging by a moment I am aware that a few images from chapter 4 do mirror a few images from the episode. I assure you I had a few spoilers but no idea any of what happened was going to be the way it was. My apologies for looking as though it was taken from the episode.
There still was no motion on Luke's monitor and Peyton just couldn't find the way to get out the emotions she was feeling. She began to feel lightheaded and as Haley and Nathan were trying to pick her up she just passed out. Now on top of Luke technically being dead Peyton had just passed out and Haley felt as though she was gonna pass out too. She decided to be strong though for Nathan and she called a doctor over to get Peyton. The doctors in the emergency room were taking out the paddles to jolt Luke's heart and were calling clear. All Nathan and Haley could see was Luke jerking up in the air and falling back to the bed. This was the third time and the doctors said they were only going to do this 4 or 5 times so the way Haley was looking at it was that if he didn't wake up soon he was basically dead, and that just killed her inside. In the emergency room the paddles were just about to make contact with Luke's chest as the doctor called "CLEAR" the monitor began to beep. Haley had been crying and all of sudden she was now laughing and she jumped over into Nathan's arms. He was still crying and Haley had never seen him so emotional. "Nate, what's wrong? He's ok, didn't you see the monitor and the doctors? He's alive...why are you still crying?" "No reason...I was just watching him lay lifeless there and that just threw the reality at me that he's my brother. I was upset ya know at first because he was a good guy but as they shocked him and his line was still dead I just had this brotherly feeling sweep over me and I felt really close to him...I don't know where that came from, Hale. I just felt like we were really brothers for once. And I was gonna lose him. I was gonna lose my brother Haley..." Nathan said in a whisper Haley could barely hear. She smiled at him and kissed his cheek. They both looked over at Luke still laying there with only his chest moving to breath.
Haley walked over to the doctor and tried to get his attention. "Excuse me...hey sir...can I ask you a question?" "Yes, what is your name ma'am?" "I'm Haley James and I'm a close friend of Lucas Scott's. I'd like to know what his condition is and when visitors can see him." "Ah, Ms. James. Your friend Lucas is in critical condition. The alcohol poisoning left him fighting for his life and we couldn't get the alcohol out fast enough and his system also absorbed a lot of the alcohol in his body. As far as we know he's in a coma. We have no prediction as to when he will be waking up but right now he is stable. He also may have some memory loss if he does wake up. Visitors will be allowed in shortly but only one at a time. That's all the information we have at this point in time Ms. James." "Well, wait what about Peyton? The girl who passed out a little while ago on the floor." "She is in room 212 and it was just minor. It was almost as though her body went into shock. She'll be fine and she'll probably be out of that room in a few minutes. Just as the doctor finished his sentence Peyton walked out of the room. She had a look on her face that said don't mess with me, I'm pissed. "Peyton what happened?" Haley asked her trying to be happy. "Well, first I passed out but then when I woke up the nurse wanted to keep me for tests and I got in an argument with her. I wanted to come see Luke and I told her he was like dying but the bitch still wouldn't let me leave so I nearly punched her and then she let me leave. But I don't care about that...what happened to Luke is he alive? I mean he's gotta be because you're not looking too sad at this point." "Yea, he's alive but the bad news is he's in a coma and they have no idea when he's supposed to wake up. He also may have suffered some memory loss but they're very optimistic and they said he has a good chance to live." "Well, that really boosts my spirits, Hale" Peyton replied sarcastically. "They also said we can see him now but only one at a time, and Nathan and I both agreed to let you go first." "Thanks guys. I really need to do this."
