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Hi!You all are so kind! Thank you very much for your reviews! Hiko- sama, you're right, it's strange that you can't find the story in the search option.. maybe you're right and it's because I didn't get enough reviews.. but hey, I'm so happy with all of you, so who needs more? : ) Thank you for your nice words, really.
And what else can I say? That I hope you'll also like this one and I promise that tomorrow you'll get another one! Now that things are becoming more and more complicated.. : )
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The dice decide my fate
And that's a shame
In these trembling hands my faith
Tells me to react, 'I don't care'
Maybe it's unkind that I should change
A feeling that we share
Such a shame- Talk Talk
Silence wrapped us during the following two hours.. I was tired again, and Haldir walked in front of me, showing the path.. sometimes he turned back to check if I was there, and then he went on walking.. we crossed small forests, small rivers.. I didn't feel the cold any more, because those elvish clothes were really warm and I was moving constantly. Anyway, at some point I started to miss hot coffee, and I wished I had something warm to drink.
We were near from the valley we had seen from the top of the hill. The grass covered the ground, and the rocks were bigger there.. strange landscape.. tall and leafy trees, a small river and the sound of thunders.. really amazing, and once more, I would have killed for a camera. The breeze was cold, and I looked at the sky. Maybe it was going to start raining soon.
"We must hurry a bit now, Zana.. soon we'll arrive in a quiet place where there's a small lake and a cave. It will be raining and we need a shelter" Haldir stopped to tell me this.
"Faster than now? Ok, ok.. but I'll be dead soon!" I said, taking a deep breath.
"Don't exaggerate, come on" He took my arm and pushed me. After some minutes he was again too advanced and I walked alone behind him. That was so boring.. but the landscape was worth..
Now we were entering in a deep forest, dark, I would say.. Haldir walked a bit slowly, as if he was checking something.. he stopped and then chose a path. I followed him and after advancing some steps we ended in a wonderful place.. that was the word for it, wonderful.. it looked like a garden. A huge rock had a cave inside, small one, where we would be able to sit and rest protected from rain. Around it, tall trees and, in the centre, a small lake, so small that it looked more like a swimming pool. Great. A place where to take a bath. The light turned into green, because of leafs, and there was peace there, it made me feel a lot better.
"We can spend here some time until you'll feel more rested" Haldir said, putting his bag inside the hole of the rock. Then he walked towards the water, and with his hand he tested temperature, smiling. "I knew there was a hot lake near from Lorien and I finally found it"
"Hot? This is great!" I shouted, throwing my bag on the ground and kneeling next to him. Yes, it was hot and clear, a light green water that invited me to come in. I looked at Haldir, he was serious. I wondered what was inside his head. Something worried him, that was sure. "Haldir.. " he looked at me. "Do you feel well?" he was surprised with my question, and stood up.
"Of course, why do you ask me this?"
"Forget it" I whispered, and carrying my bag to the small cave, I looked for the toilet products, and also for clean underwear. I was so happy because finally I was able to enjoy a hot bath.. but.. I realised about something. I didn't have swimsuit, of course.. and I had to wash the underwear so I wouldn't be able to use it as a bikini.. well, of course I couldn't take a bath to become clean wearing dirty underwear.. "Great" I murmured, thinking.
"What's wrong?" Haldir walked towards me, and looked at the things I had in my hands. And he smiled. "Oh.. I understand" He sat with me, and sighed. "You see.. I have the same problem.. " I looked at him and at first I didn't understand.
"What do you mean?" And his eyes were looking at my bag, and then at me, and I realised about that.. "Ok, we have a problem.. what would Gimli do on a situation like this one?" I asked, and Haldir laughed.
"Gimli would never worry about taking a bath, Zana" He had an evil smile. " Ok, we'll make turns.. the first turn is for you, in the meanwhile I'll go for a walk around this place and I'll return in ten minutes.. you have to be ready by then because I'll come back and I don't want surprises" He was smiling, and then stood up. "And then you will go for a walk and you will leave me alone during the same time.. we agree on this?" I nodded, standing up . I left my boots near from the bag, and I started to unbutton the warm sweater. But Haldir was still there.
"So.. do you plan to leave?" I asked, with irony. And to my surprise, he looked shocked and apologised, leaving soon. He was acting so strange, and I couldn't tell why. I went on with the process and finally I stepped into the water.. it was deep enough and it covered almost all my body.. and it was so warm.. I would have stayed there for hours, but I had few time.. I put some shampoo and gel and then I swam until I removed all the soap. That place was magic.. great.. and I lost notion of time.. I closed my eyes and relaxed after the hard day walking and climbing. The smell of the elvish products was so nice, like the smell of the forest.
