Sorry it's been so long... my computer is being a dumbass and not letting us reinstall roadrunner so I'm on my brother's computer. We had to do the recovery CD on my computer because there so too much stuff on it and it deleted everything and now we got screwed over because the people at roadrunner say we can't get it again. * cries* I'm sorry to let you all down by not updating faster.
Disclaimer- I don't own Inu and co.
Chapter 10- Kagome's story
" So Kagome, how old are you?" Inu Yasha questioned looking at me.
" Around 550 I guess, I kind of lost track after 325," I stated, " you?"
" 556 last week," he stated as I looked at him.
" So, we've both been alive for over 500 years and we just now meet each other?" I questioned as he shurruged.
" That's not cool, is it?" he questioned resting his head on my shoulder, " tell me about your life."
" There's alot to tell, but what I tell you might jolt your memory," I stated, " alot."
" I don't care, tell me," he said as I nodded.
*************Flashback 532 ( her true 18th b-day) ************
" Papa, where are we going?" I questioned as he looked down at me.
" We are going to see Inu Tashio, the lord of the West about your marraige to there youngest son," he stated.
" Do I have to get married? I would like to pick my own person to marry," I stated as he smiled.
" I wish you could Sapphire but you see, you are roylalty and you must have someone of your status to marry," he explained as I dropped my head as we made it to the gates.
" We are here, please behave I don't want to get yelled at for your disrespectfulness," he stated.
" Yes Papa," I stated as Lord Inu Tashio greeted us and showed us in.
" Is this the fine young princess I have been hearing so much about?" he questioned taking my hand in his.
" It is an honor to meet you Mi'lord," I said bowing respectfully as a man around the age of 20 walked up.
" Ah yes, Sesshomaru, please show Sapphire to Inu," he stated as Sesshomaru glared but did as he was told.
" Stupid human," he spat showing me to a room.
" Yeah, whatever," I stated as he turned and glared at me.
" You dare disrepect me of all people? The heir to the Western lands? What gives you a right?" he questioned about to grab me but someone came out of the door and stopped him.
" Now now Fluffy, contain your anger," he taunted looking at me.
" You have guest and she disrespected me, she deserves death," he spat as I leaned against the door.
" You insulted me first, calling me a human when I'm not even one," I stated as the younger man took me into his room.
" Sorry about that, my brother has a big ego," he stated with a smile, " my name is Inu Yasha, what's yours?"
" Sapphire Kagome Higurashi, of the Eastern lands," I stated with a bow but he stopped me.
" No need to do that," he stated taking me over to the window.
" Wow, it's pretty," I stated as he watched the sunset.
" You want to know something?" he questioned causing me to look at him.
" What is it?" I asked as he looked at me with a smile.
" I'm not ready to get married, I may be the proper age but I just don't feel like it you know?" he questioned as I nodded.
" I know what you mean, my father dragged me along so I could meet you and get us married," I stated as we both smiled.
" So,we both agree then, if we are to get married then we should wait so we know each other better, right?" he questioned as I nodded with a grin on my face. Just then the door opened and our fathers walked in.
" I see you to have met," my father said with a smirk.
" Yes, and we have come to a conclusion," I stated looking at Inu Yasha by my side.
" Yes, and what is this?" Inu Taisho asked.
" That if we are to marry that we wait until we know each other better and to get comfortable with each other around," he stated as they nodded.
" Of course," both the fathers said. I looked towards Inu Yasha and we both smiled as the fathers left leaving me alone with him.
" Now what?" I questioned as we both walked out onto the balcony.
" Now, tell me alittle about yourself," he said taking my hand in his.
" Alright, my name is Sapphire Kagome Higurashi, I just turned 18, I have a younger brother who is 16," I stated as he nodded.
" My name is Inu Yasha, I have an older brother who is a jerk, I'm 19," he stated as we started to talk the night away.
******one year later**********
My father was walking me up the aisle as I saw Inu Yasha come into view and I blushed when he smiled at me. I was wearing a midnight blue kimono as I reached him and he took my hand in his. We went through the ceremony until we got to the very end when the back door busted open to reviel a demon standing there with a fan to her face.
" Am I inturupting something, I'm so sorry but I seem to have some buisness to attant to with the bride," she laughed as Inu Yasha stepped in front of me protectively.
" I don't think so," he snapped grabbing his sword lundging at her. She dodged and attacked him as guests ran out of the shrine.
" Inu Yasha, be careful," I whispered as he kissed my forehead before walking up to her. The only problem was, she was only a distraction and I felt someone grab me from behind and I screamed.
" Sapphire!" Inu Yasha yelled.
" Don't forget about me!" I yelled as we vanished. When I woke up I was chained to the wall and I glared at the person in front of me, " who are you?"
" Spunky little one aren't you? You can blaim your father for this, he's the one who told me I could have your hand in marraige," he stated kissing my hand.
" Don't touch me!" I growled as I started to glow purple and he pulled away.
" Stupid Immortal bitch, you will learn your place," he snapped slapping me across the face as he walked out. I smirked as I make my hands transparent and they came out of the chains. I walked out of the dungean and ran for dear life. It was dark out so nobody would be able to see me but I didn't know where I was. I saw the sun starting to come up and I felt my hands start to burn so I hid in a cave to clean my wounds.
" What did he do to me?" I questioned holding my hands in pain.
" Who is there?" I heard someone ask as I turned around to see a man with short black hair back in a ponytail.
" Sapphire," I stated as he looked at me with hunger in his eyes.
" You human?" he asked pinning me against the wall.
" No, I don't know what I am anymore," I stated as a tear slid down my face, " I can't go into the sun."
" I vampire then, like me? Who did this to you?" he asked releaseing me showing me to the back of the cave where his den was.
" Naraku, the King of the Northern lands," I stated as he turned around to look at me.
" I see, he did this to you as well? He will pay for this. So, you want to join forces with me and try to stop him? he questioned and I nodded.
" If it will get me back to my mate soon," I stated.
" Who is he?" he asked.
" Inu Yasha, of the westernlands," I said as he nodded.
" We can try, by the way, my name is Miroku," he said as we shook hands.
********* 200 years later******************
" Still no sign of him?" I questioned hanging from a building by a rope.
" No, I don't see him, lets go!" Miroku yelled pulling me up back to the building.
" I never knew tracking down one person would lead us on a wild goose chase to America, did you?" I questioned as he shook his head, " shall we go then?"