Peyton walked into the emergency room where Lucas was hooked up to so many wires he looked like a robot. She felt all the emotions start to hit her again but she kept them in and pulled a chair over next to Luke. "Hey, Luke...uhh it's a little weird talking to you knowing you can't respond or anything. But I need to tell you something. I'm gonna be here for you the whole time you're in a coma and I'll be here when you wake up. But I have to leave after that because I can't stay here anymore...I know I should stay but I can't, because doing all this is too hard. I also found something else out when I was in the hospital room and I thought you should be the first person to hear it. I might be pregnant Luke. I asked the nurse because I wasn't sure what happened last night and she said I probably won't be able to tell for a week or possibly more and I just thought I should tell you even if you're not awake. So I can't stay here. I can't put this all on top of you and you deserve better than this. You deserve better than me...you belong to Brooke and I can't keep taking you from her when I'm not sure if I've grown enough to hold this relationship. I feel horrible but I need to do this. I'm not sure if I'm gonna keep the baby but I guess I'll be in touch at one point. I love you, Luke more than you'll ever know." Peyton had a hard time getting all of this out without crying too much. She finished and with tears coming down her face she walked out to Nathan and Haley and they both grabbed her and hugged her. There was a lot of crying and Nathan told Haley to go in next but she insisted that he should go so she could call Keith and have him get a hold of Karen. She'd just realized Keith had no idea what happened so this is why she let Nathan go.
Nathan very slowly walked into Luke's room and began already to feel very depressed seeing him lay there. One tear escaped his eye and he sat in the chair next to the bed. It was time for Nathan to have a heart to heart with his brother. "Luke, it's taken me too long to be able to do this, and I don't know why. Maybe it's because I was a jerk and I didn't realize how precious life is. So what I'm trying to say here is I'm sorry, and you don't have to forgive me, and you probably can't even hear me...but I need to say this or I can't be happy. If I don't do this I'm never gonna be able to happy with myself or with Haley or with anyone. Seeing you...laying there, not breathing...it just really scared me and I mean so scared that I wasn't sure if I could do this. I was terrified, Luke, and I just wish I could take everything back I've done to you. I saw you on the bed and it clicked that it could've happened to any of us. What happened to you was so simple that it could've happened to anyone at that party. I wish I wasn't raised the way I was because I can see what a good guy you are and how happy you make anyone that's around you, especially Haley and Peyton. I wish I hadn't missed out on all the years that me and you coulda had, we coulda been friends, and more importantly...brothers. It took me years and you in a coma to realize that." Nathan grabbed Luke's hand and squeezed it tightly, letting Luke know he was there. "I don't deserve you as a brother, Luke...and I don't deserve Haley as a girlfriend...and I don't deserve any of what I've been blessed with. It should be me on that bed Luke. You deserve everything in your life and more. You sure as hell don't deserve to be laying here. It should've been me Luke, I want to take your place so bad that it kills me. So promise me something. That you won't leave me Luke...don't leave me. Don't leave Haley and don't leave Peyton. You need to be here and I need you to be here. I need my big brother and I need a friend. Haley needs you and you can't leave because she doesn't have a lot of friends. Peyton needs you too. She needs a guy like you that will love and take care of her. Something I never could do right. So don't go, not for anything. Stay right here because I want you to, Luke. My dad isn't gonna stop me anymore from having a brother. I don't want to be an only child. Just don't go...don't ever leave me." Nathan put his head down on the railing of Luke's bed and cried. He cried for a long time before he was able to calm down. He squeezed Luke's hand once more before he left and he walked out of the room looking back once more before he closed the door.
Nathan walked out into the hallway and looked at Haley with swollen red eyes. He just stared at her while she sat in the chair patiently waiting to have her turn with Luke. He just looked at her and how beautiful she was. He vowed right there never to ever take anything in life for granted because it wasn't always gonna be there. He made that vow specially for Haley though. He continued to stare until she saw him. "Nathan, are you done?" she asked him. He said nothing he just sat down next to her and looked at her. "Nathan, what's the matter? You're acting really weird tonight." "Do you have any idea how beautiful you are?" She laughed at him a little and then realized he was really serious. "No, I guess I never really thought about it..." He smiled at her because she was confused. "I mean Haley you are gorgeous and I am so thankful to have you. Do you know how much I love you? I didn't...not until tonight. I love you more than anything in this world and nothing could break that, Haley. Do you get it now?" She looked at him still a little confused but she knew he meant it. "Well, Nathan...wow I didn't expect it but now that it's out in the open. I love you too." Haley had never said those words to someone she was in a relationship with. She was still a little shocked that he said that but she'd always loved him. Neither one of them had ever said it though. Haley gave Nathan a quick kiss and walked over to the door to Luke's room. She was a little reluctant to go in, but it was something that needed to be done. She turned the knob and walked a few steps. All of a sudden she felt very alone and very scared.
