The Wrong Thing for the Right Reasons
Period: Max and Logan thinking about their relationship from the end of Hello Goodbye
to when Max goes to see Logan. Starts just after Max delivers the money to Mole
before going to see Logan
Disclaimer: I don't own them. Everybody knows who does, but like playing with their
Minds.
Thanks to Kasman my beta for putting up with my e-mails. Fight the good fight
Chapter 1
Space Needle: Max sitting her hands wrapped around her knees
I still think of Zack, but now I spend most of the time thinking of Logan.
Flashback: Hospital:
"I need him, Logan, now more than ever. I don't want to lose him, but I can't risk losing you."
That's the closest I had ever come to telling Logan I loved him, but all he did was do what he does, fix things. What else could he do? This virus has really messed up our lives.
It seems a lifetime ago when I was up here thinking about Zack and Logan. Letting go of Zack was hard. You have to make sacrifices to protect the ones you love, but now, doing this over with Logan, it's even harder. I love him and nothing will ever change that fact.
Tears run down Max's cheeks
When Logan said he saw Alec and I together I jumped, on it straight away - Manticore did not create slow thinkers - if he had said anything other than, "Mean if I...I've got it wrong just say,"he would have won.
But it just came out, "I can't...it's over. Were done. Get used to it,"I nearly didn't finish the sentence, I was hurting so much and I saw the look in his face, but I had to do it.
That's what I thought then but now, after all that's happened since, maybe I did the wrong thing for the right reasons. I hurt him so much but despite that he is still covering my back.
I hadn't spoken to Logan for days until he called and gave me the warning about White. Then Joshua was trapped down in the sewers with Annie, and of course, there was Logan on the end of the line. It was so good to hear him, and when Alec had said they were together, all I could think of was what it was costing Logan but I had to focus on getting Joshua out safe, so I squashed my thoughts and concentrated on the mission. Luckily Manticore bred us to multi-process. What they gave with one hand, they took away with the other - it sucks. He stuck to the mission, too, and got us out I'm so proud of him.
As Logan drove up, I smiled. It felt so good to see him. The drive back to Joshua's was awkward and Alec noticed something was up with Logan especially when he drove away, leaving me on the sidewalk looking after him. He says no matter what, he's got my back. – I've hurt him so badly that maybe I've finally driven him away - but I have your back, Logan.
I thought I was going to stick around despite everything. Even if I couldn't have Logan, at least Joshua needed me, and even if Jam Pony wasn't the best gig, at least I had OC and the gang there to take my mind off things for a time. Then that idiot Normal drew down on Sky, which ended up with me going to Joshua's and finding he had decided to go to Terminal City. It was too much. I had to run again for all the right reasons. I'm glad Original Cindy understood why I had to leave.
"You think that's going to make you happy?"
"Maybe."
I walked over to the bookshelf and picked up the copy of The Little Mermaid Logan had given me. He had wanted to give me his but I had said no. His mom had given him that book. So he had gone out and found one for me. This was the original story with the sad ending but on the back leaf he had written – "I prefer the Disney version myself".
I wish it could've been, Logan.
As I walked back Cindy asked,
"What about Logan?"
I shoved the book into my bag.
"He's better off without me in the picture."
The poem and photo of Logan were in there too.
"If you say so."
I didn't fool her one bit about Logan, I never did.
When OC arrived back from work she had said I should speak to Logan and now she mentioned it again.
"You gonna call him and tell him you're going?"
I thought about it - but then maybe not - he was safer without knowing. As I glanced at OC she gave me a look as if to say 'you're making a big mistake girl.' Now that I know what she meant would I have got on my baby and tried to leave... I don't know... I just don't.
"You, Max Guevara, are my sister, you are my family"- that meant a lot OC.
Then seeing my clone 453 - I should have known, Alec had mentioned the siblings of the escapees and he was Ben's clone, but it was still a shock that she hated me so much. She hammered home a few truths, literally, about running away and sticking around for family. When she kicked Logan unconscious, she had to pay for that. She has a pretty good left hook but it wasn't enough. I was definitely motivated.
