**Disclaimer: I only own Zana*****
Hello and thank you very much for all your reviews! I see some of you are inpatient because you want to know who will she end up with.. but this has to go a bit slowly, if not, it wouldn't be funny! But don't worry, I'll just say that sure some of them is for Zana.. but there are lots of more people in Mirkwood so it could be anybody (
As you see, I'll follow the same song-paragraph I used in my pervious chapter.. and this is the last one about dance, for real.. and things will complicate a lot more.. (I'm a bad person, I know..
Really, thank you very much for all your opinions and reviews, they mean a lot to me!
Ok, those are the songs for the last part of the party: Set you free, by N Trance Crying in the rain, by Culture Beat Going under, by Evanescence Numb, by Linkin Park Inmortality, by Celine Dion Don't speak, by No Doubt
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... Y sin ti, es como dejar de sentir.
Si no estás me siento tan sola
¿Por qué te has marchado así?
¿Por qué me has dejado aquí? ...
- Si no estás- Belen Arjona ("If you're not here)
I went out to breath fresh air in the big balcony. All doors and windows were opened so I could listen to the music in peace. But there wasn't peace in my heart. I hated to admit that, but I realised I was just a human who would never get anything else than friendship from an elf, whoever he was.. and I even didn't have a friendship but a relationship that could be compared to the ones I had seen in the TV series "Falcon Crest" when I was a small girl.. Those elves spoke to me only because of Gandalf's predictions, when they heard that they included them they became interested.. if nothing of that existed I would be just an habitant of Mirkwood and sure I wouldn't be living in the palace, but in the street. Those thoughts made me really angry. The slow songs had ended and I could hear a nice new one, less depressing. Just what I needed, maybe.. but why all songs talk about love?? Yeah, I needed more wine!
[1-When I wake each morning
And the storm beats down on me
And I know we belong together
Only love can set you free]
Being free is what I needed, being free from those feelings and all those confusions.. I looked inside the saloon. It was really crowded, and.. what was happening there? With the dance music all elves were jumping like crazies! I couldn't help smiling.. those elegant beings, always so proud and confident.. and now most of them were drunk and they moved without control.. under the candle lights, the scene was so nice and I felt a bit better. Just more wine, a bit more.. and I would forget about everything.
"I'm going to have fun" I said to myself, coming inside the room. I walked to a table, took a big glass of that sweet wine and drank it without breathing.. my head was dizzy, so dizzy.. and I had to keep still for a while before returning the glass to its place.
I walked towards a group of elves, my intention was to show Legolas and Haldir that I didn't need them to have fun.. and I supposed that I would get another invitation to dance, after all, almost nobody was outside the dancing floor.
Yes, I was drunk now.. drunk enough to accept the only invitation I got.. from Gimli! Fortunately, the music that was playing now wouldn't allow him to come close to me, so we started dancing as if it was the end of the world.. jumping, singing.. I suppose I was giving a terrible image, but.. who cares? All elves were also doing the same.. but some of them watched as and laughed.. yeah, a small dwarf and a tall human girl.. what a combination..
[2- Stop that crying in the rain now
No more crying in the rain
Who said that crying in the rain
Could ever wash away a lover's pain
Wooh, oh, hoh]
We stepped inside the crowd, where we couldn't be seen.. or this I hoped. But I forced myself to stay there, I had to show indifference to all those elves, that whatever would happen, I wouldn't stay sitting in a corner all night.. but the truth is that dancing with Gimli wasn't what I had dreamt, although I was drunk I felt a bit ashamed.. he was so wild and his jumps were disturbing me, he wasn't aware that I was there, so drunk he was... and suddenly I started wondering how come no elves had asked me to dance with them.. sure they thought I was even worse than a dwarf.. those negative feelings were invading me.. I needed more wine again..
"Gimli, I'll go for a glass of wine!" I shouted, but he didn't pay attention to me. The tables were near from there and I repeated the same process.. drinking at once without breathing.. I knew that was a huge mistake because I never used to drink, and effects would be terrible for me. . but I didn't care.. I didn't care about anything.
