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the song, I only own Zana
And this chapter is dedicated to my first reviewer !(Thanks, Judith3!!!
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Sun in your eyes
The heat is in your hair
They seem to hate you
Because you're there
- Wonderful life- Black
I left the room lost in anger, after living what I had lived during some minutes, I definitely admitted that things would be a lot more complicated for me than I could have ever imagined when I was all day dreaming of Middle Earth.. how could that be like this? How could be that place so.. "real"? No romance, no magic, just busy people and a girl giving extra work.. a journey to the past that seemed to be a journey to a high school where the most popular boys made my life impossible.
I looked for an exit and, in the end of the hall, I found a big balcony that led to the gardens, where some elves were walking peacefully. .I followed them and finally breathed fresh air.. the beauty of the place kept me breathless.. never before had I seen such a wonderful site.
Some elves looked at me with curiosity, another ones sent me kind "hellos".. I felt so small in that world.. I decided to take a path that ended in a kind of forest, with tall thin trees, the tallest ones I had ever seen.. I turned around to watch at the palace once more, majestic, impressive.. and what was that? Someone was looking through a window? Well, it could be anybody.. I went on walking and I heard the sound of water, probably a river.. the closer I was, the louder the noise was.. yes, now it was a noise.. I gave the last steps and I stopped, amazed. "oh my god!" I crossed a kind of arc with blue flowers and I saw a high cliff from where a waterfall was drawing the stones.. a green lake, light green that glittered under the sun, and a river that was born inside it and that made a curve to loose itself inside the woods.. a wooden bridge crossed this paradise.. I walked again and remained still, quiet, finally in peace.
"Finally I found you" His voice frightened me at first, and I turned around to meet Gandalf, who approached with a kind smile. " I won't steal you too many time, Zana.. I just wanted to calm you down and explain you anything you wanted to ask me.."
"There are too many things to ask Gandalf, and I' m afraid I won't find the answers here.. I mean, I just want to go back home, this is not my place.."
"Your place will be where your heart will want to be, girl "His blue eyes lost in the green water. "And your heart is not decided yet.. I don't think you belonged to your world neither.. I can't see the peace inside you.. neither love.."
I felt that statement like a knock in my stomach. .I had a boyfriend on Earth, and I thought I loved him.. but since I had arrived there, that was the first time his face came to my head. I had completely forgotten about him.
"It's true. .here it seems I lost all my feelings.. I can't feel love.. something erased it from my heart, is this a kind of witchcraft? Tell me!" My eyes were full of tears. I was a different person, changed inside.. and I didn't know when did something switch in my brain, because I had arrived few hours ago.
"Walk with me to the palace.. lunch will be served very soon" He took my arm and we started our walk back to the building. He looked lost, speechless.. but he knew exactly the words he had to say, because his expression changed with the speed of light. "Zana.. you are afraid, you feel alone.. but you must forget those bad feelings, believe me that something great is waiting for you.. maybe all your beliefs and ideals will change after it will happen.. and you won't perceive it unless the good sense returns to you.. don't feel anger, because it makes your judgement cloudy.. someone from here will join your destiny and neither of them can imagine how important you are.. be strong. Don't pay attention to the arrogant words, or to the indifference.." Yeah, he read my minds about Haldir and Legolas "Just be yourself and enjoy. Your heart is strong enough to find the correct way.. follow him, girl."
My head was so full of doubts and questions, that I didn't know where to start. But I selected the subjects that were driving me more crazy. "So the actors from my world, who played those characters in the movie.. they were those ones in their past lives? But then.. this means that, if reincarnation happened.. all of them died.. well, of course Aragorn will die, also the hobbits.. but Haldir, Legolas.. well, how did they die? Because elves are immortal, they only can die in a battle or.."
"If they hearts break because of love.." Gandalf ended my phrase, and this made me so confused.
"So there will be a war again and they both will die there.." I was thinking and thinking, trying to imagine how come, after the war of the ring, that wonderful place could begin a new hell.
