Ren stood there gazing at Yoh, although Yoh was just glaring back.
"Well?" Yoh pressed.
"Well, then that would completely destroy my purpose of being, wouldn't it?" Ren replied.
"What's that supposed to mean?" ask Yoh.
"What's that supposed to mean, you ask? I'd think you'd know this by now...I care for you. I care for you so deeply that I'd give my own existence just for you to be safe. I know you're pissed off at me, and it's eating me alive. I have no purpose to live except for you. But you won't understand that... I love you." Ren was shaking horribly.
Yoh was starting to feel sympathetic for him. He had never really been mad at anyone like this. Should he forgive him? What was he talking about? Ren killed one of his best friends, and now has all of his other friends against him! For what reason should he forgive him? But...Ren said he loved him...Ren wouldn't lie about something like that, would he? Yoh had no where to go, no one to turn to. He was all alone now. Yoh looked away from Ren. "How can I know you're telling the truth? I don't know you...not anymore."
"I knew you would say that." Ren's voice shook.
Yoh looked up and observed Ren. "...You're...crying...?"
"I can't blame you. Obviously, you won't believe me. I'm not going to stand here and beg you to forgive me, so I guess I'll bid you Adieu." Ren said. He turned around and began to walk away.
"Ren...wait." Yoh said.
Ren kept walking faster and faster until he picked up a run. He kept running until Yoh was out of sight.
Yoh stood there watching Ren run. He began thinking again. Had Ren been telling the truth? If he was, then Yoh had just turned him away. So now, Yoh definitely didn't have anyone. He slowly took a deep breath and turned around to begin walking towards the place he once called home.
Yoh peered through the windows of the old hotel. He saw Anna sitting by the table they always ate dinner at. He missed those days; he wanted them back more than anything at that moment. He didn't see Morty. Horo Horo was probably in the bathroom if anything. Ryu's gang wasn't there either. The warm feeling that was once there was lost, it felt cold, empty, dead. Has that much changed in such little time? Just barely a week ago, he was sitting at that table with Anna, Morty, Horo Horo, and...Ryu. But no matter how much Yoh thought and grieved about it, he refused to cry. He had done too much of that already. He wasn't a baby. He had grown, became much mature now.
He took a deep breathe and just watched Anna sit there, watching the wall. She was probably thinking of what just happened. He kind of wondered why she wasn't still at the police station. But he couldn't think about that. Yoh didn't want to admit it, but he kind of missed the feeling of being in Ren's arms. He couldn't go back to him; he didn't even know where Ren was! He wished he did though...What was he thinking? Was he crazy? He was in denial. All of a sudden he heard a stick crack behind him. Then there was a tense moment. Yoh slowly turned around, persuaded it was the Police. It wasn't however. It was Morty.
"Yoh, what are you doing here? We've been searching everywhere for you!" Morty exclaimed. Obviously he wasn't informed on what just happened. Yoh was scared, although he didn't want to admit it. He didn't want to have to tell Morty. Morty was all he had at that moment, and Yoh didn't want to lose that too.
"I..." Yoh began. "I...uh, Morty..." Yoh paused for a second. His stomach quenched and squirmed. He knew what he wanted to say. But it was what he should say that was the problem. "Morty, can you do me a favor?" Morty nodded, a little curiously. "Don't tell anyone you saw me. I'm serious...not a single soul"
"Would you mind if I asked why?" Morty spoke quietly.
"It's kind of a long story. I can't stay here though. I'm so sorry Morty. Thank you." Yoh sincerely said.
"I don't understand. What's going on? What happened, Yoh? You're my best friend, you can tell me..." Morty pushed.
Yoh took a moment to look at Morty. He wished he could tell him. But he couldn't get his heart to agree with his wishes at the time. "Listen Morty, a lot has happened within the past few days. My mind is spinning in so many directions right now, I can barely stand straight. But I have to get out of here. I'll come back to see you, I promise. I have to figure a few things out, myself. Bye, Morty." Yoh explained quietly. He gave Morty an assuring look and set back off into the forest.
Morty stood there dumbstruck. He still was trying to process what was going on. He was growing extremely worried for Yoh, but he also felt completely helpless. How was he going to help if Yoh jus kept shutting him out like that, like he was only a...child? Morty just shrugged his shoulders and went inside. He glanced over at Anna. "Hey Anna, need company?"
Anna didn't move. She continued to sit there as if she was ignoring him. After a few seconds she responded back. "Who were you talking to?"
"Huh? What are you talking about? I wasn't talking anyone." Morty quickly replied. He kind of wished that he hadn't responded so fast.
"You don't have to lie to me. I've been lied to enough within the past few days to last me a lifetime. I don't need it from you..." said Anna.
