Chapter 10
"Ann, I need ta talk to ya." Spot said as he walked into my room.
"Sure, what about?" I asked as I stood up from where I was looking for something.
"Let's get married."
"What?"
"Let's get married."
"Are you serious?" I asked looking into his crystal blue eyes.
"Yes. I'm very serious." Spot replied. I could tell he was serious.
"Oh Spot. I wish I could but I can't get married."
"Why not?"
"Spot, I'm 16 years old. I'm too young to get married. At least in 2003 I am and because I'm not ready to get married. I wanna go to college and get a good job and establish a house before I even think of having children. I would love to marry you but I'm just not ready."
"Then I'll wait 'til your ready."
"Spot that could be 7 or 8 years before I'm ready."
"So what. I don't care. I'll wait as long as I have to."
"Spot, by then who knows if we'll even be together by then. We'll probably be with other people."
"I know I love you and that's all I need ta know."
"What about the time difference? Even if we get married in 1900, we wouldn't be if we came here to visit and we don't know if we'll even be able to come back. We don't know if any of you will be able to go back."
"I don't care. There's nothin' for me ta go back to."
"What about Kirsten? What about Feisty and David? What happens to Kirsten if you can't go back?"
"Then she can live wit us."
"How are we gonna take care of her when we're at school? Especially when I'm in college? My mom works and we don't have the money to pay for a babysitter."
"Then I'll take care of her."
"You'll probably be working and not to mention, my mother would flip if we got married. I wish I could Spot but I can't. I'm sorry."
"I understand." He said sadly and walked out of my room. I knew he was hurt but I had to tell the truth. I just wasn't ready to married.
Later that night, Kirsten came to visit. I happened to be getting ready for a shower when she came into my room with a sad look on her face.
"What's wrong Kirsten?" I asked.
"Why can't we be a family?" she asked me.
"What do you mean?" I asked in reply.
"Why can't you and my daddy get married so we can be a family?" she asked me.
"It wouldn't work out Kirsten. I'm not ready to get married and we're from two different time periods." I said kneeling down to her level.
"But you love my daddy so why can't you?"
"It just wouldn't work Kirsten. It just wouldn't work."
"But you're my mommy and I want you and my daddy to get married."
"I'm not ready to get married and your daddy might find someone else by the time I'm ready. Then you'll have a mommy."
"You'll always be my mommy no matter who my daddy marries."
I didn't know what to say. What could I say? I couldn't believe that she thought of me as her mom.
"That's enough Kirsten. Time for bed." Spot said from the doorway.
"Alright. Night mommy. Night daddy."
"Goodnight Kirsten." I said giving her a hug.
"I'll be there in a minute ta tuck ya in."
"Alright." Kirsten said walking out of my room.
"I wish I could Spot. I really wish I could but I can't. I just can't." I said almost in tears.
"I know. I understand." He said wrapping his arms around me. We stood like that for a few minutes not saying anything.
"I'm gonna go tuck Kirsten in. I'll be back in a few minutes."
"Alright. I'll be in the shower."
"Alright."
I watched Spot walk out of my room. I had a lot to think about. I didn't know what I was going to do but I had to figure out something and I had to figure it out soon.
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AN: Wow. I actually updated kind of soon. I hope you enjoy the chapter. I know the ending is kind of bad but I didn't know how to end this chapter. I know this chapter isn't the best I've written. My head has been in the clouds all week so my mind isn't working that well. I hope you all enjoy the chapter and I hope to up date soon. Nothing has really been happening in my world right now. Look for my new story too. It's called Middle Ground. Thanks to my friend who came up with the title. Thank you Liz. I hope to have the first chapter up today. Please review. I love getting reviews.
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