"Zana, I didn't say anything about they way they will die.." Gandalf whispered with mystery.. " No one can tell about such a distant future , girl.. but maybe your journey here means something, maybe you'll be able to change the future and when you'll come back to your world, things will look completely different.."
"What do you mean? That all the future of my world is in my hands?" I couldn't believe what I was hearing. Gandalf stopped and looked at me.
"Dear Zana.. I can't tell you more than you should know.. but I strongly believe that the reason for your journey was to change the past in order to get a better future.. something destroyed this world and ended when your world began.. you called it the Big Bang.. if our two worlds joined ,future in the Earth would be so different, things would be a lot better because we, the ones who have the magic, the powers, can control evil things.. I know your world is half destroyed, hunger, war, pollution.. what if you were sent here to join both worlds?"
I felt so dizzy that I couldn't breath, I had to sit in the grass and the magician looked at me, worried.. " But I can't do such a thing, I'm a simple girl.." My whispers leaded me to the tears.. but I reacted soon, stood up again and faced Gandalf. "Tell me who were the other two persons from my world who came here" My voice was sharp and decided. Gandalf sighed.
"Well, if you keep the promise that you won't spread this ,I'll tell you.. I'll trust you because although I still don't know you, I can notice that you belong to the good side" He smiled kindly.
"Of course I promise you" I couldn't wait more for his answer.
"One of them came when he was just a little baby.. he was found inside a palace, and the man who lived there adopted him as a son, and nobody ever knew that he's not his legitimate son.. but he grew up and became an extraordinary man, better than anyone else here.. his destiny was to be the King of Gondor.. Aragorn was the first, Zana. " Whit those words I was shocked.. it seemed that every time the magician opened his mouth, he shocked me.
"An.. And the second?" I wasn't able to speak. Gandalf went on walking towards the palace and I joined him. He was silent all time, and I kept waiting. When we crossed the big hall ,and took the direction that led to the dinning room, he finally took a deep breath and spoke.
"The second one was Eowyn. If they both had remained in your world, if neither of them had found the entry to this world.. things would have been so different for them.. because in the Earth, they were destined to marry.. but in this world only Eowyn kept her feelings towards him.. and he fell in love with an elf.. don't look so shocked, Zana.. we'll meet a lot of people inside, who are waiting to meet you.. be strong, remember. Your heart will find the way. Aragorn and Eowyn found their own path and the same will happen to you."
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The dinning room was full of people who were already enjoying lunch around the tables.. each table had space for six people, and seats were assigned previously, so that over the dishes there was a paper with a name written.
Legolas looked at the door, as Zana was entering with Gandalf. Haldir, sitting next to him, also did the same, and then they looked at each other, waiting for the other's reaction, and Haldir was the first who spoke.
"Well, Legolas.. I think that for this time we won't have to deal with this girl.. this table is already full and the paper on your right says that Gandalf will sit there.. "He smiled with irony, but Legolas didn't reply. He knew that his father would fix that little mistake and he would put the girl with both of them.
Zana walked in front of them, trying to look indifferent. Both elves followed her with their sights, dressed in those clothes, with her hair combed like that, she looked more like an elf than like a human. She was taller than most of human women and she walked silently and elegantly.. not noisy, like Aragorn or Faramir. But the thing that most called their attention were her eyes.. all the beings they had known during their lives had blue, green, grey, violet or even red eyes.. but never before they had seen almost black eyes.. everybody stared at her in surprise, they couldn't help keep watching her because they could say that universe was inside her bright eyes.. In Zana's world those eyes weren't anything special, but for elves they were something amazing. Her hair was brown, almost light brown, under the sun, blonde reflects could be noticed, and its colour changed depending on the light.. all those details, not important on Earth, were a nice phenomenon there.
Legolas felt a beat on the ribs. Haldir smiled at him "Come on, Legolas.. admit that she caught you."
