Chapter 10-Lingering Questions
Everyone I apologize in advance if this chapter isn't that wonderful...I'm sick with a bad headcold and have taken probably a gallon of cold medicine but I wanted to get my readers a new chapter out to start their week with...so I hope you enjoy.
May 19th
6:45 AM
"So did my mother spend a ton of money to appease her guilt? Gordo asks Lizzie when they get the first opportunity to talk the day after Lizzie's shopping experience with Roberta.
Lizzie glances up from the notes she was flipping through while Gordo drives, "if you must know yes. Your mother, Miranda and I had a really fun time and it was a nice relaxing break. When we get home from work tonight I have to show you all the cute stuff we bought, clothes, toys, and blankets."
Gordo nods turning into the school parking lot an hour before school actually starts, "all right."
Lizzie yawns, "remind me again why we are here an hour early?"
"Because, we start finals on Thursday and seeing as it is Monday we only have a couple days left to study Larry called while you were out and said to meet him and Ethan in the library to study." Gordo responds.
Lizzie yawns again, "right, finals...need to study. I'm glad we only have 5 days left of school, I don't think I can take any more of this. With these three keeping me up until all hours, after I've gotten home from work then having to go to school...let's just say it gets old fast."
"Well if there was a way for me too be kept up while you sleep then I would take it, besides you know I'll stay up with you every night, if only you'd ask." Gordo responds.
Lizzie smiles as she gets out of the car, "that's sweet Gordo really, but I don't want to keep you up if you don't have to be. Besides you get to help get up with them in the middle of the night."
"Right." Gordo nods slinging his backpack over his back, "well let's get studying."
11:45 A.M.
"I don't get it Gordo, I really don't." Lizzie sighs dropping her pencil onto her history book, "all these stupid dates aren't sticking in my head. I understand that history is important to our future and all that jazz, but I don't care about it anymore. All I care about is the future, that's all I can think about."
"What? Summer vacation?" Gordo questions.
Lizzie sighs, "I wish." tears well up in Lizzie's brown eyes, "I wish that was as far in the future as I can see." Lizzie's chin drops to her chest and she runs her hands through her hair, a few tears dropping onto her text book. "I wish my life was still that simple."
"Lizzie..."
"I still think about what you said that one time, months ago, about thinking about the babies and how we get to guide them and everything but sometimes I think I'm just being selfish."
Gordo grasps Lizzie shoulders and turns to face her on the couch, "Elizabeth Brooke McGuire there isn't a selfish bone in your body. You are doing what you feel is right, raising these babies and not giving them up for adoption when the time comes. I know you are going to love them unconditionally and there is nothing selfish about that."
"I'm just so scared Gordo." Lizzie sobs wrapping her arms around Gordo.
Gordo pulls Lizzie tightly to him and smoothes down her hair in a comforting gesture, "I know Lizzie." he whispers.
May 20th
"I thought I would make pancakes for breakfast." Jo states walking down the stairs with Sam the next morning.
"Pancakes sound..." Sam stops short as he and wife both stare at the sight below them, Lizzie and Gordo were both asleep in what looked to be very uncomfortable sleeping positions against each other on the couch.
"You know I always hoped they would get together." Jo whispers as they two stare.
Sam nods, "Gordo was always the one I knew who would take care of Lizzie."
"This pregnancy has put such a strain on their relationship, or whatever was budding of their relationship," Jo sighs. "I don't think they will ever trust themselves with each other again. Lizzie so afraid of screwing up again, letting things get to far, and Gordo has always taken his cues from Lizzie."
Sam wraps his arm around Jo, "if they are meant to be together they will work their way around all of this and come out closer together in the end."
"Eww! Isn't this what got you pregnant in the first place?" Matt's question startles Lizzie and Gordo awake from the top of the stairs.
"Matt!" Jo scolds.
"Sorry, I'm just kidding." Matt sighs holding his hands up in defense.
"Did we oversleep?" Gordo asks jumping up.
Sam shakes his head, "no, actually you don't have to be up for another 30 minutes. But Jo was going to make pancakes so you guys can shower before breakfast."
"Right thanks." Lizzie responds before hurrying up the stairs as fast as she can take them, out of sight of everybody else.
"Why did you insist on picking me up?" Miranda questions getting into Lizzie's car 45 minutes later. "And why so early? And where's Gordo."
