Chapter 9
Home
I can feel you pull me under
I can feel you staring there
I can feel you watching me over
Seems like there is no other
Seems like I lost a world
And as you follow me I wonder
~ My Heaven by Candice Alley.
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It was a wednesday night, Ephram, Thalia, Amy and Bright decided to catch a movie at Ephrams, his father was out with Linda Abbott and Delia was sleeping at next-door with Brittany. Thalia was sitting in the Lounge Room waiting for Amy and Bright to come back from making popcorn and Ephram was sitting next to her reading a Manga Comic. Thalia sat there watching the blank screen, she was stuck in thought, lately that had been happening to her, she tried to think of things to talk about every week with Dr Brown and she could never really think of anything that wasn't too personal, she didn't want to seem to subtle. Ephram sat there pretending to read Manga but what he really was trying to read was Thalia's body language how she could sit there for hours and just think was behind him, he'd get bored and want to play video games, he's not one of those people who questions their reasons for existence by listing there reasons for living, all he could hope for was one day it'll come to him, call him lazy but thinking was something he did only when he had to.
Thalia breathed in and looked at Ephram, he looked up and stared at her too, she smiled and then turned her attention to Amy who was coming with a big bag of popcorn and Bright taging along.
"So, what DVD should we watch?," Amy asked. "LOTR, How to lose a guy in 10 days, Just Married, oh, how 'bout The Faculty, guys get to see a girl naked and girls get to watch Josh Harnett and Elijah Wood be chased around by a Bright look-a-like."She said, in a songy sorta voice, dodging Bright as he tried to hit her..
Ephram and Bright nodded in agreement. "How about you, Thalia?."
Thalia shrugged, "Whatever." Amy shrugged and put it on.
"Here we go," Amy said, jumping on the single seat, while Bright sat next to Thalia.
Amy began playing the movie and Thalia wen't back to her train of thought, the only reason she agreed to this shindig was because she didn't want be in a house full of kids, playing dress ups and barbies, she grew out of that..actually she never grew into that phaze. Her parents always thought it was stupid so she wen't to ballet classes instead but that just tied her down and made her unhappy, so she was taken out and put in piano classes which were better because she liked piano.
Thalia continued to reminice the past, everything was perfect up until Davie died. She had to stop blaming the sudden impact on that, everyone else did aswell and she hated it. She thought about davie and the summer she had spent with him. The summer he died. It was the time of her life and then she made the mistake of letting him go and have the time of his life, the police at her parents door, the sound of her heart breaking, like a pin needle dropping, at that moment she lost her world the only thing she had left, and she lost it.
Thalia knew she was going to cry so she excused herself to go to the bathroom, washing her face she looked up into the mirror.
In the mirror is where she comes face to face with her fears. Her own reflection now foreign to her after all these years. All of her life she's tried to be someone besides herself Now time has passed, she's end up someone else with regrets.
Taking a deep breath, she felt she was ready to go back out there, passing a small room she saw a piano, fighting the urge she suddenly gave in and closed the door behind her, sitting and running her hands over the keys like she usually does. She begun playing a small beat using the white keys only.
Notice me Take my hand Why are we? Strangers when, our love iss torng Why carry on without me?
Everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
Everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby
She heard the door open, turning around she smiled upon seeing Bright., he stepped in and sat next to her.
"You play aswell, another thing you have in common with Ephram," He asked, taking her hand in his, she didn't seem to mind at all.
I make believe
That you are here
It's the only way
I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy
"...Listen, I know I came off as a sleeze, the other night but I was wondering if you wanted to go to the Annual Dance with me".
Thalia looked at him. "You never give up do you?".
"I know what I want, and I get what I want," Bright said, competively, with shear glam of confidence. Thalia looked at him with argumentive eyes.
"Is that right, well then I better not cramp your style," She said, calming down a bit.
"So is that a yes?" He asked.
"No" She replied.
"Well is that a no?"
"No"
"So, it's a maybe"
"Maybe, if I feel like being glamed up for nothing, I'll go with you," She said, showing off her clothes, as if they were a beatiful gown. Bright noticed some writing on her pants near the knee calve.
"Cool, Who said that?" He asked, pointing to her bright blue jeans.
"Oh, my brother, yeah, we did everything togeather, he bought me these for my last birthday, and he wrote that" She said, running her hand over the writing.
"Were all along way from home," Bright read," What does that mean?"
Thalia hesitated for amoment but felt utterly comfortable with Bright.
"It's just a feeling some people get, that there not in the place they feel they belong. You could spend years searching for it, sometimes, I feel at home, in a particular place, at a particular time, like now. Maybe for some people the only place they'll ever feel at home is in heaven, but I like to think after all thats gone, and all I'm holding on to, I'll find home somewhere here on earth... I guess that's all you can hope for."
