Giving In
You all wanna know what happens to Hiei? well read and you'll find out!
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He feels the razor cut into his skin. It felt so good to feel the pain that he has caused to himself. Hiei's eyes roll back into his head, and he let's out a small laugh. He felt so dead inside that any feeling to him was good. Blood went everywhere after cutting both wrist, he sits on the bathroom floor waiting to the final minute where he takes his last breath. Knowing that this would be his final hour, maybe even less. Letting the blood just flow from his wrist, Hiei becoming very weak and pale. The voice in his head keeps on telling him things, and Hiei listens. Because what else did he have in his life.
"Good Hiei, now it won't be long until your dead" The voice laughs evilly.
"Please I don't want to die" Hiei realizing that what he did was wrong.He begins to panic knowing that he'll never make it in time. It was to late. But he knew if he never tried to save his life then he himself would fail.
Crawling to the kitchen trying to get to a phone. Hiei's body goes into a state of shock. He holds the deep wounds close to his body hoping that maybe the blood would stop. He has lost so much blood already he could barely reach the phone. His bloody heads pull him up to the counter and Hiei picks up the phone. Only to fall to the fall shortly after. So dizzy Hiei couldn't read the numbers on the phone. He knew he was dieing and fast, he felt his whole body giving in. After what seemed forever Hiei dials 9-1-1. He lies on the floor and could barely speak to the woman on the other line.
"9-1-1 how may I help you?" She says
"help me I'm dieing" Hiei whispers he was just to weak.
"Sir your going to have to speak up" she couldn't even hear him.
"I'M DIEING" Hiei screams out then passes out with the phone still in his hand.
Soon after the phone call the ambulance goes to Hiei apartment. Only
to find that it was to late, Hiei's heart had stopped just minutes before
then arrived. Trying so hard to revive him, they get a small but very weak
pulse. Starting a I.V the paramedics take Hiei off on a Stretcher. Hoping that he'll Survive long enough to make it to the Hospital. On the ride to the hospital Hiei wakes up. All he could see was flash of lights and hear faint sounds. He looks at the paramedic that is by his side.
"Am I going to the live" he mumbles and starts to cry. Tears flow off to the side of his cheeks. He was ashamed and embarrasst that he was crying, but there was nothing he could do. His hands were tied down so he wouldn't try to get lose. What he did was so stupid and only shows how weak in the heart he had become.
"Yes your going to be ok sir" The paramedic looks away even he wasn't so sure. Hiei had lost so much blood. There was still a good chance that he wouldn't make it.
After what seemed like forever they make it to the hospital. It takes them another hour or so to clean up Hiei and Stitch up his wounds. Because Hiei had tried to commit Suicide Hiei was put under observation. The gang was nowhere to be found, and Hiei was wide wake. He sits on his hospital bed thinking maybe he shouldn't have called 9-1-1. At least the voice hadn't come back yet. It gave him a chance to rest his tried soul. A part of him also wanted a drink to Relieve the pain. Staring out the window he felt so alone and unloved. Hiei knows he's difficult to be around and pushes people away when he really wants them close to him. But this time he was reaching out only to find there was none to reach for.
Hours had past and still no sign of the Yusuke and the gang. Hiei drifts into a deep sleep. Kurama comes into Hiei's room he was going to visit Hiei once more, just to convince Hiei that what he was doing was wrong. Only to find out that Hiei had been rushed to the hospital. Kurama goes up to Hiei's bed and looks at his old friend. Kurama wasn't mad at what Hiei had done, he was just happy to see that his good friend was ok. He pulls up a chair near Hiei and puts his head on his forehead.
"Everything will be ok" Kurama whispers to Hiei softly. He leans back in his chair and takes a look around him. Hiei was hooked up to all these machines and I.V's for blood. It wasn't a pretty site. Kurama hadn't told to others what had happened, he wanted to wait until Hiei could explain why he did what he did. His green eyes just stare at Hiei thinking maybe he would wake so they could talk.
"Fox is that you?" Hiei opens his eyes and looks at Kurama."What the hell are you doing here? none asked you to come. I don't need you" Hiei snaps at Kurama. Even tho he was emotionally drained, he still had enough energy to speak.
"I only came because I thought you needed my help. Don't be this way Hiei, not now" Kruama says in a calm an caring way.
"What I did was my problem not yours, so just leave me alone" he looks away from Kurama.
"Fine if that's what you want" Kurama gets up and goes to the door. "Just remember that you do have people that care about you Hiei. There are times in your life where you have to let down your guard an let us help you" Kurama leaves Hiei. Maybe Hiei just needed sometime to think about what he had done. All Hiei wanted to do was go home and pick up where he had left off. A lonely and drunken man. He wanted to feel the hurt that he had done to his sister. Being alone so he couldn't hurt anyone, being alone so he couldn't love anyone.
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Well that was chapter 2 what did you think of it?
Here's a song that I thought went well with this chapter
Hurt by Johnny Cash:
I hurt myself today
to see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
the only thing that's real
the needle tears a hole
the old familiar sting
try to kill it all away
but I remember everything
what have I become?
my sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end
you could have it all
my empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
I wear my crown of shit
on my liars chair
full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
beneath the stain of time
the feeling disappears
you are someone else
I am still right here
what have i become?
my sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end
you could have it all
my empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
if i could start again
a million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way
You all wanna know what happens to Hiei? well read and you'll find out!