" We shall," he said as we started to walked, " you still trying to find your mate?"
" Of course, I'm not just going to give up on it, I love him," I stated.
" Do you even remember his name?" he questioned causing me to look at him.
" What do you mean?" I questioned.
" Kagome, you have changed alot over theses years, I know alot of people who just forget, do you remember his name?" he questioned.
" Inu," I stated as he nodded.
" Good," he said as we dissapeared into the night. We wondered around until we made it to the airport and booked a flight back to Japan that night.
* Inu Yasha, why can't I find you? I have been around for 200 years now looking for you and I can't find you, I can't find the palace anymore, were you just a dream?* I asked myself sitting on the bench next to Miroku.
" Sapphire," I heard someone say in an emotionless tone of voice and I looked up to see none other than Sesshomaru, Inu Yasha's older brother.
" Sesshomaru!" I stated running to him. I hugged him and he hugged me back as I pulled away and looked at him.
" What are you doing still alive?" he questioned.
" I'm a vampire, Naraku turned me into one the night I was taken away and I've been searching for you guys ever since," I stated.
" You mean you couldn't find the castle?" he questioned as I shook my head, " that's because we hid it."
" Why?" I questioned. * Stupid question*
" We did not want Naraku to attack again, nor did we want your father anywhere near us," he stated as my eye's widened.
" My father?" I questioned as he nodded.
" You didn't know? Your father made a deal with Naraku, they planned the whole thing. Your father was power hungery and Naraku knew that you possessed the Shikon No Tama. They made a pact behind our back so that he would ruin the wedding, get you to fall in love with Naraku and he would have the jewel," he explained as I dug my nails into the palm of my hands.
" Where is Inu Yasha?" I questioned as he looked at me.
" He is with a girl named Kikyo, I belive he has moved on," he stated walking away as I fell to my knee's.
" No," I whispered as Miroku put a comforting hand on my shoulder.
" It will be alright, let us go," he said as we both got on the plane leaving America to go back to Japan. Once we were back in Japan we went to our den and went to sleep since it was morning. Once it was night I went out patroling.
" Well, well, well, if it isn't the slayer, come back for alittle fun?" I heard someone questioned as I looked around to see Narkau.
" Go to Hell," I yelled lundging at him. I missed and his claw made contact with my side as I fell over.
" Now, to finish what I started," he laughed biting my neck again. I screamed in pain and a little girl came running causing Naraku to vanish as she ran to me.
" Miss, are you going to be okay?" she questioned helping me up. I opened my eye's alittle as she started to take me somewhere.
" Please, you don't have to do this," I stated.
" My mommy always told me that if you see someone hurt you should help them," she said as we reached a shrine. She took me inside as the sun began to rise. She closed all the curtains in the house and started to treat my wounds.
" What is your name?" I questioned as she smiled up at me.
" Rin," she said placing a cold cloth on my wounded side.
" Do you know what I am?" I questioned as she nodded.
" Your a vampire, I don't have anybody to live with except my mommy but she has become ill, unless you want to count the idiot Kikyo who is never here" she stated as a tear slid down her face.
" It'll be alright," I stated standing up, " could you take me to her?"
She walked me up the stairs and into her mothers room where she lay in the bed asleep until we walked in.
" Rin, who is your friend?" she questioned rolling over.
" I don't know, I found her in the park and she was hurt so I brought her home to you!" she exclaimed as I walked up to her. She got wide eye's and started to go to the other side of the bed.
" Don't worry, I'm not going to hurt you, I promise, I just want to help, I have been told you are sick and I would like to help you if I may," I stated as she nodded. I walked up to her and placed my hand on her forehead. I consentrated my power into my hand and into her. She was cured instantly.
" Your a miko," she stated.
" A miko without training I'm afraid," I stated.
" I'll train you, I'm Keade, I see you have met my adopted dauhter Rin. It is the least I can do," she stated as I nodded.
********** 50 years later************
I stood in the back with a black cloak over my head as I looked at the coffin in the front of the church.
" Farewell Keade," I stated throwing a rose onto the ground walking out of the church.
" Kagome," I heard from behind me as I turned to see Rin.
" Rin," I said as she ran to me.
" I haven't seen you in so long child, or should I say grandma?" she questioned with a short laugh.
" I have been elsewhere but I came to pay my repects to my master," I stated turning around.
" I hope to see you soon," she said as I walked away. I sighed as I walked to the Shrine that Keade had left me. I had found my brother over the years and he hadn't changed a bit, I had heard that my parents got a divorce after my mother found out about the pact and then Naraku killed her three years later, I had also went to her funeral. I hid in the back of course but the only people I knew there was Souta and Inu Taisho. He didn't remember me or if he did he didn't say anything.
" Hey Kagome, do you think that anything will be back to normal?" he questioned as I took off my cloak closing the door behind me.
" I don't know, I hope," I stated walking to my room. When I woke up the next morning I couldn't find Souta. I found a note in the kitchen with Naraku's handwriting on it stating that he had taken my brother back to America with my father, which I came to believe.
**********End flashback************
" I still remember it like yesterday that everything happened," I whispered looking over at Inu Yasha who looked at me.
" I can't believe it, all this looking and you were here all along," he stated as I nodded.
" I eventually forgot about you until I ran into your brother in America this past year and he jogged my memory," I stated as he placed a ring on my finger. It was the engagement ring that I had given back.
" So you remember, this ring was yours so long ago," he whispered as I nodded.
" How can I forget?" I questioned straddleing his hips as he looked at me. He pushed a lock of hair behind my ear as he kissed my cheek then made his way to my lips. He kissed me passionately as I responded to the kiss as our tongues battled for dominance. I let him win as he explored my mouth with his tongue pushing me back onto the ground as I heard the doorknob unlock. We sat up and quickly turned on the TV to act like nothing happened as Souta walked in.
" Hey Kagome, hey Inu Yasha," he stated shutting the door.
" Hello Souta, have fun at work?" I questioned, my heart still racing from the powerful kiss.
" Sure, as fun as it will ever be," he stated walking upstairs. Once he was out of the room Inu Yasha and I looked at each other and then busted out laughing.
" Oh that was priceless," I said between laughs.
" It really was," he said helping me up, " I want to take you somewhere."
" Okay," I said as we walked out the door. We walked into the forest until we got to the place where the western castle was along time ago, " why are we here?"