Bright was smiling Brightly at Thalia, that was the most beatifullest (my new word) thing he had ever heard. Thalias face slowly turned too look at him and Bright leaned in and kissed her softly, surprisingly Thalia didn't push away, when they parted the door swung open and Ephram and Amy walked in.
"What's going on here?" Ephram asked, worried out of his mind.
"I found her in here, playing the piano," Bright said, trying to cover up what they were really doing.
"Well, come one the movie is almost over,"
Thalia took a quick glance at Bright and then followed them all out, Bright looked at the piano and smiled, "She's a good kisser," he thought.
"BRIGHT."
Bright stood up and closed the door, and inside opening one to something new.
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Thalia walked into Dr Browns office farely late.
"Where have you been?" Dr Brown asked.
"Thinking, I wanna talk about Davies Death," Thalia said, sitting down.
"Oh, okay, umm, How did you fee, when he, uhh, died?"
"Alone and scared," Thalia said, without hesitation. Dr Browns face was full of compassion, but no pity.
"Those are very common symptoms, I want you to imagine yourself at the exact moment they told you, your brother was dead, what do you feel now?"
Thalia imagined herself, standing at the doorway next to her mother. Dr Brown's soothing words were steady and reliable, she faded into the memorie and his face and body faded aswell. Thalia took a deep shuddering breath.
"Pain, real, physical pain, like a wave, no more like a current, draging me under, I feel emptiness, lonliness, I don't want it to be true, what will I do without him?. I never allowed myself to think of the possibility that one day Davie would die, I needed him too much, I felt something burst inside of me, like a bomb, thats when I changed, I held it in for so mong, I dideverything they told me to, I had friends, I got all A's, I stayed at home when my friends wen't to partys and got drunk and had sex. Hoping it was enough that there daughter was what they'd always wanted. I remember when dad use to say that loving them would be enough. He used to tell us that love is a feeling and to love someone is too show no remorse, he never showed us he loved us, words don't mean anything, actions speak louder then words, all Ie ver wanted was too be accepted for who I was, not who they wanted me too be," Thalia's voice drifted away and for the first time since she begun she looked up at Doctor Brown who's face showed no sympathie, just understanding.
I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song is my sorry
Everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
Everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby
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Authors note- I must admit, this character Thalia is alot like my friend Christina who I keep talking about, she is very talented and she will be the next Delta no worries, this character is based on her, but she's never moved to Everwood or lost a brother, just her attitude and her emotional views and appearence and the characters description is Christina so, this character is very much real.
Review PLEASE!!
Thanks LVHamlet.
Home
I can feel you pull me under
I can feel you staring there
I can feel you watching me over
Seems like there is no other
Seems like I lost a world
And as you follow me I wonder
~ My Heaven by Candice Alley.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
It was a wednesday night, Ephram, Thalia, Amy and Bright decided to catch a movie at Ephrams, his father was out with Linda Abbott and Delia was sleeping at next-door with Brittany. Thalia was sitting in the Lounge Room waiting for Amy and Bright to come back from making popcorn and Ephram was sitting next to her reading a Manga Comic. Thalia sat there watching the blank screen, she was stuck in thought, lately that had been happening to her, she tried to think of things to talk about every week with Dr Brown and she could never really think of anything that wasn't too personal, she didn't want to seem to subtle. Ephram sat there pretending to read Manga but what he really was trying to read was Thalia's body language how she could sit there for hours and just think was behind him, he'd get bored and want to play video games, he's not one of those people who questions their reasons for existence by listing there reasons for living, all he could hope for was one day it'll come to him, call him lazy but thinking was something he did only when he had to.
Thalia breathed in and looked at Ephram, he looked up and stared at her too, she smiled and then turned her attention to Amy who was coming with a big bag of popcorn and Bright taging along.
"So, what DVD should we watch?," Amy asked. "LOTR, How to lose a guy in 10 days, Just Married, oh, how 'bout The Faculty, guys get to see a girl naked and girls get to watch Josh Harnett and Elijah Wood be chased around by a Bright look-a-like."She said, in a songy sorta voice, dodging Bright as he tried to hit her..
Ephram and Bright nodded in agreement. "How about you, Thalia?."
Thalia shrugged, "Whatever." Amy shrugged and put it on.
"Here we go," Amy said, jumping on the single seat, while Bright sat next to Thalia.
Amy began playing the movie and Thalia wen't back to her train of thought, the only reason she agreed to this shindig was because she didn't want be in a house full of kids, playing dress ups and barbies, she grew out of that..actually she never grew into that phaze. Her parents always thought it was stupid so she wen't to ballet classes instead but that just tied her down and made her unhappy, so she was taken out and put in piano classes which were better because she liked piano.
Thalia continued to reminice the past, everything was perfect up until Davie died. She had to stop blaming the sudden impact on that, everyone else did aswell and she hated it. She thought about davie and the summer she had spent with him. The summer he died. It was the time of her life and then she made the mistake of letting him go and have the time of his life, the police at her parents door, the sound of her heart breaking, like a pin needle dropping, at that moment she lost her world the only thing she had left, and she lost it.
