A/N: I was thinking about this story the other day because as it turns out, Killian is actually a name of a company. How weird is that? How naïve am I? Anyway, Happy New Year!
Also, this is the lamest chapter ever. Sorry about it.
Disclaimer: I do not own Lizzie McGuire
Chapter Twelve
~Lizzie~
A few more months passed by nonchalantly. Every now and then, Lizzie would be watching TV and the Killian commercial would be right there in front of her. Most of the times she would turn it off, but every now and then, it would make her cry. It made her think of the past and the mistakes she had made. What was the mistake? Breaking up with Gordo for Ethan? Breaking up with Ethan? Falling in love with Gordo? Leaving Gordo? Kissing Gordo? There were countless things she would have done differently, but she couldn't decide how she wanted them done.
Sometimes, to let some emotions out, she would write letters to Gordo or Ethan that she knew she wouldn't send. She would say she was sorry to both of them and ask them questions about how they felt and what motivated them do the things they did. She tried, especially with Gordo's letters, to give some sort of explanation for things, but it never came out right. She ended up blaming him or being two hard on herself. She couldn't find a happy medium.
She talked to Miranda every month, and by this time, Miranda knew what was going on. "Do you still love him?" she would ask.
"Love who?"
"Gordo."
"I don't know. Have you seen him recently?"
"Yeah. I saw him just the other day. He asked about you."
"How is he?"
"Eh, I guess he is doing all right. He misses you."
"Why? I treated him horribly."
"That's not how he sees it."
"Well, I did."
"Maybe you should call him."
"And what would I say to him? Tell him I am confused right now? And that I love him more than he can ever imagine but I can't be with him because I treated him so badly?"
"I don't know. It probably won't be that bad."
"It will probably be worse."
"Okay. Fine-don't talk to him. Don't do anything."
"That's what I intend to do."
"So I should tell him that you are perfectly happy where you are?"
"Yep."
"Lizzie, that may not be as easy as you think it is. Gordo still loves you."
"What?"
"I wasn't going to say anything, but now I have to. Gordo loves you."
"Wow. Are you sure?"
"Yeah, he told me the other day."
Lizzie was speechless, "Lizzie? Are you there?"
"Miranda, I have to go. I'll talk to you later."
"Lizzie? Lizzie?"
Lizzie hung up. What was she going to do?
~~~
~Gordo~
The next day, Miranda called Gordo.
"Gordo. This is Miranda. This is about Lizzie."
"What about Lizzie?"
"She still loves you, you know."
"What? Did she tell you this?"
"Yeah, she told me on the phone just yesterday. She said that she loves you but she feels like she can't be with you because she feels bad about the way she treated you."
"That is crazy!" Gordo said.
"Yeah, well it's Lizzie. What do you expect?"
"I don't know. Maybe I thought there was still hope for us."
"Well, maybe there is."
"Yeah, but she won't even tell you where she lives. I think when she left, she was trying to tell me something."
"Oh shut up, Gordo! She was probably just confused and wanted to get away to less confusion."
"Yeah, okay, but if she says she still loves me, isn't she still confused?"
"I don't know."
"Well, what do you want me to do? I don't know where she lives or her phone number and I am pretty sure she changed her e-mail address. I have lost all communication with her. At least you talk to her!"
"Gordo, I know where she lives. I just don't know her address."
"Well, what good is that going to do?"
"Maybe you can find her."
"You're kidding right? You think I can just drop all my work and look for her? That may take months!"
"Well, I guess you are going to have to wait until Lizzie comes around. That could be years."
Gordo considered this for a minute, "She probably doesn't want to talk to me."
"Make her talk to you. This whole thing is stupid."
"I don't want to make her do anything!"
"Gordo, I am only trying to help. All you need to do is show her that you aren't mad at her and that there is no reason for her to be ashamed or anything because she is only human."
"Do you really think that will work?"
"Well, are you going to go find her?"
"Maybe. Where does she live?"
Miranda told Gordo where Lizzie lived, "Are you going to move there or something?"
"I might. I could use a break from my job, anyway. It's not like I am doing much, anyway."
"Okay. Well, good luck!"
"Thanks. I'll need it."