" You'll see," he said chanting a spell as the castle appeared in front of us. He took my hand in his and took me inside as I saw Inu Tashio.
" Inu Yasha, I haven't seen you in around 300 years, what brings you and your lady friend here?" he questioned as we walked up to him.
" Father, I came back to show you who I found," he said gesturing to me.
" Have we met?" he questioned taking my hand in his.
" It is nice to meet you Mi'lord," I stated bowing politely. He looked at me shock in his eyes.
"Lady Sapphire?" he questioned as Inu Yasha let go of my hand and Inu Tashio hugged me.
" I didn't even say my name and you remembered me, I feel honored," I stated as he pulled away from me.
" I only know one girl who called me Mi'lord and not master or such, of course I would remember you," he stated with a smile as I took Inu Yasha's hand in mine once again.
" So, that day of the wedding, what happened to you?" he questioned as I looked at the ground.
" When I woke up I was chained to a wall but I got out and ran. I found out that Naraku turned me into a vampire. I did change back to normal when Inu Yasha killed him by trying to kill me but he has sucky aim," I stated.
" Hey!" Inu Yasha yelled from my side as I smiled sweetly at him.
" Anyways, Naraku is back because some great evil resurected him and he turned me into a vampire again and buried me alive," I stated as Inu Tashios mouth dropped.
" Are you serious?" he questioned motioning for us to sit down. We did and Inu Yasha switched his hold to my waist.
" Yes, he is back and after me once again but this time he has help. It seems that all these years that my father has been possessed by Naraku and now he has Kikyo to help him," I said.
" And how does she fit into this?" he questioned looking from Inu Yasha to me then back again.
" She stole half of Kagome's soul and is out to get the rest, she wants it to get to me," he explained.
" Who is Kagome?" he questioned.
" I am, I changed my name after about 200 years. Whenever I would say my name was Sapphire people would know me and I wanted to keep a low profile so nobody would know me so I went by my middle name," I explained as he nodded.
" So, explain the reason you came here?" he stated looking at Inu Yasha.
" I want your permission for marriage," he said as I looked at him.
" Oro?"( means huh) I questioned as he looked at me.
" That's stupid, you know you would have my blessing," he said with a smile.
" I want to know if you saw something wierd at my mother funeral a few years back," I said as he nodded.
" Yes, indeed I did. I believe there was a black hooded figure in the back of the church but I don't see what this has to do with anything," he said as I nodded.
" That was me," I said as he looked at me strangely.
" Why didn't you stay and talk to us?" he questioned as I looked at my lap.
" I didn't think you would remember me and I was still kind of pissed of at Inu Yasha for going out with Kikyo," I explained as he nodded.
" That explains alot, if you were the hooded figure then I have seen you around alot lately, like in America when your father and me made a deal," he said and I nodded, " would you two like to stay the night here? It will be safer than going back to your place if Naraku is truely after you," he stated as we nodded. He showed us to a room and we settled in. I took off my jaket to reviel my black spagetti stapped tank top and took off my shoes as I climbed into bed.
" Kagome," Inu Yasha whispered laying next to me. I rolled over and smiled up at him as he took me in his arms and kissed my forehead.
" Together again," I whispered as he ran a clawed hand through my hair.
" Hai," he said as I laid my head on his chest.
" Good night," I whispered falling asleep in his arms. I woke up to the sun on my face and I tried to sit up but failed.
" In the story you told me last night you didn't tell me how you met Kikyo," he stated as I sighed.
" Do you really want to know?" I questioned as he nodded.
*********Flashback 243 years***************
I was inside the dojo that night practicing with Keade when I heard the door open and I girl who looked alot like me walked in.
" Keade, he kissed me, Inu Yasha accually kissed me!" she exclaimed as I dropped my bow to the ground.
" Was it on the lips?" she questioned as Kikyo looked to the ground.
" No, it was on the forehead, he said that he can't kiss my lips because he has a fiance," she stated sadly as I smirked.
" Then why are you going out with him?" I questioned as she looked at me.
" Because he has this really cool jewel called the Shikon No Tama that belonged to his fiance and I want it for myself," she stated in selfish greed.
" That's gay," I stated picking up my bow once again nodging the arrow.
" Is not!" she yelled running up to me tackleing me to the ground.
" If it's not gay then why are you so mad at me?" I questioned as she pounched me in the gut.
" Just for that I'm going to steal part of your soul to teach you a lesson child," she snapped chanting under her breath as an unbearable pain started in my chest. I screamed in pain and fell unconsious.
*********End flashback**********
" I never figured out why she never aged," Inu Yasha said.
" It's because I'm immortal which means I have the same life span as a demon and since she has half of my soul she got that ability," I stated looking at him.
" I understand," he said flipping me over so he was leaning over me. He inched closer as his lips brushed against mine causing shivers to go down my spine with his hot breath on my face, " you don't know how much I missed you."
" I think I do," I whispered back closing the space between us as his hand ran up and down my side causing me to moan. I placed my arms around his neck drawing him closer to me as our tongues stated to battle. I loved the feeling that shot through me. ( i don't know what it is like to kiss because I'm sweet 16 and never been kissed, so yeah) He pulled away from me and kissed my nose playfully.
" Love ya," he said standing up. I put my shoes and jacket back on as he came up behind me placing his arms around my shoulders. He started to sway back and forth and I followed his movements from side to side. I closed my eye's and got lost in his touch standing there slow dancing with him. We didn't need music, it was just a thing that happened.
" If I remember correctly, we did this before," I stated as he laughed.
" You have a good memory," I stated as he kissed my neck, " if I remember correctly you also loved to kiss my neck."
" That's because something was always missing," he stated as I felt one of his fangs on my neck. I sighed as we stopped when someone knocked on the door. It opened to reviel Inu Taisho standing there in all his glory.
" You up to something to eat?" he questioned us as I lowered my head.
" I can't, food doesn't agree with me," I whispered as they looked at me.
" We really better get going," Inu Yasha said as he nodded. We walked to the front door and with a final good-bye left. We walked to the park and Inu Yasha pulled me onto his lap and rolled up his sleeve alittle. I disrguarded it and laid my head on his chest, " drink."
" I can't," I stated as he lifted his wrist to my mouth.
" You need it," he whispered as I felt myself become faint.
" I can't," I stated again as he slit his wrist with his claw. He forced my mouth open placing his wrist in the way as he forced my mouth on it.