"I need to talk to you, before Gordo, Larry or Ethan get to school, you now girl talk." Lizzie states nervously fidgeting with the radio.
Miranda gives her best friend an odd look, "all right, so shoot."
"I can't do it while I am driving, can we wait until we get to school?" Lizzie questions.
Miranda sighs and shrugs, "whatever, it's up to you."
"So you and Gordo fell asleep together on the couch." Miranda questions as she and Lizzie sit in a secluded part of the library. "What's the biggie? You guys have fallen asleep together before."
Lizzie wrings her hands, "I know, it's just there's something between us now. Things are different."
"You mean the babies?" Miranda questions.
Lizzie shakes her head, "no...well yah...but I mean there's more to it. 6 months ago I had 2 best friends in the entire world, you and Gordo. And that's all there has ever been, I mean there's been potential for more..but we were just never at the same place at the same time...Ronnie, school, we got close in Rome but then there was Serena. And I gave up realizing that we would never been in the same place at the same time. And now we have the opportunity to be in the same place at the same time, but it's just to much for any of us to take it. Plus there's this huge thing hanging over us that we have never exactly talked about...the sex part...and I just don't know what to do anymore."
"Breathing might be a good thing." Miranda suggests Lizzie takes a deep breath and Miranda goes on, "Lizzie you really have to just let these things happen. You can't force a relationship with Gordo."
"But that's just it." Lizzie sighs, "I don't think we could ever have a relationship."
"Why not?" Miranda questions.
Lizzie shrugs, "the only time we have been together we were drunk and neither of us really remember it. We just keep missing."
"Lizzie do you love Gordo?" Miranda asks bluntly.
"What?" Lizzie asks taken aback.
"I asked if you loved Gordo." Miranda repeats.
"What kind of question is that?" Lizzie asks quickly, "of course I love him, I've known both of you forever..."
"That's not what I'm asking...I'm asking if you are in love with David Gordon."
Lizzie stares at her best friend and before she can respond with anything Ethan and Larry join the two girls, "why are you guys sitting so far back here?" Ethan asks.
"Avoiding Katezilla?" Larry asks.
Miranda nods, "of course what else would we be doing way back here?"
Everyone I apologize in advance if this chapter isn't that wonderful...I'm sick with a bad headcold and have taken probably a gallon of cold medicine but I wanted to get my readers a new chapter out to start their week with...so I hope you enjoy.
May 19th
6:45 AM
"So did my mother spend a ton of money to appease her guilt? Gordo asks Lizzie when they get the first opportunity to talk the day after Lizzie's shopping experience with Roberta.
Lizzie glances up from the notes she was flipping through while Gordo drives, "if you must know yes. Your mother, Miranda and I had a really fun time and it was a nice relaxing break. When we get home from work tonight I have to show you all the cute stuff we bought, clothes, toys, and blankets."
Gordo nods turning into the school parking lot an hour before school actually starts, "all right."
Lizzie yawns, "remind me again why we are here an hour early?"
"Because, we start finals on Thursday and seeing as it is Monday we only have a couple days left to study Larry called while you were out and said to meet him and Ethan in the library to study." Gordo responds.
Lizzie yawns again, "right, finals...need to study. I'm glad we only have 5 days left of school, I don't think I can take any more of this. With these three keeping me up until all hours, after I've gotten home from work then having to go to school...let's just say it gets old fast."
"Well if there was a way for me too be kept up while you sleep then I would take it, besides you know I'll stay up with you every night, if only you'd ask." Gordo responds.
Lizzie smiles as she gets out of the car, "that's sweet Gordo really, but I don't want to keep you up if you don't have to be. Besides you get to help get up with them in the middle of the night."
"Right." Gordo nods slinging his backpack over his back, "well let's get studying."
11:45 A.M.
"I don't get it Gordo, I really don't." Lizzie sighs dropping her pencil onto her history book, "all these stupid dates aren't sticking in my head. I understand that history is important to our future and all that jazz, but I don't care about it anymore. All I care about is the future, that's all I can think about."
"What? Summer vacation?" Gordo questions.
Lizzie sighs, "I wish." tears well up in Lizzie's brown eyes, "I wish that was as far in the future as I can see." Lizzie's chin drops to her chest and she runs her hands through her hair, a few tears dropping onto her text book. "I wish my life was still that simple."