She was right, though, Logan was still stuck on me, but how did she know? It was a surprise seeing him. What was he doing here? How did he find me? Well, at least he explained that later. Despite everything he was there for me again, not that I'm complaining.
Glad he was still unconscious when I changed clothes - that would have been too embarrassing. When Logan hit White, I thought he had killed him, he was so pissed.
"You killed him, Logan!"
"No he's not....pity."
About then 453 woke up.
"You killed him you bitch! Now I'll never see my family again."
"He's just knocked out...you got a name?"
"Hmm."
"We can't keep calling you 453...despite everything...we are family."
"It's Sam."
"Well here's the deal Sam...I'm going to leave you tied up for now. But I'm going to convince White to trade himself for your husband and kid."
"How?"
"Watch and learn."
That brought a sad smile to Logan's lips. He probably remembered the time he said that to me and here we are facing White again - he had to rescue me then too. Will it never end. I am so sorry Logan.
We didn't have to test Ames' pain threshold - guess he figured being in one piece was better than showing how tough he was. The looks Logan gave him scared even me. Thing is, I wonder who he thought Logan was - my transgenic boyfriend? If he only knew.
But we saved the day again. I was really sorry to hear about the apartment. We had some happy times there, but Logan did not seem to be bothered much - he had his files, I guess.
"You're going to need a good cat burglar."That surprised him.
"Thought you were leaving town?"
Ah! Was that why he was being so cold?
I looked away - Jace has her family, even Tinga, for a while, and now my twin Sam - maybe there is something in not always running - I looked back straight into Logan's eyes. "Nah. Got some family stuff to take care of." He just looked at me - it hurt. I was hoping he realized I meant him as well.
Next morning, Logan dropped Alec and me off at Jam Pony. The tension in the Aztek could have been cut with a knife. Of course, Alec had to notice. He can be so dense sometimes but never when you want him to be. I passed it off to the problems Logan and I were having and him losing his Eyes Only stuff - no way was I going to tell Alec that he was the reason.
Joshua was letting Logan use his place, so I figured that's where he was headed - just a "take care,"and he was gone. Yeah, gone, it was the right thing to do. It was great seeing OC and the look on Sketchy's and Normal's faces when I showed up kept me smiling for a few days.
Logan had given me Joshua's pendant just before he drove off, but it was a few days before I could get back to Terminal City to give it to him. Normal was being even more abnormal than usual, but, hey, it kept me busy and not thinking about the other side of my life, and especially Logan and what he was up to.
Dix had it right, but the thing is, what have Sandeman and the breeding cult got against each other? And why am I the one they are after so much? Didn't have much time to think about it then as we had a situation with the Arctic soldier. Sometimes Alec surprises me. His idea of turning Jam Pony into a transgenic underground and using motor bikes to get around faster certainly came in handy that day. Got to ask him about Lola sometime, but with Biggs gone, it's been hard to get him to open up, although he does seem closer to Joshua now
Later that afternoon, when we brought some supplies in to Terminal City, Joshua said Logan was on screen. My heart leapt. I hadn't heard from him or seen him for days. I smiled and made the joke about the penthouse view, but Logan was as cold as ever. He couldn't even look me in the eye. My heart was tearing me apart, then he asked about Alec - how could I tell him the truth now he is really believing that we're together.
Yeah, it was the right thing to do, but I'm not so sure right now. This is hurting both of us and I'm not sure I want to do that anymore.
Then Alec had to go and ask about Logan and me. Of I course told him we were over but I don't think he believes me. It did start him wondering why Logan was asking about him - it's whack, but I am glad the snake took him off that track, unfortunately not for long. Shouldn't have made a big deal about him taking the computer parts to Logan. He was right it had nothing to do with him, but he had been convenient and he did seem to be that type of guy to steal another guy's girl. That's why Logan was believing it. Funny though he still thought of me as Logan's girl. If he had told Logan the truth both of them would have been pissed off at me. Could my life have sucked any more?
Original Cindy had just finished telling me that Logan could walk again without the exo-skeleton and that he'd made her promise not to say anything, but as Logan now knew that I'd lied, she figured she wasn't going to keep any more secrets.
"It had to come out sooner or later."
