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Rings under my bed. I now officially own Lord of the Rings. It's mine, all
mine. My own, my precioussss. *wakes up from dream. Looks under bed and
finds nothing but dustbunnies* NNNNNOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!. Evil dream. Stop
mocking me!!!!!
A/N: Sorry this took so long. I've been so busy with studying for exams. I've had this ready for so long. Plus now my uploading thing kept telling me that I haven't uploaded anything right after it tells me that it has. I know that doesn't make sense but it's true and it's annoying! BTW my team came first in our division for the Hoop it up tourney (basketball tourney). I finally earned a trophy. Yeah. Okay enough of my life story. Still need reviews people. Oh for the purposes of the plot and realism I must make my main characters friends again. Sorry to those who liked the bitchiness. REVIEW!!!!!!!!
Chapter 6
The next morning I awoke to someone shaking me. No one in the company had woken me up by shaking me. I had always awoken before anybody needed to wake me up. Nobody knew better than to try. But the day before I had slept badly and now I was really tired, and someone needed to wake me up. Instead of opening my eyes, I brought my arm around and hit the person on the head. It wasn't deliberate. I was totally unconscious of it, like when they hit your knee with a hammer.
I opened my eyes. Legolas was standing a safe distance away from me rubbing his head. I winced inwardly. I would have laughed at anyone else, but I felt horrible about hitting Legolas.
I definitely had a big crush on him. I had tried to convince myself otherwise, but I knew I was wrong. I had a huge crush and I hated it. Love is so painful, if only because rejection is torture.
We had to leave nearly right away. We ate a quick breakfast (/ dinner since it was dusk) in silence. Obviously the only thing anyone could think about was last night's argument between me and Lara, and no one wanted to bring that up.
We walked the rest of the waning evening and through the night in absolute silence. I didn't even complain. I was too busy cursing Lara and thinking up impossible schemes to get revenge on her.
We stopped again just before dawn. I looked around at our surroundings. They looked almost the same as when we left: we were in the foothills of some giant mountains to the left that resembled the Rockies. I wondered if we were actually getting anywhere. It was like being on the beach when you want to get to a certain point and it doesn't look far but really it takes two hours to get there because everything looks the same. It was a very annoying feeling.
Lara decided this was her time for redemption. She came over to me as I sat by myself on a rock.
"Hi," she said cheerfully.
"What do you want?" I asked, sneering.
"Look I just wanted to say that I'm sorry about yesterday. I acted really badly and I guess I should have been able to handle the situation better. Anyway I'm sorry." She was talking quickly. She wasn't enjoying this apology.
"Oh thank you. I feel ever so much better," I said sarcastically, determined to drag out her suffering for as long as possible.
"Look I'm sorry. What else do you want me to do?" She was getting annoyed.
"Send me home."
"I told you. You don't want to go home."
"Yes I do."
"Well I can't send you back there anyway."
"Well I want to go - What?" It had just registered what she had said. "How can you not be able to send me home if you brought me here?"
"It's really difficult to explain."
"We have plenty of time," I remarked. I was determined to learn why I was here.
"Okay. Well let's see. You know that thing I was looking at right before you came."
"The compass?"
"Yes that. Well it's not a compass. It's called a dark mirror. It allows for transportation between worlds." I was waiting for more explanation but she had stopped.
"So why can't you send me back?"
"Well that's also difficult to explain. And it would probably be difficult for you to accept."
I was past not accepting things. Now things just were and I didn't question them. "Lara I've accepted that you're some magical thing. I think I can accept this dark mirror. Go on."
"Okay. Well this world has more gravitational pull magically than the old one did. Magic exists here and people believe in it, but on Earth no one believes in magic. Everything was proved by science. Essentially the dark mirror feels the magical pull of a world with more magic is stronger than that of one without and when it's activated it will pull anyone present into that world."
I gaped at her. It was a lot to grasp, but I forced myself to accept it. If what she said was true, I was stuck here for good. "So there's no way to send me back home?"
"There is a way," she said. I brightened. "But I can't do it." My heart fell. I was stuck. There was no getting around it. There were no loopholes. What I would have done for a loophole.
"But you can do everything," I cried.
She laughed. "Yah right. I wish. I can do a lot, but certainly not everything."
"So what's the way to get back?"
"Why? It won't help you."
"Just interested." I was determined to find a loophole. Everything had loopholes. I was beginning to think I was schizo. About thirty seconds ago I had convinced myself of a complete absence of loopholes. I probably was schizo. BW (bizarro world) does that to you, ya know?