"Your time is over" I heard his sarcastic voice and opened my eyes, making sure that water covered me completely. He was standing in the edge of the lake, with his ironic smile. " And you forgot to pick up the towel, you're a mess.." He showed me it, and then turned around. "Go out from the water and wrap yourself, it's cold outside" And I didn't know what to do.. I couldn't walk completely naked in front of him.. I knew he wouldn't watch, but.. it was like walking naked in the street, although you knew that it would be empty.. I just couldn't. "Zana.. go out from the water" He asked again.. and I supposed I had to do it. Taking the towel and making sure that he was looking far away in the distance, I stepped outside. The cold wind made me breath strongly.
"Uf, it's so cold and this towel it's too small" I shouted, and he laughed.
"I know, this is why you must hurry, dry yourself and then look for something to light a fire" He turned around and checked me. Why did he do that? I felt so embarrassed. I wasn't able to move, so frozen I was. "Zana, hurry or you'll catch a cold!" And he was right, yes.. so I ran towards the cave and hurried as I never had hurried before.
Yes, but I did everything, getting dressed, forgetting that he was still there behind me.. I put the underwear and then my clothes, everything, in front of him. When I was warm again I stopped and blushed deeply, aware of what I had done.. I wished he wasn't there, I wished he had the decency to look at another place.. so when I turned around and I saw him staring at the lake, I sighed, happy. Yes, after all, he was a nice elf and he was a gentleman.
"Are you ready?" He asked, but didn't look back.
"Yes, yes.." I walked towards the path, leaving him alone. The forest was so deep that I almost couldn't see anything beyond the trees. I noticed that birds weren't singing.. maybe because it was winter, I don't know.. but that silence was a bit scary.. I didn't walk too far away, afraid of getting lost. When I stopped to go back, my heart almost stopped beating. I had heard a noise. yes, I was completely sure. I searched for someone or something with my eyes.. and I remembered all the stories I had read, how girls sent to Middle Earth were caught by orcs.. but the war was over , I shouldn't be afraid.. anyway, I was in the land of magic, I could find anything there.. and this scared me.. I waited but nothing happened. Whatever it was, it was gone. And ifelt a hand on my shoulder, and I shouted.
"Hey, it's me!" Haldir tried to calm me, but I was too scared. He had been so fast washing and I was surprised. I really didn't expect him there.
"I heard a noise, and I was waiting for something and then you came.." I took a deep breath. "One day you'll kill me, Haldir of Lorien, I told you this lots of times" He was smiling at me.
"We're alone here, Zana. Don't worry. Now come back, we have to eat something, and we'll make a fire for the night." I looked at him with surprise.
"For the night? But it's midday.." He nodded.
"Well, a strong storm is coming and I'm sure we'll have to wait here, inside the small cave.. maybe some hours" He looked at me, and I shrugged.
"It's ok with me.. I suppose" And we walked back together.
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"You, stupid dwarf" Legolas looked at Gimli so angry. They were hidden behind a bush when they saw Zana. "She almost discovered us!"
"It's not my fault, we've been walking the whole time behind them, you weren't patient enough to wait one more day, of course.. you had to leave three hours after they left, elf" Gimli stood up, looking at Legolas so angry.
"Don't complain and lets look for a shelter" Legolas looked around himself. "We must stay far away from Haldir"
"I know, this is why we had agreed on waiting one-more-day" Gimli spelled the last part, beating on Legolas arm. "Why did you hurry so much? Why?"
"You know why, so stop talking or.." But he looked at Gimli and sighed. "I'm sorry, Gimli.. I just couldn't wait more inside palace. What if something happened to them? "
They both walked for one hour in the opposite direction, looking for a shelter that was enough far away from Zana and Haldir, and they found another cave. Legolas sat down and closed his eyes. The hours he had spent without Zana had been too long.. he missed her more than he thought he would, and the waiting was killing him. Two days almost.. and two days more before arriving in Lorien. The bet they made was about eight days.. so if things went on like this, Zana would win. He smiled with this thought. That girl was amazing.
"I'm hungry" Gimli complained. He took Legolas bag and looked for lembas.
"It was you the one who insisted on walking with me, so now you have to carry with the consequences" The dwarf made a noise and then stepped inside his sleeping bag.
"It's cold" He went on murmuring, and Legolas almost lost his patience. "And I'm bored"
"Gimli!" He shouted, looking at the dwarf. "Please.. shut up.. or go back to Mirkwood" His blue eyes were cold and the dwarf shook his head.
