A/N: Hey thanks for the reviews of the last chapter and I'm glad you're
still reading even though I've been slacking on the updates--- I've been
really busy with school and whatnot. Thanks.
Disclaimer: Yeah, yeah, you know. I own nothing.
Oh yeah, the song in this chapter is "October" by Evanescence.
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Jesse knocked on Father Dominic's front door while I tittered nervously playing with a chunk of my dark hair. "Are you sure he's alright, Jesse? Are you sure he'll be able to see us?"
"For the last time," Jesse said with an exasperated sigh, "He's fine and I'm sure he'll be glad to see you."
The door creaked open and there stood the same Father Dominic I used to know; only he looked a little more grey and tired than usual. He squinted out at us for a moment then grinned, his blue eyes wrinkling happily.
"Susannah?" He said and I grinned and rushed forward, surprising him with a hug. It really felt great to see him after all this time. Words could not express how much I'd missed the guy after I'd left, he was a great friend. So I guess the saying's true; you don't know what you have until you've lost it.
"Wha-- what brings you here, Susannah?" He said. His grin still broad on his wrinkled face.
I sighed, "It's such a long story. But it really doesn't matter. I'm back."
"Oh, yes, this is wonderful. Well, come in, won't you? Hello Jesse, Lucas." He hurried us all inside and smiled at Jesse and Lucas as they walked past him and into his house.
He walked slowly and unsteadily as he invited us to take a seat on the worn out sofa, which looked irresistibly comfortable. "This your place?" I asked looking up at the black and white photos hanging from frames on the wall.
"Actually, I'm staying here with my older sister who is caring for me while I am recovering. But I'm glad to know that you've cared enough to visit, Susannah." Father Dom said as I smoothed skirt and sat down. "Not many people have besides Jesse here and your friend Cee Cee Webb and her boyfriend. Why don't I get you kids something to drink?"
"No," Jesse said standing up. "Lucas and I will, so you and Susannah can talk, alright?"
Father Dom smiled and looked slightly relieved. "That'll be great, Jesse, thank you."
"Cee Cee's still around here?" I asked. "What's she doing these days?"
"She's been very busy," he said. "She's still working at the Carmel Pine Cone but she's been offered many jobs, since she has such great talent."
I nodded politely, actually feeling a bit jealous of the fact that I could have been right by Cee Cee's side, growing up, getting a job, if my youth wasn't ripped from me. I suddenly knew exactly how Jesse must have felt when he learned that his fiancée was the one who plotted to kill him.
As soon as they'd left I moved in closer to Father Dominic and lowered my voice. "They told me to come back to Earth," I said, answering his question as to what I was doing here. "They said that Jesse needed me so I came down here and here Jesse was with this girl. Brandie." I spat out, disgusted.
"Susannah," Father Dom said told me, his voice serious. "You mustn't expect Jesse to spend all of eternity in love with you. People have to move on."
Hearing his words crushed me even more. Because I knew he was right. That Jesse couldn't spend his whole life swooning over me, missing me, even though that had been exactly what I was prepared to do for him. And it's not that I was mad at Jesse because I knew that this was our fate, however disappointing it may be . . . it was inevitable.
"That's exactly what Lucas has been telling me," I say.
"It's true," Father Dominic says. "You should listen to him. He's a smart boy
I nod, and Jesse and Lucas come out of the kitchen, and Lucas handed us each a glass of Lemonade. I thank him and take a sip, it's bitter, yet refreshing.
Jesse stood at the doorway to the kitchen, just watching us until I looked up at him and we locked eyes. "Susannah," he said in that deep and sexy voice that made every nerve in my body shiver. "Could I speak to you for a moment?" He extended his hand out and I slipped mine into it. He lead me through Father Dom's small and stuffy kitchen, and out through his back door onto a small porch, where the torrents of rain crashed onto the roof and fell down in front of us.
Jesse took off his jacket and handed it to me as he noticed me shaking a little from the cold since all I had on was a pink, collared halter top with a flowing white peasant skirt. I smiled. "So. . . What was it you needed to tell me?"
He rested his hands on my shoulders looking into my eyes with his opaque gaze boring into mine until I couldn't stand it any longer and looked away. "Jesse . . . that kiss in your apartment . . . I wasn't thinking straight. And I'm sorry if I led you on but . . . well, we both know very well that we will never be able to be together. Ever." Somehow, saying it out loud made it seem final.
"Susannah." Jesse's voice was intense and husky as he grabbed my chin with his hands and gently turned my face up towards him, said, "I can't stand to live without you." And planted the deepest most romantic kiss on my lips.
I can't run anymore,
I fall before you,
Here I am,
I have nothing left,
Though I've tried to forget,
You're all that I am,
Take me home,
I'm through fighting it
Broken,
Lifeless,
I give up
You're my only strength
Without you,
I can't go on,
Anymore,
Ever again
My only hope,
My only peace,
My only joy,
My only strength,
My only power,
My only life,
My only love
All I need is you
When night falls on me,
I'll not close my eyes,
I'm too alive,
And you're too strong
I can't lie anymore,
I fall down before you
A/N: Whoa. Okay. So I guess there'll be some big changes in the next couple of chapters. I'm hoping to update as soon as possible. Thanks a ton for the reviews on the last chapter and I'd like about 5 or 6 again before I update. Thanks (And don't forget to check out the new song fic I wrote a few days ago) 3
Disclaimer: Yeah, yeah, you know. I own nothing.
