Title: I had to let you go
Author: lein_kenkoishii
Disclaimer: I do not own Yu Yu Hakusho or any of the characters. They rightfully belong to their respective owners.
CHAPTER 2
"Kurama-kun," I uttered a bit surprised to find you here. I slowly smiled at you as I continued to stare at your calm and mesmerizing eyes. I seem to be falling in a deeper trance as I stared at you. I slowly shook my head and grinned weakly. "Gomen ne for staring, Kurama-kun. Um, what are you doing here? If you don't mind me asking?" I asked as I motioned you to sit beside me. It's been a while since I last saw you..I was too caught up with my problems in Reikai and with Yusuke as well that I wasn't able to spend time with you, Hiei and Kuwabara. Not that Hiei would want me to spend time with him.
You smiled softly at me yet you didn't answer. Instead, you took a seat beside me, slowly closed your eyes and took a deep breath. I was entranced by your seemingly perfect façade. You looked so tranquil, without a single problem in mind. Oh, how I envied the life you lead now. You seem to have everything..a perfect life..a caring family, a loving mother, ideal friends and probably a perfect girlfriend. Come to think of it, I don't know much about you..your likes, interests, dreams, fears..basically much about your life. All I knew was that you loved your mother more than anything in this world because she showed you the beauty of life as a ningen. And also that you're probably the only guy that I know with his own fan club. I softly chuckled at the thought. I didn't notice that I was staring at you longer than the usual until you broke the silence. "You're staring again, Bot- chan." You chuckled, eyes still closed, as I turned away from you, blushing.
"Gomen, ne, kurama-kun" I apologized quietly, feeling my cheeks grow even warmer every second. You slowly opened your eyes and turned to look at me with your hypnotizing deep forest eyes. I couldn't bring myself to look at you in the eye..I just couldn't. I can't help but feel intimidated by your spellbinding stare..as if you can see right through me..as if you can see through the very core of my being. Instead, I looked at the ocean before us and sighed. "Peaceful times are here again, ne Kurama-kun," I whispered faintly as I stared beyond the horizon.
You followed my gaze. "Ah..but for how long, Botan-chan?" You commented. "For how long?" I understand your sentiments. A few moments of silence followed..neither of us attempting to break the silence. You seemed to be in deep thought that I didn't want to interrupt. Besides, it gave me a chance to carefully observe you. You slowly ran your fingers through your red silk-like tresses..a simple gesture that reminded me so much of Yusuke. I abruptly looked away with tears beginning to well up in my eyes as memories began to flood my mind..heck, why does everything have to remind me of him.
I decided to break the silence..probably just to get my mind off Yusuke. Perhaps a conversation would divert my attention. "You haven't answered my question, Kurama-kun." I stated quietly as I bravely met your eyes. I felt so lost in them..there was something in them that made me feel so peaceful, so safe and even, uh, loved? Now where did that come from? I just don't know what I'm feeling right now..I'm so confused. There's something in you that makes me feel rather..calm and serene.
"Ah, probably the same reason as to why you're here, ne Botan-chan." You answered staring at me. "To forget certain things..even for just a while. I just want to get away from it all..the pressures of school, peers and basically life itself." You looked away and glanced at the sky. I was quite stunned with what you had just said. I mean, you? You seem to have everything in your life going your way. How can you feel so strained? You seem to have read my mind when you answered. "Aa, Botan-chan, I do feel stressed out at times especially with regards to school and other personal matters."
"How come? I mean, you do so well in school and probably everything else especially when you put your mind into it." I stated following your gaze. I can't seem to comprehend your predicament.
"Arigatou for the compliment, Botan-chan, but there are certain instances in life that you would wish to get away from it all..College is tough but I think I can pull through-"
"With flying colors!" I interrupted.
"Aa, I hope so with flying colors." You are so modest, Kurama-kun. No wonder you have everything just within your reach. You slowly glanced at me as you continue to ramble on. "Mother can't help but worry that I would end up alone..I can't seem to get her understand that I'm not in a hurry to be in an intimate relationship with a girl that I love. If we are meant to be..then let fate take its toll. Besides, I don't know if she even likes me for that matter." A low chuckle rumbled through your chest.
"How can anyone not like you, Kurama-kun?! You're probably the ideal guy for anyone in this world! I mean, you even have your own fan club!" I exclaimed in disbelief. You found my outburst quite amusing since you laughed at what I had just said. The amusement was clearly evident in your eyes. "Yet I understand your mother's sentiments, Kurama-kun. She's worried about you being alone..or worse..being alone and lonely. She just wants you to be able to spend the rest of your life with someone you love just as she had. She probably can't wait to have grandchildren." I laughed quietly and turned to look at you.
"I guess you're right." You responded inaudibly.
"I am?"
"Aa," you slowly closed your eyes and turned away. "It's just that, I can't help but feel burdened and incomplete."