Just then Alec walked up and OC left us with her usual warning to Alec not to make me feel any worse. Well he did.
"'Cause you're right. I mean, you had to say something. Only you didn't push him away. I'm not sure what could. He let go, because he wanted you to be happy."
Yeah, and now you can walk you don't need me anymore, but I won't be happy unless we're together.
I barely heard what Alec was saying about not crying, and Logan telling him he had to take care of me.
That's the last thing I want and I guess so do both of you.
Then he grabbed my hand as I reached for the beer - what were these things on my wrist?
Of course, who do I go to but Logan!
Alec had suggested going to Joshua's but I vetoed that idea and we headed for Terminal City and did the link to Logan, - funny thing Alec took the camera from Luke, it was if he did not want Logan to see him.
Well, Logan maybe right about it being genetically encoded and a message and he is as puzzled and freaked as I am. He backed down and tried to calm me after my sarcastic joke about drinking "Tattoos from Within." Then Joshua with one of his brilliant insights that could be right suggested that maybe Sandeman did this - but what for? Well, Logan's on it as always, he'll figure it out.
Well I've got some really whack new 'family.' - C.J, who although crazy is nothing compared to White. I had to leave C.J behind but I'll find him again. - We now know a little more about these runes - it sure freaked White - but we still don't know what he was talking about. Having White as my...brother that's as bad as having Lydecker thinking he is my father. How much more twisted can my life get.
Sitting in front of the computer talking to Logan felt good almost like old times – then Alec had to spoil it. Sometimes I could kill him. By the time I turned back, Logan had closed himself off again. I nearly told him the truth. I couldn't, not like that - I had to face him. Funny thing, though, it was as if he was waiting for me to tell him it wasn't true about me and Alec.
"Take care,"and I cut the link. The pain in his eyes was too much to watch.
One day soon, Logan, I'll tell you and maybe we will finally be honest with each other.
Hadn't heard from Logan for a few days, then he left a message with Luke saying he wanted to meet about an Eyes Only job and I should swing by Joshua's. No way that was going to happen, but give the guy some points for effort. I did go to Terminal City and use the computer link rather than the phone. I wanted to see him, if not be with him.
He was disappointed but glad too. He even joked about me coming over.
"Hey, you."
"Hey yourself"
"I made a bet whether you'd come over or not."
"So who won?"
"Not sure."
"Who did you make this bet with?"
"Myself."
"Ha! Ha! Ha! You're nuts, Logan."
He shrugged and smiled. That was good to see.
The job was to take down two drug dealers who were trying to merge their operations. If they did they would control all the drugs coming into the west coast and would be untouchable. Slim Jim Grace and Tony Concrete Mason.
"What kind of weird names are those, Logan?"
"Well Slim Jim was a car thief, very good but then he decided to change careers after the Pulse - not much profit there anymore. As for Tony Mason, he was always into drugs and was originally an enforcer for one of the mobs back in the day. His specialty was burying his victims in concrete – there are a few buildings around Seattle that are literally built on people."
"Ugh! Sounds like some really nice guys; I got no problems with kicking their butts"
"Eyes Only has a tip that they're meeting in a warehouse in sector 20 near the old fish canning plant. Minimum security - one guard each and a briefcase of money and one of drugs. They swap – everything checks out they agree to be partners and take over all the west coast operations."
"Sounds like fun."
"Thanks Max - I know you have your hands full at the moment so you're welcome to take the money and put it to good use for some friends. Oh! And be careful, okay?"
Well, he was only partially right, seems these bozos didn't trust each other much and had brought a little extra back up. Got the money, though, with a few holes in it – left behind a few busted up gangsters, and those two aren't going to be doing business together anytime soon. Logan will be pleased. Should have thanked them for contributing to the Terminal City beer fund, but then again, maybe not.
On the Space Needle as the sun comes up:
How things have changed. All I wanted was a quiet life, kicking it with OC and the rest of the gang, then I meet Logan and my whole life goes in a spin. Now, with these runes coming up on my back, I have to show him, but not over a computer screen. No matter how hard I try, he keeps drawing me back. Yeah, I did do the wrong thing for the right reasons - I know that now. We will beat this and every other damn thing the universe throws at us if we stick together.