"Fine." She was becoming exasperated with my questions. "Going back requires a certain amount of magical essence or strength from the person wanting to go back. Because the world you want to return to has no natural pull it won't take you back like this one brought you into itself. You possess no magical essence and you lack in strength as well."
"I have strength. Look!" I flexed my arm.
Lara laughed. "Not that kind of strength. Strength of mind. Discipline over your mind and your actions. You don't have that."
"How do you know? I could."
"Have you ever meditated?" she asked raising an eyebrow. "It's one of the simplest forms of control over the mind."
"No, but it doesn't mean I can't."
"Okay," she said grinning devilishly. "Let's see you fail."
"How do I do it?" Not the way to show her that I could do it, but I needed to know how.
"You have to let your mind slip away from your conscious thought. It's empty. You can feel everything around you. Remember your mind is blank."
I closed my eyes and focused on thinking of nothing. Unfortunately focusing on thinking of nothing did not clear your mind or help you slip away from your conscious thought. I tried for almost fifteen minutes and succeeded in giving myself a headache. Finally I decided to just fake it. I closed my eyes tightly, then let them slowly relax, giving the impression that I had gone through some sort of enlightenment.
A few minutes later I fluttered my eyes open. "I did it," I said trying to sound really joyful about it.
"Yes April, and I just saw a pig fly," she drawled rolling her eyes. "It went that way. It had little pink wings kind of like Pegasus, and -."
"Alright, alright. Stop mocking me. I can't do it. So?"
"You asked me if there was any way you could go back. I told you how, and now you know you can't. The dark mirror will not help you back."
I had totally forgotten the reason of this meditating lesson. I had failed at meditating and my last chance of getting home was gone. My pessimistic schizo part had been right. There were no loopholes. I hung my head in defeat.
"Sorry," said Lara gently putting her hand on my shoulder. "I wish I could something for you."
"Thanks," I whispered. I was forlorn. I was sad. I couldn't go home. I felt so lost. I got up and moved away to higher rock to think or perhaps just to feel sorry for myself. I looked out amid the beautiful scenery. Before it had all seemed like dream, or some horrible nightmare, but now it was painfully real. I was tired, but I wasn't going to sleep this afternoon.
I was lucky I didn't.
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A/N: So that's the end. There should be more faster and sooner since my exams are in two days and once they start I'll be able to write more cuz I won't have classes. Sorry that chap wasn't as good as some of the other I just needed to explain how she got there, though I don't get why I need chapter to do that. Oh well must have been a sugar high. REVIEW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
A/N: Sorry this took so long. I've been so busy with studying for exams. I've had this ready for so long. Plus now my uploading thing kept telling me that I haven't uploaded anything right after it tells me that it has. I know that doesn't make sense but it's true and it's annoying! BTW my team came first in our division for the Hoop it up tourney (basketball tourney). I finally earned a trophy. Yeah. Okay enough of my life story. Still need reviews people. Oh for the purposes of the plot and realism I must make my main characters friends again. Sorry to those who liked the bitchiness. REVIEW!!!!!!!!
Chapter 6
The next morning I awoke to someone shaking me. No one in the company had woken me up by shaking me. I had always awoken before anybody needed to wake me up. Nobody knew better than to try. But the day before I had slept badly and now I was really tired, and someone needed to wake me up. Instead of opening my eyes, I brought my arm around and hit the person on the head. It wasn't deliberate. I was totally unconscious of it, like when they hit your knee with a hammer.
I opened my eyes. Legolas was standing a safe distance away from me rubbing his head. I winced inwardly. I would have laughed at anyone else, but I felt horrible about hitting Legolas.
I definitely had a big crush on him. I had tried to convince myself otherwise, but I knew I was wrong. I had a huge crush and I hated it. Love is so painful, if only because rejection is torture.
We had to leave nearly right away. We ate a quick breakfast (/ dinner since it was dusk) in silence. Obviously the only thing anyone could think about was last night's argument between me and Lara, and no one wanted to bring that up.
We walked the rest of the waning evening and through the night in absolute silence. I didn't even complain. I was too busy cursing Lara and thinking up impossible schemes to get revenge on her.
We stopped again just before dawn. I looked around at our surroundings. They looked almost the same as when we left: we were in the foothills of some giant mountains to the left that resembled the Rockies. I wondered if we were actually getting anywhere. It was like being on the beach when you want to get to a certain point and it doesn't look far but really it takes two hours to get there because everything looks the same. It was a very annoying feeling.
Lara decided this was her time for redemption. She came over to me as I sat by myself on a rock.
"Hi," she said cheerfully.
"What do you want?" I asked, sneering.
