Disclaimer: I don't own Harry potter although I so wish I did. This is a companion fic to Azure Luna's The Journal. So she owns the implied Sirius/Remus pairing and she also owns the original fic. So u may find some things similar in them.

Lily Evans was walking down the hallway to the boy's dormitory to study with James that night because he said he needed help with his charms homework and since she's at the top of the class and had already finished it, she agreed to help the young man. Walking down the corridor like this reminded her of the last time he needed her help in Charms, late at night, a couple years ago in their fourth year...All of a sudden she felt a flash back coming on and decided that since she was early, and James could wait anyways, to stop and soak up the childhood memory for a few minutes....

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Lily poked her big fourteen-year-old head out of her dormitory and gave the secret call that she and her best friend James had made up in their first year, to the open boy's dormitory and waited patiently until he appeared. She ran her slim creamy fingers through her auburn hair, out of habit, and let her bright emerald eyes drat around the hallway anxiously. It was a few minutes before a messy jet-black covered head peeked out of the door, saw her and motioned with his hands for ten more minutes. Lily let out an exasperated sign and nodded her approval before turning around and going back to her bed.

            Fifteen minutes later, James Potter poked his head sheepishly in the door and scanned the room for Lily. He found her sitting cross-legged on her bed, waiting for him.

            "Sorry I was late, Sirius was…Uh… telling me something important," He muttered, it was awfully nice of her to do this and he didn't want to make her think that he didn't want to be here and that he was only here for homework help-because he wasn't. James had been having some trouble with his hormones lately. Sometimes he felt like he wanted to be more than friends with Lily and thought she felt the same but wasn't sure.

            "You ready to begin?" She asked him while gazing deeply into his sapphire eyes.

            "Huh? Oh ya, sure whenever you're ready,"

            "I've been ready! You were the one 15 minutes late!" She screeched at him. Lately she had been really moody, Lily noticed, and was ticked off easily.

            "Sorry," James replied while flinching slightly at the fact that his friend had become so temperamental these pats few days. She flashed him a warm smile that made him go week in the knees.

            "That's ok…" Lily said while thinking of an icebreaker to make uneasy silence that hung in between them end. "Can you believe how elementary this assignment is? I mean the first years have harder! We don't need to review this stuff!"

            "Actually I was having some trouble with it," James tried to say with out blushing and stammering like he usually did when he talked to Lily. "I think I was gone when we did it…"

            "Oh," Lily replied quietly. "I didn't mean to hurt your feelings or anything, James,"

            "That's ok. I'm just glad that you are willing to help me…So what are we going to practice on?"

            "Uh, well, how about the bed curtains?" She suggested for lack of a better idea.

            "Ok, good idea."

            For the next half-hour the two innocently practiced closing and opening the curtain. Since James isn't usually this quiet it started to freak Lily out. He was normally a smart aleck and made all the wise cracks in class. She thought that by now he would have made at least some kind of comment.

            "So, what's have you been doing lately? I haven't seen you around much, you're usually always with Sirius," Lily asked questioningly. She had only meant it as a question and used it to make small talk and nothing more. Unfortunately James took it as an accusation. 

            "Oh, sorry. I hadn't noticed too much. We have been really busy working on some new Quidditch strategies." James said a little apologetically in the beginning with growing enthusiasm for his favorite sport.

            "Oh really? How's it coming?"

            "Great, I think that we really have a chance at the Cup!"

            "That's incredible!"

            "So…Are you going to Hogsmeade this weekend?"

            "Oh, I don't know… I haven't really thought about it,"

            "Oh, did you hear that Sirius is going with your friend…uh what's her name?"

            "Oh, Ella?"

            "Yeah, that's the girl. But you want to know a secret?"

            "Sure!"

            "Remus has been acting like…I dunno…jealous or something," This surprised Lily. He was usually so laid back…

            "Really? Why would he be jealous? If he wants to go with some one I know a girl who might want to go with him…" Lily offered.

            "Nah, I already tried that with him. So, are you going or not?" James was insistent, he had to go with Lily.

            "I guess I will probably go," Lily mused.

            "Well, uh, do you think that, you would possibly-uh- gowithme?" James said the part in such a rush that Lily almost couldn't understand him.

            "James Potter! I can't believe you just asked me that! You're my best friend! I could never have romantical feelings for you! It would ruin our friendship!"  He caught Lily off guard and decided to go in for the kill. Pull the ultimate move. As James went over the "game plan" in his head using all the lame words that Sirius had told him, he realized how this sounded much more like a mission to the moon than asking out his best friend.

                James leaned in, parted his lips slightly before meeting a mass full of thick auburn hair. Lily had turned her head ad he tried to kiss her '

               I knew this was a bad idea James thought as he grabbed his wand and ran out the door and back into his dormitory. That night had to have been the worst ever for him. Especially since Sirius keep quizzing him on the events. Remus just sat on his bed and watched them quietly; he always did this when they talked about girls.

                Lily stayed up and didn't get that much sleep after James had tried to kiss her. She didn't want him to kiss her did she? He was just her best friend and nothing more right? Or wasn't he? When he tried to kiss her and ask her out a strange feeling coursed through her veins. One that she had never felt before. This was all too new to Lily. She knew she was going to hate this part of her life.

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Gosh, I thought I had forgotten that. Lily thought as she continued through the hall and down to the boy's dormitory.  

            Knock, knock, knock. After knocked as loudly as possible and hurting her knuckles in the process, Lily waited as patiently as possible for some one to answer the door.  Then all of a sudden the door was flung open and standing there was a young man of sixteen with long, shaggy black hair and twinkling silver eyes.

            "Silly-Frilly-Lily-Bud!" Sirius cried out all in one breath, before nearly crushing her rib cage in a bear hug. Gosh, he's gotten stronger and muscular over the summer! Lily thought as she admired his biceps.  Too bad he's gay and taken by Remus…

            "Do I know you?" Lily asked half jokingly, since when was Sirius this friendly? Since he's become gay and doesn't like girls so he doesn't have to worry about a girl friend getting jealous Lily thought.

            "You were always so funny Lily!" he replied happily as he welcomed her into the room and over to James's bed which used to be his until they switched.

            "Siri! I'm here for James, remember!" Lily said as she sat down and pretended to seductively lay back, as if inviting him on to. "Besides, aren't you taken?"

            "Me and James switched you Silly Lily!" Remus had shifted uncomfortably in his seat at his desk, where he was doing homework, when Lily joked about Sirius being taken. What if he really wasn't gay? "And, no, I am not taken!" Sirius replied indignantly to Remus's relief.

            Just then James entered the room to find everyone laughing at some joke, and Lily, the girl that he'd been after for two years, lying on his bed!

            "Thank you, God!" James said under his breath.

            "Oh, hi Jamesie! I didn't notice you'd walked in! What was that you'd said?" Sirius said before walking over to Remus and staring intently over his shoulder, sending chills down Remus's back as Sirius breathed down his neck and on his ear.

            "So Lils? You ready to start studying?" James said as he walked over to his bed and sat on it next to Lily, studying her face, trying to memorize every beautiful feature in case he was never this close to her again.

            "Yeah, sure. I've been waiting for you," She replied as he pulled the curtains around them. Sirius looked at Remus mischievously before going and trying to hear every word that the two inside James's bed said.

            "So, we're gonna work on Silencing Charms then?" That was the only and last muffled thing that they heard from their for the rest of the night. And if they remembered correctly, Lily didn't leave until the crack of dawn the next morning.

Author's Notes:

KK how as it? Horrible huh? Well review and tell me how I did! Oh if u liked it them u'll love The Journal!!!!!!