" You can't live without feeding and you couldn't go out last night and do it so you will have some of mine," he stated sternly as I began to drink alitte. I pulled away about ten seconds later as I used my miko powers to heal his wound.
" I'm sorry, where were you in your story? How did you get the jewel back?" he questioned.
************Flashback*********************
I walked into the dojo to train when I walked in I saw Kikyo and someone who looked firmiliar.
" Good day," he said as I smiled at him.
" Good day to you as well good sir," I greeted with a slight bow. I saw that he had a small jewel around his neck and I went up to him glently taking it in my hands. In an almost harsh voice I asked, " where did you get this?"
" It's my fiances," he said making me let go of it.
" If it's your fiances then does that mean that it belongs to Kikyo, from what I've hearc you are so in love," I mocked as he glared at me.
" Don't make fun of Sapphire like that, she's my wife," he growled.
" Oh, my bad, because from what I've heard you've been doing some naughty things with Kikyo that I don't think Sapphire Higurashi would like," I stated launching one of my arrows that hit the target dead center.
" How do you know her?" he questioned walking up to me. I hid my face furthur back inside my black cloak, " why do you where this wierd thing?"
" She has to, she a vampire," Kikyo stated.
" Well, someone who is not alive should learn there place," he stated grabbing my arm painfully.
" What are you doing?" I questioned as he took me to the door and was about to open it when someone hit him from behind.
" Mir! What are you doing? Get out of here!" I yelled as Inu Yasha whipped around to glare at the intruter.
" You dare insult Inu Yasha?" Kikyo asked.
" Inu Yasha of the westernlands?" Miroku questioned looking at me.
" Hai," I stated bowing my head low as Keade walked in.
" Sapphire, could you help me a minute?" she questioned as I looked outside to see the sunsetting.
" Hai," I stated lowering my head as I lowered the hood that covered my head. My lond black raven hair fell out of it and framed my face just right as I took the rest of the cloak off. I was wearing a low cut white dress that showedsome clevage and it fell to my ankles. It had spagetti strapps to hold it up and I took a step forward toward Keade but I felt a hand on my shoulder.
" State your name," I heard Inu Yasha said as I turned to face him.
" I believe you already know that answer," I stated walking outside to join Keade, " what is it?"
" I need you to take a journey for me, to the Easterlands," she said as I looked at her dumbfounded.
" You want me to go home?" I questioned as she nodded, " I can't do that."
" Sapphire," I heard Miroku say as I looked up at the night sky.
" The last time I was there they tried to force me to go with Naraku, I will not give myself up freely," I stated as she shook her head.
" Have ye not heard child?" she questioned, " your mother has vanished without a trace leaving your brother with ye father, I wish ye to retrieve him," she stated as I nodded.
" As you will master," I stated with a slight bow, " Mir, grab your things, we take our leave tomorrow at dawn."
" Alright," he said as I walked back into the dojo where Inu Yasha stood looking at me. I walked over to the side and grabbed a sword from the wall as I walked to the other end grabbing some old clothes. I walked out and to the house where I went to my room. I looked out the window as a tear rolled down my cheek.
" Sapphire," I heard someone whisper from behind me as I felt there head on my back.
" Inu Yasha," I said emotionlessly.
" I haven't seen you in 300 years, I think about you everyday," he whispered as I turned around to face him.
" If you think of me everyday then why are you having an affair?" I questioned as he looked at me.
" I've never done that," he stated stunned that I would think such a thing.
" Sure," I said laying down on my bed.
" Don't be like that," he whispered walking over to me. He sat on the edge of the bed and moved my bangs out of my eyes.
" You don't know how much that hurt do you? When you said I wasn't living. It was like someone sent me to hell and back," I whispered as a tear fell from my eyes. He laid down on the bed placing his arms around my waist. He used his mental powers to lock the door as he kissed my cheek.
" I'm so sorry, I never expected it to be you. I owe you my life already," he said kissing my neck. I turned in his hold to face him as he kissed my lips and I kissed back. His hands started to wonder up and down my body as we kissed as I moan. He flipped me over on the bed so that he was on top of me.
*******Next morning*********
I woke up in someone's embrace as I looked over to see Inu Yasha. My arms were around his neck as the events of last night came flooding back into my mind causing me to smile. ( hey, there married). My hands found the clasp to the necklace that held the jewel as I undid it. I held it in my hands as I took the wedding band off his finger replacing it with mine. I wiggled out of his embrace and put on the old miko outfit.
" Sapphire?" he questioned sitting up as I tighened the belt around my waist placing the sword in it.
" I love you, never forget that," I whispered placing two fingers in his forehead causing him to forget the events of last night. Afterwards I placed my cloak on and ran outside with tears streaming down my face as Miroku walked up to me.
" Come one, lets go," he said placing a comforting hand around my shoulders as we walked eastern.
*************End flashback******************
" You mean to say that all this time I thought I was a virgin and I wasn't?" Inu Yasha questioned as we stood up.
" Sorry babe, your not," I smirked as we walked out of the park.
" That sure explains alot now doesn't it, but it doesn't explain how you became the slayer," he said as I nodded.
" About a year after everything happened at Keade's a man came to me and said I was the choosen one. I told him I couldn't be because I was a vampire and that's when he gave me this ring. I have had around 50 watchers over the last two hundered years and that's when I met Giles. He was the only watcher I truely liked because he treated me like his daughter and as you know I didn't have a father figure. When I was battleing Naraku he intended to kill me so in order to do that he had to turn me human, and he did with some wierd spell," I said, " that's when he drained me of my blood and Giles took the jewel. Miroku found me and turned me back into a vampire because he didn't want me to die."
" That explains alot," he said as we reached my apartment. He kissed me on the nose and held me close to him.
" Tomorrow's Sunday," I stated as he nodded.
" You want to come to Giles with us, I think Sango will be there training and if I remember correctly you promised to teach her somethings a year ago," he stated as I nodded.
" Alright, I think I will," I said as he kissed my lips.
" Good night love," he said as I opened the door to my apartment.
" See you tomorrow," I whispered as I watched him walk away. I closed the door and leaned against it looking at the ceiling.
" You told him, didn't you?" I heard someone ask as I turned to see Miroku standing there.
" Hai," I whispered.
" Good, now, once we talk tomorrow we should be able to track down Naraku and get him for doing this to you," he stated walking out of the apartment. I smiled before hopping in the shower. I was glad I could finally tell him everything, it was nice.
