This Love
Sirius Song Fic
Summary: A series of flashback Sirius is having about a girl her met at school.
I was so high I did not recognize
The fire burning in her eyes
The chaos that controlled my mind
Whispered goodbye and she got on a plane
Never to return again
But always in my heart
I remember the way her hair fluttered in front of her eyes when she was looking into my eyes. Something under her lids screamed danger, but I couldn't help it. She had me. I remember rushing forward to kiss her lips. Oh her lips. Beautiful light pink, always inviting me. Suddenly she was pushing me away. I'm sure my mouth was hanging wide open. She smiled her devilish smile and pulled me down by my shirt collar. Then she worked her way to my ear and whispered "Goodbye." All at once I saw her walking away. It was so easy for her. I should have known it was trouble.
This love has taken its toll on me
She said Goodbye too many times before
And her heart is breaking in front of me
I have no choice cause I won't say goodbye anymore
Every time we parted it was the same. Nothing phased her the way it did me. This girl had control of me. I remember once trying to be the one would leave first. As I walked away I made the mistake of looking back. Her eyes were clouded with tears and I had to rush back to her. I knew I wasn't going to be the one to say goodbye. I didn't want to hurt her, though she did want to hurt me.
I tried my best to feed her appetite
Keep her coming every night
So hard to keep her satisfied
Kept playing love like it was just a game
Pretending to feel the same
Then turn around and leave again
Her every command was carried out. She wanted everything and nothing at the same time and I was to give it to her. The perfect balance of teasing and romance appealed to her although I could never get it quite right. She was never serious. "I love you" was a wonderful joke with her. She would laugh her melodious laugh leaving me startled and confused each time. Then she would walk away.
This love has taken its toll on me
She said Goodbye too many times before
And her heart is breaking in front of me
I have no choice cause I won't say goodbye anymore
I was in love with her and her unsteady heart would not decide. Or she would not let it. Sometimes I thought she was about to slip. To show me something she really felt. Every time she would just leave and I was addicted. All I could do was watch her walk away and hope she would be coming back again.
I'll fix these broken things
Repair your broken wings
And make sure everything's alright
My pressure on her hips
Sinking my fingertips
Into every inch of you
Cause I know that's what you want me to do
Some times she would seem to be hiding something. She was almost sorrowful. I never had a chance to find out why, but I always tried to fix it. I would hold her like I would never let go even though I knew she was to leave soon. Just like always.
This love has taken its toll on me
She said Goodbye too many times before
And her heart is breaking in front of me
I have no choice cause I won't say goodbye anymore
And now I still think about her. After school ended she disappeared. My owls have never been returned. I hope that she read them. I imagine she would laugh richly at the romance of them. Maybe after she was done she would let them flutter into the trash and walk away. That seemed to be the only thing she knew how to do. Just leave. I wish I could leave her, but even so much later and I still with her.
Summary: A series of flashback Sirius is having about a girl her met at school.
I was so high I did not recognize
The fire burning in her eyes
The chaos that controlled my mind
Whispered goodbye and she got on a plane
Never to return again
But always in my heart
I remember the way her hair fluttered in front of her eyes when she was looking into my eyes. Something under her lids screamed danger, but I couldn't help it. She had me. I remember rushing forward to kiss her lips. Oh her lips. Beautiful light pink, always inviting me. Suddenly she was pushing me away. I'm sure my mouth was hanging wide open. She smiled her devilish smile and pulled me down by my shirt collar. Then she worked her way to my ear and whispered "Goodbye." All at once I saw her walking away. It was so easy for her. I should have known it was trouble.
This love has taken its toll on me
She said Goodbye too many times before
And her heart is breaking in front of me
I have no choice cause I won't say goodbye anymore
Every time we parted it was the same. Nothing phased her the way it did me. This girl had control of me. I remember once trying to be the one would leave first. As I walked away I made the mistake of looking back. Her eyes were clouded with tears and I had to rush back to her. I knew I wasn't going to be the one to say goodbye. I didn't want to hurt her, though she did want to hurt me.
I tried my best to feed her appetite
Keep her coming every night
So hard to keep her satisfied
Kept playing love like it was just a game
Pretending to feel the same
Then turn around and leave again
Her every command was carried out. She wanted everything and nothing at the same time and I was to give it to her. The perfect balance of teasing and romance appealed to her although I could never get it quite right. She was never serious. "I love you" was a wonderful joke with her. She would laugh her melodious laugh leaving me startled and confused each time. Then she would walk away.
This love has taken its toll on me
She said Goodbye too many times before
And her heart is breaking in front of me
I have no choice cause I won't say goodbye anymore
I was in love with her and her unsteady heart would not decide. Or she would not let it. Sometimes I thought she was about to slip. To show me something she really felt. Every time she would just leave and I was addicted. All I could do was watch her walk away and hope she would be coming back again.
I'll fix these broken things
Repair your broken wings
And make sure everything's alright
My pressure on her hips
Sinking my fingertips
Into every inch of you
Cause I know that's what you want me to do
Some times she would seem to be hiding something. She was almost sorrowful. I never had a chance to find out why, but I always tried to fix it. I would hold her like I would never let go even though I knew she was to leave soon. Just like always.
This love has taken its toll on me
She said Goodbye too many times before
And her heart is breaking in front of me
I have no choice cause I won't say goodbye anymore
And now I still think about her. After school ended she disappeared. My owls have never been returned. I hope that she read them. I imagine she would laugh richly at the romance of them. Maybe after she was done she would let them flutter into the trash and walk away. That seemed to be the only thing she knew how to do. Just leave. I wish I could leave her, but even so much later and I still with her.