Disclaimer: I really hate saying this….I…Will….Never….Own….Them. Stop….Tormenting….Me.
When the Dawn Breaks-Chapter 2: I See Now
Our residence does not feel the same. It does not have that feeling it did before. I cannot understand why this is.
I am sad, friend Raven.
The boys are not as loud now. They sit in the lounge room and stare at the television, regardless what is being presented. They do not talk to me. They do not talk at all.
This is a horrible feeling.
There is no one to do the earth ritual of female "bonding" with.
There is no one I want to bond with.
I look across the water from the rooftop. It has been one earth week since we attended your burial, and I still do not believe that you are gone. Sometimes, I pass an empty corner, and I can swear that I see you. But then I look again, and to my grief, you have gone. It is a horrible feeling. And now… and now…
My boy Robin blames himself for your demise.
We all blame ourselves.
But I know I am the one who should take it all.
We were never what earthlings would say close. And maybe if Robin were not here, you could have trusted me. Trusted Cyborg, and, even if he won't admit it, it appears to have hurt Beast Boy that you never formed a bond of connection with him.
Like you did with Robin.
My boy. I do not understand why he grieves so. It is me he should love, not you. He says he did not but if he didn't, why would he cry?
Because of you, I have lost him.
Because you never had trust in your friends, Robin will never be the same.
Now that I think of it, it was more unbearable when you were here. At least now, you will not sidetrack Robin.
Raven, even though I wished for us to be friends, even though I thought that it assist us in becoming closer, I was wrong.
You were not nice. You were not my friend.
I... I hate you.
The others do not understand why they should not care, but I will make them.
And if they continue to miss you…
I will destroy the Teen Titans from the inside out.