Well, sorry it took me SO long to update. Our roadrunner hasn't been working so I haven't been able to get on but it's all better now! Please read and review! Tiff ( sorry for spelling errors)
Disclaimer- I don't own Inu and co.
Chapter 10- Kagome's story
" So Kagome, how old are you?" Inu Yasha questioned looking at me.
" Around 550 I guess, I kind of lost track after 325," I stated, " you?"
" 556 last week," he stated as I looked at him.
" So, we've both been alive for over 500 years and we just now meet each other?" I questioned as he shurruged.
" That's not cool, is it?" he questioned resting his head on my shoulder, " tell me about your life."
" There's alot to tell, but what I tell you might jolt your memory," I stated, " alot."
" I don't care, tell me," he said as I nodded.
*************Flashback 532 ( her true 18th b-day) ************
" Papa, where are we going?" I questioned as he looked down at me.
" We are going to see Inu Tashio, the lord of the West about your marraige to there youngest son," he stated.
" Do I have to get married? I would like to pick my own person to marry," I stated as he smiled.
" I wish you could Sapphire but you see, you are roylalty and you must have someone of your status to marry," he explained as I dropped my head as we made it to the gates.
" We are here, please behave I don't want to get yelled at for your disrespectfulness," he stated.
" Yes Papa," I stated as Lord Inu Tashio greeted us and showed us in.
" Is this the fine young princess I have been hearing so much about?" he questioned taking my hand in his.
" It is an honor to meet you Mi'lord," I said bowing respectfully as a man around the age of 20 walked up.
" Ah yes, Sesshomaru, please show Sapphire to Inu," he stated as Sesshomaru glared but did as he was told.
" Stupid human," he spat showing me to a room.
" Yeah, whatever," I stated as he turned and glared at me.
" You dare disrepect me of all people? The heir to the Western lands? What gives you a right?" he questioned about to grab me but someone came out of the door and stopped him.
" Now now Fluffy, contain your anger," he taunted looking at me.
" You have guest and she disrespected me, she deserves death," he spat as I leaned against the door.
" You insulted me first, calling me a human when I'm not even one," I stated as the younger man took me into his room.
" Sorry about that, my brother has a big ego," he stated with a smile, " my name is Inu Yasha, what's yours?"
" Sapphire Kagome Higurashi, of the Eastern lands," I stated with a bow but he stopped me.
" No need to do that," he stated taking me over to the window.
" Wow, it's pretty," I stated as he watched the sunset.
" You want to know something?" he questioned causing me to look at him.
" What is it?" I asked as he looked at me with a smile.
" I'm not ready to get married, I may be the proper age but I just don't feel like it you know?" he questioned as I nodded.
" I know what you mean, my father dragged me along so I could meet you and get us married," I stated as we both smiled.
" So,we both agree then, if we are to get married then we should wait so we know each other better, right?" he questioned as I nodded with a grin on my face. Just then the door opened and our fathers walked in.
" I see you to have met," my father said with a smirk.
" Yes, and we have come to a conclusion," I stated looking at Inu Yasha by my side.
" Yes, and what is this?" Inu Taisho asked.
" That if we are to marry that we wait until we know each other better and to get comfortable with each other around," he stated as they nodded.
" Of course," both the fathers said. I looked towards Inu Yasha and we both smiled as the fathers left leaving me alone with him.
" Now what?" I questioned as we both walked out onto the balcony.
" Now, tell me alittle about yourself," he said taking my hand in his.
" Alright, my name is Sapphire Kagome Higurashi, I just turned 18, I have a younger brother who is 16," I stated as he nodded.
" My name is Inu Yasha, I have an older brother who is a jerk, I'm 19," he stated as we started to talk the night away.
******one year later**********
My father was walking me up the aisle as I saw Inu Yasha come into view and I blushed when he smiled at me. I was wearing a midnight blue kimono as I reached him and he took my hand in his. We went through the ceremony until we got to the very end when the back door busted open to reviel a demon standing there with a fan to her face.
" Am I inturupting something, I'm so sorry but I seem to have some buisness to attant to with the bride," she laughed as Inu Yasha stepped in front of me protectively.
" I don't think so," he snapped grabbing his sword lundging at her. She dodged and attacked him as guests ran out of the shrine.
" Inu Yasha, be careful," I whispered as he kissed my forehead before walking up to her. The only problem was, she was only a distraction and I felt someone grab me from behind and I screamed.
" Sapphire!" Inu Yasha yelled.
" Don't forget about me!" I yelled as we vanished. When I woke up I was chained to the wall and I glared at the person in front of me, " who are you?"
" Spunky little one aren't you? You can blaim your father for this, he's the one who told me I could have your hand in marraige," he stated kissing my hand.
" Don't touch me!" I growled as I started to glow purple and he pulled away.
" Stupid Immortal bitch, you will learn your place," he snapped slapping me across the face as he walked out. I smirked as I make my hands transparent and they came out of the chains. I walked out of the dungean and ran for dear life. It was dark out so nobody would be able to see me but I didn't know where I was. I saw the sun starting to come up and I felt my hands start to burn so I hid in a cave to clean my wounds.
" What did he do to me?" I questioned holding my hands in pain.
" Who is there?" I heard someone ask as I turned around to see a man with short black hair back in a ponytail.
" Sapphire," I stated as he looked at me with hunger in his eyes.
" You human?" he asked pinning me against the wall.
" No, I don't know what I am anymore," I stated as a tear slid down my face, " I can't go into the sun."
" I vampire then, like me? Who did this to you?" he asked releaseing me showing me to the back of the cave where his den was.
" Naraku, the King of the Northern lands," I stated as he turned around to look at me.
" I see, he did this to you as well? He will pay for this. So, you want to join forces with me and try to stop him? he questioned and I nodded.
" If it will get me back to my mate soon," I stated.
" Who is he?" he asked.
" Inu Yasha, of the westernlands," I said as he nodded.
" We can try, by the way, my name is Miroku," he said as we shook hands.
********* 200 years later******************
" Still no sign of him?" I questioned hanging from a building by a rope.
" No, I don't see him, lets go!" Miroku yelled pulling me up back to the building.
" I never knew tracking down one person would lead us on a wild goose chase to America, did you?" I questioned as he shook his head, " shall we go then?"
" We shall," he said as we started to walked, " you still trying to find your mate?"
" Of course, I'm not just going to give up on it, I love him," I stated.
