Authors Note- I don't own that poem, Everwood does and the song is by
Evanescence.
Chapter 14
My Immortal
I'm so tired of being here
suppressed by all of my childish fears
and if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
because your presence still lingers here
and it won't leave me alone
Thalia walked around Everwood for ages, she didn't know where to go or what to do, everything in her life was falling apart, she had nothing that could give her reason to carry on, Ephram hates her, Amy hates her, Bright hates her, Her parents hate her, if life was suppose to be this way, why is she the only one in the midst of it, and why can't everyone see what is happening to her, she told Ephram, she told Bright, she told Dr Brown and they still just brush it off as depression, they don't care that she is beyond feeling sorry for herself, beyond the ends of suicide, maybe she should just find a corner to sit in and rot, nothing mattered to her anymore, not even the piano, and what really held her down was the fact she was back to blaming Davie and that hit's harder then anything.
these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase
when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
and i've held your hand through all of these years
but you still have all of me
The more she thought about what just happened, the more she understood why Amy got upset. It's the same reason anyone would. She obviously loved Tommy and Tommy broke up with her, leaving her mystified. Amy didn't look or seem like what people imagined her to be. There was alot that she hid deep inside and for Thalia, she knew that the moment she had met her. She knew about Colin hart, Ephram told ehr weks ago. When you lose someone you love, nothing seems to be real, you never know how hard it hurts until it's too late. Trees, the sky, people, everything becames grey and your forced to look at yourself and everything you've done with your life, focusing on the negative you enter a state of depression were you think life isn't worth living anymore, and your not only hurting yourself, your hurting the people around you, it was like a poem Thalia found in Ephrams room while he was renting some movies. She remembered only sentences, the ones that stuck out;
The more things change, the more they stay the same.
The inability to change.
Chances are it's even worse
Choose the road already traveled in
If you are suffering, at least the pain is familiar.
The poem was endlessly full off images of her mind, the feelings were locked inside of it, Thalia saw a different side to Ephram after reading that poem, a side that she hadn't ever seen before; A side she'd like to know more about.
you used to captivate me
by your resonating light
but now i'm bound by the life you left behind
your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
your voice it chased away all the sanity in me
these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase
She keeps going over everything in her mind, maybe she does need help, maybe she is losing it and needs to go to Rehab or something, I mean lots more people lose alot more and they still live on, but everything she learns to accept, and eventually love, disappears, like it wasn't even there to begin with and she was just imagining it all. Like a bad dream, soon she'll wake up to the smell of bacon and eggs with a big soothy to wash down all the flavouring. And Davie will be wearing his boxers and walking around the house smelling like a dog kennel. Yeah, everything is just a bad dream, one of those dreams that no matter how many times you fall, you can't feel it in reality and your just trapped inside that dream, until you free yourself, no-one else can, just you.
i've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
and though you're still with me
i've been alone all along
when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
and i've held your hand through all of these years
but you still left me
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Thanks for everyone who reviews.
Chapter 14
My Immortal
I'm so tired of being here
suppressed by all of my childish fears
and if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
because your presence still lingers here
and it won't leave me alone
Thalia walked around Everwood for ages, she didn't know where to go or what to do, everything in her life was falling apart, she had nothing that could give her reason to carry on, Ephram hates her, Amy hates her, Bright hates her, Her parents hate her, if life was suppose to be this way, why is she the only one in the midst of it, and why can't everyone see what is happening to her, she told Ephram, she told Bright, she told Dr Brown and they still just brush it off as depression, they don't care that she is beyond feeling sorry for herself, beyond the ends of suicide, maybe she should just find a corner to sit in and rot, nothing mattered to her anymore, not even the piano, and what really held her down was the fact she was back to blaming Davie and that hit's harder then anything.
these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase
when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
and i've held your hand through all of these years
but you still have all of me
The more she thought about what just happened, the more she understood why Amy got upset. It's the same reason anyone would. She obviously loved Tommy and Tommy broke up with her, leaving her mystified. Amy didn't look or seem like what people imagined her to be. There was alot that she hid deep inside and for Thalia, she knew that the moment she had met her. She knew about Colin hart, Ephram told ehr weks ago. When you lose someone you love, nothing seems to be real, you never know how hard it hurts until it's too late. Trees, the sky, people, everything becames grey and your forced to look at yourself and everything you've done with your life, focusing on the negative you enter a state of depression were you think life isn't worth living anymore, and your not only hurting yourself, your hurting the people around you, it was like a poem Thalia found in Ephrams room while he was renting some movies. She remembered only sentences, the ones that stuck out;
The more things change, the more they stay the same.
The inability to change.
Chances are it's even worse
Choose the road already traveled in
If you are suffering, at least the pain is familiar.
The poem was endlessly full off images of her mind, the feelings were locked inside of it, Thalia saw a different side to Ephram after reading that poem, a side that she hadn't ever seen before; A side she'd like to know more about.
you used to captivate me
by your resonating light
but now i'm bound by the life you left behind
your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
your voice it chased away all the sanity in me
these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase
She keeps going over everything in her mind, maybe she does need help, maybe she is losing it and needs to go to Rehab or something, I mean lots more people lose alot more and they still live on, but everything she learns to accept, and eventually love, disappears, like it wasn't even there to begin with and she was just imagining it all. Like a bad dream, soon she'll wake up to the smell of bacon and eggs with a big soothy to wash down all the flavouring. And Davie will be wearing his boxers and walking around the house smelling like a dog kennel. Yeah, everything is just a bad dream, one of those dreams that no matter how many times you fall, you can't feel it in reality and your just trapped inside that dream, until you free yourself, no-one else can, just you.
i've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
and though you're still with me
i've been alone all along
when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
and i've held your hand through all of these years
but you still left me
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
Thanks for everyone who reviews.