Here is somemore. I really hope i am doing a good job!! Thanks for reading this!!
Warnings:Yaoi or Shonen Ai
DIsclaimers:Still not mine
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I wake up in the middle of the night in a cold sweat. My heart is beating in my chest. I look towards the window. I look to where he would be. Damn it!! How can i get over this? I..I cannot. I slam back down on my pillow once again fighting off tears. THey hreaten to overcome me. THey threaten to invaide the lie that is my life now. I shut them tight and will them away. But they still stream down my face.
I get upand get a glass of water. My gaze takes in my mothers home. How it always was able to comfort me. No longer can. EVerything is tainted. I go and get myself a bowl of ice cream and return to my room. My tears hit the creamy treat. My thoughts drift to another time. In this same place.
~~Flash back~~
Hiei came inside soaking wet. I mile at the smaller man. Trying to hid a giggle. Seeing that brave warrior al wet. He glares at me. Yet it holds no hatred. I can see the love shinning in his eyes.
"Fox, I am hungry."He says taking off his wet clothing.
My eyes feast on his slowly becoming naked skin. My heart rate races and my blood rises to certain places.
"FOx!' He says for who knows how may times. I blush.
"Hai, Hiei what can i help you with?" I said trying to hid my growing erecttion.
He smirks. THen advances towards me. He then gives me a passiontte kiss. In his arms i feel as igf i am home. This is where i was destined to be. My bliss is broken after a few moments.
"I am hungry fox. Feed me then you will get what you need"He says and goes to sit on my bed.
I lick my lips taking in his taste. I know that my palms have becoming sweaty. This is just how he is. Coming in here and setting my blood on fire. My soul, heart and body belonging to that foul tempered demon.
"WHat would you like to eat?" I ask him in a husky passion laced voice. His eyes grow to their softer look. He gives me a half smile.
"Sweet snow than you Kitsune. THat is all i want on this night." He says.
~~End of flashback~~
I throw the bowl against the wall. Sending the bowl into a hundred pieces and the ice cream splattered on the wall. Heavy angry tears make their way down my face. I grib my hands in fists and pound on the wall. I scream out his name and curse it. WAking up the family that resides in this home. My human mother walks in and tries to comfort me. I take no comfort. How can i? I no longer am whole. I am just a shell of who i used to be. Just some amussment casted aside now that a biger more expensive toy can be played with.
I cry on he but i am a thousand miles away. I am back into the Makai in that palace. Watching the man i love with all i am having sex with someone else. I know then why he never wants me around. He is trying to live two lives. THis one beening his first choice and his life with me being his pasttime.
Was i not good enough?
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I know these are short. I am just trying to write it as much as i can. Its hard to write something this depressing!! I just hope i am making you feel his pain!! Reveiw and thanks.
Warnings:Yaoi or Shonen Ai
DIsclaimers:Still not mine
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I wake up in the middle of the night in a cold sweat. My heart is beating in my chest. I look towards the window. I look to where he would be. Damn it!! How can i get over this? I..I cannot. I slam back down on my pillow once again fighting off tears. THey hreaten to overcome me. THey threaten to invaide the lie that is my life now. I shut them tight and will them away. But they still stream down my face.
I get upand get a glass of water. My gaze takes in my mothers home. How it always was able to comfort me. No longer can. EVerything is tainted. I go and get myself a bowl of ice cream and return to my room. My tears hit the creamy treat. My thoughts drift to another time. In this same place.
~~Flash back~~
Hiei came inside soaking wet. I mile at the smaller man. Trying to hid a giggle. Seeing that brave warrior al wet. He glares at me. Yet it holds no hatred. I can see the love shinning in his eyes.
"Fox, I am hungry."He says taking off his wet clothing.
My eyes feast on his slowly becoming naked skin. My heart rate races and my blood rises to certain places.
"FOx!' He says for who knows how may times. I blush.
"Hai, Hiei what can i help you with?" I said trying to hid my growing erecttion.
He smirks. THen advances towards me. He then gives me a passiontte kiss. In his arms i feel as igf i am home. This is where i was destined to be. My bliss is broken after a few moments.
"I am hungry fox. Feed me then you will get what you need"He says and goes to sit on my bed.
I lick my lips taking in his taste. I know that my palms have becoming sweaty. This is just how he is. Coming in here and setting my blood on fire. My soul, heart and body belonging to that foul tempered demon.
"WHat would you like to eat?" I ask him in a husky passion laced voice. His eyes grow to their softer look. He gives me a half smile.
"Sweet snow than you Kitsune. THat is all i want on this night." He says.
~~End of flashback~~
I throw the bowl against the wall. Sending the bowl into a hundred pieces and the ice cream splattered on the wall. Heavy angry tears make their way down my face. I grib my hands in fists and pound on the wall. I scream out his name and curse it. WAking up the family that resides in this home. My human mother walks in and tries to comfort me. I take no comfort. How can i? I no longer am whole. I am just a shell of who i used to be. Just some amussment casted aside now that a biger more expensive toy can be played with.
I cry on he but i am a thousand miles away. I am back into the Makai in that palace. Watching the man i love with all i am having sex with someone else. I know then why he never wants me around. He is trying to live two lives. THis one beening his first choice and his life with me being his pasttime.
Was i not good enough?
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I know these are short. I am just trying to write it as much as i can. Its hard to write something this depressing!! I just hope i am making you feel his pain!! Reveiw and thanks.