Fearing Love
Disclaimer: I don't own Sailormoon or characters of Sailormoon. So, don't sue! I'm seriously broke right now anyway!
By: Selenity Jade (Jadesama@aol.com)
Chapter Three: Not the Children
"Usako? Usako!" Mamoru's voice called from the dropped receiver that lay beside the devastated blonde.
She blinked back tears and gently picked up the phone, placing it against her ear. "I'm here," she whispered softly.
"I'm sorry, Usako," he told her tenderly from the other end. "Do you want me to come over?"
She shook her head before she remembered he couldn't see her. "Could you call the rest of the Senshi, please?" she asked.
"Of course. Do you want to have a meeting?"
She sighed. "I suppose that is best," she muttered. "Call a meeting and tell them to meet at my apartment at four, okay? I have to work."
"Are you sure you're okay?" he asked worriedly. "I should have come over to tell you, I'm sorry I didn't think-"
"It's fine," she told him. "Either way, it would have still hurt. I'm sorry, but I've got to go."
"Okay, Usako. Am I invited to the meeting?" he asked nervously; he was afraid she'd tell him no, that he wasn't wanted or needed.
"Yes. We need all the help we can get. Someone is going to pay..."
"Usako..."
"Don't. No one kills children, *babies*, and gets away with it. Every enemy we've faced stole energy and while there were casualties, no one has ever gone and murdered every child in this city!"
She began to weep. "Every baby gone," she whispered. "Mamo-chan, who would do such a thing?"
"I don't know, Usako, I just don't know."
~~~
Usagi looked over the assembled Senshi, glancing quickly at the only male in the room, blinking in surprise when she saw him smiling at her, reassuring her, letting her know he was there and believed in her. Just like he used to.
She cleared her throat, catching the group's attention quickly. "I assume you've all read today's paper?" she asked softly, hoping she wouldn't have to repeat what it had said.
Makoto and Minako nodded, looking away. Rei scowled angrily. Mercury swallowed and nodded as well. Haruka snarled faintly but also indicated she saw it. Michiru glanced into Usagi's eyes, nodding also. Setsuna looked away, and Usagi figured she knew this would happen ahead of time. She should have been angry, but she wasn't. She had glimpsed the pain and guilt in her eyes when she had arrived. She couldn't be angry with her, not when she had such a burden in knowing something so horrible would happen and she couldn't do anything about it. Hotaru openly wept, hugging herself tightly and rocking slightly back and forth. She felt sorry for the younger Senshi. She had so much on her young shoulders also and Usagi knew the Senshi of Silence hurt for those little children who had barely begun to live. The young healer was unable to distance herself from the pain of others sometimes. Mamoru just continued to watch her.
Usagi sat down on the couch, looking at each of the Senshi in turn. "I received a call today," she began, glancing guiltily at her former boyfriend. "The Sailor Starlights are here."
Setsuna nodded knowingly, while the rest started in surprise. Mamoru's eyes narrowed slightly, but he didn't betray anything else.
"It seems they too know what is coming and have offered their assistance. Actually, they should be here in about fifteen minutes." She looked away from Mamoru's deep blue eyes. "I invited them to the meeting."
Setsuna smiled faintly. "Of course, Princess. That's a good idea. They may not be a part of our Senshi, but their assistance might be very useful."
Usagi sighed. "There is more to it than that, I'm afraid. It seems their new world has perished due to what we are experiencing. They returned here to stay, only to find ours is going through the same thing."
The Time Guardian again nodded. "That has been foretold."
The blonde frowned. "I figured most of this was, Setsuna. It doesn't make me hate it any less."
"I didn't think it would," the wise Senshi told her.
Usagi rose from her seat and paced in front of her fellow Senshi. "When they get here, we'll talk about this big mess. Until then, anyone else have something that has happened we should know?"
Each Senshi shook their heads and Usagi turned to Mamoru. "How about you?"
He looked away from her. "Not really. I have the feelings of the Earth, but she doesn't tell me much. Just that she hurts and needs our help."
"I see," Usagi said thoughtfully. "Well, let's just wait until Seiya and the rest get here."
