My Very First Time

Amanda sat in her room quietly contemplating, well…life. Her life…well more specifically her love life with Kurt Wagner. The light from her lamp wasn't really the best, but it would suffice. She smiled sorting through pictures they had taken last week down in Bayville Park. Kurt was her everything: her shining star, her funny little gymnastic elf, her Liebe. She was so in love with Kurt she would have sworn it hurt physically sometimes.

The pictures showed the two of them hugging, kissing, swimming in the lake, and doing a number of other entertaining things. Putting the pictures into a neat stack, Amanda walked silently over to the window. Outside the busy nightlife of Bayville, New York paid no attention to the young girl studying them. The clock on her dresser flashed 11:18 in big, red, digital letters. Amanda knew both her parent were probably asleep by now, seeing as the both had to go to work bright and early the next day.

"Thank God", she thought.

It wasn't that Amanda didn't love her parents; on the contrary, she loved them both greatly. They just didn't understand she and Kurt's relationship. Amanda sighed, remembering the god-awful dinner at which her parents had met Kurt. The night had been going fine in the beginning. Kurt looked handsome in a suit and tie, her parents were enjoying Kurt's company, and everything had been going great until…Todd "Toad" Tolensky had made his dashing entrance.

The chaos that had ensued from that moment on was something that would forever be branded in Amanda's mind. The scuffle, the commotion, and finally the "unveiling", if that's what you could call it. Todd and Kurt had been wrestling, both trying to get the better of the other. Unfortunately, Todd won… his prize…Kurt's image inducer. When Kurt's true form had been revealed, Amanda's parents were for lack of a better word bewildered. Amanda's eyes tightened in pain as she remembered the intense look of shame upon Kurt's face. Let us just say, Amanda's parents were less than pleased that their daughter was dating a mutant.

Amanda slammed her hands down on the dresser. They had forbidden her to see him! How dare they? Didn't they see how much she and Kurt cared for each other? However, she had continued to sneak out and see him, meeting him in secret.

Stifling a yarn, Amanda glanced over at the clock; 11:32.

"Time for me to be getting to bed don't ya think Blue?"

Blue was Amanda's pet fish. True to his namesake, Blue was a dark indigo "fighter" fish with streaks of fuchsia on his tail. Kurt had given him to her as a present for her seventeenth birthday, a week ago.  Amanda grinned as she remembered the occasion. Blue just continued to swim heedless of her question.

{Flashback: Amanda's 17th Birthday (one week past)}

          Amanda lay on her bed chatting happily into the telephone. It had been a great birthday. Her mom had made a wonderful cake, her dad had bought her a car (a cherry 2004 "coupe" corvette to be exact), and her friends had been well…amusing. She'd gotten so many presents: candles, stuffed animals, scrapbooks, clothes, makeup, perfume, and money to name only a few.

"So what did your hot little immigrant boyfriend get you? I bet it was something fah-bulous", Rhonda's high pitched voice asked.

Amanda groaned, "For the last time he is not an immigrant. He's a foreigner. FOR-RIN-NER. Get it?

Rhonda continued dismissing her comment, "Anyways, what did he get you?"

Immediately Amanda's happiness went down a notch or two. It was true, it had been a wonderful birthday (she had the cake stains on her shirt to prove it), but something was missing. And that something was Kurt. She sighed knowing there was no way her parents would allow Kurt to see her, especially with so many people at the party. Swallowing Amanda forced herself to sound cheerful.

"O-of course, h-he got me something great", she lied, her voice wavering unsteadily.

"Uh huh", Rhonda's suspicion was apparent. "What?"

"Um….um"

Suddenly she couldn't hold back the dam of tears and they flowed freely down her face.

"Oh honey, what happened?" Rhonda's soothing voice asked.

Amanda hesitated; she hadn't told Rhonda that Kurt was a mutant. It would have caused more trouble than good and she defiantly didn't want that. She had simply told Rhonda that parents were being strict and didn't want Amanda dating (but that she and Kurt continued to see each other secretly). 

Rhonda thought it was romantic, "Kinda like Romeo and Juliet", she said.

Through a series of hiccups and sniffles Amanda told Rhonda what had happened, excluding the fact that Kurt was a mutant. Rhonda sympathized with her friend whole-heartedly.

"It's alright girl, I'm sure Kurt would have been there if he could."

Amanda wasn't sure know about that. Kurt had a hectic schedule: school, studying, practice "sessions" with the team, etc. Sometimes it seemed he didn't have time for anything else, especially her. Every time she called him, she got just about the same message.

{Earlier that week}

"Hey Kurt, so what's up? Are you doing anything tonight? Cuz I was thinking that maybe we could catch a movie later."

"Um Amanda I vould love to, but I have practice vith ze guys tonight, you know hov it is."