" Do you even remember his name?" he questioned causing me to look at him.
" What do you mean?" I questioned.
" Kagome, you have changed alot over theses years, I know alot of people who just forget, do you remember his name?" he questioned.
" Inu," I stated as he nodded.
" Good," he said as we dissapeared into the night. We wondered around until we made it to the airport and booked a flight back to Japan that night.
* Inu Yasha, why can't I find you? I have been around for 200 years now looking for you and I can't find you, I can't find the palace anymore, were you just a dream?* I asked myself sitting on the bench next to Miroku.
" Sapphire," I heard someone say in an emotionless tone of voice and I looked up to see none other than Sesshomaru, Inu Yasha's older brother.
" Sesshomaru!" I stated running to him. I hugged him and he hugged me back as I pulled away and looked at him.
" What are you doing still alive?" he questioned.
" I'm a vampire, Naraku turned me into one the night I was taken away and I've been searching for you guys ever since," I stated.
" You mean you couldn't find the castle?" he questioned as I shook my head, " that's because we hid it."
" Why?" I questioned. * Stupid question*
" We did not want Naraku to attack again, nor did we want your father anywhere near us," he stated as my eye's widened.
" My father?" I questioned as he nodded.
" You didn't know? Your father made a deal with Naraku, they planned the whole thing. Your father was power hungery and Naraku knew that you possessed the Shikon No Tama. They made a pact behind our back so that he would ruin the wedding, get you to fall in love with Naraku and he would have the jewel," he explained as I dug my nails into the palm of my hands.
" Where is Inu Yasha?" I questioned as he looked at me.
" He is with a girl named Kikyo, I belive he has moved on," he stated walking away as I fell to my knee's.
" No," I whispered as Miroku put a comforting hand on my shoulder.
" It will be alright, let us go," he said as we both got on the plane leaving America to go back to Japan. Once we were back in Japan we went to our den and went to sleep since it was morning. Once it was night I went out patroling.
" Well, well, well, if it isn't the slayer, come back for alittle fun?" I heard someone questioned as I looked around to see Narkau.
" Go to Hell," I yelled lundging at him. I missed and his claw made contact with my side as I fell over.
" Now, to finish what I started," he laughed biting my neck again. I screamed in pain and a little girl came running causing Naraku to vanish as she ran to me.
" Miss, are you going to be okay?" she questioned helping me up. I opened my eye's alittle as she started to take me somewhere.
" Please, you don't have to do this," I stated.
" My mommy always told me that if you see someone hurt you should help them," she said as we reached a shrine. She took me inside as the sun began to rise. She closed all the curtains in the house and started to treat my wounds.
" What is your name?" I questioned as she smiled up at me.
" Rin," she said placing a cold cloth on my wounded side.
" Do you know what I am?" I questioned as she nodded.
" Your a vampire, I don't have anybody to live with except my mommy but she has become ill, unless you want to count the idiot Kikyo who is never here" she stated as a tear slid down her face.
" It'll be alright," I stated standing up, " could you take me to her?"
She walked me up the stairs and into her mothers room where she lay in the bed asleep until we walked in.
" Rin, who is your friend?" she questioned rolling over.
" I don't know, I found her in the park and she was hurt so I brought her home to you!" she exclaimed as I walked up to her. She got wide eye's and started to go to the other side of the bed.
" Don't worry, I'm not going to hurt you, I promise, I just want to help, I have been told you are sick and I would like to help you if I may," I stated as she nodded. I walked up to her and placed my hand on her forehead. I consentrated my power into my hand and into her. She was cured instantly.
" Your a miko," she stated.
" A miko without training I'm afraid," I stated.
" I'll train you, I'm Keade, I see you have met my adopted dauhter Rin. It is the least I can do," she stated as I nodded.
********** 50 years later************
I stood in the back with a black cloak over my head as I looked at the coffin in the front of the church.
" Farewell Keade," I stated throwing a rose onto the ground walking out of the church.
" Kagome," I heard from behind me as I turned to see Rin.
" Rin," I said as she ran to me.
" I haven't seen you in so long child, or should I say grandma?" she questioned with a short laugh.
" I have been elsewhere but I came to pay my repects to my master," I stated turning around.
" I hope to see you soon," she said as I walked away. I sighed as I walked to the Shrine that Keade had left me. I had found my brother over the years and he hadn't changed a bit, I had heard that my parents got a divorce after my mother found out about the pact and then Naraku killed her three years later, I had also went to her funeral. I hid in the back of course but the only people I knew there was Souta and Inu Taisho. He didn't remember me or if he did he didn't say anything.
" Hey Kagome, do you think that anything will be back to normal?" he questioned as I took off my cloak closing the door behind me.
" I don't know, I hope," I stated walking to my room. When I woke up the next morning I couldn't find Souta. I found a note in the kitchen with Naraku's handwriting on it stating that he had taken my brother back to America with my father, which I came to believe.
**********End flashback************
" I still remember it like yesterday that everything happened," I whispered looking over at Inu Yasha who looked at me.
" I can't believe it, all this looking and you were here all along," he stated as I nodded.
" I eventually forgot about you until I ran into your brother in America this past year and he jogged my memory," I stated as he placed a ring on my finger. It was the engagement ring that I had given back.
" So you remember, this ring was yours so long ago," he whispered as I nodded.
" How can I forget?" I questioned straddleing his hips as he looked at me. He pushed a lock of hair behind my ear as he kissed my cheek then made his way to my lips. He kissed me passionately as I responded to the kiss as our tongues battled for dominance. I let him win as he explored my mouth with his tongue pushing me back onto the ground as I heard the doorknob unlock. We sat up and quickly turned on the TV to act like nothing happened as Souta walked in.
" Hey Kagome, hey Inu Yasha," he stated shutting the door.
" Hello Souta, have fun at work?" I questioned, my heart still racing from the powerful kiss.
" Sure, as fun as it will ever be," he stated walking upstairs. Once he was out of the room Inu Yasha and I looked at each other and then busted out laughing.
" Oh that was priceless," I said between laughs.
" It really was," he said helping me up, " I want to take you somewhere."
" Okay," I said as we walked out the door. We walked into the forest until we got to the place where the western castle was along time ago, " why are we here?"
" You'll see," he said chanting a spell as the castle appeared in front of us. He took my hand in his and took me inside as I saw Inu Tashio.
" Inu Yasha, I haven't seen you in around 300 years, what brings you and your lady friend here?" he questioned as we walked up to him.
