Chapter 2
Summary: Someone's quest for the truth sending everyone to a realm of emotion, truths and deceptions. In all of this Buffy Angel and Angelus needs to face horrific news about their past that will shook them and change everything you thought you knew about Buffy and Angel.
Rating: R for violence, bad language, Angelus in it for God sake!!! Well you know me!!!
Pairing: B/S (not for long!) A/B, Aus/Buffy (yes, Angelus will appear here and there!)
Feedback: Yes, please! I don't have a beta as you'll see in my Author note so please don't flame me, don't send feedback about Grammar or spelling it is NOT beta! (MY MOTHER TONGUE ISN'T ENGLISH!!! I am doing MY best in beta it myself)
Disclaimer: BTVS & Angel not mine. The rest is mine.
Distribution: Sure, just let me know.
Dedicated to Nikka (user id 230095), You are my best friend, I love you and this is for you!
Somewhere, over the rainbow
Way up high
There's a land that I heard of
Once in a lullabye
Somewhere, over the rainbow
Skies are blue
And the dreams that you dare to dream
Really do come true
Some day I'll wish upon a star and wake up where the clouds are
far behind me
Where troubles melt like lemon drops away above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me
Somewhere, over the rainbow
Blue birds fly
Birds fly over the rainbow
Why then, oh, why can't I?
If happy little bluebirds fly
Beyond the rainbow
Why, oh, why can't I?
There was blood everywhere; the cold night air chilled her shaking body. She tried to stand up but her legs failed her, making her drop helplessly onto the cold ground.
She could still hear their screams melting at the sight of fire, the land was burning, the sky was dark; the usual fresh autumn night turned into odour of burning bodies as the fire consumed them, reduced it to ashes.
She was all that left of them, all alone in this cold strange world, her only hope was to find him, he would save her.
"Stand up' she forced herself. 'You can do it, you are stronger than that!'
Her lone moan gave the only possible answer, she didn't want to stand up, she didn't want to fight anymore, she had nothing to offer to this world, his best worrier was about to die slowly and painfully, bleeding to death and no one will notice, no one will even care. As if she never existed before, as if all her battles never mattered.
Sleep, she wanted to close her eyes and sleep forever, let the darkness claim her, all alone, hungry, tired, the cold was eating her flesh.
Will her father look for her? Probably not, will her friends know she's missing? Their dead.
So what was the point? Why fighting when she can quit, either way it didn't matter.
They all lost, she lost.
It was hard, admitting she has failed, failed to save her friends, her world, her family and herself.
Why was she still here? Why did she survive? Was this her punishment? Was it her fate? Never dying? Never aging?
Will she see her Angel again? No, she knew he wouldn't come, as she knew the sun is rising each morning. He will not come, he will not ask about her, he has another life now, life that does not involve her, and it never actually did.
She was never his to begin with; there were always others but never he, never she, never her Angel.
Slowly she managed to stand up on shaky legs, her long blond hair tasseled around her face, his color long gone, now it was red, stained of dead bodies and dead life, dirty, gray and red.
She moaned deeply, each step she took shaken her, causing her to remember what happened, why she's here. Her chocolate green eyes scanning her surrounding, looking for a main road, maybe a way out, maybe they were still here.
As she crossed the road her sight locked with the harsh lights of a pick up track. She heard the scream, her scream, piercing the night as her body slammed against the shield of the car.
So stupid, so fucking stupid, pointless, after everything that happened she would die because of this.
Her body slowly slides to the ground, in the middle of nowhere. Her sight became blur, and the noises around her got smaller and smaller until she could only hear her raging breathe, the frequent sound of her heart bit. She closed her eyes.
Pain…sleep…food…a soft whisper from her dearest friend…a Smile…laughter…her father looking at her…smell of flowers…taste of her favorite chocolate…laughing in the sun…sun turning to fire…people are screaming…dying…she lost them…her Angel gone…
"Angel…" she moaned and let the darkness finally take her.