"I would say that she caught you first.. and no, I wasn't staring at her with this intention. My interest is not a romantic interest, Haldir. You know that her appearance is uncommon and all the room was looking at her, not only me."
Haldir had to agree with him. "Anyway" he said "she's nothing if I compare her with all the elf-girls" He looked at his dish and played with the fork and the food. When he made sure that Legolas returned his attention to the salad, he looked again at Zana.
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Why the hell were all those people staring at me? When I crossed the dinning room hundreds of eyes looked at me, I felt so bad, sure they were comparing me with the elf-girls sitting there, so nice and beautiful, and I was so plain and common. I knew that elves and humans were worlds apart, and that they avoided falling into each others.. well, there were exceptions like Aragorn.. but he was something completely different from me.. after all ,he was a king, he helped to save the Middle Earth and he grew up among elves.. and in those times the kings, princesses, magicians were the superior ones, the admired ones.. and I was just an insignificant young woman. This is why I was really surprised when the king came to talk to me in front of everybody.
"Zana, let me tell you that there has been a little mistake with the table's assignment, because you'll share breakfasts, lunches and dinner with the persons in that table" He pointed a place under a window. Legolas, Haldir, Gimli and two hobbits waited for me. One of them, I would say Pippin, stood up and started to lift his hands, calling me. I couldn't help smiling, because he was calling everybody's attention, and Haldir soon silenced him with a dangerous look. Somehow, I felt a bit better with that way of greeting me. It seemed that the hobbits already arrived in Mirkwood.
"Hello, Zana, welcome to our table" Legolas kindly introduced me to the two hobbits and Gimli smiled at me. Haldir didn't move or say anything.
"I'm hungry , really hungry" Pippin didn't stop talking for a while "The journey was so long, and Merry got very tired" Merry looked at him with anger and I was trying not to laugh.
"So you come from another world?" Merry asked, looking at me with curiosity. "Tell us, is it very different?"
"Well, yes, the truth is that it's so different" I started eating lunch, and they went on with their salads. Maybe they noticed the sadness in my voice because Pippin asked me fast if I didn't like Middle Earth.
"Of course I like it.. this is a magic and wonderful place.." I looked throw the window, absent minded.
"Then.. what's wrong?" Legolas looked directly at me, and I blushed at once. His presence made me feel weak and nervous
"But here I'm not at home and I'm not accepted in the same way." My reply sounded sharp, and Legolas looked upset, but said nothing.. maybe he wasn't upset at all.. I hated myself when I couldn't control my feelings. Haldir laughed a bit, with irony, and looked at me.
"They gave you a good room good clothes and you're eating the best food that elves could cook.. and you're not happy? What do you expect then? Becoming the princess?" His laughs were stronger and Gimli joined him.
"Material things are not important for me, Haldir, and what you said now proves it. I need more than objects to be happy. So shut up and don't judge me so fast" I answered, angrily. Haldir was amazed and he was going to argue with me when Legolas stopped him.
"You both, shut up. Can we eat in peace and talk like normal elves?.. and human?"
"Hey!!! And hobbits!" Shouted Merry and Pippin. And those small beings made us feel better again, and the tense atmosphere disappeared. But Haldir and Legolas didn't speak to me again during the lunch. The hobbits and Gimli were telling funny stories, and the two elves joined them with comments, and I was the only one who was silent.. of course ,in all the stories I had read about transported girls, all people were interested on them ,wanting to know more and more.. but as I was saying all time, that journey wasn't what I always had imagined.
Anyway ,I liked the company of the two hobbits, and I accepted their invitation for joining t hem in the gardens after lunch. After this, Legolas and Haldir looked at each other, as if they were happy because I had found distraction and they didn't have to take care of me.. and that made me feel so bad. Every moment, I noticed signs of disgust towards me, from them.. I was sure they didn't like me and I didn't know why, because after all, I didn't disturb anybody there.. but they even didn't want to talk to me and that was very strange, because the king accepted me and he was the king.. maybe they had other interests like elf-girls and they didn't want to loose their time with me.. sure, that was it.