Oh yeah, the song in this chapter is "October" by Evanescence.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
Jesse knocked on Father Dominic's front door while I tittered nervously playing with a chunk of my dark hair. "Are you sure he's alright, Jesse? Are you sure he'll be able to see us?"
"For the last time," Jesse said with an exasperated sigh, "He's fine and I'm sure he'll be glad to see you."
The door creaked open and there stood the same Father Dominic I used to know; only he looked a little more grey and tired than usual. He squinted out at us for a moment then grinned, his blue eyes wrinkling happily.
"Susannah?" He said and I grinned and rushed forward, surprising him with a hug. It really felt great to see him after all this time. Words could not express how much I'd missed the guy after I'd left, he was a great friend. So I guess the saying's true; you don't know what you have until you've lost it.
"Wha-- what brings you here, Susannah?" He said. His grin still broad on his wrinkled face.
I sighed, "It's such a long story. But it really doesn't matter. I'm back."
"Oh, yes, this is wonderful. Well, come in, won't you? Hello Jesse, Lucas." He hurried us all inside and smiled at Jesse and Lucas as they walked past him and into his house.
He walked slowly and unsteadily as he invited us to take a seat on the worn out sofa, which looked irresistibly comfortable. "This your place?" I asked looking up at the black and white photos hanging from frames on the wall.
"Actually, I'm staying here with my older sister who is caring for me while I am recovering. But I'm glad to know that you've cared enough to visit, Susannah." Father Dom said as I smoothed skirt and sat down. "Not many people have besides Jesse here and your friend Cee Cee Webb and her boyfriend. Why don't I get you kids something to drink?"
"No," Jesse said standing up. "Lucas and I will, so you and Susannah can talk, alright?"
Father Dom smiled and looked slightly relieved. "That'll be great, Jesse, thank you."
"Cee Cee's still around here?" I asked. "What's she doing these days?"
"She's been very busy," he said. "She's still working at the Carmel Pine Cone but she's been offered many jobs, since she has such great talent."
I nodded politely, actually feeling a bit jealous of the fact that I could have been right by Cee Cee's side, growing up, getting a job, if my youth wasn't ripped from me. I suddenly knew exactly how Jesse must have felt when he learned that his fiancée was the one who plotted to kill him.
As soon as they'd left I moved in closer to Father Dominic and lowered my voice. "They told me to come back to Earth," I said, answering his question as to what I was doing here. "They said that Jesse needed me so I came down here and here Jesse was with this girl. Brandie." I spat out, disgusted.
"Susannah," Father Dom said told me, his voice serious. "You mustn't expect Jesse to spend all of eternity in love with you. People have to move on."
Hearing his words crushed me even more. Because I knew he was right. That Jesse couldn't spend his whole life swooning over me, missing me, even though that had been exactly what I was prepared to do for him. And it's not that I was mad at Jesse because I knew that this was our fate, however disappointing it may be . . . it was inevitable.
"That's exactly what Lucas has been telling me," I say.
"It's true," Father Dominic says. "You should listen to him. He's a smart boy
I nod, and Jesse and Lucas come out of the kitchen, and Lucas handed us each a glass of Lemonade. I thank him and take a sip, it's bitter, yet refreshing.
Jesse stood at the doorway to the kitchen, just watching us until I looked up at him and we locked eyes. "Susannah," he said in that deep and sexy voice that made every nerve in my body shiver. "Could I speak to you for a moment?" He extended his hand out and I slipped mine into it. He lead me through Father Dom's small and stuffy kitchen, and out through his back door onto a small porch, where the torrents of rain crashed onto the roof and fell down in front of us.
Jesse took off his jacket and handed it to me as he noticed me shaking a little from the cold since all I had on was a pink, collared halter top with a flowing white peasant skirt. I smiled. "So. . . What was it you needed to tell me?"
He rested his hands on my shoulders looking into my eyes with his opaque gaze boring into mine until I couldn't stand it any longer and looked away. "Jesse . . . that kiss in your apartment . . . I wasn't thinking straight. And I'm sorry if I led you on but . . . well, we both know very well that we will never be able to be together. Ever." Somehow, saying it out loud made it seem final.
"Susannah." Jesse's voice was intense and husky as he grabbed my chin with his hands and gently turned my face up towards him, said, "I can't stand to live without you." And planted the deepest most romantic kiss on my lips.
I can't run anymore,
I fall before you,
Here I am,
I have nothing left,
Though I've tried to forget,
You're all that I am,
Take me home,
I'm through fighting it
Broken,
Lifeless,
I give up
You're my only strength
Without you,
I can't go on,
Anymore,
Ever again
My only hope,
My only peace,
My only joy,
My only strength,
My only power,
My only life,
My only love
All I need is you
When night falls on me,
I'll not close my eyes,
I'm too alive,
And you're too strong
I can't lie anymore,
I fall down before you
A/N: Whoa. Okay. So I guess there'll be some big changes in the next couple of chapters. I'm hoping to update as soon as possible. Thanks a ton for the reviews on the last chapter and I'd like about 5 or 6 again before I update. Thanks (And don't forget to check out the new song fic I wrote a few days ago) 3