" Father, I came back to show you who I found," he said gesturing to me.
" Have we met?" he questioned taking my hand in his.
" It is nice to meet you Mi'lord," I stated bowing politely. He looked at me shock in his eyes.
"Lady Sapphire?" he questioned as Inu Yasha let go of my hand and Inu Tashio hugged me.
" I didn't even say my name and you remembered me, I feel honored," I stated as he pulled away from me.
" I only know one girl who called me Mi'lord and not master or such, of course I would remember you," he stated with a smile as I took Inu Yasha's hand in mine once again.
" So, that day of the wedding, what happened to you?" he questioned as I looked at the ground.
" When I woke up I was chained to a wall but I got out and ran. I found out that Naraku turned me into a vampire. I did change back to normal when Inu Yasha killed him by trying to kill me but he has sucky aim," I stated.
" Hey!" Inu Yasha yelled from my side as I smiled sweetly at him.
" Anyways, Naraku is back because some great evil resurected him and he turned me into a vampire again and buried me alive," I stated as Inu Tashios mouth dropped.
" Are you serious?" he questioned motioning for us to sit down. We did and Inu Yasha switched his hold to my waist.
" Yes, he is back and after me once again but this time he has help. It seems that all these years that my father has been possessed by Naraku and now he has Kikyo to help him," I said.
" And how does she fit into this?" he questioned looking from Inu Yasha to me then back again.
" She stole half of Kagome's soul and is out to get the rest, she wants it to get to me," he explained.
" Who is Kagome?" he questioned.
" I am, I changed my name after about 200 years. Whenever I would say my name was Sapphire people would know me and I wanted to keep a low profile so nobody would know me so I went by my middle name," I explained as he nodded.
" So, explain the reason you came here?" he stated looking at Inu Yasha.
" I want your permission for marriage," he said as I looked at him.
" Oro?"( means huh) I questioned as he looked at me.
" That's stupid, you know you would have my blessing," he said with a smile.
" I want to know if you saw something wierd at my mother funeral a few years back," I said as he nodded.
" Yes, indeed I did. I believe there was a black hooded figure in the back of the church but I don't see what this has to do with anything," he said as I nodded.
" That was me," I said as he looked at me strangely.
" Why didn't you stay and talk to us?" he questioned as I looked at my lap.
" I didn't think you would remember me and I was still kind of pissed of at Inu Yasha for going out with Kikyo," I explained as he nodded.
" That explains alot, if you were the hooded figure then I have seen you around alot lately, like in America when your father and me made a deal," he said and I nodded, " would you two like to stay the night here? It will be safer than going back to your place if Naraku is truely after you," he stated as we nodded. He showed us to a room and we settled in. I took off my jaket to reviel my black spagetti stapped tank top and took off my shoes as I climbed into bed.
" Kagome," Inu Yasha whispered laying next to me. I rolled over and smiled up at him as he took me in his arms and kissed my forehead.
" Together again," I whispered as he ran a clawed hand through my hair.
" Hai," he said as I laid my head on his chest.
" Good night," I whispered falling asleep in his arms. I woke up to the sun on my face and I tried to sit up but failed.
" In the story you told me last night you didn't tell me how you met Kikyo," he stated as I sighed.
" Do you really want to know?" I questioned as he nodded.
*********Flashback 243 years***************
I was inside the dojo that night practicing with Keade when I heard the door open and I girl who looked alot like me walked in.
" Keade, he kissed me, Inu Yasha accually kissed me!" she exclaimed as I dropped my bow to the ground.
" Was it on the lips?" she questioned as Kikyo looked to the ground.
" No, it was on the forehead, he said that he can't kiss my lips because he has a fiance," she stated sadly as I smirked.
" Then why are you going out with him?" I questioned as she looked at me.
" Because he has this really cool jewel called the Shikon No Tama that belonged to his fiance and I want it for myself," she stated in selfish greed.
" That's gay," I stated picking up my bow once again nodging the arrow.
" Is not!" she yelled running up to me tackleing me to the ground.
" If it's not gay then why are you so mad at me?" I questioned as she pounched me in the gut.
" Just for that I'm going to steal part of your soul to teach you a lesson child," she snapped chanting under her breath as an unbearable pain started in my chest. I screamed in pain and fell unconsious.
*********End flashback**********
" I never figured out why she never aged," Inu Yasha said.
" It's because I'm immortal which means I have the same life span as a demon and since she has half of my soul she got that ability," I stated looking at him.
" I understand," he said flipping me over so he was leaning over me. He inched closer as his lips brushed against mine causing shivers to go down my spine with his hot breath on my face, " you don't know how much I missed you."
" I think I do," I whispered back closing the space between us as his hand ran up and down my side causing me to moan. I placed my arms around his neck drawing him closer to me as our tongues stated to battle. I loved the feeling that shot through me. ( i don't know what it is like to kiss because I'm sweet 16 and never been kissed, so yeah) He pulled away from me and kissed my nose playfully.
" Love ya," he said standing up. I put my shoes and jacket back on as he came up behind me placing his arms around my shoulders. He started to sway back and forth and I followed his movements from side to side. I closed my eye's and got lost in his touch standing there slow dancing with him. We didn't need music, it was just a thing that happened.
" If I remember correctly, we did this before," I stated as he laughed.
" You have a good memory," I stated as he kissed my neck, " if I remember correctly you also loved to kiss my neck."
" That's because something was always missing," he stated as I felt one of his fangs on my neck. I sighed as we stopped when someone knocked on the door. It opened to reviel Inu Taisho standing there in all his glory.
" You up to something to eat?" he questioned us as I lowered my head.
" I can't, food doesn't agree with me," I whispered as they looked at me.
" We really better get going," Inu Yasha said as he nodded. We walked to the front door and with a final good-bye left. We walked to the park and Inu Yasha pulled me onto his lap and rolled up his sleeve alittle. I disrguarded it and laid my head on his chest, " drink."
" I can't," I stated as he lifted his wrist to my mouth.
" You need it," he whispered as I felt myself become faint.
" I can't," I stated again as he slit his wrist with his claw. He forced my mouth open placing his wrist in the way as he forced my mouth on it.
" You can't live without feeding and you couldn't go out last night and do it so you will have some of mine," he stated sternly as I began to drink alitte. I pulled away about ten seconds later as I used my miko powers to heal his wound.