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He feels the razor cut into his skin. It felt so good to feel the pain that he has caused to himself. Hiei's eyes roll back into his head, and he let's out a small laugh. He felt so dead inside that any feeling to him was good. Blood went everywhere after cutting both wrist, he sits on the bathroom floor waiting to the final minute where he takes his last breath. Knowing that this would be his final hour, maybe even less. Letting the blood just flow from his wrist, Hiei becoming very weak and pale. The voice in his head keeps on telling him things, and Hiei listens. Because what else did he have in his life.
"Good Hiei, now it won't be long until your dead" The voice laughs evilly.
"Please I don't want to die" Hiei realizing that what he did was wrong.He begins to panic knowing that he'll never make it in time. It was to late. But he knew if he never tried to save his life then he himself would fail.
Crawling to the kitchen trying to get to a phone. Hiei's body goes into a state of shock. He holds the deep wounds close to his body hoping that maybe the blood would stop. He has lost so much blood already he could barely reach the phone. His bloody heads pull him up to the counter and Hiei picks up the phone. Only to fall to the fall shortly after. So dizzy Hiei couldn't read the numbers on the phone. He knew he was dieing and fast, he felt his whole body giving in. After what seemed forever Hiei dials 9-1-1. He lies on the floor and could barely speak to the woman on the other line.
"9-1-1 how may I help you?" She says
"help me I'm dieing" Hiei whispers he was just to weak.
"Sir your going to have to speak up" she couldn't even hear him.
"I'M DIEING" Hiei screams out then passes out with the phone still in his hand.
Soon after the phone call the ambulance goes to Hiei apartment. Only
to find that it was to late, Hiei's heart had stopped just minutes before
then arrived. Trying so hard to revive him, they get a small but very weak
pulse. Starting a I.V the paramedics take Hiei off on a Stretcher. Hoping that he'll Survive long enough to make it to the Hospital. On the ride to the hospital Hiei wakes up. All he could see was flash of lights and hear faint sounds. He looks at the paramedic that is by his side.
"Am I going to the live" he mumbles and starts to cry. Tears flow off to the side of his cheeks. He was ashamed and embarrasst that he was crying, but there was nothing he could do. His hands were tied down so he wouldn't try to get lose. What he did was so stupid and only shows how weak in the heart he had become.
"Yes your going to be ok sir" The paramedic looks away even he wasn't so sure. Hiei had lost so much blood. There was still a good chance that he wouldn't make it.
After what seemed like forever they make it to the hospital. It takes them another hour or so to clean up Hiei and Stitch up his wounds. Because Hiei had tried to commit Suicide Hiei was put under observation. The gang was nowhere to be found, and Hiei was wide wake. He sits on his hospital bed thinking maybe he shouldn't have called 9-1-1. At least the voice hadn't come back yet. It gave him a chance to rest his tried soul. A part of him also wanted a drink to Relieve the pain. Staring out the window he felt so alone and unloved. Hiei knows he's difficult to be around and pushes people away when he really wants them close to him. But this time he was reaching out only to find there was none to reach for.
Hours had past and still no sign of the Yusuke and the gang. Hiei drifts into a deep sleep. Kurama comes into Hiei's room he was going to visit Hiei once more, just to convince Hiei that what he was doing was wrong. Only to find out that Hiei had been rushed to the hospital. Kurama goes up to Hiei's bed and looks at his old friend. Kurama wasn't mad at what Hiei had done, he was just happy to see that his good friend was ok. He pulls up a chair near Hiei and puts his head on his forehead.
"Everything will be ok" Kurama whispers to Hiei softly. He leans back in his chair and takes a look around him. Hiei was hooked up to all these machines and I.V's for blood. It wasn't a pretty site. Kurama hadn't told to others what had happened, he wanted to wait until Hiei could explain why he did what he did. His green eyes just stare at Hiei thinking maybe he would wake so they could talk.
"Fox is that you?" Hiei opens his eyes and looks at Kurama."What the hell are you doing here? none asked you to come. I don't need you" Hiei snaps at Kurama. Even tho he was emotionally drained, he still had enough energy to speak.
"I only came because I thought you needed my help. Don't be this way Hiei, not now" Kruama says in a calm an caring way.
"What I did was my problem not yours, so just leave me alone" he looks away from Kurama.
"Fine if that's what you want" Kurama gets up and goes to the door. "Just remember that you do have people that care about you Hiei. There are times in your life where you have to let down your guard an let us help you" Kurama leaves Hiei. Maybe Hiei just needed sometime to think about what he had done. All Hiei wanted to do was go home and pick up where he had left off. A lonely and drunken man. He wanted to feel the hurt that he had done to his sister. Being alone so he couldn't hurt anyone, being alone so he couldn't love anyone.
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Well that was chapter 2 what did you think of it?
Here's a song that I thought went well with this chapter
Hurt by Johnny Cash:
I hurt myself today
to see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
the only thing that's real
the needle tears a hole
the old familiar sting
try to kill it all away
but I remember everything
what have I become?
my sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end
you could have it all
my empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
I wear my crown of shit
on my liars chair
full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
beneath the stain of time
the feeling disappears
you are someone else
I am still right here
what have i become?
my sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end
you could have it all
my empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
if i could start again
a million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way