Sun in your eyes
The heat is in your hair
They seem to hate you
Because you're there
- Wonderful life- Black
I left the room lost in anger, after living what I had lived during some minutes, I definitely admitted that things would be a lot more complicated for me than I could have ever imagined when I was all day dreaming of Middle Earth.. how could that be like this? How could be that place so.. "real"? No romance, no magic, just busy people and a girl giving extra work.. a journey to the past that seemed to be a journey to a high school where the most popular boys made my life impossible.
I looked for an exit and, in the end of the hall, I found a big balcony that led to the gardens, where some elves were walking peacefully. .I followed them and finally breathed fresh air.. the beauty of the place kept me breathless.. never before had I seen such a wonderful site.
Some elves looked at me with curiosity, another ones sent me kind "hellos".. I felt so small in that world.. I decided to take a path that ended in a kind of forest, with tall thin trees, the tallest ones I had ever seen.. I turned around to watch at the palace once more, majestic, impressive.. and what was that? Someone was looking through a window? Well, it could be anybody.. I went on walking and I heard the sound of water, probably a river.. the closer I was, the louder the noise was.. yes, now it was a noise.. I gave the last steps and I stopped, amazed. "oh my god!" I crossed a kind of arc with blue flowers and I saw a high cliff from where a waterfall was drawing the stones.. a green lake, light green that glittered under the sun, and a river that was born inside it and that made a curve to loose itself inside the woods.. a wooden bridge crossed this paradise.. I walked again and remained still, quiet, finally in peace.
"Finally I found you" His voice frightened me at first, and I turned around to meet Gandalf, who approached with a kind smile. " I won't steal you too many time, Zana.. I just wanted to calm you down and explain you anything you wanted to ask me.."
"There are too many things to ask Gandalf, and I' m afraid I won't find the answers here.. I mean, I just want to go back home, this is not my place.."
"Your place will be where your heart will want to be, girl "His blue eyes lost in the green water. "And your heart is not decided yet.. I don't think you belonged to your world neither.. I can't see the peace inside you.. neither love.."
I felt that statement like a knock in my stomach. .I had a boyfriend on Earth, and I thought I loved him.. but since I had arrived there, that was the first time his face came to my head. I had completely forgotten about him.
"It's true. .here it seems I lost all my feelings.. I can't feel love.. something erased it from my heart, is this a kind of witchcraft? Tell me!" My eyes were full of tears. I was a different person, changed inside.. and I didn't know when did something switch in my brain, because I had arrived few hours ago.
"Walk with me to the palace.. lunch will be served very soon" He took my arm and we started our walk back to the building. He looked lost, speechless.. but he knew exactly the words he had to say, because his expression changed with the speed of light. "Zana.. you are afraid, you feel alone.. but you must forget those bad feelings, believe me that something great is waiting for you.. maybe all your beliefs and ideals will change after it will happen.. and you won't perceive it unless the good sense returns to you.. don't feel anger, because it makes your judgement cloudy.. someone from here will join your destiny and neither of them can imagine how important you are.. be strong. Don't pay attention to the arrogant words, or to the indifference.." Yeah, he read my minds about Haldir and Legolas "Just be yourself and enjoy. Your heart is strong enough to find the correct way.. follow him, girl."
My head was so full of doubts and questions, that I didn't know where to start. But I selected the subjects that were driving me more crazy. "So the actors from my world, who played those characters in the movie.. they were those ones in their past lives? But then.. this means that, if reincarnation happened.. all of them died.. well, of course Aragorn will die, also the hobbits.. but Haldir, Legolas.. well, how did they die? Because elves are immortal, they only can die in a battle or.."
"If they hearts break because of love.." Gandalf ended my phrase, and this made me so confused.
"So there will be a war again and they both will die there.." I was thinking and thinking, trying to imagine how come, after the war of the ring, that wonderful place could begin a new hell.