"Right…okay, catch ya later."

"Goodbye Meine Liebe Sieht, Sie bald."

"Huh?"

"Oops..sorry I slipped into Jerman, I said goodbye my love, see you soon.

"Yeah…bye"

Amanda hugged her knees weeping silently; lately it seemed she wasn't one of Kurt's top priorities. He hardly seemed to have time for her anymore. There was a time when Kurt would have come to her at the drop of a hat, now she was lucky if he said one word to her outside of school.

"Amanda...Amanda…hello? You there?" Amanda was pulled from her reverie by the concerned sound of her friend's voice.

"Uh, yea sorry, I was kinda spacing out."

"You ok?"

"Yea, I'm good. I think I just need some time to think."

"You sure?" Rhonda asked skeptically.

"Yea, I'm sure."

"Alright you call me if you need anything, you hear me anything!"

Amanda smiled. "Yes mother, I'll call you if I need anything."

Rhonda giggled. "Okay if you're sure. I'ma see you later. K?

"Alright, bye gurl, and thanks."

"That's what friends are for, love ya Mandy. Bye."

"Love you Ronnie. Bye."

Amanda hung up the phone feeling slightly better. She turned on the TV. Flipping to the channel 8 news, she shrugged. "I might as well immerse myself in someone else's bad news." Stretching she laid out on her bed ready for today's latest events. However, try as she might, Amanda's mind kept straying from the TV to the face of one particular blue elf.

"Damn him", she muttered, her face stuffed into her satin pillow. Looking at the TV, some woman had just plowed her husband into their house. She claimed she "accidentally" put the car in reverse. Amanda snorted. "Yea right…an accident my ass. People today" Thinking for a moment she laughed. "Who am I to talk? I'm dating a German guy with blue skin, three fingers, yellow eyes, Dracula fangs, and a tail. I definitely qualify as 'people today'." The image of Kurt's attractive elfish face drifted into her mind.

Disinterestedly, she continued to watch about thirty more minutes then, shaking her head she turned off the TV.

"Has Kurt even remembered my birthday?", she asked herself snuggling deeper into the warm covers.

Tears pricked her eyes, "Well there's no use crying over spilled milk."

 Disheartened, Amanda pulled the covers over her head and prepared for sleep. Motionlessly she listened to the sound of the night, the blaring of ambulance sirens, the honking of car horns, and the shouts of drunks stumbling out of bars.

Tap! Tap! Tap!

Something was hitting her window rather loudly. Her first thought, was that it was a pack of birds, that had nothing more to do, and then she realized that it was around midnight; there were no birds around. Curiously, Amanda shuffled from her warm position under the covers to the open window. Looking down she stared into two twin yellow eyes.

"Ahhhhh!" Frightened, she fell backwards onto the floor.   

BAMF!

Suddenly Amanda wasn't the only one in the room.

"Verdammt, I am so sorry. I didn't mean to scare you."

 Thankfully, it was only Kurt. Although it was Kurt, the sight, or rather lack there of was unnerving. In the dark, Kurt totally blended into the shadows. The only thing Amanda could see were his glowing yellow eyes full of concern, marked with a hint of embarrassment. Even after knowing, what Kurt looked like the sight of him was still unsettling at times. Taking some deep breaths, Amanda smiled.

"No, no. It's alright; I just wasn't expecting you that's all."

Embarrassed, Kurt helped her up. Amanda beamed inwardly, "He came, he came." Amanda felt like jumping up and down and doing cartwheels, but restrained herself. She didn't want Kurt thinking she'd lost her mind.

"Thanks…hold on a sec." Quickly Amanda turned on her lamp.

"There that's better." The sight of a handsome, flustered Kurt greeted her. Dressed in a pair of Levi's and a white tee, Kurt grinned.

"Um…sorry to come so late. It's just zat, vell I didn't zink your pawents vould approve of me coming to ze door." Amanda nodded her eyes traveling the length of Kurt's lean body. Blushing, her focus returned to his face.

"It's alright, I'm really glad you came. For a minute there I thought you'd forgotten about me."

For a moment, Kurt was taken aback.

"F-f-or get about you? Never, Amanda. Hov could you zink zuch a ting?

Amanda shrugged. "Well you really haven't been paying much attention to me lately, so I figured…."

Kurt shook his head. "I'm sorry Amanda I velly am" Kurt ran his misshapen fingers through his long hair. "It's just I've been so busy vith….vell everyting, zat I kinda pushed aside vhat vas important to me ze most."

 Amanda's smile didn't quite reach her eyes. "Don't worry about it, its…okay." She turned away promptly. Kurt's heart wrenched at the look on Amanda's face.

"And I caused it" he thought sadly. Standing behind her he snaked his arms around her waist, laying his face in her hair. She was shaking. Inhaling the scent of watermelon and jasmine, he sighed.

