September 18th, 2002

Week 14

Danny helped Ronnie out of the car he rubbed his hand over her small bump.

"You sure yours okay today?" He asked.

"I'm fine. Christian and I are fine." Ronnie chuckled, "I'm just achy and tired."

"All right." Danny chuckled kissing her forehead, "See you at lunch right?"

"Always do." Ronnie smiled going ito her classroom. A few students were already there. "Good morning." Julia Van Dam walked up to her desk. "Morning, Julia."

"Morn." She said, "Can I ask you something personal?"

"Of course. I may not answer though." Ronnie said. Julia smiled slightly.

"Okay, well, when you found out you were pregnant…I mean, what made you think you were pregnant?" Julia asked. Uh oh, Ronnie thought.

"Well, My period was late and I was super tired and in the bathroom a lot." She said. Julia nodded her head slowly; "Do you think you're…."

"I don't know." Julia said, "Thanks." She went back to her seat. Ronnie shook her head as the bell rang. More students started to file in and sit down. Ronnie rubbed her achy stomach. She really should have eaten that morning. She stood up.

"Good morning. Did everyone read the chapter I assigned?" She asked. A few students nodded, "Good because in my hand is a pop quiz." They all began to groan and moan. "I know, but you're doing it." Ronnie passed out the pop quizzes with a smile. Sometimes she loved doing this, torturing the students. She rubbed her stomach and sat down. She suddenly felt even more nauseous than before.

"You okay, Miss Cook?" Justin Whitfield asked.

"Yeah." Ronnie said running her hand across her hand. The colour from her face was draining. Her hips started to throb. "I'll be…right back." She inhaled deeply and stood up. Something wasn't right. All her pains were getting worse. She slowly walked to the door. A stabbing pain shot through her stomach. It took her off guard and she dropped to the floor. She groaned loudly holding her stomach. The students jumped up.

"Miss Cook!" Julia ran to her side. Ronnie groaned. She was in too much pain for this to be all right. Justin ran out of the room to get help. Ronnie took in deep breaths, tears prickling at her eyes.

"Christian…" She whispered. Scott and Danny ran into the room.

"Ronnie!" Danny collapsed to his knees beside his fiancée. He saw blood pooling around Ronnie. "Wh-What happened??"

"Christian…" Ronnie whispered as if she was in a daze. Danny's heart stopped cold in his chest.

"No." He said. Danny picked Ronnie up into his arms, "We're not loosing him." Danny ran out of the room with Ronnie.

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Danny burst through the doors of the emergency room of Brigham and Woman's hospital, still cradling Ronnie in his arms.

"I need help over here!!" He cried. Dr. Brown ran over to them with a gurney.

"What happened?" He asked. Danny placed Ronnie on the gurney. She was so out of it. He didn't know where her mind was, but maybe it was somewhere happy.

"Sh-She's fourteen weeks pregnant. She w-wasn't feeling well this morning and she was achy. W-We went to work and she started to bleed." Tears spilled over the rim of Danny's eyes. "Don't let us loose our baby." Dr. Brown nodded.

"We'll see what's going on." He pushed Ronnie in a curtained area. "Let's get a blood work up and an ultrasound."

"Danny…" Ronnie mumbled finally looking at him.

"I'm here, Baby." Danny whispered. He took her hand, kissing it tenderly as the doctors worked on her. Ronnie's lip trembled.

"S-Something is wrong with Ch-Christian." She choked out. Danny nodded slowly.

"I th-think so." He whispered. Ronnie took in a deep breath, closing her eyes.

"I c-can't loose m-my b-baby." Ronnie started to sob. Danny's own heart was breaking. They weren't here in this situation where they? Ronnie felt the doctors poking and prodding her. She felt them start the ultrasound. Danny stared at Dr. Brown.

"What's going on?" He whispered.

"I need the test results to confirm it." Dr. Brown said. Danny's heart pounded in his chest.

"C-Confirm what?" Danny asked. Dr. Brown looked at him.

"A…A miscarriage." He said. Ronnie whimpered as she shook her head.

"No. I'm n-not having a miscarriage." She said, "I'm not!!"

"I'm sorry." Dr. Brown said.

"No!!!" Ronnie cried, "Do something!! Fix it!!! I can't loose him!!!!" Danny hung his head as his heart broke.

"I can't. I'll give you something to help ease the pain." He said.

"N-No NO!!!!!" Ronnie screamed. "Save him!!!"

"Th-They can't." Danny whispered.

"SAVE HIM!!!!!!!!!!!" Ronnie sobbed as Danny wrapped his arms around her. He held her close. Their child that they had grown to love was dying. A piece of their hearts was gone. Forever.

October 2nd, 2002

Danny and Ronnie were devastated once they came home after loosing Christian. Danny had to put all the baby items they had bought into a box and store them away so Ronnie wouldn't see them. Ronnie was taking this extremely hard and barely got out of bed. She thought all of this was her fault. She thought she had a miscarriage because of something she did.

Danny walked down the hallway to their bedroom. Ronnie was curled up in a small ball in the center of the bed. He walked over to her and scooped her up in his arms. She groaned slightly.

"You need to get out of bed." He said walking into the bathroom and he put her in the bathtub. Danny started the shower, drenching Ronnie with cold water. She gasped.

"Stop it!" She cried spitting water. She tried to get up, but Danny pushed her back down.

"No. You need this." He said.

"I don't need this!" Ronnie cried, "I need to be left alone."

"It isn't healthy for you to lock yourself in the bedroom and not come out. You need to get out, shower, eat, and take care of yourself."

"Why should I??" Ronnie cried. "I took care of myself and look what happened. I killed Christian!" Danny looked at her sadly.

"No. No you didn't." Danny said, "What happened was an accident. You need to get up and get on with your life."

"AM I not allowed to grieve?" Ronnie asked with tears in her eyes.

"Of course you are." Danny said softly, "We're both allowed to grieve. We lost our child, Ronnie. But I really don't think Christian would want us to be this depressed. He would want us to go out and honour him. I was thinking maybe we can get a memorial plaque at the graveyard." Ronnie shook her head.
"I can't." She whispered, "I'm not ready to say goodbye." Danny sighed as he turned off the water.

"You need to say goodbye, Ron." He said, "Christian is gone and there's nothing we can do to bring him back." Ronnie hung her head.

"I w-want him back." She whispered.

"We can't have him back." Danny Said. "He's dead, Ronnie." Ronnie looked at him with tears streaming down her face.

"It's not fair." She said. "I never wanted to be a mother before, but then when I got pregnant with Christian...It felt right. It felt like being a mother was what I was suppose to do and now...Now that right...it has been taking away from me."

"Someday we will have another baby, Ronnie." Danny said, "Someday we'll both be ready to have another one." Ronnie shook her head.

"I can't replace Christian." She said.

"We won't be replacing him." Danny said, "That could never happen. We'll be giving him a brother or a sister." Ronnie sniffled.

"I'm cold." She whispered.

"Let's get out then." Danny said softly. He grabbed a towel and wrapped it around her. Danny helped her out of the bath. Ronnie slowly made her way back to the bedroom. Danny wondered if things would ever return to normal for them.