A/N: Hey. I apologize for not updating sooner. I suck. I've got no excuse.
I know Suze isn't really talking like her normal teenage self but that's
because she's kinda more mature now that she has.... er, died. Yeah I guess
just one more chapter after this. Then it's over. Done. The first story
I've ever actually finished.
But let me say one thing: BIG surprise in the end. Well not BIG big but
just Big. heh
WARNING! This chapter contains high levels of Mushyness so beware! :D
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I broke off our kiss hastily. "Jesse, what's gotten into you? I told you that it's impossible. As much as I care about you, I have to leave." It broke my heart to say it but I wasn't going to fool myself and Jesse into thinking that we could live happily ever after when in reality it was impossible. I had to repeat it several times for it to stick though even then I couldn't believe it.
Jesse's smile was knowing in spite of the hurt we both felt. "I understand, Querida. I'm sorry I got my hopes up, that's all."
I grabbed his dark hand, "I am too, Jesse." We walked into the living room where Luke and Father Dom sat chatting politely. Luke stood up while Jesse put his shoes back on. "Well, we've got to get going, Padre."
Father Dominic walked over to where I stood, smothering me in a hug. I grinned. "I'm going to miss you so much, Father Dom. You've been like a father to me all this time. I want to thank you for that."
Upon hearing my last comment tears began forming in his eyes. He stroked my hair and smiled weakly. "Thank you, Susannah. You cannot know how much that means to me." I hugged him for the last time, taking in that priest-y smell of his. It was comforting, reminding me of old times when he'd call me into his office so we could talk about the latest ghostly disturbance. I finally let go and Jesse and Luke stood by the door waiting. They bid him goodbye and Luke pulled the door shut.
"Where to now?" he asked, putting his jacket on. The rain had stopped but the clouds were a dark, looming grey through the treetops. It felt like it would burst at any second, you could feel the tension—thick and anxious—in the air.
"I'd like to visit Cee Cee." I said, looking to the guys for consent. They nodded so I took their hands in mine as I tried to dematerialize, taking them with me. Dematerializing is pretty easy when you're alone. But dragging along two full grown men it's always a picnic. I began concentrating on an image of Cee Cee's face. Her pale white hair and lavender-speckled eyes and ashen skin.
I opened my eyes and looked around. From the looks of it, we were in the offices of the Carmel Pine Cone where Father Dom said Cee Cee worked. Everything was grey, black or white and very drab. I heard the murmur of voices under the clicking of keys as everyone rushed to finish their story in time.
Ok, by now I was beginning to get a bit nervous and giddy. Maybe it was just the monotonous clicking of the computer keys that was getting me nervous, but Cee Cee was my best friend and I hadn't seen her in a few years. Of course I wouldn't have to worry about what things to say to her, since she can't see me, but I guess it was just that I didn't want to see her all successful and happy while I was just useless and forgotten six feet underground.
Lucas noticed my hesitation and came over to me, casually dropping his hand on my shoulder. "You know you don't have to do this, Suze. If you're not ready, we can always just get out of here and come back when you are."
I shook my head so hard that my hair prickled the sides of my face. "No, I'm going to go. I mean, I don't even have to talk to her. How hard can it be, right?" Jesse and Lucas just shrugged telling me that they'd be waiting here.
I walked into the aisle my stomach churning menacingly as I looked from cubicle to cubicle. Why was I so nervous? There was nothing at all to get so worked up about, so why did I have this nauseous feeling that wouldn't leave?
I stopped dead it my tracks. Scribbling on a pad of paper while chatting politely on the phone was Cee Cee. I couldn't help but get this huge, silly grin on my face. I just wanted to rush up and hug her, laugh with her, tell her everything that happened, tell her about Jesse.
Maybe she could give me advice. Only it was too bad I hadn't told her about my 'powers' sooner. Because we'd moved from Carmel before I had a chance and now it is the only thing I ever regretted doing. Cee Cee and I could have shared this powerful secret. One that would have bounded us together forever as almost sisters, but now I will always just be the faint childhood memory of a friend she once had. Nothing more.
She placed the phone back down on the receiver and I couldn't help but jump a little, focusing my faraway gaze on Cee Cee once more. She shivered slightly--like most people do when they are in the company of a ghost—and slipped on a black sweater over the white top she wore.
She looked like the same Cee Cee I knew a few years ago. The same pale blonde hair, fair skin and pearly white smile she'd always had. Only now her face seemed much more serious, more mature. I felt a little like Peter Pan right then. Here everyone was growing old and getting on with their lives while I was stuck this age forever.