I returned to the dancing place, and I managed to find Gimli, who greeted me with a big jump again.. why was he doing that?? He would faint sooner or later, he wasn't so young to make those acrobatics. When I started to dance I noticed something was wrong.. I realised I wouldn't be able to keep myself standing there a lot more time, my senses were asleep because of alcohol.. and I became a bit scared, afraid of getting really sick..
[3-i'm going under
drowning in you
i'm falling forever
i've got to break through
i'm going under]
Ok, I felt bad. My head was spinning.. I touched Gimli's arm to call his attention.
"Gimli, I have to stop... I'll go outside for a while!" but of course he was completely absent minded, too drunk to hear anything.
I had to walk among all the dancing elves.. I was so dizzy, so nervous.. I wanted to leave, I only wanted that.. the ground was so slippery, because of all the drinks they had thrown there.. the dress was killing me, and my legs didn't obey.. when I was near from the main door my feet played a trick on me , I was going to fall in the ground, great.. all people staring at me, would laugh out loud with that scene.. I was so clumsy..
But my back didn't beat on the ground , because two strong arms caught me when I was falling. I looked up to see Legolas smiling blue eyes.
"I've been walking after you, didn't you hear me calling? Are you feeling well?" Slowly, he moved me until I stood up. I looked at him.
"I'm going under.." I laughed at my own joke, if that was a joke.. I was just repeating the song's words.. but the effects of alcohol were making me turn into a completely different person. "Drowning in you.." I was whispering, still looking at him.. although I wasn't too stabile.
"What's wrong?" He looked confused. He had to hold my arm or else I would have fallen again. "You're so drunk, Zana!" there was a big surprise tone in his voice.
[4- can't you see that you're smothering me
holding too tightly
afraid to lose control
cause everything that you thought I would be
has fallen apart right in front of you]
"I love this song, dance with me" I asked, trying to hug him. But he didn't move, refusing to take my hand.
"You're too drunk, Zana. You should breath fresh air and walk a bit, and then go directly to bed"
We looked at each other, I was completely out of control and the words came out from my mouth but I couldn't recognise myself on them.. I wasn't able to shut up, although I wanted.. but at the same time, I wanted to tell him all my feelings , since the first time I saw the movie.. I smiled a bit.
"So do you want to walk with me outside, and then.. ?" But he became so serious and sharp, and interrupted me.
"Shut up, please. You're not yourself now ..and you'll be sorry for all your words tomorrow" He said the last part of the phrase with a softer voice, pushing me away gently.
"I won't be sorry.." I whispered, coming closer to him. No, definitely, I wasn't myself, the shy girl from Earth. Oh, the wine and its effects..
Legolas didn't move or say anything, he was just looking at me with a strange expression on his face. This gave me the courage to go on talking.
"Do you know how many times I've dreamed of this when I was at home? I can't believe I'm here with you!"
All from the sudden, Legolas gaze left me and looked in the distance. With a movement of his hand, he called someone, who came running to help him.. but.. why did he had to call Haldir? And why all from the sudden the music and the songs were slow again??
[5- 'Cos I have found a dream that must come true
Every ounce of me must see it through
But you are my only
I'm sorry I don't have a role for love to play
Hand over my heart I'll find my way
I will make them give to me]
I heard them speaking in elvish tongue, they both looking at me, worried. Then they changed into the common language.
"She needs to go to bed" said Haldir, but Legolas disagreed.
"Of course not! If she goes to bed right now she will become very sick.. she needs to walk and make the alcohol disappear exercising" Legolas looked at me, with a troubled expression. But I wasn't aware of almost anything.
They were discussing for a while, and I turned around to look at the place, at the elves, at everything. But I found Gandalf's eyes, staring from the distance.. a disapproval gaze, and he moved his head. I could hear him inside my head.
"What are you doing, Zana? Don't spoil things.. you're not this person.. you're a lot more important that you think.. you should be ashamed of yourself.. look what you've turned into.. are you really happy like this, fool girl? Soon I won't be near from you to help you, this mission is serious and I can't allow you to destroy it.. leave now and tomorrow think of what you've done.. you're special, please, don't ever repeat a behaviour like this"
"No, I'm becoming crazy" I said to myself in loud voice, and the two elves looked at me. I stopped watching at the magician and the voice disappeared.. "What am I doing?" I felt a lot more awake, half of the alcohol effects were gone.. Legolas gave a step towards me, but I was too ashamed, my eyes full of tears. "No, I won't cry, I never cry in front of people.."