Morty was silent. He remembered what Yoh said. Yoh distinctly said to not tell anyone about seeing him. He really didn't want to lie to Anna, yet he didn't want to break his promise to Yoh. "I'm telling the truth Anna. I stubbed my foot on a log outside; you might have heard me swear out loud...Well that's all I can think of at least."
Anna took a deep breath and carelessly responded "Whatever." Morty went over by her and they sat in silence.
Meanwhile, Yoh was going nowhere. He stopped back to a walk. The trees covered the night sky, making it even darker than it already was. Yoh could hardly see anything. He was actually half-expecting Ren to just pop up out of nowhere. He was pretty good at that. Actually, Yoh wasn't even necessarily expecting him. It was more of wanting him to. Which, Yoh was just getting his hopes up, because Ren never did come.
It was getting late, and Yoh was picking up a yawn. He was stranded in the middle of the forest. No food, no water, no shelter, no anything. He was completely miserable. Yoh finally decided to just sleep where he was. He curled up in a ball next to a large tree and drifted off into a painful, uneasy sleep.
The next morning came harsh. In fact it was barely dawn, when rain had begun to fall. Yoh's eyelids slowly eased open. The dirt around him was now a light mud. He was completely filthy, bloody, and wet. Not to mention he was cold, hungry, and all around depressed. He could not think of one thing to be happy about.
Yoh stood up and dusted himself off, although it didn't do much. He began walking some more, still not sure where he was going. After what seemed like hours, he finally found himself at Ren's place. He kind of wondered if Ren was inside. And even if he wasn't, then he could just clean himself up there at least.
Yoh walked up to the door and turned the brass handle. Inside the halls, he found nothing. Ren wasn't there. Which, of course, made sense? Why would Ren hide in a place where everyone could find him? He'd be a sitting duck. Yoh went up the stairs and into the bathroom.
His fragile hands turned the water knobs. The tub began to slowly fill with hot water. Yoh unbuttoned his jeans and slid his shirt off. He dipped his toes in the water and followed that with the rest of his body. The water completely engulfed him. He raised his head out of the water and took a long, deep breath. Yoh laid his head against the paneling and closed his eyes. While trying to think of something happy, he had almost drifted off to sleep. As he was relaxing himself through the steaming water, he suddenly thought of Anna. Before he had left to the marketplace, she had come inside the house all dazed and she fell unconscious for several hours. Why had he forgotten? That was something important, wasn't it? Yoh noticed that he had not been paying much to Anna lately anyways. Why would he, when all he could think of was...Ren? But the matter still remained. Yoh was still curious to know what was up.
Suddenly a sharp pain whipped through him. Yoh quickly clutched his neck. His fingers slid over his wound. The tooth marks from where Ren had bit him. It still hurt. He never noticed it until now. Yoh tried to take a slow, deep breath to try to make the pain cease. It finally did from what seemed like hours, though it was only a few seconds.
"That was strange..." Yoh whispered to himself.
He finished bathing and went off into Ren's bedroom. Yoh was kind of getting a little feeling of guilt, but he was desperate enough. He lay down and fell fast asleep.
His dream was vivid. Yoh almost felt as if he were actually there. Good thing he wasn't, however. Yoh found himself at the cemetery. Everything was black and white, and there was a light rain. This was all too familiar. Yoh was afraid to see what happened next, even though he already knew, he didn't want to be reminded. Sure enough, the grave with Ryu and the black umbrellas. The two unrecognizable people. The two colored roses. What did this all mean?
Yoh awoke with a jump start. The rain had stopped and it was nearing sunset. Had he slept that long? Sweat ran down his forehead as he recalled his dream. Yoh was feeling terrible. And for some reason, at that moment, he wanted nothing more in the world than Ren...
Enelya: YAY! Chapter 5 is DONE! ::throws confetti:: Ren: Thankfully it's over! You made me a complete crybaby! I wouldn't cry over that twerp! Yoh: But, but, but Ren-chan! I thought you loved me!! Ren: BAH! Humbug... Enelya: Well, according to MY story, you do love little Yoh-chan! ^_^ Ren: ERGH! Sometimes, E, I just want to hurt you! Enelya: But you'd never hurt little ol' me! ^_^ heh heh Ren: Don't test me... Yoh: OMG! Did I tell you guys? My ladybug flew away... Enelya: *hearts fill eyes and glomps Yoh* OMG! YOU ARE JUST TOO CUTE!! *^_^* Ren: HEY! That's MY job! *joins the glomping* Enelya: Until next time... PLEASE REVIEW!!
P.S. In case you haven't noticed, I have shortened all my chapters. You guys all complained that the chapters were too short, which I completely understand. The reason I did that in the first place was so I could update it more often for you guys. But I guess it doesn't make much difference, does it? Well, as you can see, I'm a bit slow in the head! ^_^; ha. But it's all good! ^_~ ~*Enelya Sindanarie*~
"Well?" Yoh pressed.
