Lost Love
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By. Every Night I Save You
Summary: Buffy looks back on her time in L.A., after the destruction of Sunnydale, and the loss of Spike.
Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters in this story, Joss Whedon does, I'm just borrowing them. I promise to give them all back, but maybe not Spike.
***************************************************** Chapter One ***************************************************** When Buffy had woken up the next night, she couldn't remember where she was, or what had happened.
"Spike?" she called out softly. Then it hit her, and the tears began again. She sat up with her knees under her chin and cried out her soul.
"Buffy?" Dawn asked, her voice blurry with sleep. She sat up and enveloped her sister in her arms. She had known not to leave her alone, and had only slept after Buffy had fallen asleep, sobbing quietly.
A light knock came to the door and Willow stuck her head in, taking in the scene. Moving into the room, she sat on the bed and took Buffy out of Dawn's arms and into her own.
"Dawnie, honey, go get Giles for me," she said quietly. "I think he's two door down from my room."
Nodding, Dawn left the room in search of Giles. When they came in, Willow transferred Buffy back into Dawn's arms and faced Giles. They started talking in hushed tones.
"She is grief stricken, Giles." Willow stated.
"We just have to wait it out, hopefully she will make it through this. I'm afraid, so much has happened in the last few years that, she has lost so much." Giles really didn't know what else to say.
When the sobs stopped behind them, thay knew that the Slayer had exhausted herself again. When a low knock came to the door, they jumped slightly and looked at Buffy to see if it disturbed her. Dawn shook her head to Willow as Giles answered the door.
"Angel," Giles said. He glanced behind him to his Slayer and stepped into the hall, Willow right behind him.
Angel stayed silent, until he couldn't bear it a second longer. "What happened? Is she okay? I could hear her downstairs it sounded like she was dying."
Willow and Giles looked at each other for a moment, before they could answer him the door behind them opened and Dawn stepped out. She closed the door silently behind her.
"The Hellmouth is closed, Spike closed it, and he died." She told him, her eyes full of tears. "As to whether or not Buffy's okay, I would have to go with a no. She's not okay now, and I don't know if she will be soon."
Willow put her arm around Dawn's shoulders as the teen cried. "Shh. . . it's okay. She'll get through this, she will, Dawnie. Please don't cry, we'll get through this."
"But, I never said, I'm sorry," she sobbed, against Willow's shoulder. "He died not knowing how much I still loved him. He was a part of me."
"He was a part of all of us, even when we didn't want him to be." Xander said from behind Angel. He had heard Buffy crying and had cried right along with her. When he heard the conversation in the hall, he opened the door and put his two-cents in about Spike.
"Xander?" Willow asked, shocked.
"I know, the Bleached Wonder, not my favorite person, and I do mean person, not monster or demon, person." At their shocked looks, he continued, "I've done a lot of thinking in a very short time so bear with me. Looking back, there have been a lot of constants in our lives. Demons trying to kill us, Buffy saving us, and Spike. No matter how much you wanted him to leave and he never did. He's saved our asses when he didn't have to, and now he saved the world. I wish I could thank him."
Angel stood in shock, he had wanted to ask Willow and Giles who Dawn had been talking about. Thinking she had lost her boyfriend or something, but when Xander had said bleached he knew it could only be Spike that he was talking about. He wanted to laugh at them when he made the comment of Spike saving Buffy, them, and even the world. He couldn't listen to them anymore.
"Willow, let me know how she's doing, and if there is anything I can do, Fred is downstairs. Giles when you have the time Wesley would like to talk to you about what happened and so would I." With that said he turned and walked away, heading to the only place he found comfort anymore.
He sat in the medical wing by Cordelia's side for hours until they called him back to the hotel. Fred said Buffy was up and asking for him, he headed back to the hotel, hoping he and Buffy would get to talk and he could ask her to stay with him, in L.A.
When he got there, things were not as he expected.
TBC??? Should I even continue or should I just give up??? PLeae review even to tell me it sucks. If I do continue it will be Spuffy all the way, as for the rating just a precaution, who really knows how my brain works after it gets going.