I ran towards the main door, leaving the two elves , who looked at me with surprise. But I wasn't able to open the door, because I didn't realise, in my drunkenness, that this door wasn't the door, but a kind of big wardrobe.
I broke down, I fell on my knees, covering my face with my hands, and all what I wanted in that moment was disappear.. with my acts nobody would respect me there again.. I had seen Legolas gaze , how he looked at me, with that strange look I noticed he didn't like me at all.. and Haldir.. who played with me, because I was just a human , and I wasn't enough for an elf.. but.. why was I thinking of those things? I was destroying myself with that pessimism.. well, at least I managed not to cry.. but I didn't want to see anything, so I kept my hands covering me.
I felt two pair of arms helping me to stand up. Both Legolas and Haldir had come running as soon as I let myself fall in the ground. I looked at them , horribly ashamed.
"I want this night to finish, wake up tomorrow and forget about everything" I whispered, my eyes closed.
"Haldir, stay here with her, I'll tell my father that it's better to stop with the party.. all elves are drunk and this is going nowhere." Haldir nodded, and waited there with my, holding my arm, while Legolas disappeared in the crowd.
"So I also spoiled you the party, Haldir.. now you hate me even more than before, right? "I looked at him ,and he looked back.
"Why do you keep saying that I hate you?" The tone of his voice sounded so... sweet.. his eyes fixed on mines, brightening.
[6- Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts]
"And why are you playing with me like this? Why do yousometimes treat me as if I was shit, and another times it seems that.." My voice was just a whisper, I couldn't talk more.
Now we were really close, I leaned against the wall to be able to keep myself standing, and I didn't have escape from him, facing me. Suddenly, something amazing happened, because his hand left my arm and slowly touched my face. Yes, I was drunk and imagining things, sure that wasn't happening. Now his hand was on my neck, and his face only few millimetres away from mine. I couldn't breath.
"What are you doing, Haldir?" I asked, wondering if he would be able to hear my low voice. His eyes seemed to change from colour, and a sweet smile showed up on his lips.
"I want to test how drunk you are.." he was whispering too, and I didn't have any idea of what was he doing, I was unable to move, talk, run or shout, I just kept waiting for.. for what? I preferred not to imagine it or my nerves would collapse and I would have a strange reaction. I could feel him so so close and..
"OOOOh, by all the mines of Moria!!" A strong voice behind us made Haldir jump away from me. Gimli was shouting out loud, and Haldir looked at him with a killing gaze. I reacted, as if I had woken up from a dream, and I needed some seconds to realize about what had happened.. was that real? Well, sure , because Gimli was making fun out of that.
"You were going to kiss the human! Haldir of Lorien!" His laughs invaded the whole room , the music already stopped.
"You.. dwarf.. shut up and go away" Haldir spoke with hard voice. And in that moment Legolas showed up.
"What happens here?" He asked, with curiosity, when he saw Gimli crawling in the ground, laughing and laughing. I shrugged, Haldir didn't speak and all the magic of the moment was away as soon as I saw Legolas eyes.
"The party is over, you all can leave" I felt ashamed under his gaze, although fortunately he hadn't seen what had happened.. had Haldir almost kissed me? Was that part of a game ,one of his strange ways to treat humans? Or I just imagined everything because of wine? Yes, it was wine, because I looked at Haldir and he was completely different now, as if nothing had happened.
"Good night" I said, leaving them there.. nobody followed me and I went to my room. Sitting on the bed, my head was spinning and I felt so depressed.. the hangover would be terrible in the morning , for sure..
A knock on the door.. I held my breath. Someone opened the door before I could reply.
"Legolas! Something is wrong?" He came inside my room and gave me a cup with a strange liquid.
"If you drink this, tomorrow you'll feel a lot better" I took the cup and looked at him.
"Thank you, Legolas.. for everything.. and I'm very sorry for.."
"Shh.. don't speak, Zana. Tomorrow you'll be yourself again and we'll be able to talk. Sleep well" He closed the door. I drank the warm medicine and put the pyjamas.. or whatever it was. And as soon as I stepped inside the bed, I fell asleep.