Period: Max and Logan thinking about their relationship from the end of Hello Goodbye
to when Max goes to see Logan. Starts just after Max delivers the money to Mole
before going to see Logan
Disclaimer: I don't own them. Everybody knows who does, but like playing with their
Minds.
Thanks to Kasman my beta for putting up with my e-mails. Fight the good fight
Chapter 1
Space Needle: Max sitting her hands wrapped around her knees
I still think of Zack, but now I spend most of the time thinking of Logan.
Flashback: Hospital:
"I need him, Logan, now more than ever. I don't want to lose him, but I can't risk losing you."
That's the closest I had ever come to telling Logan I loved him, but all he did was do what he does, fix things. What else could he do? This virus has really messed up our lives.
It seems a lifetime ago when I was up here thinking about Zack and Logan. Letting go of Zack was hard. You have to make sacrifices to protect the ones you love, but now, doing this over with Logan, it's even harder. I love him and nothing will ever change that fact.
Tears run down Max's cheeks
When Logan said he saw Alec and I together I jumped, on it straight away - Manticore did not create slow thinkers - if he had said anything other than, "Mean if I...I've got it wrong just say,"he would have won.
But it just came out, "I can't...it's over. Were done. Get used to it,"I nearly didn't finish the sentence, I was hurting so much and I saw the look in his face, but I had to do it.
That's what I thought then but now, after all that's happened since, maybe I did the wrong thing for the right reasons. I hurt him so much but despite that he is still covering my back.
I hadn't spoken to Logan for days until he called and gave me the warning about White. Then Joshua was trapped down in the sewers with Annie, and of course, there was Logan on the end of the line. It was so good to hear him, and when Alec had said they were together, all I could think of was what it was costing Logan but I had to focus on getting Joshua out safe, so I squashed my thoughts and concentrated on the mission. Luckily Manticore bred us to multi-process. What they gave with one hand, they took away with the other - it sucks. He stuck to the mission, too, and got us out I'm so proud of him.
As Logan drove up, I smiled. It felt so good to see him. The drive back to Joshua's was awkward and Alec noticed something was up with Logan especially when he drove away, leaving me on the sidewalk looking after him. He says no matter what, he's got my back. – I've hurt him so badly that maybe I've finally driven him away - but I have your back, Logan.
I thought I was going to stick around despite everything. Even if I couldn't have Logan, at least Joshua needed me, and even if Jam Pony wasn't the best gig, at least I had OC and the gang there to take my mind off things for a time. Then that idiot Normal drew down on Sky, which ended up with me going to Joshua's and finding he had decided to go to Terminal City. It was too much. I had to run again for all the right reasons. I'm glad Original Cindy understood why I had to leave.
"You think that's going to make you happy?"
"Maybe."
I walked over to the bookshelf and picked up the copy of The Little Mermaid Logan had given me. He had wanted to give me his but I had said no. His mom had given him that book. So he had gone out and found one for me. This was the original story with the sad ending but on the back leaf he had written – "I prefer the Disney version myself".
I wish it could've been, Logan.
As I walked back Cindy asked,
"What about Logan?"
I shoved the book into my bag.
"He's better off without me in the picture."
The poem and photo of Logan were in there too.
"If you say so."
I didn't fool her one bit about Logan, I never did.
When OC arrived back from work she had said I should speak to Logan and now she mentioned it again.
"You gonna call him and tell him you're going?"
I thought about it - but then maybe not - he was safer without knowing. As I glanced at OC she gave me a look as if to say 'you're making a big mistake girl.' Now that I know what she meant would I have got on my baby and tried to leave... I don't know... I just don't.
"You, Max Guevara, are my sister, you are my family"- that meant a lot OC.
Then seeing my clone 453 - I should have known, Alec had mentioned the siblings of the escapees and he was Ben's clone, but it was still a shock that she hated me so much. She hammered home a few truths, literally, about running away and sticking around for family. When she kicked Logan unconscious, she had to pay for that. She has a pretty good left hook but it wasn't enough. I was definitely motivated.
