Fears.
I guess you can say that I fear everything that everyone else fear. I'm scaried of death, I'm scaried of things that I don't understand. But above all, I fear being controlled.
I think I started to fear being controlled when I was young. When mother was taken away from me. She didn't have a choice, she just... faded... I remember sitting by her as she was fed by tubes and have a mask over her mouth and nose to help her breath. She died like that. In pain, too weak to do anything. That was why I choose to become a martial artist.
Heh, it all changed when someone called Ranma Saotome came into my life. I thought that I was the best, I was the top of the world. I can defend myself from all the boys from school and Kuno. I can't be controlled! I think I was starting to believe that I can control myself so that I won't die.
Until Ranma poked the back of my head...
Fears.
At first, I thought, it's ok, shes a girl too! She must understand what I feel, so we can try to control ourselves together! Work together so that we can overcome anything.
Of course, I find out that he is actually a he not a she.
To a certain level, I felt betrayed. A girl who I thought can help me, who i have placed my trust in already, someone who I thought I can learn from, turned out to be something that seems to want to control me.
My opinion of him changed rather quickly after what happens to him.
He is quick to protect, he is, somewhat, like a knight in shining armor in training. I... I felt SAFE when i'm close to him. But he's still a boy. Then I remember...
Fears.
This morning is one of those mornings I call 'over-protective Ranma mornings'. Ranma gets into this mood once in a while where he seems to watch over everyone excluding himself. He would go out of his way to help other people, talk to them, expecially other girls, even when he is fighting Ryoga or Mousse or KUNO, he would take care not to hit anything that would leave a mark for more than two days, for them...
Of course, that goes for his other fiancees as well...
Sometimes, I start wondering, what if Ranma isn't what he is? What if he doesn't care anymore? What if he thinks, this world is nothing, I should just take care of myself? I guess you can say I fear Ranma. Yet, I think I love him too. How is that? Can you really love someone that you fear? I guess I can't really say that I fear Ranma because I know he'll protect me above all else. After Saffron... I KNOW it's the truth.
"Yo 'Kane, you there?"
See what I mean by Ranma being over-protective?
"I'm fine Ranma, just... thinking."
"oh, ok."
You can HEAR the disappointment that he can't help me; and i guess that IS the truth. I wonder what sets him into these moods...
"Hey Ranma."
"Huh?"
"N-nevermind."
No that's stupid...
"Hey, is it ok if I go on ahead, I wanna take care of Baka early today." Ranma gave me a smirk and jumped off.
For some reason, I feel that Ranma doesn't really think he belongs here, like something, super-natural, is trying to push him away from Nerima, to get him to join them? Then again, I guess those stuff only happen to me. I mean getting kidnapped by princes on floating islands, bird people, etc. I don't know why, but I can never seem to express myself to him.
Well I guess my faith in myself haven't fall THAT much since Ranma came. The Amazons gave me a pretty good moral boost, believe it or not. That was the first time I say Ranma AND Uncle getting all freaked out. I mean at first, I thought that it must be a pretty scary monster that Shampoo have brought with her that scaried some so much. Of course, after that, I figured out that it was the girl herself that they are scaried of.
I felt that I CAN control my life again after Shampoo came. Of course, Ranma defeated her, but my hopes didn't go away. After all, Shampoo almost succeeded if it wasn't for the fact that my mind was harder to control. I found out that day that Ranma isn't as undefeatable as he seems.
Fear.
Another thing about Ranma that doesn't seem to make sense. Why does he keep stringing along the girls? I mean can't he see that all he needs to do is choose me... umm, one of us to get rid of all his problems! I mean, Ukyo can go back to her home and say that he already has a life of his own and I'm sure she can go on with her life. Shampoo would go back to her village and we'll be ma-
"MISUKI!"
Misuki? Another girl? THAT PERVERT! I can't believe... No... I know he cares for everyone. After Saffron, I finally figured it out. But I don't think that a Misuki is in our class...
I rushed to the school yard anyways, I mean if someone is hurt, I should be there to help, I mean Ranma would be too busy fighting off whoever anyways.
"misuki...."
Ranma was kneeling down beside a tree with his back towards me, I can't see around him, so I can't see who was hurt.
"Ranma! Who did this!"
Ranma stood up slowly and turned to face Kuno who was holding a slightly burnt bouken. Seems to me he learnt how to use a Chi attack with his sword...