"Zana, I didn't say anything about they way they will die.." Gandalf whispered with mystery.. " No one can tell about such a distant future , girl.. but maybe your journey here means something, maybe you'll be able to change the future and when you'll come back to your world, things will look completely different.."
"What do you mean? That all the future of my world is in my hands?" I couldn't believe what I was hearing. Gandalf stopped and looked at me.
"Dear Zana.. I can't tell you more than you should know.. but I strongly believe that the reason for your journey was to change the past in order to get a better future.. something destroyed this world and ended when your world began.. you called it the Big Bang.. if our two worlds joined ,future in the Earth would be so different, things would be a lot better because we, the ones who have the magic, the powers, can control evil things.. I know your world is half destroyed, hunger, war, pollution.. what if you were sent here to join both worlds?"
I felt so dizzy that I couldn't breath, I had to sit in the grass and the magician looked at me, worried.. " But I can't do such a thing, I'm a simple girl.." My whispers leaded me to the tears.. but I reacted soon, stood up again and faced Gandalf. "Tell me who were the other two persons from my world who came here" My voice was sharp and decided. Gandalf sighed.
"Well, if you keep the promise that you won't spread this ,I'll tell you.. I'll trust you because although I still don't know you, I can notice that you belong to the good side" He smiled kindly.
"Of course I promise you" I couldn't wait more for his answer.
"One of them came when he was just a little baby.. he was found inside a palace, and the man who lived there adopted him as a son, and nobody ever knew that he's not his legitimate son.. but he grew up and became an extraordinary man, better than anyone else here.. his destiny was to be the King of Gondor.. Aragorn was the first, Zana. " Whit those words I was shocked.. it seemed that every time the magician opened his mouth, he shocked me.
"An.. And the second?" I wasn't able to speak. Gandalf went on walking towards the palace and I joined him. He was silent all time, and I kept waiting. When we crossed the big hall ,and took the direction that led to the dinning room, he finally took a deep breath and spoke.
"The second one was Eowyn. If they both had remained in your world, if neither of them had found the entry to this world.. things would have been so different for them.. because in the Earth, they were destined to marry.. but in this world only Eowyn kept her feelings towards him.. and he fell in love with an elf.. don't look so shocked, Zana.. we'll meet a lot of people inside, who are waiting to meet you.. be strong, remember. Your heart will find the way. Aragorn and Eowyn found their own path and the same will happen to you."
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The dinning room was full of people who were already enjoying lunch around the tables.. each table had space for six people, and seats were assigned previously, so that over the dishes there was a paper with a name written.
Legolas looked at the door, as Zana was entering with Gandalf. Haldir, sitting next to him, also did the same, and then they looked at each other, waiting for the other's reaction, and Haldir was the first who spoke.
"Well, Legolas.. I think that for this time we won't have to deal with this girl.. this table is already full and the paper on your right says that Gandalf will sit there.. "He smiled with irony, but Legolas didn't reply. He knew that his father would fix that little mistake and he would put the girl with both of them.
Zana walked in front of them, trying to look indifferent. Both elves followed her with their sights, dressed in those clothes, with her hair combed like that, she looked more like an elf than like a human. She was taller than most of human women and she walked silently and elegantly.. not noisy, like Aragorn or Faramir. But the thing that most called their attention were her eyes.. all the beings they had known during their lives had blue, green, grey, violet or even red eyes.. but never before they had seen almost black eyes.. everybody stared at her in surprise, they couldn't help keep watching her because they could say that universe was inside her bright eyes.. In Zana's world those eyes weren't anything special, but for elves they were something amazing. Her hair was brown, almost light brown, under the sun, blonde reflects could be noticed, and its colour changed depending on the light.. all those details, not important on Earth, were a nice phenomenon there.
Legolas felt a beat on the ribs. Haldir smiled at him "Come on, Legolas.. admit that she caught you."
"I would say that she caught you first.. and no, I wasn't staring at her with this intention. My interest is not a romantic interest, Haldir. You know that her appearance is uncommon and all the room was looking at her, not only me."