"I know what you mean, Kurama-kun." All thoughts wandered to Yusuke. It was exactly how I feel..except for the part with a mother being worried about me. "But how can you feel that way when you seem have everything you could ever wish for in life, Kurama-kun." I exclaimed not really understanding why you were feeling this way. "Oh how I envy the life you lead." I whispered barely inaudible as I bowed my head. I carefully reached for your hand and gave it a friendly squeeze..as if to remind you that I'll always be here for you guys. You glanced at me with your hypnotizing emerald eyes and smiled. I slowly stood up and summoned my oar. "I guess I have to go now..Koenma-sama's going to bite my head off for staying too long. It was really nice talking to you..arigatou for getting my mind off-" I paused as I remembered Yusuke-kun. "--certain things."
"Aa, but you owe me one, Botan-chan. You weren't quite fair." I was totally confused which probably urged you to go on. "You never said anything about what were you doing here. I hope you trust me enough to share your problems with me. Botan-chan." You also got up and walked by the edge of the cliff. You were right..all I did was listen to you whine about your worries in life. A few minutes of silence passed. "Are you coming to Keiko-chan's dinner party?" You suddenly asked.
"Ano..I honestly don't know, Kurama-kun." I softly answered. "My work in Reikai's been piling up but I'll try to be there and convince Koenma-sama to go with me." I reassured you. "Gomen ne, Kurama-kun..but I really have to go. Arigatou gozaimasu. Hope we could do this again." I smiled as I mounted my oar.
"You know, Botan-chan, there are certain instances in life that you would just want time to stop..and for me, this is one of them. Arigatou for listening to me and cheering me up."
I smiled and waved as I made my way to Reikai. Talking to you somehow made me feel even lighter. "Arigatou, Kurama-kun!"
Kurama's POV
"Contrary to what you mentioned earlier, I don't have everything, Botan- chan..I don't have you by my side. You were too caught up with your infatuations for Yusuke that you didn't notice those who have truly loved you all this time." I gazed longingly at you as you surged forward and out into the Ningenkai skies. "If only.."
Author's notes: It was supposed to be a one shot fic but I can't help it. However, this is the only thing I can come up with. Aw man..this is really getting no where! I can't seem to come up with great ideas about the story..talk about mental blocks! help, people! Any suggestions? I apologize if you think this chapter is done rather poorly..sorry. =( I hope that the next one would be better...tsk tsk..
By the way, thanks for the reviews! =)
God bless people!
Author: lein_kenkoishii
Disclaimer: I do not own Yu Yu Hakusho or any of the characters. They rightfully belong to their respective owners.
CHAPTER 2
"Kurama-kun," I uttered a bit surprised to find you here. I slowly smiled at you as I continued to stare at your calm and mesmerizing eyes. I seem to be falling in a deeper trance as I stared at you. I slowly shook my head and grinned weakly. "Gomen ne for staring, Kurama-kun. Um, what are you doing here? If you don't mind me asking?" I asked as I motioned you to sit beside me. It's been a while since I last saw you..I was too caught up with my problems in Reikai and with Yusuke as well that I wasn't able to spend time with you, Hiei and Kuwabara. Not that Hiei would want me to spend time with him.
You smiled softly at me yet you didn't answer. Instead, you took a seat beside me, slowly closed your eyes and took a deep breath. I was entranced by your seemingly perfect façade. You looked so tranquil, without a single problem in mind. Oh, how I envied the life you lead now. You seem to have everything..a perfect life..a caring family, a loving mother, ideal friends and probably a perfect girlfriend. Come to think of it, I don't know much about you..your likes, interests, dreams, fears..basically much about your life. All I knew was that you loved your mother more than anything in this world because she showed you the beauty of life as a ningen. And also that you're probably the only guy that I know with his own fan club. I softly chuckled at the thought. I didn't notice that I was staring at you longer than the usual until you broke the silence. "You're staring again, Bot- chan." You chuckled, eyes still closed, as I turned away from you, blushing.
"Gomen, ne, kurama-kun" I apologized quietly, feeling my cheeks grow even warmer every second. You slowly opened your eyes and turned to look at me with your hypnotizing deep forest eyes. I couldn't bring myself to look at you in the eye..I just couldn't. I can't help but feel intimidated by your spellbinding stare..as if you can see right through me..as if you can see through the very core of my being. Instead, I looked at the ocean before us and sighed. "Peaceful times are here again, ne Kurama-kun," I whispered faintly as I stared beyond the horizon.
You followed my gaze. "Ah..but for how long, Botan-chan?" You commented. "For how long?" I understand your sentiments. A few moments of silence followed..neither of us attempting to break the silence. You seemed to be in deep thought that I didn't want to interrupt. Besides, it gave me a chance to carefully observe you. You slowly ran your fingers through your red silk-like tresses..a simple gesture that reminded me so much of Yusuke. I abruptly looked away with tears beginning to well up in my eyes as memories began to flood my mind..heck, why does everything have to remind me of him.