" I'm sorry, where were you in your story? How did you get the jewel back?" he questioned.
************Flashback*********************
I walked into the dojo to train when I walked in I saw Kikyo and someone who looked firmiliar.
" Good day," he said as I smiled at him.
" Good day to you as well good sir," I greeted with a slight bow. I saw that he had a small jewel around his neck and I went up to him glently taking it in my hands. In an almost harsh voice I asked, " where did you get this?"
" It's my fiances," he said making me let go of it.
" If it's your fiances then does that mean that it belongs to Kikyo, from what I've hearc you are so in love," I mocked as he glared at me.
" Don't make fun of Sapphire like that, she's my wife," he growled.
" Oh, my bad, because from what I've heard you've been doing some naughty things with Kikyo that I don't think Sapphire Higurashi would like," I stated launching one of my arrows that hit the target dead center.
" How do you know her?" he questioned walking up to me. I hid my face furthur back inside my black cloak, " why do you where this wierd thing?"
" She has to, she a vampire," Kikyo stated.
" Well, someone who is not alive should learn there place," he stated grabbing my arm painfully.
" What are you doing?" I questioned as he took me to the door and was about to open it when someone hit him from behind.
" Mir! What are you doing? Get out of here!" I yelled as Inu Yasha whipped around to glare at the intruter.
" You dare insult Inu Yasha?" Kikyo asked.
" Inu Yasha of the westernlands?" Miroku questioned looking at me.
" Hai," I stated bowing my head low as Keade walked in.
" Sapphire, could you help me a minute?" she questioned as I looked outside to see the sunsetting.
" Hai," I stated lowering my head as I lowered the hood that covered my head. My lond black raven hair fell out of it and framed my face just right as I took the rest of the cloak off. I was wearing a low cut white dress that showedsome clevage and it fell to my ankles. It had spagetti strapps to hold it up and I took a step forward toward Keade but I felt a hand on my shoulder.
" State your name," I heard Inu Yasha said as I turned to face him.
" I believe you already know that answer," I stated walking outside to join Keade, " what is it?"
" I need you to take a journey for me, to the Easterlands," she said as I looked at her dumbfounded.
" You want me to go home?" I questioned as she nodded, " I can't do that."
" Sapphire," I heard Miroku say as I looked up at the night sky.
" The last time I was there they tried to force me to go with Naraku, I will not give myself up freely," I stated as she shook her head.
" Have ye not heard child?" she questioned, " your mother has vanished without a trace leaving your brother with ye father, I wish ye to retrieve him," she stated as I nodded.
" As you will master," I stated with a slight bow, " Mir, grab your things, we take our leave tomorrow at dawn."
" Alright," he said as I walked back into the dojo where Inu Yasha stood looking at me. I walked over to the side and grabbed a sword from the wall as I walked to the other end grabbing some old clothes. I walked out and to the house where I went to my room. I looked out the window as a tear rolled down my cheek.
" Sapphire," I heard someone whisper from behind me as I felt there head on my back.
" Inu Yasha," I said emotionlessly.
" I haven't seen you in 300 years, I think about you everyday," he whispered as I turned around to face him.
" If you think of me everyday then why are you having an affair?" I questioned as he looked at me.
" I've never done that," he stated stunned that I would think such a thing.
" Sure," I said laying down on my bed.
" Don't be like that," he whispered walking over to me. He sat on the edge of the bed and moved my bangs out of my eyes.
" You don't know how much that hurt do you? When you said I wasn't living. It was like someone sent me to hell and back," I whispered as a tear fell from my eyes. He laid down on the bed placing his arms around my waist. He used his mental powers to lock the door as he kissed my cheek.
" I'm so sorry, I never expected it to be you. I owe you my life already," he said kissing my neck. I turned in his hold to face him as he kissed my lips and I kissed back. His hands started to wonder up and down my body as we kissed as I moan. He flipped me over on the bed so that he was on top of me.
*******Next morning*********
I woke up in someone's embrace as I looked over to see Inu Yasha. My arms were around his neck as the events of last night came flooding back into my mind causing me to smile. ( hey, there married). My hands found the clasp to the necklace that held the jewel as I undid it. I held it in my hands as I took the wedding band off his finger replacing it with mine. I wiggled out of his embrace and put on the old miko outfit.
" Sapphire?" he questioned sitting up as I tighened the belt around my waist placing the sword in it.
" I love you, never forget that," I whispered placing two fingers in his forehead causing him to forget the events of last night. Afterwards I placed my cloak on and ran outside with tears streaming down my face as Miroku walked up to me.
" Come one, lets go," he said placing a comforting hand around my shoulders as we walked eastern.
*************End flashback******************
" You mean to say that all this time I thought I was a virgin and I wasn't?" Inu Yasha questioned as we stood up.
" Sorry babe, your not," I smirked as we walked out of the park.
" That sure explains alot now doesn't it, but it doesn't explain how you became the slayer," he said as I nodded.
" About a year after everything happened at Keade's a man came to me and said I was the choosen one. I told him I couldn't be because I was a vampire and that's when he gave me this ring. I have had around 50 watchers over the last two hundered years and that's when I met Giles. He was the only watcher I truely liked because he treated me like his daughter and as you know I didn't have a father figure. When I was battleing Naraku he intended to kill me so in order to do that he had to turn me human, and he did with some wierd spell," I said, " that's when he drained me of my blood and Giles took the jewel. Miroku found me and turned me back into a vampire because he didn't want me to die."
" That explains alot," he said as we reached my apartment. He kissed me on the nose and held me close to him.
" Tomorrow's Sunday," I stated as he nodded.
" You want to come to Giles with us, I think Sango will be there training and if I remember correctly you promised to teach her somethings a year ago," he stated as I nodded.
" Alright, I think I will," I said as he kissed my lips.
" Good night love," he said as I opened the door to my apartment.
" See you tomorrow," I whispered as I watched him walk away. I closed the door and leaned against it looking at the ceiling.
" You told him, didn't you?" I heard someone ask as I turned to see Miroku standing there.
" Hai," I whispered.
" Good, now, once we talk tomorrow we should be able to track down Naraku and get him for doing this to you," he stated walking out of the apartment. I smiled before hopping in the shower. I was glad I could finally tell him everything, it was nice.
Well, sorry it took me SO long to update. Our roadrunner hasn't been working so I haven't been able to get on but it's all better now! Please read and review! Tiff ( sorry for spelling errors)