Haldir had to agree with him. "Anyway" he said "she's nothing if I compare her with all the elf-girls" He looked at his dish and played with the fork and the food. When he made sure that Legolas returned his attention to the salad, he looked again at Zana.
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Why the hell were all those people staring at me? When I crossed the dinning room hundreds of eyes looked at me, I felt so bad, sure they were comparing me with the elf-girls sitting there, so nice and beautiful, and I was so plain and common. I knew that elves and humans were worlds apart, and that they avoided falling into each others.. well, there were exceptions like Aragorn.. but he was something completely different from me.. after all ,he was a king, he helped to save the Middle Earth and he grew up among elves.. and in those times the kings, princesses, magicians were the superior ones, the admired ones.. and I was just an insignificant young woman. This is why I was really surprised when the king came to talk to me in front of everybody.
"Zana, let me tell you that there has been a little mistake with the table's assignment, because you'll share breakfasts, lunches and dinner with the persons in that table" He pointed a place under a window. Legolas, Haldir, Gimli and two hobbits waited for me. One of them, I would say Pippin, stood up and started to lift his hands, calling me. I couldn't help smiling, because he was calling everybody's attention, and Haldir soon silenced him with a dangerous look. Somehow, I felt a bit better with that way of greeting me. It seemed that the hobbits already arrived in Mirkwood.
"Hello, Zana, welcome to our table" Legolas kindly introduced me to the two hobbits and Gimli smiled at me. Haldir didn't move or say anything.
"I'm hungry , really hungry" Pippin didn't stop talking for a while "The journey was so long, and Merry got very tired" Merry looked at him with anger and I was trying not to laugh.
"So you come from another world?" Merry asked, looking at me with curiosity. "Tell us, is it very different?"
"Well, yes, the truth is that it's so different" I started eating lunch, and they went on with their salads. Maybe they noticed the sadness in my voice because Pippin asked me fast if I didn't like Middle Earth.
"Of course I like it.. this is a magic and wonderful place.." I looked throw the window, absent minded.
"Then.. what's wrong?" Legolas looked directly at me, and I blushed at once. His presence made me feel weak and nervous
"But here I'm not at home and I'm not accepted in the same way." My reply sounded sharp, and Legolas looked upset, but said nothing.. maybe he wasn't upset at all.. I hated myself when I couldn't control my feelings. Haldir laughed a bit, with irony, and looked at me.
"They gave you a good room good clothes and you're eating the best food that elves could cook.. and you're not happy? What do you expect then? Becoming the princess?" His laughs were stronger and Gimli joined him.
"Material things are not important for me, Haldir, and what you said now proves it. I need more than objects to be happy. So shut up and don't judge me so fast" I answered, angrily. Haldir was amazed and he was going to argue with me when Legolas stopped him.
"You both, shut up. Can we eat in peace and talk like normal elves?.. and human?"
"Hey!!! And hobbits!" Shouted Merry and Pippin. And those small beings made us feel better again, and the tense atmosphere disappeared. But Haldir and Legolas didn't speak to me again during the lunch. The hobbits and Gimli were telling funny stories, and the two elves joined them with comments, and I was the only one who was silent.. of course ,in all the stories I had read about transported girls, all people were interested on them ,wanting to know more and more.. but as I was saying all time, that journey wasn't what I always had imagined.
Anyway ,I liked the company of the two hobbits, and I accepted their invitation for joining t hem in the gardens after lunch. After this, Legolas and Haldir looked at each other, as if they were happy because I had found distraction and they didn't have to take care of me.. and that made me feel so bad. Every moment, I noticed signs of disgust towards me, from them.. I was sure they didn't like me and I didn't know why, because after all, I didn't disturb anybody there.. but they even didn't want to talk to me and that was very strange, because the king accepted me and he was the king.. maybe they had other interests like elf-girls and they didn't want to loose their time with me.. sure, that was it.