Hello and thank you very much for all your reviews! I see some of you are inpatient because you want to know who will she end up with.. but this has to go a bit slowly, if not, it wouldn't be funny! But don't worry, I'll just say that sure some of them is for Zana.. but there are lots of more people in Mirkwood so it could be anybody (
As you see, I'll follow the same song-paragraph I used in my pervious chapter.. and this is the last one about dance, for real.. and things will complicate a lot more.. (I'm a bad person, I know..
Really, thank you very much for all your opinions and reviews, they mean a lot to me!
Ok, those are the songs for the last part of the party: Set you free, by N Trance Crying in the rain, by Culture Beat Going under, by Evanescence Numb, by Linkin Park Inmortality, by Celine Dion Don't speak, by No Doubt
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... Y sin ti, es como dejar de sentir.
Si no estás me siento tan sola
¿Por qué te has marchado así?
¿Por qué me has dejado aquí? ...
- Si no estás- Belen Arjona ("If you're not here)
I went out to breath fresh air in the big balcony. All doors and windows were opened so I could listen to the music in peace. But there wasn't peace in my heart. I hated to admit that, but I realised I was just a human who would never get anything else than friendship from an elf, whoever he was.. and I even didn't have a friendship but a relationship that could be compared to the ones I had seen in the TV series "Falcon Crest" when I was a small girl.. Those elves spoke to me only because of Gandalf's predictions, when they heard that they included them they became interested.. if nothing of that existed I would be just an habitant of Mirkwood and sure I wouldn't be living in the palace, but in the street. Those thoughts made me really angry. The slow songs had ended and I could hear a nice new one, less depressing. Just what I needed, maybe.. but why all songs talk about love?? Yeah, I needed more wine!
[1-When I wake each morning
And the storm beats down on me
And I know we belong together
Only love can set you free]
Being free is what I needed, being free from those feelings and all those confusions.. I looked inside the saloon. It was really crowded, and.. what was happening there? With the dance music all elves were jumping like crazies! I couldn't help smiling.. those elegant beings, always so proud and confident.. and now most of them were drunk and they moved without control.. under the candle lights, the scene was so nice and I felt a bit better. Just more wine, a bit more.. and I would forget about everything.
"I'm going to have fun" I said to myself, coming inside the room. I walked to a table, took a big glass of that sweet wine and drank it without breathing.. my head was dizzy, so dizzy.. and I had to keep still for a while before returning the glass to its place.
I walked towards a group of elves, my intention was to show Legolas and Haldir that I didn't need them to have fun.. and I supposed that I would get another invitation to dance, after all, almost nobody was outside the dancing floor.
Yes, I was drunk now.. drunk enough to accept the only invitation I got.. from Gimli! Fortunately, the music that was playing now wouldn't allow him to come close to me, so we started dancing as if it was the end of the world.. jumping, singing.. I suppose I was giving a terrible image, but.. who cares? All elves were also doing the same.. but some of them watched as and laughed.. yeah, a small dwarf and a tall human girl.. what a combination..
[2- Stop that crying in the rain now
No more crying in the rain
Who said that crying in the rain
Could ever wash away a lover's pain
Wooh, oh, hoh]
We stepped inside the crowd, where we couldn't be seen.. or this I hoped. But I forced myself to stay there, I had to show indifference to all those elves, that whatever would happen, I wouldn't stay sitting in a corner all night.. but the truth is that dancing with Gimli wasn't what I had dreamt, although I was drunk I felt a bit ashamed.. he was so wild and his jumps were disturbing me, he wasn't aware that I was there, so drunk he was... and suddenly I started wondering how come no elves had asked me to dance with them.. sure they thought I was even worse than a dwarf.. those negative feelings were invading me.. I needed more wine again..
"Gimli, I'll go for a glass of wine!" I shouted, but he didn't pay attention to me. The tables were near from there and I repeated the same process.. drinking at once without breathing.. I knew that was a huge mistake because I never used to drink, and effects would be terrible for me. . but I didn't care.. I didn't care about anything.