I turned to see who was behind Ranma...
I saw a cat...
Ranma wasn't freaking out...
"you.... you hurt her." Ramna said without any emotions. I felt the air tense with anticipation. Chi swirled around Ranma, so strong that I'm sure everyone in the school felt it. Ranma's eyes became half closed as he fell on his knees, his fist planted on the ground.
The cat meowed weakly as if trying to persuade Ranma to do something. Ranma shivered in twisted estacy and breathed out a single breath as cold as the artic sea. Kuno was laughing thinking that he has defeated the evil sorcerous with the move that the gods envy. I think I saw Misuki, that cat, cry a single tear.
Then my fears came true.
"why is it that i feel hatred for everyone now?" Ranma whispered lazily, but loud enough for everyone to hear. I think everyone's heart stopped at that moment. I know my did, along with this dull, numbing pain.
"why is it that every cat I loved is hurt." Ranma removed his fist from the ground and let it land on an other part, like he was walking on all fours. It was then I noticed something, there where four slits on the ground...
"why is it that i can never play with cats anymore?" A single tear fell from Ranma. What is happening? Why is he acting like this!
Ranma has control over the cat fist somehow and now, all he feels in hatred.
"Ranma?"
He ignored me.
"you will pay."
He slashed him...
He bled...
Fear.
I think at this moment, I can truly say that I am so afraid that I would abandon anything to get away...
So I ran...
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I decided to go with Akane next. I think that Akane is a VERY interesting character. She has lots of depth in her character, probably because she is the main female character, but she still doesn't seem to learn alot out through the manga until the very end. Thats MY point of view, flame me for that as much as you want via e-mail.
With Ranma, I concentrated on his fear of harming people and being feared, Ryoga his sense of belonging and direction. For Akane, I wanted to stick with something that most of us can relate to, death, and not being in control of what is happening. I guess the second one is not THAT common, but death is the main point in this 'mini-fic'.
I'm probably going to do Genma next then a small intelude to sum up what has happened to the characters and Ranma's Cat fist. Then I'm going into the harder characters to write about this topic... the Amazons. I think I'll leave my little comment of them for their own chapter.
I guess you can say that I fear everything that everyone else fear. I'm scaried of death, I'm scaried of things that I don't understand. But above all, I fear being controlled.
I think I started to fear being controlled when I was young. When mother was taken away from me. She didn't have a choice, she just... faded... I remember sitting by her as she was fed by tubes and have a mask over her mouth and nose to help her breath. She died like that. In pain, too weak to do anything. That was why I choose to become a martial artist.
Heh, it all changed when someone called Ranma Saotome came into my life. I thought that I was the best, I was the top of the world. I can defend myself from all the boys from school and Kuno. I can't be controlled! I think I was starting to believe that I can control myself so that I won't die.
Until Ranma poked the back of my head...
Fears.
At first, I thought, it's ok, shes a girl too! She must understand what I feel, so we can try to control ourselves together! Work together so that we can overcome anything.
Of course, I find out that he is actually a he not a she.
To a certain level, I felt betrayed. A girl who I thought can help me, who i have placed my trust in already, someone who I thought I can learn from, turned out to be something that seems to want to control me.
My opinion of him changed rather quickly after what happens to him.
He is quick to protect, he is, somewhat, like a knight in shining armor in training. I... I felt SAFE when i'm close to him. But he's still a boy. Then I remember...
Fears.
This morning is one of those mornings I call 'over-protective Ranma mornings'. Ranma gets into this mood once in a while where he seems to watch over everyone excluding himself. He would go out of his way to help other people, talk to them, expecially other girls, even when he is fighting Ryoga or Mousse or KUNO, he would take care not to hit anything that would leave a mark for more than two days, for them...
Of course, that goes for his other fiancees as well...
Sometimes, I start wondering, what if Ranma isn't what he is? What if he doesn't care anymore? What if he thinks, this world is nothing, I should just take care of myself? I guess you can say I fear Ranma. Yet, I think I love him too. How is that? Can you really love someone that you fear? I guess I can't really say that I fear Ranma because I know he'll protect me above all else. After Saffron... I KNOW it's the truth.
"Yo 'Kane, you there?"
See what I mean by Ranma being over-protective?
"I'm fine Ranma, just... thinking."
"oh, ok."
