Yet another chapter. Meh…No one is reading this fic. I don't understand it. It's upsetting. But I'm going to keep writing it anyways.

…Goddess Blue, how DO you do it?

So yeah, I think I'm going to finally explain to everyone who's not reading this what exactly happened to Heero. Keep reading to find out…which I guess would make a lot more sense if anyone were actually reading it.

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I'm still alive.

I can feel it.

I'm breathing…on my own.

My heart is beating on its own.

And…

I remember.

I remember everything.

I know why I'm here.

…I wish I didn't.

Flashback "Heero, you have to get out of there! There's nothing else you can do!" The roar of blaster fire and the screams of falling soldiers echoed around the vast emptiness of space. "I'm not leaving, Duo. Not until that son of a bitch is dead!" The Wing Zero's controls felt so good in his hands, felt so right.

"Heero, you have to leave. Zero is too damaged- you'll never be able to kill him, and get out of there."

"I think I know when my Gundam is too badly damaged to battle anymore, Duo, and Zero is still strong!" Another cluster of Leos exploded from his onslaught.

"Heero, come on. Get out of there!" Quatre's voice echoed through the com-link of his suit.

"Quatre…no, dammit, I can't. Not when I'm so close." Tears squeezed out of Heero's eyes. "I'm sorry…" There was silence for a minute.

"I understand," Quatre's voice said softly. "Then at least…let me fight with you?" Heero's eyes shot wide open.

"Quatre, I can't let you do that. You'll be killed."

"I'm not standing by to watch you be killed, Heero! I'm fighting with you."

End Flashback

Why, Quatre?

Why did you find it so easy to fight with me?

Even when you knew the danger?

…Why didn't you leave my side?

Was it because…

You loved me?

Flashback

"…Damn you…" Tears flooded his eyes and spun about in perfect spheres, buoyed by the lack of gravity. "Damn you, you bastard." Wufei's laughter seemed to echo all about him.

"Heero, just leave him be. There's nothing you can do- he's too strong, and Zero's too weak."

Heero glared angrily at Duo's face on the com-screen, his vision blurred by tears.

"Just leave?! You expect me to simply leave, after what he just did!"

"Getting yourself killed isn't going to bring Quatre back, Heero!"

The Perfect Soldier stopped, silence filling his whole being.

"Heero, come on. Just get out of there. You can't beat him, not the way you are now." Heero shook his head slowly.

"I'm not leaving him."

"He's DEAD, you idiot! He's gone! There is nothing you can do! DON'T LET HIS SACRIFICE BE FOR NOTHING!"

"He is dead because of me." His hand crept slowly to the hidden compartment, flipping it open, revealing the lever.

The trigger.

"I'm coming, Quatre…" Heero whispered, pulling it. Wing Zero lit up, the cockpit filling with red light. He lifted his face upwards and smiled, as a mechanical voice warned, "Self-destruct in five…four…three…"

"…Heero?" came Quatre's strained, pain-ridden, but very much alive voice through the still intact comlink. Heero stared in disbelief.

"You're…alive?" he whispered. "God, no…"

"…one." The mechanical voice said. The Gundam exploded with light.

End Flashback

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…Poor Hee-chan…

Ooh, that was so sad! I like it.

Not that anyone else does, cuz no one is reading it, but hey.

Love and Huggles,

Tseecka