Room 300

A non CCS canon

Written by

~ ĐēāţħŵāŋţēŘ ~

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It's with a tinge of disoriented thoughts, this world.

Where confusions surrounded me with its wings

I dare not wish for someone I could behold,

But it came to me, untimely.

I dare not cloud myself with ambiguous questions,

but, all that I can do is to...

CHAPTER 3: Trust

Wednesday

Jisue Hospital

Morning

And here it goes....

As usual, the greetings of sunlight and a warm day never missed me. As if it is the worlds daily routine for me. I knew not the consequences of being here. It feels like I am alone. It feels like I am isolated.

Nevertheless, I am a man of something else, something more deeply than any abysmal point. On my eyes lay all the same feeling of weariness and hatred. On my sight remains the same scenery and hermitic confinement that placed me on the verge of fainting. I tried not to faint, and that is how I muttered all that remaining strength in me and spit the guts of standing up.

It was never the same outside my room. Although I still can sense that strange aura emanating within the very walls of this corridors. I looked around finding someone....or any companion. But nothing seems to want my presence...except this silence that has been with me all along.

I sighed as I tried to help myself look at the blue skies that was painted with cirrus clouds. How perfect nature was when it was created. It was gorgeous...incomparable...especially to my worthless life.

I guess this forever suffering maybe the reason why I got this wound on my wrist. Nah...who could rather deny that I was once that same boy who wished for nothing but death. How cruel of my family.... forgetting their own son while they spend their lives languidly seeming that someone wasn't waiting for them to change.

"I am fed up!" I shouted with all my voice.

It was in that event when someone chuckled. Untimely...

I looked around frustrated and my amber eyes promise to let the culprit pay dearly for what was done to me.

And this is another moment that took me by surprise.

She was here. Yes the very woman that I planned on with that dirty scheme. This was my second time to analyze her carefully. It was then that I found the very essence of innocence in her like she was a child.

It was her turn to look at me.

"Oh...gomen. I didn't plan to intrude in your thoughts but.." she chuckled.

I couldn't help but smile at the way she was acting. Imagine a sophisticated woman laughing at you at such a simple thing...well it wasn't simple but, hey! I didn't notice her while I was in those thoughts!

"So Kinimoto-san...what brings you here?" I snapped out.

"Hmm? I was just walking around breathing up some fresh air when I saw you here. Actually I was going to scare you but it seems I am the one who was charged with fright." she said simply.

I got to admit that made me blush.

"How long have you been a patient here Kinimoto-san?"

She paused. As if the question hit something, out of the ordinary. Her jade eyes gazed at me intently.

Then there was it, that feeling of coldness. I was starting to get nervous and cold sweats were dripping at my body again. Just like last night! I was paralyzed!

Then all I remember was everything turning black.....and there was complete silence.

*****

Same day

Night

The feeling of coldness still trailed inside me as I continue to hear faint voices...a few seconds I was turning to be back to reality.

"Mr. Li Syaoran... Mr. Li..."

The scenery was different. I was in this place of Eden. Different fragrances soothed my aching head.

But the sudden remembrance of what happened made me scared. Scared of the fact that I might be in another place.

"You!? What did you do!?"

She chuckled.

She eyed me that same intent gaze, then turned at the scenery.

"You know Li, I have been waiting for someone like you."

"What!? What do you mean?" I asked confused.

"I know you Li, just as I threw my gaze at you I read your mind just as reading your life."

"Huh?"

She looked at me and smiled.

"Hardships, hatred, shame...you...you have long wanted to escape from it? Right?" she asked.

She asked as if she knew what kind of world I have in my childhood years. I cannot even enter such blasphemous thoughts. For what she says doesn't even have any concrete blunder.

She awaited an answer..but I remain silent.

"What do you want to do with your life?" she asked again, as if she was uttering the words piercing from deep within my soul.

I made an audible sigh and breathed my words.

"I....I wanted a normal life, a life which common people are experiencing, away from shame, slumber and even hatred. I don't want a perfect life neither...it would make me different and alone in this world. I want a life, which is worth living.

A life, which is more living.

My mind echoed. As if it became a mantra which clanged on my soul, which clanged in my heart.

"I understand Li.", came the reply.

" I once wanted a life worth living too." I gazed at her.

"A life that has a concrete feelings and wishes that may be granted. A life worth living..."

She stood up.

"You know Li, my life was the same as yours. I thought that life is worthless. It became a reason for me to want death too."

She threw a gaze at me.

"Life is a paradox Li. Each piece is a chance and every mistake can be corrected. My life once became a trudging existence for belonging and many chances did came for me...." she paused.

I sensed that something has stopped the urge for her to talk, and soon I saw tears flowing on her face.

I sensed that she is suffering....she is just like me.

I found myself closing to her, as I hear her soft cry and moan. I reached for her, and caged her in my arms. It was then that I felt her smooth skin embossed with the heaviness of her heart.

I was beside her all night outside. I felt she was really in dire need of a companion. I feel no regret coming with her. After all, who could resist someone stunning as her?

Then she spoke up after what seemed to be a long time.

"I, I am sorry Li..." she said, but I remained silent.

"You're still young Li..to forgive yourself and others who have hurt is a courageous thing to do." she walk and maintained a distance from me.

"You, still haven't found the true meaning of life...at least you got a chance...use it up well!"

Soon silence succumbed us, she took a glance at me and look straight up on the skies. Then after a few moments, light became an endearing cause for me to be dazzled... and I saw a figure, a figure I am not expecting to see...

" A-an angel!?"

"Yes Li, I am guiding you since your birth" she smiled " and I would still like to be guiding you."

With those words she flew up in the sky, leaving me stunned. It seems like the clouds have opened and drowned me in its dazzling light.

And here I am again...in the very corners of this room. It seems like everything was a dream...a dream that was so true...

But I remember that room again...that room which made my first encounter on her... I tried to get up.

Maybe I could see her again, and ask the questions that bother me constantly.

TO BE CONTINUED....

(A/N: Well sorry for updating so late...but thankies for reading...ehehehee."

CHAPTER 4 PREVIEW

I was surprised with what I saw..

So this was her secret...

I stared at something that caught my eyes...