Such cruel words they say,
and yet they don't seem to care...
and now I realize that I am nothing...
so leave me to my despair,
and don't look back,
because I am not here...
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Silence of a Shadow
Chapter 4
Wind
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"Excuse me, miss. Can you reheat this tea for me? It seems to have gotten cold."
"Of course, ma'am."
It had been about a week since I started working at the Ukimura's restraint. They didn't say I had to, of course, but at least I wouldn't be living off them for free anymore.
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School is something that I've now learned to love, despite all the bothersome teasing. As long as I can ignore it, everything is fine. I don't have friends, ...except Keiko, of course; nor do I plan on making any. Mother always said it is better to stand alone and not cause harm, rather than to spread mayhem upon the people you care about.
And so I shall leave the rest of mankind to their lives.
* * *
By nightfall, I had completed my chores and proceeded to my room. I purposely removed all the Ukimura's belongings a while back, just so I wasn't tempted to "use" them for money. Seeing no point in wearing my work clothes for the remainder of the evening, I disposed of my purple kimono and slipped into my favorite black dress.
I didn't feel so well - all sounds were slowly beginning to soften and disappear. Although this was becoming normal, I still decided to take refuge on the far end of my futon.
The sound of wind terrorizing the night's sky was the only thing my ears would allow me to hear, so I listened as carefully as I could.
So many people don't know the true beauty of the wind, ...its delicate kisses and its harsh, icy touch.
It reminds me of myself.
...and the more I think about it, the more it makes sense.
I don't really have a home.
...moving constantly without a destination.
I can work easily with others, as long as they don't know.
...as does wind help snow or rain.
Know and care for me...
...and I am the gentle summer's breeze.
Taunt or betray me...
...and my wrath will leave you in a void.
...but I am nothing...
...invisible to the eye...
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"Hotaru?"
Instantly, I pull myself from my daydream. "Yes, Keiko?"
"I was just wondering if you wanted to come with us for a bit. Yusuke and the others are here, and we were hoping to discuss your 'situation' ."
My stomach turns. "No thanks, I'm feeling a little under the weather."
"Are you sure?" she continues, "We were going to a movie afterwards. My treat."
Cringe-shiver-shiver-cringe
"No thank you." I say flatly. "I really don't want to get sick."
"....alright. My parents are in the next room, if you need anything."
And she's gone.
My head spins as I try to control my anger.
"SITUATION?!" I scream within myself. "I knew they wanted something from me! ...I haven't lost it once since I've been here! And she said that like I loose control every day!"
By now, my hot tears are flowing freely; stinging harshly as they fall...
"...its just not fair..." I sniffle aloud. "...why don't they trust me?"
A\N: I'm already working on the next chapter ... I think you'll be pleased with it. Anyway, please review and tell me what you thought! Your opinions are always valued.
The disclaimer is in chapter one, and I will fix any spelling\typing errors as they catch my attention, so please forgive them for now.