~~~
Usagi sighed tiredly as she watched the Senshi and Starlights leave her apartment. In the end, the reunion had been a very depressing one. Gone were the squeals of joy the Inners would have displayed upon seeing them. And the meeting had been pointless. The Starlights knew nothing the Senshi didn't already know and could add nothing knew.
She glanced up in surprise when she found herself alone with Seiya and Mamoru. She blinked at Seiya in confusion. "Hey," she said.
"Hey, yourself, Odango. I just wanted to ask if you were okay."
She nodded. "As okay as ever, I suppose."
"We'll make them pay."
"Yes," she said firmly, "we will."
~~~
Usagi sat down beside Mamoru on the couch, after having put on her bunny pajamas. She felt somewhat childish wearing the things, but she still liked rabbits, even after all these years. She stared at the wall, blinking back her tears. It was always harder at night, she decided. At night, she felt the pain of her failures more deeply when she was busy rushing around during the day. She sighed softly.
"Usako? Are you okay?" Mamoru's soft tenor asked her.
She shook her head. "They were just babies," she told him quietly.
He hesitantly put his arm around her and when she didn't resist, pulled her into his lap. He brushed his fingers through her hair soothingly. "I know," he murmured.
"What am I going to do, Mamo-chan? How can I fight something that doesn't have a body? How can I fight something you can't see? Or even feel?"
He shook his head and buried his head into her hair, breathing deeply. "I don't know, Usako, but together, we'll think of something. I promise."
"I can't be sure of you anymore," she whispered painfully.
He flinched. "Yes, you can. Whether we are together or not, I will *always* be here for you, Usako. Always."
"Seiya being here bothers you, doesn't it?"
He nodded reluctantly.
She giggled softly. "I'm not even yours now and you're still jealous."
He tightened his grip on her minutely. "In my heart, in my soul, you are always mine," he whispered faintly.
~~~
AN: I would like to thank Cat's Meow for giving me an idea with her review a LONG time ago... even though she would have liked a Usa/Seiya coupling here, which I'm not going to do (I'm a Usa/Mamo fan... *sigh*), her review reminded me that adding Seiya would make things interesting! Sorry, girl, but I added him for ya, even if I won't make them a couple!
Lovies!
Disclaimer: I don't own Sailormoon or characters of Sailormoon. So, don't sue! I'm seriously broke right now anyway!
By: Selenity Jade (Jadesama@aol.com)
Chapter Three: Not the Children
"Usako? Usako!" Mamoru's voice called from the dropped receiver that lay beside the devastated blonde.
She blinked back tears and gently picked up the phone, placing it against her ear. "I'm here," she whispered softly.
"I'm sorry, Usako," he told her tenderly from the other end. "Do you want me to come over?"
She shook her head before she remembered he couldn't see her. "Could you call the rest of the Senshi, please?" she asked.
"Of course. Do you want to have a meeting?"
She sighed. "I suppose that is best," she muttered. "Call a meeting and tell them to meet at my apartment at four, okay? I have to work."
"Are you sure you're okay?" he asked worriedly. "I should have come over to tell you, I'm sorry I didn't think-"
"It's fine," she told him. "Either way, it would have still hurt. I'm sorry, but I've got to go."
"Okay, Usako. Am I invited to the meeting?" he asked nervously; he was afraid she'd tell him no, that he wasn't wanted or needed.
"Yes. We need all the help we can get. Someone is going to pay..."
"Usako..."
"Don't. No one kills children, *babies*, and gets away with it. Every enemy we've faced stole energy and while there were casualties, no one has ever gone and murdered every child in this city!"
She began to weep. "Every baby gone," she whispered. "Mamo-chan, who would do such a thing?"
"I don't know, Usako, I just don't know."
~~~
Usagi looked over the assembled Senshi, glancing quickly at the only male in the room, blinking in surprise when she saw him smiling at her, reassuring her, letting her know he was there and believed in her. Just like he used to.
She cleared her throat, catching the group's attention quickly. "I assume you've all read today's paper?" she asked softly, hoping she wouldn't have to repeat what it had said.