Cee Cee suddenly spun around suddenly on her chair and looked directly at me. Right into my eyes, even. I blinked a couple times to make sure I wasn't seeing anything but no, she was looking at me alright. Small traces of hope and doubt danced in her violet eyes that suddenly became glossy.
"Cee Cee, I---" But she'd already turned her head away mumbling about how she was working too many hours and needed to get some sleep.
"Hey Hun," A man's deep voice said from behind me. I whirled around, eager to see who this man was that was calling Cee Cee 'Hun'. He was about my height; kind of tall and lanky. But he had a kind, smiling face with had ragged brown hair. He was not necessarily what you would call a hunk, by any means, but he had this sort of boyish charm to him that was kind of hard to resist. And then, when Cee Cee stood on her toes to give him a kiss, I realized who he was.
Adam. Adam McTavish. Yes, Cee Cee's crush, Adam. Goofy, sweet, sarcastic Adam. The two were finally, *finally*, together. I couldn't help but let out a little squeal of excitement. I wish I would have been there to see how it all played out. It seriously made me so overwhelmed with pleasure just to see them together because I know that they were always meant for each other.
*Just like me and Jesse* the thought rung in my head several times. I did my best to ignore it as I made my way to the computer Cee Cee had been working on a minute before. Typing slowly and softly so she wouldn't notice, I pecked the keys until I had spelled out what I wanted. I stood up and began to walk away but bent down again to add one last thing, just so she knew it was me. Then, smiling, I walked past Cee Cee and Adam back to where Jesse and Luke waited.
But not before I made certain that she saw the message I left her. And sure enough there she was sitting in her chair, sobbing softly white Adam stood behind her with his hands on her shoulder.
"What did you do querida?" Jesse asked as he stood up from where he'd been sitting on a bench.
I smiled to myself. "Oh, nothing. Just nothing."
~Dear Cee Cee, You can never imagine how much I miss you. How much I miss everyone. I hope you and Adam are happy together. I love and miss you all so much.
Love Always, Suze Simon.
P.S.
Little darling, I feel that ice is slowly melting.
Little darling, it seems like years since it's been clear.
Here comes the sun,
And I say, it's alright.
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A/N: Yeah, I know the ending was REALLY cheesy. Heh, but I don't know. It will get happier in the next chapter.... well, kind of. Let me just say that Suze and Jesse will not end up apart. I'll update again after 5 or 6 reviews, and this time it's all planned out so it shouldn't take too long. Review!! :)
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I broke off our kiss hastily. "Jesse, what's gotten into you? I told you that it's impossible. As much as I care about you, I have to leave." It broke my heart to say it but I wasn't going to fool myself and Jesse into thinking that we could live happily ever after when in reality it was impossible. I had to repeat it several times for it to stick though even then I couldn't believe it.
Jesse's smile was knowing in spite of the hurt we both felt. "I understand, Querida. I'm sorry I got my hopes up, that's all."
I grabbed his dark hand, "I am too, Jesse." We walked into the living room where Luke and Father Dom sat chatting politely. Luke stood up while Jesse put his shoes back on. "Well, we've got to get going, Padre."
Father Dominic walked over to where I stood, smothering me in a hug. I grinned. "I'm going to miss you so much, Father Dom. You've been like a father to me all this time. I want to thank you for that."
Upon hearing my last comment tears began forming in his eyes. He stroked my hair and smiled weakly. "Thank you, Susannah. You cannot know how much that means to me." I hugged him for the last time, taking in that priest-y smell of his. It was comforting, reminding me of old times when he'd call me into his office so we could talk about the latest ghostly disturbance. I finally let go and Jesse and Luke stood by the door waiting. They bid him goodbye and Luke pulled the door shut.
"Where to now?" he asked, putting his jacket on. The rain had stopped but the clouds were a dark, looming grey through the treetops. It felt like it would burst at any second, you could feel the tension—thick and anxious—in the air.
"I'd like to visit Cee Cee." I said, looking to the guys for consent. They nodded so I took their hands in mine as I tried to dematerialize, taking them with me. Dematerializing is pretty easy when you're alone. But dragging along two full grown men it's always a picnic. I began concentrating on an image of Cee Cee's face. Her pale white hair and lavender-speckled eyes and ashen skin.
I opened my eyes and looked around. From the looks of it, we were in the offices of the Carmel Pine Cone where Father Dom said Cee Cee worked. Everything was grey, black or white and very drab. I heard the murmur of voices under the clicking of keys as everyone rushed to finish their story in time.
