Chapter 1…
Genre: Angst…
Warning: Implied MPREG… yaoi… and Angst angst angst…
Pairings: As of right now, Kai/Rei…Might be changed… Review and tell me what you all think…
Offhand: The first few paragraphs aren't that great I think… Maybe it'll get better towards the end…
Kai's POV
You were the finest of all in the team. One who understood me. The only one who wouldn't push for answers when it wasn't the time. You alone knew of my past only because I trusted you. I'd never thought of you any less even when you lost your precious beast, Driger. I knew that you could still win. In the end you won and thanked me. A feeling I never had inside me rose. I didn't know what it was. It was my pleasure.
Now you're gone. Capture, forsaken and lost in the midst of darkness. I've seen your face on the monitor, beaten, whipped and tormented. Scars all over your fragile face. I sit in despair. There was nothing I can do just with emptiness in my eyes and endure the pain they caused you. They treat me the same as you. Whipped, kicked and abused once I loose focus. All I concentrate on is you. The one and only. Each day I sit here staring in the clouded sky shading away the moon. I wonder how much more pain I caused you. Please stay alive for me. I am dearly sorry for the pain my wretched grandfather has done to you.
We were in your hometown. You mysteriously had gone off at night. I saw you. Slipping away in the darkness. I followed you until you stopped on top of a mountain overlooking a calm lonely flowing river. You turned around and faced me and asked why. I confessed to you cause I couldn't keep the secret any more. I headed downwards of the mountain. But you caught my scarf sailing in the blowing wind on the tranquil night and said the same. The next year and a half were the best months of my life. I shared a part of me with you. And in return you've shown me how to live life to the fullest. I've never thought of the day of losing you. Until now. Upon going back to Russia with me, you got kidnapped by none other than Boris. I came back for you. Stuck back again in the cold damp abbey, after the days you spent with me. Instead of letting you go, they keep you in the abbey to torture you. Boris has known you've changed me.
I was tricked to go back to this horrible place where, they train me again. Trying to make me with no emotions. They press me harder and harder trying to make my mind wonder off of you. Making me say I hate you. But I never will. I will not deny the love I have for you. No matter how much they make me suffer, I will say that I still love you. I don't care how much them beat me. Nothing in the world would change feelings that I have for you inside of me.
This evening, I saw you one last time. Boris gave you a chance to get away. You never took it. I wish you did. Fool. Damn it! I couldn't have done anything but be held as prisoner, guarded by ex-team mates, as I watch you get killed right in front of me. Bleeding severely, already, closed wounds re-open as I try pathetically to get you to safety and save you. Death hung in the air. I heard a gunfire go off, wishing it was my ex- teammates gun killing Boris, but it never happened. The bullet when into your head as you screamed my name for the last time. I open my eyes blurred with tears, for you, lay face down to the ground with a bloody crimson pool around you. Your mass of hair fell around soaking in with the red colour. I cannot let him hear my pain or shed a tear. I know what lies ahead, as you didn't. What did it matter anyway. You, the only one I truly loved. You, the person, who broke beneath my clouded world and touched my heart. You, the one who were there for me, the one who shared my love, lay down dead in front of me. Knowing what's going to happen to me once again and again, I don't care…
"RRRRRRRRREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!!!!!" I cry out loud. Then my ex- teammates let my arms go free. I thought they remembered that I was once their team captain, and let me run and hold you for the last time. Boy, did I ever think wrong. Next thing I felt was a sharp pain to my head, and all was darkness.
I wake up in the attic after the heavy hit from Tala, the one who held me in a death grip and watched you die. Wounds were bound up. Hmm… No use. They'll still be apart after another session of torture. This small attic my only private room I have. Entrance from downstairs, my oak desk to the far right table, a bey dish beside it, a 2m wardrobe at the opposite end with my bed on the left of it near the window. I look again at the wardrobe. The bottom compartment. I haven't opened since I was 10. Now 17, I open to see what lurked in my past. Pictures, pictures and pictures. Broken trophies and half of a metal necklace. I recalled the pain. Tala had the other half. My brother. I don't deserve to be his brother anymore, for I turned my back on him 6 years ago when I escaped without him.
I sit here at the front of the windowsill, reminiscing, watching the full moon in the cloudless dark sky. I look at the moon. The pure whiteness illuminating from it. True comparison to the untainted heart of yours. Full of integrity, spirit, power and passion. You taught me, not only power and winning the most important thing. But enjoying what I have all around of me. Especially you.
I was still cold, stubborn and heartless in front of others. Even you at times, but you wouldn't say anything because in my heart you knew I was sorry. The guilt I hold pains me. I'm sorry to my brother. I deserve that kick from him.
I reach towards the wardrobe again, a glass vase on top of the dusty shelves. Oops. Dropped it. I look down sadly at the ruined vase broken into pieces. Moonlight reflecting the sharp edges of the shattered pieces. My heart was shot and crushed. Now what am I supposed to do without you. I sit crossed legged on my bed and return my gaze upon the glass. What a mirror image of my life. The irony… Goodbye abbey… Goodbye everything…
Shattered pieces of glass are beyond repair and they have found their way to my skin. Pressing against my wrists you once held. I feel little pain compared to when you left.
You taught me what my wretched guardian didn't. I'm am grateful, but now you have gone, it seems that something from deep inside me has shattered into millions of crystal shards of glass. Not a thing for me to live for. Nothing can replace it. You're lessons of joy and love will always be with me. It's been nearly an hour now. I can't feel anything. Icy coldness. I'm sleepy now. I am released from the pain now. Numb. Aishiteru Rei Kon…I'm missing something? I'm too tired to think right now. Hopefully nothing important…I'm leaving this world behind me now…I drift off peacefully without remembering anything else.
End of Kai's POV
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Chapter end… Killed Rei… Should I kill Kai now? Maybe… he is forgetting another really important person in his life. Well a lot… Hmm… Well I'll see bout the feed back I get from you people! Review please!