"Lizzie..."
"I still think about what you said that one time, months ago, about thinking about the babies and how we get to guide them and everything but sometimes I think I'm just being selfish."
Gordo grasps Lizzie shoulders and turns to face her on the couch, "Elizabeth Brooke McGuire there isn't a selfish bone in your body. You are doing what you feel is right, raising these babies and not giving them up for adoption when the time comes. I know you are going to love them unconditionally and there is nothing selfish about that."
"I'm just so scared Gordo." Lizzie sobs wrapping her arms around Gordo.
Gordo pulls Lizzie tightly to him and smoothes down her hair in a comforting gesture, "I know Lizzie." he whispers.
May 20th
"I thought I would make pancakes for breakfast." Jo states walking down the stairs with Sam the next morning.
"Pancakes sound..." Sam stops short as he and wife both stare at the sight below them, Lizzie and Gordo were both asleep in what looked to be very uncomfortable sleeping positions against each other on the couch.
"You know I always hoped they would get together." Jo whispers as they two stare.
Sam nods, "Gordo was always the one I knew who would take care of Lizzie."
"This pregnancy has put such a strain on their relationship, or whatever was budding of their relationship," Jo sighs. "I don't think they will ever trust themselves with each other again. Lizzie so afraid of screwing up again, letting things get to far, and Gordo has always taken his cues from Lizzie."
Sam wraps his arm around Jo, "if they are meant to be together they will work their way around all of this and come out closer together in the end."
"Eww! Isn't this what got you pregnant in the first place?" Matt's question startles Lizzie and Gordo awake from the top of the stairs.
"Matt!" Jo scolds.
"Sorry, I'm just kidding." Matt sighs holding his hands up in defense.
"Did we oversleep?" Gordo asks jumping up.
Sam shakes his head, "no, actually you don't have to be up for another 30 minutes. But Jo was going to make pancakes so you guys can shower before breakfast."
"Right thanks." Lizzie responds before hurrying up the stairs as fast as she can take them, out of sight of everybody else.
"Why did you insist on picking me up?" Miranda questions getting into Lizzie's car 45 minutes later. "And why so early? And where's Gordo."
"I need to talk to you, before Gordo, Larry or Ethan get to school, you now girl talk." Lizzie states nervously fidgeting with the radio.
Miranda gives her best friend an odd look, "all right, so shoot."
"I can't do it while I am driving, can we wait until we get to school?" Lizzie questions.
Miranda sighs and shrugs, "whatever, it's up to you."
"So you and Gordo fell asleep together on the couch." Miranda questions as she and Lizzie sit in a secluded part of the library. "What's the biggie? You guys have fallen asleep together before."
Lizzie wrings her hands, "I know, it's just there's something between us now. Things are different."
"You mean the babies?" Miranda questions.
Lizzie shakes her head, "no...well yah...but I mean there's more to it. 6 months ago I had 2 best friends in the entire world, you and Gordo. And that's all there has ever been, I mean there's been potential for more..but we were just never at the same place at the same time...Ronnie, school, we got close in Rome but then there was Serena. And I gave up realizing that we would never been in the same place at the same time. And now we have the opportunity to be in the same place at the same time, but it's just to much for any of us to take it. Plus there's this huge thing hanging over us that we have never exactly talked about...the sex part...and I just don't know what to do anymore."
"Breathing might be a good thing." Miranda suggests Lizzie takes a deep breath and Miranda goes on, "Lizzie you really have to just let these things happen. You can't force a relationship with Gordo."
"But that's just it." Lizzie sighs, "I don't think we could ever have a relationship."
"Why not?" Miranda questions.
Lizzie shrugs, "the only time we have been together we were drunk and neither of us really remember it. We just keep missing."
"Lizzie do you love Gordo?" Miranda asks bluntly.
"What?" Lizzie asks taken aback.
"I asked if you loved Gordo." Miranda repeats.
"What kind of question is that?" Lizzie asks quickly, "of course I love him, I've known both of you forever..."
"That's not what I'm asking...I'm asking if you are in love with David Gordon."
Lizzie stares at her best friend and before she can respond with anything Ethan and Larry join the two girls, "why are you guys sitting so far back here?" Ethan asks.
"Avoiding Katezilla?" Larry asks.
Miranda nods, "of course what else would we be doing way back here?"