"Look I just wanted to say that I'm sorry about yesterday. I acted really badly and I guess I should have been able to handle the situation better. Anyway I'm sorry." She was talking quickly. She wasn't enjoying this apology.
"Oh thank you. I feel ever so much better," I said sarcastically, determined to drag out her suffering for as long as possible.
"Look I'm sorry. What else do you want me to do?" She was getting annoyed.
"Send me home."
"I told you. You don't want to go home."
"Yes I do."
"Well I can't send you back there anyway."
"Well I want to go - What?" It had just registered what she had said. "How can you not be able to send me home if you brought me here?"
"It's really difficult to explain."
"We have plenty of time," I remarked. I was determined to learn why I was here.
"Okay. Well let's see. You know that thing I was looking at right before you came."
"The compass?"
"Yes that. Well it's not a compass. It's called a dark mirror. It allows for transportation between worlds." I was waiting for more explanation but she had stopped.
"So why can't you send me back?"
"Well that's also difficult to explain. And it would probably be difficult for you to accept."
I was past not accepting things. Now things just were and I didn't question them. "Lara I've accepted that you're some magical thing. I think I can accept this dark mirror. Go on."
"Okay. Well this world has more gravitational pull magically than the old one did. Magic exists here and people believe in it, but on Earth no one believes in magic. Everything was proved by science. Essentially the dark mirror feels the magical pull of a world with more magic is stronger than that of one without and when it's activated it will pull anyone present into that world."
I gaped at her. It was a lot to grasp, but I forced myself to accept it. If what she said was true, I was stuck here for good. "So there's no way to send me back home?"
"There is a way," she said. I brightened. "But I can't do it." My heart fell. I was stuck. There was no getting around it. There were no loopholes. What I would have done for a loophole.
"But you can do everything," I cried.
She laughed. "Yah right. I wish. I can do a lot, but certainly not everything."
"So what's the way to get back?"
"Why? It won't help you."
"Just interested." I was determined to find a loophole. Everything had loopholes. I was beginning to think I was schizo. About thirty seconds ago I had convinced myself of a complete absence of loopholes. I probably was schizo. BW (bizarro world) does that to you, ya know?
"Fine." She was becoming exasperated with my questions. "Going back requires a certain amount of magical essence or strength from the person wanting to go back. Because the world you want to return to has no natural pull it won't take you back like this one brought you into itself. You possess no magical essence and you lack in strength as well."
"I have strength. Look!" I flexed my arm.
Lara laughed. "Not that kind of strength. Strength of mind. Discipline over your mind and your actions. You don't have that."
"How do you know? I could."
"Have you ever meditated?" she asked raising an eyebrow. "It's one of the simplest forms of control over the mind."
"No, but it doesn't mean I can't."
"Okay," she said grinning devilishly. "Let's see you fail."
"How do I do it?" Not the way to show her that I could do it, but I needed to know how.
"You have to let your mind slip away from your conscious thought. It's empty. You can feel everything around you. Remember your mind is blank."
I closed my eyes and focused on thinking of nothing. Unfortunately focusing on thinking of nothing did not clear your mind or help you slip away from your conscious thought. I tried for almost fifteen minutes and succeeded in giving myself a headache. Finally I decided to just fake it. I closed my eyes tightly, then let them slowly relax, giving the impression that I had gone through some sort of enlightenment.
A few minutes later I fluttered my eyes open. "I did it," I said trying to sound really joyful about it.
"Yes April, and I just saw a pig fly," she drawled rolling her eyes. "It went that way. It had little pink wings kind of like Pegasus, and -."
"Alright, alright. Stop mocking me. I can't do it. So?"
"You asked me if there was any way you could go back. I told you how, and now you know you can't. The dark mirror will not help you back."
I had totally forgotten the reason of this meditating lesson. I had failed at meditating and my last chance of getting home was gone. My pessimistic schizo part had been right. There were no loopholes. I hung my head in defeat.
"Sorry," said Lara gently putting her hand on my shoulder. "I wish I could something for you."
"Thanks," I whispered. I was forlorn. I was sad. I couldn't go home. I felt so lost. I got up and moved away to higher rock to think or perhaps just to feel sorry for myself. I looked out amid the beautiful scenery. Before it had all seemed like dream, or some horrible nightmare, but now it was painfully real. I was tired, but I wasn't going to sleep this afternoon.
I was lucky I didn't.
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A/N: So that's the end. There should be more faster and sooner since my exams are in two days and once they start I'll be able to write more cuz I won't have classes. Sorry that chap wasn't as good as some of the other I just needed to explain how she got there, though I don't get why I need chapter to do that. Oh well must have been a sugar high. REVIEW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!