Thalia knew she was going to cry so she excused herself to go to the bathroom, washing her face she looked up into the mirror.
In the mirror is where she comes face to face with her fears. Her own reflection now foreign to her after all these years. All of her life she's tried to be someone besides herself Now time has passed, she's end up someone else with regrets.
Taking a deep breath, she felt she was ready to go back out there, passing a small room she saw a piano, fighting the urge she suddenly gave in and closed the door behind her, sitting and running her hands over the keys like she usually does. She begun playing a small beat using the white keys only.
Notice me Take my hand Why are we? Strangers when, our love iss torng Why carry on without me?
Everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
Everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby
She heard the door open, turning around she smiled upon seeing Bright., he stepped in and sat next to her.
"You play aswell, another thing you have in common with Ephram," He asked, taking her hand in his, she didn't seem to mind at all.
I make believe
That you are here
It's the only way
I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy
"...Listen, I know I came off as a sleeze, the other night but I was wondering if you wanted to go to the Annual Dance with me".
Thalia looked at him. "You never give up do you?".
"I know what I want, and I get what I want," Bright said, competively, with shear glam of confidence. Thalia looked at him with argumentive eyes.
"Is that right, well then I better not cramp your style," She said, calming down a bit.
"So is that a yes?" He asked.
"No" She replied.
"Well is that a no?"
"No"
"So, it's a maybe"
"Maybe, if I feel like being glamed up for nothing, I'll go with you," She said, showing off her clothes, as if they were a beatiful gown. Bright noticed some writing on her pants near the knee calve.
"Cool, Who said that?" He asked, pointing to her bright blue jeans.
"Oh, my brother, yeah, we did everything togeather, he bought me these for my last birthday, and he wrote that" She said, running her hand over the writing.
"Were all along way from home," Bright read," What does that mean?"
Thalia hesitated for amoment but felt utterly comfortable with Bright.
"It's just a feeling some people get, that there not in the place they feel they belong. You could spend years searching for it, sometimes, I feel at home, in a particular place, at a particular time, like now. Maybe for some people the only place they'll ever feel at home is in heaven, but I like to think after all thats gone, and all I'm holding on to, I'll find home somewhere here on earth... I guess that's all you can hope for."
Bright was smiling Brightly at Thalia, that was the most beatifullest (my new word) thing he had ever heard. Thalias face slowly turned too look at him and Bright leaned in and kissed her softly, surprisingly Thalia didn't push away, when they parted the door swung open and Ephram and Amy walked in.
"What's going on here?" Ephram asked, worried out of his mind.
"I found her in here, playing the piano," Bright said, trying to cover up what they were really doing.
"Well, come one the movie is almost over,"
Thalia took a quick glance at Bright and then followed them all out, Bright looked at the piano and smiled, "She's a good kisser," he thought.
"BRIGHT."
Bright stood up and closed the door, and inside opening one to something new.
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Thalia walked into Dr Browns office farely late.
"Where have you been?" Dr Brown asked.
"Thinking, I wanna talk about Davies Death," Thalia said, sitting down.
"Oh, okay, umm, How did you fee, when he, uhh, died?"
"Alone and scared," Thalia said, without hesitation. Dr Browns face was full of compassion, but no pity.
"Those are very common symptoms, I want you to imagine yourself at the exact moment they told you, your brother was dead, what do you feel now?"
Thalia imagined herself, standing at the doorway next to her mother. Dr Brown's soothing words were steady and reliable, she faded into the memorie and his face and body faded aswell. Thalia took a deep shuddering breath.
"Pain, real, physical pain, like a wave, no more like a current, draging me under, I feel emptiness, lonliness, I don't want it to be true, what will I do without him?. I never allowed myself to think of the possibility that one day Davie would die, I needed him too much, I felt something burst inside of me, like a bomb, thats when I changed, I held it in for so mong, I dideverything they told me to, I had friends, I got all A's, I stayed at home when my friends wen't to partys and got drunk and had sex. Hoping it was enough that there daughter was what they'd always wanted. I remember when dad use to say that loving them would be enough. He used to tell us that love is a feeling and to love someone is too show no remorse, he never showed us he loved us, words don't mean anything, actions speak louder then words, all Ie ver wanted was too be accepted for who I was, not who they wanted me too be," Thalia's voice drifted away and for the first time since she begun she looked up at Doctor Brown who's face showed no sympathie, just understanding.
I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song is my sorry
Everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
Everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby
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Authors note- I must admit, this character Thalia is alot like my friend Christina who I keep talking about, she is very talented and she will be the next Delta no worries, this character is based on her, but she's never moved to Everwood or lost a brother, just her attitude and her emotional views and appearence and the characters description is Christina so, this character is very much real.
Review PLEASE!!
Thanks LVHamlet.