Baby's Blue Eyes
Chapter 5
By Kiddo
*IN LOVING MEMORY OF JONATHAN BRANDIS*
Disclaimer:
SeaQuest, Lucas Wolenczak, Captain Bridger, Darwin, Lawrence Wolenczak and all the others don't belong to me. I have no rights to them.
A special thanks goes to my beta-reader Jackie and to Joxer, Simon and Sara for Reviewing.
Feedback is always welcome.
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Bridger was paralysed. This couldn't be true. He hadn't known this. Cynthia was Lucas mother! He always had thought that Lucas looked familiar to him. And now he knew why and he knew why he had always felt a deep connection between him and the boy!
The teenager realized the change in the captain. "Is something wrong?"
Nathan pulled himself together; he couldn't let the boy know about this, not before he was positive. "She was very pretty. You look a lot like her."
The teenager smiled, it was the first time since they started talking. "I know. A lot of people have told me that. But nobody ever said that about my father. I guess now I know why."
Captain Bridger gave the photo back to the boy. "You really don't know anything that could help you to find out his name?"
"No, I'm afraid not. I just knew that she met him at a conference and that he was married too. She never saw him again after the conference. I tried to find out which people had all been at the conference."
Bridger held his breath. "And?"
Lucas shook his head disappointedly. "I couldn't find anything. Either there had been never an attendance list or the list was lost. I searched the whole Internex for it!"
"Do you know why your mother never told your biological father about you?" Captain Bridger felt his conscience rising. It didn't feel good to ask the teenager all these questions without giving him the answers he, himself, had.
This time Lucas nodded. "She wrote that she didn't want to destroy his marriage. And the other thing was Lawrence. He didn't want a scandal. I told you, nothing bad could get to the public. I think that was also the reason why they never divorced. But I think it would have been better for both of them. I often wondered why my mother never left him, after all the terrible things he said to her. And how she could always act like the perfect family for the public."
"Your mother is the only one who can answer this question for sure. Maybe she was afraid of a divorce and later, when she got ill, she was glad that you would be taken care of by Dr. Wolenczak."
Lucas raised his eyebrows and looked disbelievingly at the captain. "Taken care of? Are you kidding? We always argued! Or he pretended that I didn't exist! There wasn't much missing and we would have killed each other!"
Bridger was concerned about this and he thought back to the Vid-phone call from the teenager. The boy had looked like he had been crying and his left cheek had been red. "Lucas, has Dr. Wolenczak ever hit you?"
The computer genius tried to get away from the worried glance of the captain. He needed a few seconds to think about it. Then he looked back at the captain. "We had an argument today. I said something about him, that he was a selfish person. It made him really mad. And he slapped my face. That was the first time that he's something like that. He didn't even say that he was sorry, he said it was my own fault! And then he practically threw me out of the house. He told me that he never wants to see me again, that I should never come back. That he was finished with me." The blond boy was silent for a few seconds. His next words were spoken very softly. "He didn't said that he was sorry."
Nathan saw that Lucas's feelings were deeply hurt. He took the teenager in his arms and hugged him. Only a short time later he noticed that his uniform was getting kind of wet. Lucas was crying. "Everything is okay kiddo, let it out, sometimes it can help." Bridger felt guilty. He was sitting here, listening to what happened to his son. His son! Yes, Lucas was his son! He had been the man that had slept with Lucas's mother, Cynthia, 17 years ago!
It was purely by chance that they had met each other. If Dr. Wolenczak had known that he would become the captain of the SeaQuest, he wouldn't have put Lucas there. He was sure about that. And then later, when Lawrence had heard that he would be the captain, he couldn't remove the boy without prompting some questions.
Nathan thought about the whole thing. How could he tell this young man that he was his father? It wasn't something he could just say easily. He couldn't say, "Hey Lucas, I'm the father your are searching for." This was too hard.
The teenager's tears stopped. He was ashamed about the fact that he had cried all over the captain.
It didn't take Bridger too long to realize it, either. "Hey everything is okay kiddo. There's no reason to be ashamed. We all need a shoulder to cry on from time to time. Crying can be good for your soul."
Lucas slowly nodded. "Please don't be mad at me, but I would like to be alone at the moment."
Nathan stood up. "No problem. You know were you can find me."
The teenager gave the captain a small smile. "Yeah, thanks."
Bridger left the cabin with lots of thoughts in his head. How should he tell Lucas that he was his father?
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To Be Continuied...