She was right, though, Logan was still stuck on me, but how did she know? It was a surprise seeing him. What was he doing here? How did he find me? Well, at least he explained that later. Despite everything he was there for me again, not that I'm complaining.
Glad he was still unconscious when I changed clothes - that would have been too embarrassing. When Logan hit White, I thought he had killed him, he was so pissed.
"You killed him, Logan!"
"No he's not....pity."
About then 453 woke up.
"You killed him you bitch! Now I'll never see my family again."
"He's just knocked out...you got a name?"
"Hmm."
"We can't keep calling you 453...despite everything...we are family."
"It's Sam."
"Well here's the deal Sam...I'm going to leave you tied up for now. But I'm going to convince White to trade himself for your husband and kid."
"How?"
"Watch and learn."
That brought a sad smile to Logan's lips. He probably remembered the time he said that to me and here we are facing White again - he had to rescue me then too. Will it never end. I am so sorry Logan.
We didn't have to test Ames' pain threshold - guess he figured being in one piece was better than showing how tough he was. The looks Logan gave him scared even me. Thing is, I wonder who he thought Logan was - my transgenic boyfriend? If he only knew.
But we saved the day again. I was really sorry to hear about the apartment. We had some happy times there, but Logan did not seem to be bothered much - he had his files, I guess.
"You're going to need a good cat burglar."That surprised him.
"Thought you were leaving town?"
Ah! Was that why he was being so cold?
I looked away - Jace has her family, even Tinga, for a while, and now my twin Sam - maybe there is something in not always running - I looked back straight into Logan's eyes. "Nah. Got some family stuff to take care of." He just looked at me - it hurt. I was hoping he realized I meant him as well.
Next morning, Logan dropped Alec and me off at Jam Pony. The tension in the Aztek could have been cut with a knife. Of course, Alec had to notice. He can be so dense sometimes but never when you want him to be. I passed it off to the problems Logan and I were having and him losing his Eyes Only stuff - no way was I going to tell Alec that he was the reason.
Joshua was letting Logan use his place, so I figured that's where he was headed - just a "take care,"and he was gone. Yeah, gone, it was the right thing to do. It was great seeing OC and the look on Sketchy's and Normal's faces when I showed up kept me smiling for a few days.
Logan had given me Joshua's pendant just before he drove off, but it was a few days before I could get back to Terminal City to give it to him. Normal was being even more abnormal than usual, but, hey, it kept me busy and not thinking about the other side of my life, and especially Logan and what he was up to.
Dix had it right, but the thing is, what have Sandeman and the breeding cult got against each other? And why am I the one they are after so much? Didn't have much time to think about it then as we had a situation with the Arctic soldier. Sometimes Alec surprises me. His idea of turning Jam Pony into a transgenic underground and using motor bikes to get around faster certainly came in handy that day. Got to ask him about Lola sometime, but with Biggs gone, it's been hard to get him to open up, although he does seem closer to Joshua now
Later that afternoon, when we brought some supplies in to Terminal City, Joshua said Logan was on screen. My heart leapt. I hadn't heard from him or seen him for days. I smiled and made the joke about the penthouse view, but Logan was as cold as ever. He couldn't even look me in the eye. My heart was tearing me apart, then he asked about Alec - how could I tell him the truth now he is really believing that we're together.
Yeah, it was the right thing to do, but I'm not so sure right now. This is hurting both of us and I'm not sure I want to do that anymore.
Then Alec had to go and ask about Logan and me. Of I course told him we were over but I don't think he believes me. It did start him wondering why Logan was asking about him - it's whack, but I am glad the snake took him off that track, unfortunately not for long. Shouldn't have made a big deal about him taking the computer parts to Logan. He was right it had nothing to do with him, but he had been convenient and he did seem to be that type of guy to steal another guy's girl. That's why Logan was believing it. Funny though he still thought of me as Logan's girl. If he had told Logan the truth both of them would have been pissed off at me. Could my life have sucked any more?
Original Cindy had just finished telling me that Logan could walk again without the exo-skeleton and that he'd made her promise not to say anything, but as Logan now knew that I'd lied, she figured she wasn't going to keep any more secrets.
"It had to come out sooner or later."
Just then Alec walked up and OC left us with her usual warning to Alec not to make me feel any worse. Well he did.
