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It was 4 in the afternoon and Sam had finished everything that she had to do so her mind was free to roam where ever it pleased, only she wasn't sure that it should. Jack still hadn't called and she had this horrible feeling that he'd changed his mind and she couldn't handle that – the indecision was driving her mad.
"I can't do this anymore." She said out loud to her empty lab.
"Can't do what?" the voice was familiar and questioning.
When Sam turned around she saw Jack leaning against the doorframe of her lab with his hands in his leather jacket pocket. She couldn't help but smile at him.
"No I mean... I'm frustrated because I have absolutely no idea what to do anymore." The relief on his face was incredible and she moved closer to him putting her hand on his where it rested on the table. "This is what I want, it's just that I don't know what to do."
"Well." He started looking up at her "come with me this afternoon. It'll give you a chance to clear your head and think." Hope flickered in her eyes and she nodded.
"OK." She said very quietly looking straight at him.
"There was no doubting that she was nervous – what they were contemplating was crazy and completely against years of protocol that the military part of her brain had been reminding her about all week. The thing was that Sam really didn't care anymore, what was the difference between having feelings and hiding them or acting on them and still hiding them.
"Sam?" jacks anxious voice brought her back to reality, he was worried that she was just going along with this. "If you don't want to go I'll understand." Although he really doubted that he could.
"I want to go, I was just thinking that's all." She said moving to the locker at the side at the side of her lab and taking out her jacket. Jack was watching her in a way he never had before. "Let's go." Sam said with determination as they headed out her lab.
* He'd taken her to a riverside cut into the mountains but not to far from the town, there were sloping rock faces on either side and in the distance was a restaurant with steps backing onto the riverside.
"You ok?" Jack asked.
"I'm fine." Sam said as they walked side by side, she was deep in thought. "You wanna sit down?" he asked and she turned around to look at him. There was an honesty in his eyes that had never been there before and it was almost as if she was seeing him without the act of toughness or the humour to cover his emotions.
Sam nodded at him and they sat against a smooth rock. The water was running past them and it's rhythm was relaxing, birds were in the trees all around them and the whole place was liberating and idyllic.
"I've been thinking all week." Jack started looking down at his lap and then out onto the view. Sam didn't interrupt but she did more closer to him. "About everything that's been happening and it doesn't seem to make any sense – I mean the times we've nearly died or have... we put our lives on the line ever day and where does it get us?" he asked looking at her. She nodded.
"It saves the world but it doesn't get us anywhere." Sam couldn't help the hint of sadness in her voice.
"Exactly so I've been sorting things out in my head." She smiled at him warmly as he spoke hoping that he'd come to the same conclusion she had.
"What did you sort out?" she asked a little afraid of what he might say.
"A few things. The Tok'ra suck – a lot so forgive me if I'm not exactly at ease with them again, apart from you dad obviously. Although I'm pretty sure that if he ever found out about this he'd be the one with having problems with me." She nodded knowing that if her dad had any idea what was going on... she didn't want to think about it. "And that the way it is between us now isn't fair on anyone – least of all us." Sam didn't know what to make of what he'd said, it was true that what went on between them affected not only them but the rest of the team, maybe that was something to consider.
"Hey." He said gently when she dropped her gaze to the floor. "This situation isn't your fault, it's no ones fault." Jack reached over to her and tipped her chin up with his hand.
Her eyes were filled with a mixture of regret and guilt. Seeing her like that it was all he could do to take her into his arms and hold her close. Sam just closed her eyes and leaned against him.
"I also figured that we won't be in the military forever but we're needed now. That aside I'd like to change something between us and it's a risk – a big risk Sam." She pulled back slightly to look at him with hope in her eyes as she met his gaze.
"Sometimes it's worth the risk." She whispered.
Jack looked at her for a few seconds before putting his hand to her face and running through her hair, then slowly he moved forwards and kissed her. As he did she fell into him as emotions crashed over them both with such an impact as years of repression and hiding were thrown away.
Their embrace was slow and filled with passion and emotion, they were wrapped in each others arms as the river carried on besides them but they didn't notice as only each other mattered. Finally the kiss ended as slowly as it began and Sam found tears in her eyes as she rested on his shoulder.
"I love you." She whispered into his ear and he closed his eyes as he took it all in and putting his arm around her shoulder he rested his head on hers and kissed her forehead.
"I love you too Sam." As Jack spoke she snuggled closer to him. The sky was darkening and Sam could feel the start of rain.
"As much as I love it here I think it's going to rain and we should probably get going."
"Yeah but without the risk of it sounding like a cliché, where exactly do we go?" he asked her and she smiled.
"I think your place is closer and I don't have my car because I got a lift in this morning – plus we came here in yours." Sam told him.
"You sure?" he asked as they started to stand up."
"Yeah I kinda like your house, I feel comfortable there."
"But you've only been there three times."
"I know." She replied resting her head on jacks shoulder as they walked towards his car. His arm was around her. "But I like it."
And without another word the two got into the car, everything was about to change even more than it had done already and although Sam was nervous she knew that this was finally the right thing to do – so did Jack.
The thunderstorm raged that night and at jacks house the thunder crashed through the sky around them he and Sam knew their decision was ripping down the military protocol and clearing the air for the start of something new and exiting. A relationship so profound that nothing would stop it.
Complete!!!! But more stories coming soon. Please review if you liked it!