Written 2002 / Translated 2004
Chapter 5
By Kiddo
*IN LOVING MEMORY OF JONATHAN BRANDIS*
Disclaimer:
SeaQuest, Lucas Wolenczak, Captain Bridger, Darwin, Lawrence Wolenczak and all the others don't belong to me. I have no rights to them.
A special thanks goes to my beta-reader Jackie and to Joxer, Simon and Sara for Reviewing.
Feedback is always welcome.
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Bridger was paralysed. This couldn't be true. He hadn't known this. Cynthia was Lucas mother! He always had thought that Lucas looked familiar to him. And now he knew why and he knew why he had always felt a deep connection between him and the boy!
The teenager realized the change in the captain. "Is something wrong?"
Nathan pulled himself together; he couldn't let the boy know about this, not before he was positive. "She was very pretty. You look a lot like her."
The teenager smiled, it was the first time since they started talking. "I know. A lot of people have told me that. But nobody ever said that about my father. I guess now I know why."
Captain Bridger gave the photo back to the boy. "You really don't know anything that could help you to find out his name?"
"No, I'm afraid not. I just knew that she met him at a conference and that he was married too. She never saw him again after the conference. I tried to find out which people had all been at the conference."
Bridger held his breath. "And?"
Lucas shook his head disappointedly. "I couldn't find anything. Either there had been never an attendance list or the list was lost. I searched the whole Internex for it!"
"Do you know why your mother never told your biological father about you?" Captain Bridger felt his conscience rising. It didn't feel good to ask the teenager all these questions without giving him the answers he, himself, had.
This time Lucas nodded. "She wrote that she didn't want to destroy his marriage. And the other thing was Lawrence. He didn't want a scandal. I told you, nothing bad could get to the public. I think that was also the reason why they never divorced. But I think it would have been better for both of them. I often wondered why my mother never left him, after all the terrible things he said to her. And how she could always act like the perfect family for the public."
"Your mother is the only one who can answer this question for sure. Maybe she was afraid of a divorce and later, when she got ill, she was glad that you would be taken care of by Dr. Wolenczak."
Lucas raised his eyebrows and looked disbelievingly at the captain. "Taken care of? Are you kidding? We always argued! Or he pretended that I didn't exist! There wasn't much missing and we would have killed each other!"
Bridger was concerned about this and he thought back to the Vid-phone call from the teenager. The boy had looked like he had been crying and his left cheek had been red. "Lucas, has Dr. Wolenczak ever hit you?"
The computer genius tried to get away from the worried glance of the captain. He needed a few seconds to think about it. Then he looked back at the captain. "We had an argument today. I said something about him, that he was a selfish person. It made him really mad. And he slapped my face. That was the first time that he's something like that. He didn't even say that he was sorry, he said it was my own fault! And then he practically threw me out of the house. He told me that he never wants to see me again, that I should never come back. That he was finished with me." The blond boy was silent for a few seconds. His next words were spoken very softly. "He didn't said that he was sorry."
Nathan saw that Lucas's feelings were deeply hurt. He took the teenager in his arms and hugged him. Only a short time later he noticed that his uniform was getting kind of wet. Lucas was crying. "Everything is okay kiddo, let it out, sometimes it can help." Bridger felt guilty. He was sitting here, listening to what happened to his son. His son! Yes, Lucas was his son! He had been the man that had slept with Lucas's mother, Cynthia, 17 years ago!
It was purely by chance that they had met each other. If Dr. Wolenczak had known that he would become the captain of the SeaQuest, he wouldn't have put Lucas there. He was sure about that. And then later, when Lawrence had heard that he would be the captain, he couldn't remove the boy without prompting some questions.
Nathan thought about the whole thing. How could he tell this young man that he was his father? It wasn't something he could just say easily. He couldn't say, "Hey Lucas, I'm the father your are searching for." This was too hard.
The teenager's tears stopped. He was ashamed about the fact that he had cried all over the captain.
It didn't take Bridger too long to realize it, either. "Hey everything is okay kiddo. There's no reason to be ashamed. We all need a shoulder to cry on from time to time. Crying can be good for your soul."
Lucas slowly nodded. "Please don't be mad at me, but I would like to be alone at the moment."
Nathan stood up. "No problem. You know were you can find me."
The teenager gave the captain a small smile. "Yeah, thanks."
Bridger left the cabin with lots of thoughts in his head. How should he tell Lucas that he was his father?
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To Be Continuied...
Written 2002 / Translated 2004