Chapter 12
Weeks went by and that now brings us up to the present day. Sarah has been keeping us up to date on Kirsten. I have to say that a lot has been going on lately. I'll give you some background information first.
I told you in the earlier chapter that I had developed a crush on a guy friend of mine named Tom. Well, I had found the courage to tell him that I liked him and it turns out that he liked me too. I was so happy and Spot was happy for me. Since then, I have come to realize that I love Tom. Spot keeps telling me to tell Tom that I love him but I told Spot that it doesn't work that way now days. It would probably freak Tom out if I told him that.
Anyways, the other day Spot and I had a huge fight and we're still feeling the effects of it. I don't remember what got the started but it was a subject that Spot knew he shouldn't have gotten me on. Spot made the comment that if Tom had brought up the subject I wouldn't have gotten so defensive. I told him that if Tom had brought up the same subject, I would have acted the same way.
"Oh you know that if Tom were here, he would make everything all better." Spot said angrily.
"Don't bring Tom into this world." I yelled.
"Why not? You've sucked everyone else inta this world. Why not Tom too? That way he can control both worlds." Spot yelled back.
I didn't know what to say. I couldn't say anything. I just stared at him. I let Spot walk out of my room and I got ready for bed in a complete daze. Later Jack talked to Spot.
"What is it wit you Spot?" Jack asked him.
"What da ya mean?" Spot asked.
"Well, one minute you're happy for Ann then the next you're mad at her."
"I don't know what ya talkin' about."
"Don't lie Spot. What's goin'on wit ya?"
"Damn it Jack. I use ta be the one she thought about. I use ta be the one that would bring a smile to her face no matter what happened to her. I don't wanna lose her Jack."
"You're not gonna lose her. She loves ya in her world and she loves Tom in the other world. Just give her some time. This is her first time bein' in love in the real world. Do you remember when ya first figured out that ya loved me sister?"
"Yeah."
"Do ya remember what it felt like?"
"Yeah."
"Then ya know what she's goin' through. She'll get use to it eventually."
"Yeah, you're right."
"You'd better go apologize."
"Yeah, all right."
I was still in a kind of daze when Spot walked in. I looked at him. I still couldn't say anything.
"Look Ann, I'm sorry for what I said. I shouldn't a said it."
"Ok." Was all I could think of to say.
"Good, so you forgive me."
"I never said that I forgave you. I said ok."
"So why don't you forgive?"
"Why should I forgive you?" I asked sternly.
"Why not?" he asked just as sternly.
"Because I have been just forgiving people for a long time and I can't keep doing that anymore." I replied.
"What?" Spot asked confused.
"When I dated Lance, I would just forgive him for cheating on me. He knew I would just forgive him so he kept on cheating. Look what it got me Spot. I got a broken heart from that. I can't keep just forgiving people."
"Ok so what do I have ta do for you to forgive me?"
"Figure it out." I said calmly.
"What da ya mean figure it out?"
"You should know me well enough to know so figure it out Spot." I said and walked away.
I knew Spot was right. I had sucked everyone into my world. I had sucked in Liz, Kelly, Katie, and Marne. I had even sucked in my other guy friend Drew. I didn't know if they even wanted to be here. So why did I want to keep Tom out? Why didn't I want Tom in my world? I had a lot of thinking to do and I still have thinking to do. I don't know how to explain these things to myself let a lone Spot or anyone else. How do you explain these things to a group of people when you can't even explain it to yourself? I don't know what I'm going to do.
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AN: Wow! I posted a second chapter. Two in one night. Very rare for me. I know I was mean to Spot in this chapter but I was really mad. I'm still kind a mad at him. Not as much though since most of my anger is now directed toward my mom. It's a long story so I won't get into it. Anyways, I hope you like the chapter. I'll update as soon as possible. I'll try to force my mind to concentrate on the story. It's been a little distracted lately. I have been going crazy not knowing if Tom read this note I gave him a week ago. I'm also in the process of writing chapter 2 for Middle Ground. That chapter should be up before Saturday. Please review. You know I love reviews.
Spot: Ann, we got bad news.
Me: Really? Bad news about what?
Spot: Bad news about Kirsten. We're havin' a meetin' to find out what we can do.
Me: About Kirsten? I'll be right there.
Spot: All right.
Me: Hey Spot.
Spot: Yeah?
Me: We're on speaking terms?
Spot: Yeah. I'm not gonna just stop talkin' to ya. I love ya.
Me: Ok. I'll be there in a minute.
Spot: Ok.
Well, I gotta go. I'll try to update soon.
Bye.
*~Dreamer Conlon~*