"Amanda?"

"Y-yes?"

"You know you're the most important zing in my life right?

Silence.

Squeezing her gently Kurt continued. "I love you more zan life itself."

Slowly, Amanda turned around gazing into Kurt's adoring eyes.

"Really?"

He nodded, "Velly, and I apologize for not treating you az zuch. But I promise it von't happen again."

Reaching up Amanda kissed Kurt deeply, her mouth exploring his, left the faint taste of grape jolly rancher when they parted. Amanda opened her eyes to see Kurt smiling smugly.

"Uh huh, I knew it. You can't keep you hands off me." Kurt winked. "Everyone loves ze fuzzy dude." Kurt proceeded to do the famous "Everyone Loves the Fuzzy Dude Dance". Amanda didn't even try and hold back her laughter. Kurt stopped.

"Ah, look I made you smile." Kurt brushed his thumb lightly across her jaw. Amanda shuddered involuntarily.

"You're beautiful vhen you smile. I mean you're alvays beautiful, but…" Kurt's thumb roamed over her bottom lip. "Your face really lights up vhen you smile." Amanda smiled trying desperately to ignore the erratic beating of her heart.

"Very Charming Elf, very charming."

Kurt did a mock bow and lightly kissed the back of her hand.

"I try Ms.Sefton, I try"

Amanda laughed.

"I'm sure…the effort must be tremendous."

Kurt made a faint swooning motion with his hand.

"Yes, az a matter of fact it iz, but I have zings zat help me along ze vay."

Amanda raised an eyebrow curiously.

Turning around Kurt bent down and produced a medium-sized pink and white gift bag.

The words "Thank you for shopping at Zale's" were scrawled in big cursive writing along the top.

Amanda's eyes widened her curiosity now at its peak. Craning her neck, she strained to see the contents of the bag. Kurt wagged his finger.

"Nein, Nein, Nein Meine Liebe, not yet close your eyes."

Amanda scrunched up her face and pouted. Kurt put on his saddest puppy face.

"Damn I hate it when you do that." Nevertheless, Amanda obliged, closing her eyes. Kurt smirked.

"Vorks every time" he thought silently.

Without a sound, Kurt took out one of the contents from the bag. A small, black velvet felt case rested in his hands. Taking a deep breath, he opened the case. Inside laid a small gold chain no more than a few centimeters thick. At the end of the chain dangled a small diamond encrusted heart pendant. Saying a swift prayer in German, Kurt took the necklace from the box and placed it around Amanda's neck. Amanda flinched.

"Dang Kurt your hands are really cold."

Kurt smiled lopsidedly.

"I'm sorry"

"Can I open my eyes now?"

"Nein, nein, just a moment."

Gently but forcefully, Kurt moved Amanda to stand in front of her full-length mirror. 

"Pleaz let her like it," he whispered softly.

"You can open your eyes now Liebe"

Kurt stepped back as Amanda's eyes opened. Her breath caught in her throat at the site of the trinket. A low wheezing sound emitted from the back of her throat.

"Amanda vhats vhong?"

She felt Kurt tense behind her. Carefully, she raised one hand up to her throat and stroked the chain. It was so beautiful, so delicate, and so…perfect.

Pausing in her appraisal of the necklace, Amanda turned around. Kurt's eyes were large with apprehension and…fear? It donned on her then, that Kurt was afraid of her disapproval. Amanda's heart constricted tightly.

 "He cares that much about me?" she asked herself. Inside Amanda already knew the answer. She had known the answer since the day of the dance when, she'd first met Kurt. Inside she knew without any doubt that Kurt Wagner loved her, and she in turn loved Kurt Wagner.

"Mandy?" he asked expectantly.

Gently Amanda placed her finger upon Kurt's lips.

"Shh", she said tenderly. Slowly she wrapped her arms around his waist. Kurt melted into her embrace. Cocking his head quizzically, he stared down at her.

"I love it, it's so beautiful. Thank you so much Kurt. I couldn't have asked for anything better."

Kurt relaxed visibly.

"You're welcome, anyzing for you Meine Liebe, anyzing. Your vorth anyzing."

Amanda smiled and settled into his arms. Kurt laid his head into the smoothness of her hair. For a moment they stayed there, unmoving, enjoying the perfect ness of the moment. In that moment, they weren't mutant and non-mutant, girlfriend and boyfriend, nor were they Amanda Sefton and Kurt Wagner. No, for that one moment, that one perfect instant they were: One.

Their comfort was short lived, interrupted by the sound of Mr.Sefton's cry of pain.

"Damn…" The clash of metal echoed throughout the house.

"What's wrong dear?" Mrs.Sefton asked concern lacing her voice.