"'Cause you're right. I mean, you had to say something. Only you didn't push him away. I'm not sure what could. He let go, because he wanted you to be happy."
Yeah, and now you can walk you don't need me anymore, but I won't be happy unless we're together.
I barely heard what Alec was saying about not crying, and Logan telling him he had to take care of me.
That's the last thing I want and I guess so do both of you.
Then he grabbed my hand as I reached for the beer - what were these things on my wrist?
Of course, who do I go to but Logan!
Alec had suggested going to Joshua's but I vetoed that idea and we headed for Terminal City and did the link to Logan, - funny thing Alec took the camera from Luke, it was if he did not want Logan to see him.
Well, Logan maybe right about it being genetically encoded and a message and he is as puzzled and freaked as I am. He backed down and tried to calm me after my sarcastic joke about drinking "Tattoos from Within." Then Joshua with one of his brilliant insights that could be right suggested that maybe Sandeman did this - but what for? Well, Logan's on it as always, he'll figure it out.
Well I've got some really whack new 'family.' - C.J, who although crazy is nothing compared to White. I had to leave C.J behind but I'll find him again. - We now know a little more about these runes - it sure freaked White - but we still don't know what he was talking about. Having White as my...brother that's as bad as having Lydecker thinking he is my father. How much more twisted can my life get.
Sitting in front of the computer talking to Logan felt good almost like old times – then Alec had to spoil it. Sometimes I could kill him. By the time I turned back, Logan had closed himself off again. I nearly told him the truth. I couldn't, not like that - I had to face him. Funny thing, though, it was as if he was waiting for me to tell him it wasn't true about me and Alec.
"Take care,"and I cut the link. The pain in his eyes was too much to watch.
One day soon, Logan, I'll tell you and maybe we will finally be honest with each other.
Hadn't heard from Logan for a few days, then he left a message with Luke saying he wanted to meet about an Eyes Only job and I should swing by Joshua's. No way that was going to happen, but give the guy some points for effort. I did go to Terminal City and use the computer link rather than the phone. I wanted to see him, if not be with him.
He was disappointed but glad too. He even joked about me coming over.
"Hey, you."
"Hey yourself"
"I made a bet whether you'd come over or not."
"So who won?"
"Not sure."
"Who did you make this bet with?"
"Myself."
"Ha! Ha! Ha! You're nuts, Logan."
He shrugged and smiled. That was good to see.
The job was to take down two drug dealers who were trying to merge their operations. If they did they would control all the drugs coming into the west coast and would be untouchable. Slim Jim Grace and Tony Concrete Mason.
"What kind of weird names are those, Logan?"
"Well Slim Jim was a car thief, very good but then he decided to change careers after the Pulse - not much profit there anymore. As for Tony Mason, he was always into drugs and was originally an enforcer for one of the mobs back in the day. His specialty was burying his victims in concrete – there are a few buildings around Seattle that are literally built on people."
"Ugh! Sounds like some really nice guys; I got no problems with kicking their butts"
"Eyes Only has a tip that they're meeting in a warehouse in sector 20 near the old fish canning plant. Minimum security - one guard each and a briefcase of money and one of drugs. They swap – everything checks out they agree to be partners and take over all the west coast operations."
"Sounds like fun."
"Thanks Max - I know you have your hands full at the moment so you're welcome to take the money and put it to good use for some friends. Oh! And be careful, okay?"
Well, he was only partially right, seems these bozos didn't trust each other much and had brought a little extra back up. Got the money, though, with a few holes in it – left behind a few busted up gangsters, and those two aren't going to be doing business together anytime soon. Logan will be pleased. Should have thanked them for contributing to the Terminal City beer fund, but then again, maybe not.
On the Space Needle as the sun comes up:
How things have changed. All I wanted was a quiet life, kicking it with OC and the rest of the gang, then I meet Logan and my whole life goes in a spin. Now, with these runes coming up on my back, I have to show him, but not over a computer screen. No matter how hard I try, he keeps drawing me back. Yeah, I did do the wrong thing for the right reasons - I know that now. We will beat this and every other damn thing the universe throws at us if we stick together.