She sat next to him and held his hand. She had no idea where to start. Haley James had never dealt with any of this and she wasn't sure how to handle it. "Lucas Scott, my best friend since I can remember. Look I know I didn't think this was ever gonna happen. I don't think you did either. But I called your mom and Keith. She said she's comin home. I would tell Brooke, but the funny thing is at Tim's party I kinda caught her and Tim together. I know that's probably not the best thing to tell ya now but...anyway well Nathan has kind of taken a liking to you. He tried to reconcile with you but he said you didn't answer." Haley told him, laughing to herself. "Peyton's really havin a hard time with this. We all are. Why didn't you just wait for me and Nathan to go to the party with you? Huh? I wouldn't have let you drink so much and you'd still be here with me. We'd probably be drinking coffee at the café because it'd be open now. We'd be talkin and laughin and then I'd probably go hang with Peyton later. She'd dish out the details of what happened to you guys last night. We'd all go out later even though I know you'd end up trying to sneak off with Peyton so Brooke wouldn't catch you. God, Luke. Why'd ya do that? I think the next thing I'd ask you is why Brooke went with Tim to that party. But I guess all things happen for a reason. There is a reason why you're laying there. The thing is I wish I didn't think there was a reason for everything, but I'm just one of those people. I'm trying so hard to believe you're coming back. I hope you do because I have all kinds of things to tell you that we could laugh about. I heard a new joke but you're not gonna laugh this time. Peyton also has been acting really weird after she woke up and I thought maybe you'd know. I can't stand this, Luke! You can't answer me, and you can't be there and I feel so alone! It's not fair, what did you do? I just have so many feelings and I have no one to help me! Please come back to me! Please!" Haley was screaming so loud that Nathan heard her. He cracked the door and saw Haley having a tantrum. He ran in and pulled her away from Luke but not before she punched the wall as hard as she could. "Hales, whoa, let's go calm down." "NO!" "Haley, I know how this feels but we cannot go break our knuckles over it." Her knuckles were bleeding all over her hand and they were swollen.
She sat for a while as the doctors wrapped her knuckles in and ace bandage. Her hand looked like hell but she wasn't feeling any pain at the time. Nathan said he wanted to go sit with Luke so she let him go. It was cute that Nathan was finally trying to fix things between the two of them. She sat there patiently, and then she saw Keith walk in but instead of going to Luke's room he walked into hers. He looked at her and gave her a hug and asked her how she was doing. He asked what Luke's condition was and she told him with no hesitation. He looked at her hand strangely "Haley, what in the world did you do?" "I kinda had my moment and flipped out a little. I went into the anger stage of things. But Keith you should go see Luke. Nathan's in there now." She made him leave and he went with no argument. She hopped up off the table and was getting ready to walk out the door when she heard Peyton talking to the nurse in the hallway. "Ok, Ms. Sawyer here are your pamphlets for "What to Expect When You're Expecting" and "Learning to be a Mom". Peyton took them just in case she was pregnant and began to walk down the hall until Haley jumped in front of her. She had squinted eyes and she looked at Peyton very confused. "So...what's up Hale?"
REVIEW!! I NEED TO KNOW THAT YOU GUYS ARE LIKING THIS SO I CAN KEEP GOING!! I APOLOGIZE AGAIN THAT A FEW SCENES LOOK LIKE THEY'RE TAKEN FROM THE HANGING BY A MOMENT EPISODE BUT THAT WAS UNINTENTIONAL. ALSO AGAIN IF YOU HAVE ANY SONGS THAT MAY WORK WITH THE WHOLE PEYTON LEAVING SITUATION PLEASE TELL ME I NEED IDEAS. THANKS EVERYONE WHO REVIEWED AND KEEP REVIEWING SO I KNOW!! HOPE YOU ENJOYED AND SORRY IT TOOK ME A FEW DAYS TO UPDATE!!