"Well, then that would completely destroy my purpose of being, wouldn't it?" Ren replied.
"What's that supposed to mean?" ask Yoh.
"What's that supposed to mean, you ask? I'd think you'd know this by now...I care for you. I care for you so deeply that I'd give my own existence just for you to be safe. I know you're pissed off at me, and it's eating me alive. I have no purpose to live except for you. But you won't understand that... I love you." Ren was shaking horribly.
Yoh was starting to feel sympathetic for him. He had never really been mad at anyone like this. Should he forgive him? What was he talking about? Ren killed one of his best friends, and now has all of his other friends against him! For what reason should he forgive him? But...Ren said he loved him...Ren wouldn't lie about something like that, would he? Yoh had no where to go, no one to turn to. He was all alone now. Yoh looked away from Ren. "How can I know you're telling the truth? I don't know you...not anymore."
"I knew you would say that." Ren's voice shook.
Yoh looked up and observed Ren. "...You're...crying...?"
"I can't blame you. Obviously, you won't believe me. I'm not going to stand here and beg you to forgive me, so I guess I'll bid you Adieu." Ren said. He turned around and began to walk away.
"Ren...wait." Yoh said.
Ren kept walking faster and faster until he picked up a run. He kept running until Yoh was out of sight.
Yoh stood there watching Ren run. He began thinking again. Had Ren been telling the truth? If he was, then Yoh had just turned him away. So now, Yoh definitely didn't have anyone. He slowly took a deep breath and turned around to begin walking towards the place he once called home.
Yoh peered through the windows of the old hotel. He saw Anna sitting by the table they always ate dinner at. He missed those days; he wanted them back more than anything at that moment. He didn't see Morty. Horo Horo was probably in the bathroom if anything. Ryu's gang wasn't there either. The warm feeling that was once there was lost, it felt cold, empty, dead. Has that much changed in such little time? Just barely a week ago, he was sitting at that table with Anna, Morty, Horo Horo, and...Ryu. But no matter how much Yoh thought and grieved about it, he refused to cry. He had done too much of that already. He wasn't a baby. He had grown, became much mature now.
He took a deep breathe and just watched Anna sit there, watching the wall. She was probably thinking of what just happened. He kind of wondered why she wasn't still at the police station. But he couldn't think about that. Yoh didn't want to admit it, but he kind of missed the feeling of being in Ren's arms. He couldn't go back to him; he didn't even know where Ren was! He wished he did though...What was he thinking? Was he crazy? He was in denial. All of a sudden he heard a stick crack behind him. Then there was a tense moment. Yoh slowly turned around, persuaded it was the Police. It wasn't however. It was Morty.
"Yoh, what are you doing here? We've been searching everywhere for you!" Morty exclaimed. Obviously he wasn't informed on what just happened. Yoh was scared, although he didn't want to admit it. He didn't want to have to tell Morty. Morty was all he had at that moment, and Yoh didn't want to lose that too.
"I..." Yoh began. "I...uh, Morty..." Yoh paused for a second. His stomach quenched and squirmed. He knew what he wanted to say. But it was what he should say that was the problem. "Morty, can you do me a favor?" Morty nodded, a little curiously. "Don't tell anyone you saw me. I'm serious...not a single soul"
"Would you mind if I asked why?" Morty spoke quietly.
"It's kind of a long story. I can't stay here though. I'm so sorry Morty. Thank you." Yoh sincerely said.
"I don't understand. What's going on? What happened, Yoh? You're my best friend, you can tell me..." Morty pushed.
Yoh took a moment to look at Morty. He wished he could tell him. But he couldn't get his heart to agree with his wishes at the time. "Listen Morty, a lot has happened within the past few days. My mind is spinning in so many directions right now, I can barely stand straight. But I have to get out of here. I'll come back to see you, I promise. I have to figure a few things out, myself. Bye, Morty." Yoh explained quietly. He gave Morty an assuring look and set back off into the forest.
Morty stood there dumbstruck. He still was trying to process what was going on. He was growing extremely worried for Yoh, but he also felt completely helpless. How was he going to help if Yoh jus kept shutting him out like that, like he was only a...child? Morty just shrugged his shoulders and went inside. He glanced over at Anna. "Hey Anna, need company?"
Anna didn't move. She continued to sit there as if she was ignoring him. After a few seconds she responded back. "Who were you talking to?"
"Huh? What are you talking about? I wasn't talking anyone." Morty quickly replied. He kind of wished that he hadn't responded so fast.
"You don't have to lie to me. I've been lied to enough within the past few days to last me a lifetime. I don't need it from you..." said Anna.