"Nothing…I just dropped the baking pot on my toe"

Amanda heard her mother's laughter. "You should try and be more careful, dear. You know how clumsy you are in the kitchen"

"Yea, I'm a regular Martha Stewart", Mr.Sefton muttered.

Sighing Kurt released his hold of Amanda. She made a small whimpering sound, and Kurt smiled.

"Vell I zink it iz time for me to be goving. Your pawents vould have a heart attack if they found me here, ja?"

Amanda tightened her hold on Kurt, whining. "Awww, I don't want you to leave." She sniffed his collar. "Besides you smell so good." Kurt chuckled and lightly removed Amanda's arms from his neck.

"Be zat az it may. We both know I can't stay. Besides I have to get back to ze mansion before anyone mizzez me."

Amanda rubbed her face into the softness of his shirt.

"Don't go."

Closing his eyes Kurt suppressed a groan.

"Bitte Gott hergeben mich Stärke"(please god give me strength) Kurt begged.

"Meine Schönheit, you know I vould stay if I could, but our lives are two different. Zis is the way it haz to be right now. You understand, Ja?"

Amanda groaned, "Yea, I understand. But when will we be able to be together?" She looked at Kurt hopefully.

Kurt kissed Amanda's forehead tenderly. "Soon… very soon, Meine Liebe, very soon. But I have to go vight now, ok?"

Amanda nodded.

"But before I go, I haven't given you my last prezent." Kurt reached into the bag again and took out its remaining contents. Smiling, Kurt held up a clear plastic bag.  Amanda was puzzled. Taking a closer look at the bag, she saw that in the left corner was a small fish sucking at the bend. Grinning, Kurt handed her the bag.

"Here Liebling, and I got him in blue juz so you wouldn't be lonely vhen I'm gone."

A salty tear escaped Amanda's eye. Kurt gently brushed it away.

"Now, Now Liebe zis is no time for tears. It's your birzday, a time to be happy. Nein?"  

Amanda sniffed and nodded mutely. She was afraid that if she spoke, than everything would disappear, the moment she and Kurt had just shared, the wonderful necklace, everything would be a dream. 

Startlingly, Kurt began to sing in a broken shrill voice.

"Happy birzday to you, happy birzday dear Mandyyyyy. Meine Liebe, happy birzday to yoooouuuuuu." Amanda laughed; Kurt was no American Idol that was for sure. Kurt kissed her forehead tenderly before backing towards the window.

"Goodbye, Liebe. Parting iz such sveet sorrov"

"Who are you tellin'? Bye, Blue." Amanda crooned lovingly, blowing him a farewell kiss.

BAMF!

With that, Kurt was gone. Amanda then realized that "Blue" needed a place to sleep. She started for the door, and then stopped. What would her parents say? They would question her about where she'd gotten the fish. Then there would be a big mess. No, she couldn't go downstairs. Turning quickly, an idea suddenly dawned on her.

Walking into the bathroom, she looked over into the tub. Clean enough. Running the water with one hand and holding Blue in the other, she managed to get the tub partially full. Sticking one finger into the water, she found it was about room temperature. Carefully, Amanda lifted the bag and deposited Blue into the water. He swam the length of the tub contentedly.

Amanda laughed, "If this isn't the ghettoest aquarium." Getting up, she walked to the door pausing, she turned around. "Night, Blue". Turning off the bathroom light she went to bed.

{Flashback: Present}

Amanda smiled and tapped Blue's bowl. She had decided he couldn't stay in her bathtub forever, and had gotten him a small fish bowl complete with a mini castle, mini plants, and even a mini-version of a scuba diver. It was late now; Amanda knew she would be tired tomorrow. Walking over to her bed, she kneeled down and clasped her hands together.

"Dear lord, thank you for waking me up this morning. Thank you for the food I ate, the air I breathed, and the blessings you bestowed on me. Thank you for letting me know the difference between right and wrong. I ask that you continue to bless and protect me as well as the people I love. Lord I pray that my parents one day accept Kurt and I's relationship, that Kurt realizes that he is not a demon, that he is beautiful and worthy of love. I pray that I like Kitty more tomorrow than I do today (cuz you know I can't stand the ground she walks on). Please continue to bless me and let me do your will. Give me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference just for today. These and many more blessings I ask in thy son's name Jesus Christ, Amen. With that, Amanda stood up and hopped into bed.

Staring at the ceiling, Kurt's face materialized inside her mind. Lately, she'd been feeling differently towards him. She had wanted him more, and the urge to be around him was more intense. So intense that Amanda blushed, as an embarrassing feeling of pleasing warmth spread between her legs. Her dreams had quickly become elaborate fantasies that dominated her sleep. Before long, every time she saw him Amanda ruined a good pair of panties, and panty liners had become her new best friend. Amanda shifted.

"Oh what the hell," Closing her eyes, she let her imagination wander. Down, down, down…