It was 4 in the afternoon and Sam had finished everything that she had to do so her mind was free to roam where ever it pleased, only she wasn't sure that it should. Jack still hadn't called and she had this horrible feeling that he'd changed his mind and she couldn't handle that – the indecision was driving her mad.
"I can't do this anymore." She said out loud to her empty lab.
"Can't do what?" the voice was familiar and questioning.
When Sam turned around she saw Jack leaning against the doorframe of her lab with his hands in his leather jacket pocket. She couldn't help but smile at him.
"No I mean... I'm frustrated because I have absolutely no idea what to do anymore." The relief on his face was incredible and she moved closer to him putting her hand on his where it rested on the table. "This is what I want, it's just that I don't know what to do."
"Well." He started looking up at her "come with me this afternoon. It'll give you a chance to clear your head and think." Hope flickered in her eyes and she nodded.
"OK." She said very quietly looking straight at him.
"There was no doubting that she was nervous – what they were contemplating was crazy and completely against years of protocol that the military part of her brain had been reminding her about all week. The thing was that Sam really didn't care anymore, what was the difference between having feelings and hiding them or acting on them and still hiding them.
"Sam?" jacks anxious voice brought her back to reality, he was worried that she was just going along with this. "If you don't want to go I'll understand." Although he really doubted that he could.
"I want to go, I was just thinking that's all." She said moving to the locker at the side at the side of her lab and taking out her jacket. Jack was watching her in a way he never had before. "Let's go." Sam said with determination as they headed out her lab.
* He'd taken her to a riverside cut into the mountains but not to far from the town, there were sloping rock faces on either side and in the distance was a restaurant with steps backing onto the riverside.
"You ok?" Jack asked.
"I'm fine." Sam said as they walked side by side, she was deep in thought. "You wanna sit down?" he asked and she turned around to look at him. There was an honesty in his eyes that had never been there before and it was almost as if she was seeing him without the act of toughness or the humour to cover his emotions.
Sam nodded at him and they sat against a smooth rock. The water was running past them and it's rhythm was relaxing, birds were in the trees all around them and the whole place was liberating and idyllic.
"I've been thinking all week." Jack started looking down at his lap and then out onto the view. Sam didn't interrupt but she did more closer to him. "About everything that's been happening and it doesn't seem to make any sense – I mean the times we've nearly died or have... we put our lives on the line ever day and where does it get us?" he asked looking at her. She nodded.
"It saves the world but it doesn't get us anywhere." Sam couldn't help the hint of sadness in her voice.
"Exactly so I've been sorting things out in my head." She smiled at him warmly as he spoke hoping that he'd come to the same conclusion she had.
"What did you sort out?" she asked a little afraid of what he might say.
"A few things. The Tok'ra suck – a lot so forgive me if I'm not exactly at ease with them again, apart from you dad obviously. Although I'm pretty sure that if he ever found out about this he'd be the one with having problems with me." She nodded knowing that if her dad had any idea what was going on... she didn't want to think about it. "And that the way it is between us now isn't fair on anyone – least of all us." Sam didn't know what to make of what he'd said, it was true that what went on between them affected not only them but the rest of the team, maybe that was something to consider.
"Hey." He said gently when she dropped her gaze to the floor. "This situation isn't your fault, it's no ones fault." Jack reached over to her and tipped her chin up with his hand.
Her eyes were filled with a mixture of regret and guilt. Seeing her like that it was all he could do to take her into his arms and hold her close. Sam just closed her eyes and leaned against him.
"I also figured that we won't be in the military forever but we're needed now. That aside I'd like to change something between us and it's a risk – a big risk Sam." She pulled back slightly to look at him with hope in her eyes as she met his gaze.
"Sometimes it's worth the risk." She whispered.
Jack looked at her for a few seconds before putting his hand to her face and running through her hair, then slowly he moved forwards and kissed her. As he did she fell into him as emotions crashed over them both with such an impact as years of repression and hiding were thrown away.
Their embrace was slow and filled with passion and emotion, they were wrapped in each others arms as the river carried on besides them but they didn't notice as only each other mattered. Finally the kiss ended as slowly as it began and Sam found tears in her eyes as she rested on his shoulder.
"I love you." She whispered into his ear and he closed his eyes as he took it all in and putting his arm around her shoulder he rested his head on hers and kissed her forehead.
"I love you too Sam." As Jack spoke she snuggled closer to him. The sky was darkening and Sam could feel the start of rain.
"As much as I love it here I think it's going to rain and we should probably get going."
"Yeah but without the risk of it sounding like a cliché, where exactly do we go?" he asked her and she smiled.
"I think your place is closer and I don't have my car because I got a lift in this morning – plus we came here in yours." Sam told him.
"You sure?" he asked as they started to stand up."
"Yeah I kinda like your house, I feel comfortable there."
"But you've only been there three times."
"I know." She replied resting her head on jacks shoulder as they walked towards his car. His arm was around her. "But I like it."
And without another word the two got into the car, everything was about to change even more than it had done already and although Sam was nervous she knew that this was finally the right thing to do – so did Jack.
The thunderstorm raged that night and at jacks house the thunder crashed through the sky around them he and Sam knew their decision was ripping down the military protocol and clearing the air for the start of something new and exiting. A relationship so profound that nothing would stop it.
Complete!!!! But more stories coming soon. Please review if you liked it!