And that was it. Gordo was going to move closer to Lizzie and try to convince her to be with him.
~~~
Also, this is the lamest chapter ever. Sorry about it.
Disclaimer: I do not own Lizzie McGuire
Chapter Twelve
~Lizzie~
A few more months passed by nonchalantly. Every now and then, Lizzie would be watching TV and the Killian commercial would be right there in front of her. Most of the times she would turn it off, but every now and then, it would make her cry. It made her think of the past and the mistakes she had made. What was the mistake? Breaking up with Gordo for Ethan? Breaking up with Ethan? Falling in love with Gordo? Leaving Gordo? Kissing Gordo? There were countless things she would have done differently, but she couldn't decide how she wanted them done.
Sometimes, to let some emotions out, she would write letters to Gordo or Ethan that she knew she wouldn't send. She would say she was sorry to both of them and ask them questions about how they felt and what motivated them do the things they did. She tried, especially with Gordo's letters, to give some sort of explanation for things, but it never came out right. She ended up blaming him or being two hard on herself. She couldn't find a happy medium.
She talked to Miranda every month, and by this time, Miranda knew what was going on. "Do you still love him?" she would ask.
"Love who?"
"Gordo."
"I don't know. Have you seen him recently?"
"Yeah. I saw him just the other day. He asked about you."
"How is he?"
"Eh, I guess he is doing all right. He misses you."
"Why? I treated him horribly."
"That's not how he sees it."
"Well, I did."
"Maybe you should call him."
"And what would I say to him? Tell him I am confused right now? And that I love him more than he can ever imagine but I can't be with him because I treated him so badly?"
"I don't know. It probably won't be that bad."
"It will probably be worse."
"Okay. Fine-don't talk to him. Don't do anything."
"That's what I intend to do."
"So I should tell him that you are perfectly happy where you are?"
"Yep."
"Lizzie, that may not be as easy as you think it is. Gordo still loves you."
"What?"
"I wasn't going to say anything, but now I have to. Gordo loves you."
"Wow. Are you sure?"
"Yeah, he told me the other day."
Lizzie was speechless, "Lizzie? Are you there?"
"Miranda, I have to go. I'll talk to you later."
"Lizzie? Lizzie?"
Lizzie hung up. What was she going to do?
~~~
~Gordo~
The next day, Miranda called Gordo.
"Gordo. This is Miranda. This is about Lizzie."
"What about Lizzie?"
"She still loves you, you know."
"What? Did she tell you this?"
"Yeah, she told me on the phone just yesterday. She said that she loves you but she feels like she can't be with you because she feels bad about the way she treated you."
"That is crazy!" Gordo said.
"Yeah, well it's Lizzie. What do you expect?"
"I don't know. Maybe I thought there was still hope for us."
"Well, maybe there is."
"Yeah, but she won't even tell you where she lives. I think when she left, she was trying to tell me something."
"Oh shut up, Gordo! She was probably just confused and wanted to get away to less confusion."
"Yeah, okay, but if she says she still loves me, isn't she still confused?"
"I don't know."
"Well, what do you want me to do? I don't know where she lives or her phone number and I am pretty sure she changed her e-mail address. I have lost all communication with her. At least you talk to her!"
"Gordo, I know where she lives. I just don't know her address."
"Well, what good is that going to do?"
"Maybe you can find her."
"You're kidding right? You think I can just drop all my work and look for her? That may take months!"
"Well, I guess you are going to have to wait until Lizzie comes around. That could be years."
Gordo considered this for a minute, "She probably doesn't want to talk to me."
"Make her talk to you. This whole thing is stupid."
"I don't want to make her do anything!"
"Gordo, I am only trying to help. All you need to do is show her that you aren't mad at her and that there is no reason for her to be ashamed or anything because she is only human."
"Do you really think that will work?"
"Well, are you going to go find her?"
"Maybe. Where does she live?"
Miranda told Gordo where Lizzie lived, "Are you going to move there or something?"
"I might. I could use a break from my job, anyway. It's not like I am doing much, anyway."
"Okay. Well, good luck!"
"Thanks. I'll need it."
And that was it. Gordo was going to move closer to Lizzie and try to convince her to be with him.
~~~