You can HEAR the disappointment that he can't help me; and i guess that IS the truth. I wonder what sets him into these moods...
"Hey Ranma."
"Huh?"
"N-nevermind."
No that's stupid...
"Hey, is it ok if I go on ahead, I wanna take care of Baka early today." Ranma gave me a smirk and jumped off.
For some reason, I feel that Ranma doesn't really think he belongs here, like something, super-natural, is trying to push him away from Nerima, to get him to join them? Then again, I guess those stuff only happen to me. I mean getting kidnapped by princes on floating islands, bird people, etc. I don't know why, but I can never seem to express myself to him.
Well I guess my faith in myself haven't fall THAT much since Ranma came. The Amazons gave me a pretty good moral boost, believe it or not. That was the first time I say Ranma AND Uncle getting all freaked out. I mean at first, I thought that it must be a pretty scary monster that Shampoo have brought with her that scaried some so much. Of course, after that, I figured out that it was the girl herself that they are scaried of.
I felt that I CAN control my life again after Shampoo came. Of course, Ranma defeated her, but my hopes didn't go away. After all, Shampoo almost succeeded if it wasn't for the fact that my mind was harder to control. I found out that day that Ranma isn't as undefeatable as he seems.
Fear.
Another thing about Ranma that doesn't seem to make sense. Why does he keep stringing along the girls? I mean can't he see that all he needs to do is choose me... umm, one of us to get rid of all his problems! I mean, Ukyo can go back to her home and say that he already has a life of his own and I'm sure she can go on with her life. Shampoo would go back to her village and we'll be ma-
"MISUKI!"
Misuki? Another girl? THAT PERVERT! I can't believe... No... I know he cares for everyone. After Saffron, I finally figured it out. But I don't think that a Misuki is in our class...
I rushed to the school yard anyways, I mean if someone is hurt, I should be there to help, I mean Ranma would be too busy fighting off whoever anyways.
"misuki...."
Ranma was kneeling down beside a tree with his back towards me, I can't see around him, so I can't see who was hurt.
"Ranma! Who did this!"
Ranma stood up slowly and turned to face Kuno who was holding a slightly burnt bouken. Seems to me he learnt how to use a Chi attack with his sword...
I turned to see who was behind Ranma...
I saw a cat...
Ranma wasn't freaking out...
"you.... you hurt her." Ramna said without any emotions. I felt the air tense with anticipation. Chi swirled around Ranma, so strong that I'm sure everyone in the school felt it. Ranma's eyes became half closed as he fell on his knees, his fist planted on the ground.
The cat meowed weakly as if trying to persuade Ranma to do something. Ranma shivered in twisted estacy and breathed out a single breath as cold as the artic sea. Kuno was laughing thinking that he has defeated the evil sorcerous with the move that the gods envy. I think I saw Misuki, that cat, cry a single tear.
Then my fears came true.
"why is it that i feel hatred for everyone now?" Ranma whispered lazily, but loud enough for everyone to hear. I think everyone's heart stopped at that moment. I know my did, along with this dull, numbing pain.
"why is it that every cat I loved is hurt." Ranma removed his fist from the ground and let it land on an other part, like he was walking on all fours. It was then I noticed something, there where four slits on the ground...
"why is it that i can never play with cats anymore?" A single tear fell from Ranma. What is happening? Why is he acting like this!
Ranma has control over the cat fist somehow and now, all he feels in hatred.
"Ranma?"
He ignored me.
"you will pay."
He slashed him...
He bled...
Fear.
I think at this moment, I can truly say that I am so afraid that I would abandon anything to get away...
So I ran...
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I decided to go with Akane next. I think that Akane is a VERY interesting character. She has lots of depth in her character, probably because she is the main female character, but she still doesn't seem to learn alot out through the manga until the very end. Thats MY point of view, flame me for that as much as you want via e-mail.
With Ranma, I concentrated on his fear of harming people and being feared, Ryoga his sense of belonging and direction. For Akane, I wanted to stick with something that most of us can relate to, death, and not being in control of what is happening. I guess the second one is not THAT common, but death is the main point in this 'mini-fic'.
I'm probably going to do Genma next then a small intelude to sum up what has happened to the characters and Ranma's Cat fist. Then I'm going into the harder characters to write about this topic... the Amazons. I think I'll leave my little comment of them for their own chapter.