I decided to break the silence..probably just to get my mind off Yusuke. Perhaps a conversation would divert my attention. "You haven't answered my question, Kurama-kun." I stated quietly as I bravely met your eyes. I felt so lost in them..there was something in them that made me feel so peaceful, so safe and even, uh, loved? Now where did that come from? I just don't know what I'm feeling right now..I'm so confused. There's something in you that makes me feel rather..calm and serene.
"Ah, probably the same reason as to why you're here, ne Botan-chan." You answered staring at me. "To forget certain things..even for just a while. I just want to get away from it all..the pressures of school, peers and basically life itself." You looked away and glanced at the sky. I was quite stunned with what you had just said. I mean, you? You seem to have everything in your life going your way. How can you feel so strained? You seem to have read my mind when you answered. "Aa, Botan-chan, I do feel stressed out at times especially with regards to school and other personal matters."
"How come? I mean, you do so well in school and probably everything else especially when you put your mind into it." I stated following your gaze. I can't seem to comprehend your predicament.
"Arigatou for the compliment, Botan-chan, but there are certain instances in life that you would wish to get away from it all..College is tough but I think I can pull through-"
"With flying colors!" I interrupted.
"Aa, I hope so with flying colors." You are so modest, Kurama-kun. No wonder you have everything just within your reach. You slowly glanced at me as you continue to ramble on. "Mother can't help but worry that I would end up alone..I can't seem to get her understand that I'm not in a hurry to be in an intimate relationship with a girl that I love. If we are meant to be..then let fate take its toll. Besides, I don't know if she even likes me for that matter." A low chuckle rumbled through your chest.
"How can anyone not like you, Kurama-kun?! You're probably the ideal guy for anyone in this world! I mean, you even have your own fan club!" I exclaimed in disbelief. You found my outburst quite amusing since you laughed at what I had just said. The amusement was clearly evident in your eyes. "Yet I understand your mother's sentiments, Kurama-kun. She's worried about you being alone..or worse..being alone and lonely. She just wants you to be able to spend the rest of your life with someone you love just as she had. She probably can't wait to have grandchildren." I laughed quietly and turned to look at you.
"I guess you're right." You responded inaudibly.
"I am?"
"Aa," you slowly closed your eyes and turned away. "It's just that, I can't help but feel burdened and incomplete."
"I know what you mean, Kurama-kun." All thoughts wandered to Yusuke. It was exactly how I feel..except for the part with a mother being worried about me. "But how can you feel that way when you seem have everything you could ever wish for in life, Kurama-kun." I exclaimed not really understanding why you were feeling this way. "Oh how I envy the life you lead." I whispered barely inaudible as I bowed my head. I carefully reached for your hand and gave it a friendly squeeze..as if to remind you that I'll always be here for you guys. You glanced at me with your hypnotizing emerald eyes and smiled. I slowly stood up and summoned my oar. "I guess I have to go now..Koenma-sama's going to bite my head off for staying too long. It was really nice talking to you..arigatou for getting my mind off-" I paused as I remembered Yusuke-kun. "--certain things."
"Aa, but you owe me one, Botan-chan. You weren't quite fair." I was totally confused which probably urged you to go on. "You never said anything about what were you doing here. I hope you trust me enough to share your problems with me. Botan-chan." You also got up and walked by the edge of the cliff. You were right..all I did was listen to you whine about your worries in life. A few minutes of silence passed. "Are you coming to Keiko-chan's dinner party?" You suddenly asked.
"Ano..I honestly don't know, Kurama-kun." I softly answered. "My work in Reikai's been piling up but I'll try to be there and convince Koenma-sama to go with me." I reassured you. "Gomen ne, Kurama-kun..but I really have to go. Arigatou gozaimasu. Hope we could do this again." I smiled as I mounted my oar.
"You know, Botan-chan, there are certain instances in life that you would just want time to stop..and for me, this is one of them. Arigatou for listening to me and cheering me up."
I smiled and waved as I made my way to Reikai. Talking to you somehow made me feel even lighter. "Arigatou, Kurama-kun!"
Kurama's POV
"Contrary to what you mentioned earlier, I don't have everything, Botan- chan..I don't have you by my side. You were too caught up with your infatuations for Yusuke that you didn't notice those who have truly loved you all this time." I gazed longingly at you as you surged forward and out into the Ningenkai skies. "If only.."
Author's notes: It was supposed to be a one shot fic but I can't help it. However, this is the only thing I can come up with. Aw man..this is really getting no where! I can't seem to come up with great ideas about the story..talk about mental blocks! help, people! Any suggestions? I apologize if you think this chapter is done rather poorly..sorry. =( I hope that the next one would be better...tsk tsk..
By the way, thanks for the reviews! =)
God bless people!