I returned to the dancing place, and I managed to find Gimli, who greeted me with a big jump again.. why was he doing that?? He would faint sooner or later, he wasn't so young to make those acrobatics. When I started to dance I noticed something was wrong.. I realised I wouldn't be able to keep myself standing there a lot more time, my senses were asleep because of alcohol.. and I became a bit scared, afraid of getting really sick..
[3-i'm going under
drowning in you
i'm falling forever
i've got to break through
i'm going under]
Ok, I felt bad. My head was spinning.. I touched Gimli's arm to call his attention.
"Gimli, I have to stop... I'll go outside for a while!" but of course he was completely absent minded, too drunk to hear anything.
I had to walk among all the dancing elves.. I was so dizzy, so nervous.. I wanted to leave, I only wanted that.. the ground was so slippery, because of all the drinks they had thrown there.. the dress was killing me, and my legs didn't obey.. when I was near from the main door my feet played a trick on me , I was going to fall in the ground, great.. all people staring at me, would laugh out loud with that scene.. I was so clumsy..
But my back didn't beat on the ground , because two strong arms caught me when I was falling. I looked up to see Legolas smiling blue eyes.
"I've been walking after you, didn't you hear me calling? Are you feeling well?" Slowly, he moved me until I stood up. I looked at him.
"I'm going under.." I laughed at my own joke, if that was a joke.. I was just repeating the song's words.. but the effects of alcohol were making me turn into a completely different person. "Drowning in you.." I was whispering, still looking at him.. although I wasn't too stabile.
"What's wrong?" He looked confused. He had to hold my arm or else I would have fallen again. "You're so drunk, Zana!" there was a big surprise tone in his voice.
[4- can't you see that you're smothering me
holding too tightly
afraid to lose control
cause everything that you thought I would be
has fallen apart right in front of you]
"I love this song, dance with me" I asked, trying to hug him. But he didn't move, refusing to take my hand.
"You're too drunk, Zana. You should breath fresh air and walk a bit, and then go directly to bed"
We looked at each other, I was completely out of control and the words came out from my mouth but I couldn't recognise myself on them.. I wasn't able to shut up, although I wanted.. but at the same time, I wanted to tell him all my feelings , since the first time I saw the movie.. I smiled a bit.
"So do you want to walk with me outside, and then.. ?" But he became so serious and sharp, and interrupted me.
"Shut up, please. You're not yourself now ..and you'll be sorry for all your words tomorrow" He said the last part of the phrase with a softer voice, pushing me away gently.
"I won't be sorry.." I whispered, coming closer to him. No, definitely, I wasn't myself, the shy girl from Earth. Oh, the wine and its effects..
Legolas didn't move or say anything, he was just looking at me with a strange expression on his face. This gave me the courage to go on talking.
"Do you know how many times I've dreamed of this when I was at home? I can't believe I'm here with you!"
All from the sudden, Legolas gaze left me and looked in the distance. With a movement of his hand, he called someone, who came running to help him.. but.. why did he had to call Haldir? And why all from the sudden the music and the songs were slow again??
[5- 'Cos I have found a dream that must come true
Every ounce of me must see it through
But you are my only
I'm sorry I don't have a role for love to play
Hand over my heart I'll find my way
I will make them give to me]
I heard them speaking in elvish tongue, they both looking at me, worried. Then they changed into the common language.
"She needs to go to bed" said Haldir, but Legolas disagreed.
"Of course not! If she goes to bed right now she will become very sick.. she needs to walk and make the alcohol disappear exercising" Legolas looked at me, with a troubled expression. But I wasn't aware of almost anything.
They were discussing for a while, and I turned around to look at the place, at the elves, at everything. But I found Gandalf's eyes, staring from the distance.. a disapproval gaze, and he moved his head. I could hear him inside my head.
"What are you doing, Zana? Don't spoil things.. you're not this person.. you're a lot more important that you think.. you should be ashamed of yourself.. look what you've turned into.. are you really happy like this, fool girl? Soon I won't be near from you to help you, this mission is serious and I can't allow you to destroy it.. leave now and tomorrow think of what you've done.. you're special, please, don't ever repeat a behaviour like this"
"No, I'm becoming crazy" I said to myself in loud voice, and the two elves looked at me. I stopped watching at the magician and the voice disappeared.. "What am I doing?" I felt a lot more awake, half of the alcohol effects were gone.. Legolas gave a step towards me, but I was too ashamed, my eyes full of tears. "No, I won't cry, I never cry in front of people.."