Makoto and Minako nodded, looking away. Rei scowled angrily. Mercury swallowed and nodded as well. Haruka snarled faintly but also indicated she saw it. Michiru glanced into Usagi's eyes, nodding also. Setsuna looked away, and Usagi figured she knew this would happen ahead of time. She should have been angry, but she wasn't. She had glimpsed the pain and guilt in her eyes when she had arrived. She couldn't be angry with her, not when she had such a burden in knowing something so horrible would happen and she couldn't do anything about it. Hotaru openly wept, hugging herself tightly and rocking slightly back and forth. She felt sorry for the younger Senshi. She had so much on her young shoulders also and Usagi knew the Senshi of Silence hurt for those little children who had barely begun to live. The young healer was unable to distance herself from the pain of others sometimes. Mamoru just continued to watch her.
Usagi sat down on the couch, looking at each of the Senshi in turn. "I received a call today," she began, glancing guiltily at her former boyfriend. "The Sailor Starlights are here."
Setsuna nodded knowingly, while the rest started in surprise. Mamoru's eyes narrowed slightly, but he didn't betray anything else.
"It seems they too know what is coming and have offered their assistance. Actually, they should be here in about fifteen minutes." She looked away from Mamoru's deep blue eyes. "I invited them to the meeting."
Setsuna smiled faintly. "Of course, Princess. That's a good idea. They may not be a part of our Senshi, but their assistance might be very useful."
Usagi sighed. "There is more to it than that, I'm afraid. It seems their new world has perished due to what we are experiencing. They returned here to stay, only to find ours is going through the same thing."
The Time Guardian again nodded. "That has been foretold."
The blonde frowned. "I figured most of this was, Setsuna. It doesn't make me hate it any less."
"I didn't think it would," the wise Senshi told her.
Usagi rose from her seat and paced in front of her fellow Senshi. "When they get here, we'll talk about this big mess. Until then, anyone else have something that has happened we should know?"
Each Senshi shook their heads and Usagi turned to Mamoru. "How about you?"
He looked away from her. "Not really. I have the feelings of the Earth, but she doesn't tell me much. Just that she hurts and needs our help."
"I see," Usagi said thoughtfully. "Well, let's just wait until Seiya and the rest get here."
~~~
Usagi sighed tiredly as she watched the Senshi and Starlights leave her apartment. In the end, the reunion had been a very depressing one. Gone were the squeals of joy the Inners would have displayed upon seeing them. And the meeting had been pointless. The Starlights knew nothing the Senshi didn't already know and could add nothing knew.
She glanced up in surprise when she found herself alone with Seiya and Mamoru. She blinked at Seiya in confusion. "Hey," she said.
"Hey, yourself, Odango. I just wanted to ask if you were okay."
She nodded. "As okay as ever, I suppose."
"We'll make them pay."
"Yes," she said firmly, "we will."
~~~
Usagi sat down beside Mamoru on the couch, after having put on her bunny pajamas. She felt somewhat childish wearing the things, but she still liked rabbits, even after all these years. She stared at the wall, blinking back her tears. It was always harder at night, she decided. At night, she felt the pain of her failures more deeply when she was busy rushing around during the day. She sighed softly.
"Usako? Are you okay?" Mamoru's soft tenor asked her.
She shook her head. "They were just babies," she told him quietly.
He hesitantly put his arm around her and when she didn't resist, pulled her into his lap. He brushed his fingers through her hair soothingly. "I know," he murmured.
"What am I going to do, Mamo-chan? How can I fight something that doesn't have a body? How can I fight something you can't see? Or even feel?"
He shook his head and buried his head into her hair, breathing deeply. "I don't know, Usako, but together, we'll think of something. I promise."
"I can't be sure of you anymore," she whispered painfully.
He flinched. "Yes, you can. Whether we are together or not, I will *always* be here for you, Usako. Always."
"Seiya being here bothers you, doesn't it?"
He nodded reluctantly.
She giggled softly. "I'm not even yours now and you're still jealous."
He tightened his grip on her minutely. "In my heart, in my soul, you are always mine," he whispered faintly.
~~~
AN: I would like to thank Cat's Meow for giving me an idea with her review a LONG time ago... even though she would have liked a Usa/Seiya coupling here, which I'm not going to do (I'm a Usa/Mamo fan... *sigh*), her review reminded me that adding Seiya would make things interesting! Sorry, girl, but I added him for ya, even if I won't make them a couple!
Lovies!