The sacrifice of Xander
You're put here for a reason. For some it's quite evident but for others you may have to spend your life looking for it.
I've found mine. As I lay here, slowly bleeding my life away, I hope it'll be enough.. Enough to pay for what I was scared to do, enough to right my wrongs. Enough to let me be at peace, I need the quiet.
I think I knew from the start. Why had we crossed path, why did we three connect at first, we had so little in common. Buffy had more to do with Cordy's court than with us, the unspeakable.
She had the choice and still she chose us. We too were the chosen ones.. Like her I think we had a calling. Willow's a focus for the Powers. I don't think any human has anymore power under her command than she has. She has the brain and the heart of our group. And Buffy, well she's Buffy. I've had trouble finding what my place was in our group.
I've been beaten, I've had broken bones, I've fallen, I've had concussion, I've been in explosions but I was still the one unhurt in the end. With some hindsight, someone has always watched over me, keeping me clear of the real dangers. We wouldn't have noticed because everyone wanted me to be careful and not to make a fool of myself by jumping in the middle of a fight having no superpowers myself.
I am the soul of our friendship. Not always right but always caring deeply.
I am Galahad.
I've always been Willow's white knight, today more than ever.
In the end I came through. My weakness was the answer.
I am dead so that others may live.
I am nothing if the frailty of Man. I was there to keep the human factor in the equation.
I am left bleeding, the sacrificial lamb.
I, Xander, forfeit my life and blood so that the world will see tomorrow.
I, Xander, give it all willingly so that Willow can smile again.
I, Xander, give it up to you Buffy so that for once you don't have to give it all away.
I love you.
Go now.