Morty was silent. He remembered what Yoh said. Yoh distinctly said to not tell anyone about seeing him. He really didn't want to lie to Anna, yet he didn't want to break his promise to Yoh. "I'm telling the truth Anna. I stubbed my foot on a log outside; you might have heard me swear out loud...Well that's all I can think of at least."
Anna took a deep breath and carelessly responded "Whatever." Morty went over by her and they sat in silence.
Meanwhile, Yoh was going nowhere. He stopped back to a walk. The trees covered the night sky, making it even darker than it already was. Yoh could hardly see anything. He was actually half-expecting Ren to just pop up out of nowhere. He was pretty good at that. Actually, Yoh wasn't even necessarily expecting him. It was more of wanting him to. Which, Yoh was just getting his hopes up, because Ren never did come.
It was getting late, and Yoh was picking up a yawn. He was stranded in the middle of the forest. No food, no water, no shelter, no anything. He was completely miserable. Yoh finally decided to just sleep where he was. He curled up in a ball next to a large tree and drifted off into a painful, uneasy sleep.
The next morning came harsh. In fact it was barely dawn, when rain had begun to fall. Yoh's eyelids slowly eased open. The dirt around him was now a light mud. He was completely filthy, bloody, and wet. Not to mention he was cold, hungry, and all around depressed. He could not think of one thing to be happy about.
Yoh stood up and dusted himself off, although it didn't do much. He began walking some more, still not sure where he was going. After what seemed like hours, he finally found himself at Ren's place. He kind of wondered if Ren was inside. And even if he wasn't, then he could just clean himself up there at least.
Yoh walked up to the door and turned the brass handle. Inside the halls, he found nothing. Ren wasn't there. Which, of course, made sense? Why would Ren hide in a place where everyone could find him? He'd be a sitting duck. Yoh went up the stairs and into the bathroom.
His fragile hands turned the water knobs. The tub began to slowly fill with hot water. Yoh unbuttoned his jeans and slid his shirt off. He dipped his toes in the water and followed that with the rest of his body. The water completely engulfed him. He raised his head out of the water and took a long, deep breath. Yoh laid his head against the paneling and closed his eyes. While trying to think of something happy, he had almost drifted off to sleep. As he was relaxing himself through the steaming water, he suddenly thought of Anna. Before he had left to the marketplace, she had come inside the house all dazed and she fell unconscious for several hours. Why had he forgotten? That was something important, wasn't it? Yoh noticed that he had not been paying much to Anna lately anyways. Why would he, when all he could think of was...Ren? But the matter still remained. Yoh was still curious to know what was up.
Suddenly a sharp pain whipped through him. Yoh quickly clutched his neck. His fingers slid over his wound. The tooth marks from where Ren had bit him. It still hurt. He never noticed it until now. Yoh tried to take a slow, deep breath to try to make the pain cease. It finally did from what seemed like hours, though it was only a few seconds.
"That was strange..." Yoh whispered to himself.
He finished bathing and went off into Ren's bedroom. Yoh was kind of getting a little feeling of guilt, but he was desperate enough. He lay down and fell fast asleep.
His dream was vivid. Yoh almost felt as if he were actually there. Good thing he wasn't, however. Yoh found himself at the cemetery. Everything was black and white, and there was a light rain. This was all too familiar. Yoh was afraid to see what happened next, even though he already knew, he didn't want to be reminded. Sure enough, the grave with Ryu and the black umbrellas. The two unrecognizable people. The two colored roses. What did this all mean?
Yoh awoke with a jump start. The rain had stopped and it was nearing sunset. Had he slept that long? Sweat ran down his forehead as he recalled his dream. Yoh was feeling terrible. And for some reason, at that moment, he wanted nothing more in the world than Ren...
Enelya: YAY! Chapter 5 is DONE! ::throws confetti:: Ren: Thankfully it's over! You made me a complete crybaby! I wouldn't cry over that twerp! Yoh: But, but, but Ren-chan! I thought you loved me!! Ren: BAH! Humbug... Enelya: Well, according to MY story, you do love little Yoh-chan! ^_^ Ren: ERGH! Sometimes, E, I just want to hurt you! Enelya: But you'd never hurt little ol' me! ^_^ heh heh Ren: Don't test me... Yoh: OMG! Did I tell you guys? My ladybug flew away... Enelya: *hearts fill eyes and glomps Yoh* OMG! YOU ARE JUST TOO CUTE!! *^_^* Ren: HEY! That's MY job! *joins the glomping* Enelya: Until next time... PLEASE REVIEW!!
P.S. In case you haven't noticed, I have shortened all my chapters. You guys all complained that the chapters were too short, which I completely understand. The reason I did that in the first place was so I could update it more often for you guys. But I guess it doesn't make much difference, does it? Well, as you can see, I'm a bit slow in the head! ^_^; ha. But it's all good! ^_~ ~*Enelya Sindanarie*~