Ok, by now I was beginning to get a bit nervous and giddy. Maybe it was just the monotonous clicking of the computer keys that was getting me nervous, but Cee Cee was my best friend and I hadn't seen her in a few years. Of course I wouldn't have to worry about what things to say to her, since she can't see me, but I guess it was just that I didn't want to see her all successful and happy while I was just useless and forgotten six feet underground.
Lucas noticed my hesitation and came over to me, casually dropping his hand on my shoulder. "You know you don't have to do this, Suze. If you're not ready, we can always just get out of here and come back when you are."
I shook my head so hard that my hair prickled the sides of my face. "No, I'm going to go. I mean, I don't even have to talk to her. How hard can it be, right?" Jesse and Lucas just shrugged telling me that they'd be waiting here.
I walked into the aisle my stomach churning menacingly as I looked from cubicle to cubicle. Why was I so nervous? There was nothing at all to get so worked up about, so why did I have this nauseous feeling that wouldn't leave?
I stopped dead it my tracks. Scribbling on a pad of paper while chatting politely on the phone was Cee Cee. I couldn't help but get this huge, silly grin on my face. I just wanted to rush up and hug her, laugh with her, tell her everything that happened, tell her about Jesse.
Maybe she could give me advice. Only it was too bad I hadn't told her about my 'powers' sooner. Because we'd moved from Carmel before I had a chance and now it is the only thing I ever regretted doing. Cee Cee and I could have shared this powerful secret. One that would have bounded us together forever as almost sisters, but now I will always just be the faint childhood memory of a friend she once had. Nothing more.
She placed the phone back down on the receiver and I couldn't help but jump a little, focusing my faraway gaze on Cee Cee once more. She shivered slightly--like most people do when they are in the company of a ghost—and slipped on a black sweater over the white top she wore.
She looked like the same Cee Cee I knew a few years ago. The same pale blonde hair, fair skin and pearly white smile she'd always had. Only now her face seemed much more serious, more mature. I felt a little like Peter Pan right then. Here everyone was growing old and getting on with their lives while I was stuck this age forever.
Cee Cee suddenly spun around suddenly on her chair and looked directly at me. Right into my eyes, even. I blinked a couple times to make sure I wasn't seeing anything but no, she was looking at me alright. Small traces of hope and doubt danced in her violet eyes that suddenly became glossy.
"Cee Cee, I---" But she'd already turned her head away mumbling about how she was working too many hours and needed to get some sleep.
"Hey Hun," A man's deep voice said from behind me. I whirled around, eager to see who this man was that was calling Cee Cee 'Hun'. He was about my height; kind of tall and lanky. But he had a kind, smiling face with had ragged brown hair. He was not necessarily what you would call a hunk, by any means, but he had this sort of boyish charm to him that was kind of hard to resist. And then, when Cee Cee stood on her toes to give him a kiss, I realized who he was.
Adam. Adam McTavish. Yes, Cee Cee's crush, Adam. Goofy, sweet, sarcastic Adam. The two were finally, *finally*, together. I couldn't help but let out a little squeal of excitement. I wish I would have been there to see how it all played out. It seriously made me so overwhelmed with pleasure just to see them together because I know that they were always meant for each other.
*Just like me and Jesse* the thought rung in my head several times. I did my best to ignore it as I made my way to the computer Cee Cee had been working on a minute before. Typing slowly and softly so she wouldn't notice, I pecked the keys until I had spelled out what I wanted. I stood up and began to walk away but bent down again to add one last thing, just so she knew it was me. Then, smiling, I walked past Cee Cee and Adam back to where Jesse and Luke waited.
But not before I made certain that she saw the message I left her. And sure enough there she was sitting in her chair, sobbing softly white Adam stood behind her with his hands on her shoulder.
"What did you do querida?" Jesse asked as he stood up from where he'd been sitting on a bench.
I smiled to myself. "Oh, nothing. Just nothing."
~Dear Cee Cee, You can never imagine how much I miss you. How much I miss everyone. I hope you and Adam are happy together. I love and miss you all so much.
Love Always, Suze Simon.
P.S.
Little darling, I feel that ice is slowly melting.
Little darling, it seems like years since it's been clear.
Here comes the sun,
And I say, it's alright.
~~~
A/N: Yeah, I know the ending was REALLY cheesy. Heh, but I don't know. It will get happier in the next chapter.... well, kind of. Let me just say that Suze and Jesse will not end up apart. I'll update again after 5 or 6 reviews, and this time it's all planned out so it shouldn't take too long. Review!! :)