Summary: Buffy looks back on her time in L.A., after the destruction of Sunnydale, and the loss of Spike.
Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters in this story, Joss Whedon does, I'm just borrowing them. I promise to give them all back, but maybe not Spike.
***************************************************** Chapter One ***************************************************** When Buffy had woken up the next night, she couldn't remember where she was, or what had happened.
"Spike?" she called out softly. Then it hit her, and the tears began again. She sat up with her knees under her chin and cried out her soul.
"Buffy?" Dawn asked, her voice blurry with sleep. She sat up and enveloped her sister in her arms. She had known not to leave her alone, and had only slept after Buffy had fallen asleep, sobbing quietly.
A light knock came to the door and Willow stuck her head in, taking in the scene. Moving into the room, she sat on the bed and took Buffy out of Dawn's arms and into her own.
"Dawnie, honey, go get Giles for me," she said quietly. "I think he's two door down from my room."
Nodding, Dawn left the room in search of Giles. When they came in, Willow transferred Buffy back into Dawn's arms and faced Giles. They started talking in hushed tones.
"She is grief stricken, Giles." Willow stated.
"We just have to wait it out, hopefully she will make it through this. I'm afraid, so much has happened in the last few years that, she has lost so much." Giles really didn't know what else to say.
When the sobs stopped behind them, thay knew that the Slayer had exhausted herself again. When a low knock came to the door, they jumped slightly and looked at Buffy to see if it disturbed her. Dawn shook her head to Willow as Giles answered the door.
"Angel," Giles said. He glanced behind him to his Slayer and stepped into the hall, Willow right behind him.
Angel stayed silent, until he couldn't bear it a second longer. "What happened? Is she okay? I could hear her downstairs it sounded like she was dying."
Willow and Giles looked at each other for a moment, before they could answer him the door behind them opened and Dawn stepped out. She closed the door silently behind her.
"The Hellmouth is closed, Spike closed it, and he died." She told him, her eyes full of tears. "As to whether or not Buffy's okay, I would have to go with a no. She's not okay now, and I don't know if she will be soon."
Willow put her arm around Dawn's shoulders as the teen cried. "Shh. . . it's okay. She'll get through this, she will, Dawnie. Please don't cry, we'll get through this."
"But, I never said, I'm sorry," she sobbed, against Willow's shoulder. "He died not knowing how much I still loved him. He was a part of me."
"He was a part of all of us, even when we didn't want him to be." Xander said from behind Angel. He had heard Buffy crying and had cried right along with her. When he heard the conversation in the hall, he opened the door and put his two-cents in about Spike.
"Xander?" Willow asked, shocked.
"I know, the Bleached Wonder, not my favorite person, and I do mean person, not monster or demon, person." At their shocked looks, he continued, "I've done a lot of thinking in a very short time so bear with me. Looking back, there have been a lot of constants in our lives. Demons trying to kill us, Buffy saving us, and Spike. No matter how much you wanted him to leave and he never did. He's saved our asses when he didn't have to, and now he saved the world. I wish I could thank him."
Angel stood in shock, he had wanted to ask Willow and Giles who Dawn had been talking about. Thinking she had lost her boyfriend or something, but when Xander had said bleached he knew it could only be Spike that he was talking about. He wanted to laugh at them when he made the comment of Spike saving Buffy, them, and even the world. He couldn't listen to them anymore.
"Willow, let me know how she's doing, and if there is anything I can do, Fred is downstairs. Giles when you have the time Wesley would like to talk to you about what happened and so would I." With that said he turned and walked away, heading to the only place he found comfort anymore.
He sat in the medical wing by Cordelia's side for hours until they called him back to the hotel. Fred said Buffy was up and asking for him, he headed back to the hotel, hoping he and Buffy would get to talk and he could ask her to stay with him, in L.A.
When he got there, things were not as he expected.
TBC??? Should I even continue or should I just give up??? PLeae review even to tell me it sucks. If I do continue it will be Spuffy all the way, as for the rating just a precaution, who really knows how my brain works after it gets going.