I ran towards the main door, leaving the two elves , who looked at me with surprise. But I wasn't able to open the door, because I didn't realise, in my drunkenness, that this door wasn't the door, but a kind of big wardrobe.
I broke down, I fell on my knees, covering my face with my hands, and all what I wanted in that moment was disappear.. with my acts nobody would respect me there again.. I had seen Legolas gaze , how he looked at me, with that strange look I noticed he didn't like me at all.. and Haldir.. who played with me, because I was just a human , and I wasn't enough for an elf.. but.. why was I thinking of those things? I was destroying myself with that pessimism.. well, at least I managed not to cry.. but I didn't want to see anything, so I kept my hands covering me.
I felt two pair of arms helping me to stand up. Both Legolas and Haldir had come running as soon as I let myself fall in the ground. I looked at them , horribly ashamed.
"I want this night to finish, wake up tomorrow and forget about everything" I whispered, my eyes closed.
"Haldir, stay here with her, I'll tell my father that it's better to stop with the party.. all elves are drunk and this is going nowhere." Haldir nodded, and waited there with my, holding my arm, while Legolas disappeared in the crowd.
"So I also spoiled you the party, Haldir.. now you hate me even more than before, right? "I looked at him ,and he looked back.
"Why do you keep saying that I hate you?" The tone of his voice sounded so... sweet.. his eyes fixed on mines, brightening.
[6- Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts]
"And why are you playing with me like this? Why do yousometimes treat me as if I was shit, and another times it seems that.." My voice was just a whisper, I couldn't talk more.
Now we were really close, I leaned against the wall to be able to keep myself standing, and I didn't have escape from him, facing me. Suddenly, something amazing happened, because his hand left my arm and slowly touched my face. Yes, I was drunk and imagining things, sure that wasn't happening. Now his hand was on my neck, and his face only few millimetres away from mine. I couldn't breath.
"What are you doing, Haldir?" I asked, wondering if he would be able to hear my low voice. His eyes seemed to change from colour, and a sweet smile showed up on his lips.
"I want to test how drunk you are.." he was whispering too, and I didn't have any idea of what was he doing, I was unable to move, talk, run or shout, I just kept waiting for.. for what? I preferred not to imagine it or my nerves would collapse and I would have a strange reaction. I could feel him so so close and..
"OOOOh, by all the mines of Moria!!" A strong voice behind us made Haldir jump away from me. Gimli was shouting out loud, and Haldir looked at him with a killing gaze. I reacted, as if I had woken up from a dream, and I needed some seconds to realize about what had happened.. was that real? Well, sure , because Gimli was making fun out of that.
"You were going to kiss the human! Haldir of Lorien!" His laughs invaded the whole room , the music already stopped.
"You.. dwarf.. shut up and go away" Haldir spoke with hard voice. And in that moment Legolas showed up.
"What happens here?" He asked, with curiosity, when he saw Gimli crawling in the ground, laughing and laughing. I shrugged, Haldir didn't speak and all the magic of the moment was away as soon as I saw Legolas eyes.
"The party is over, you all can leave" I felt ashamed under his gaze, although fortunately he hadn't seen what had happened.. had Haldir almost kissed me? Was that part of a game ,one of his strange ways to treat humans? Or I just imagined everything because of wine? Yes, it was wine, because I looked at Haldir and he was completely different now, as if nothing had happened.
"Good night" I said, leaving them there.. nobody followed me and I went to my room. Sitting on the bed, my head was spinning and I felt so depressed.. the hangover would be terrible in the morning , for sure..
A knock on the door.. I held my breath. Someone opened the door before I could reply.
"Legolas! Something is wrong?" He came inside my room and gave me a cup with a strange liquid.
"If you drink this, tomorrow you'll feel a lot better" I took the cup and looked at him.
"Thank you, Legolas.. for everything.. and I'm very sorry for.."
"Shh.. don't speak, Zana. Tomorrow you'll be yourself again and we'll be able to talk. Sleep well" He closed the door. I drank the warm medicine and put the pyjamas.. or whatever it was. And as soon as I stepped inside the bed, I fell asleep.