"Love spoils elves, my friend.. you're not funny any more. I'll be sleeping until tomorrow so don't wake me up"
Rain came, strong rain that forced them to go a bit deeper in that cave. Legolas looked at the sky and sighed.. that would last some hours and the waiting would be horrible again.. hours inside the cave and with an asleep dwarf..
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Two hours had passed since we had lunch and since we had to go inside the cave. It was big enough for both of us and the thing I most liked was that it looked like a balcony from where I could see the rain and thunders without any danger. But it was cold.. the cold rock that made me shake. Haldir had been quiet again, and suddenly he looked at me.
"You're cold again.. " He said , taking his bag. "Use the sleeping bag" I looked at him, not very sure. "Zana.." he said, insisting. And I made a kind of bed and stepped inside. It was six or seven in the afternoon , already getting dark.. and I was so tired.. really tired. The fire we made was small but it kept the place warm. The truth is that I felt very well.
"It will be raining all night.." Haldir murmured, and I looked at him. He was absent minded, thinking.. like always, his gaze lost somewhere. "So.. " He said, turning around to sit facing me. " How will we spend those hours?" We stared at each other for some time. I noticed that soon I would blush, so I looked at the sky.
"It's almost dark.. I think we should sleep and rest and tomorrow wake up earlier.." I saw him smiling.
"I see you don't want to talk about anything tonight" I was playing with the sleeves of the sweater, trying to keep me calmed. My heart was beating fast again.. why???
"What do you want to talk about?" I looked at him again.
"About your heart" he whispered.
"What?" Now I really blushed deeply.
"About your beatings.. it's amazing how fast and strongly it beats.." he said in low voice. I covered myself with the sleeping bag, as if that could hide the noise. And he laughed.. "No, don't worry, you can't avoid it"
"My heart beats like this when I'm angry" I lied, trying to look upset. But I knew he wouldn't believe me, and his smile told me this. Another uncomfortable silence. The rain became stronger, also the thunders. And Haldir had to sit just next to me to keep himself protected from water. Yes, too close, like always. I didn't move, I couldn't.
"Zana.." He started to speak but he made a pause.. "I know that the idea of sleeping makes you uncomfortable" His eyes on mines, and I felt embarrassed again. "And you know that I also can feel the cold and I need the sleeping bag.." I nodded, but didn't say anything. All from the sudden I was shocked again. "Well.. I think we should sleep, it's already dark" He waited for my reply, but I didn't know what to say. I just moved to let him a free place.. He came inside and we laid down. "Zana, now you have to come closer or else I won't be able to close this" I would have said that he was smiling.. but I wasn't able to look directly at his face. So I repeated the last night's operation and finally we were comfortable enough to try to sleep. But again, I couldn't. I couldn't , I couldn't, I couldn't. A strong thunder made me jump inside the sleeping bag.. it had fallen near from there.
"This was so..!!" I said, changing from position, scared. And I was facing him. So close to him that I could feel his breathing in my face. I closed my eyes. "I'm sorry.. that scared me, I mean, it's not like being inside your flat during a storm.." But he didn't reply. I opened my eyes, and he was still staring at me. All time. "Haldir.." He didn't reply. And I came closer. I had to do it and I didn't know why.. our faces so close that just with a small movement I would have kissed him. "Can I ask you something..?" I whispered.. but he didn't reply.. that was strange.. I had a big need in that moment.. I needed to kiss him, I was coming closer and closer, and he didn't complain.. so maybe that was "the moment".. but all the magic disappeared as soon as I discovered that he was already sleeping! Sleeping! Anyway, I was glad , I almost had made a big mistake, a big nonsense! What was I thinking about?! I moved again and looked at the opposite direction.. my heart was beating fast, yes.. something had changed inside me and if Haldir had been awake now he would be firing me from the sleeping bag. I closed my eyes and tried to calm down.
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Haldir's heart was beating so fast, as fast as possible.. he was pretending to be sleeping.. and again that girl made him shocked.. was he dreaming or she was trying to kiss him? Was she going to ask for permission? She was strange indeed.. but now he was too amazed to rest. He needed to think about that big change on her. And to his surprise, he needed a big self control or else he would have moved some millimetres and kiss her back. What was happening to him?
Hi!You all are so kind! Thank you very much for your reviews! Hiko- sama, you're right, it's strange that you can't find the story in the search option.. maybe you're right and it's because I didn't get enough reviews.. but hey, I'm so happy with all of you, so who needs more? : ) Thank you for your nice words, really.
And what else can I say? That I hope you'll also like this one and I promise that tomorrow you'll get another one! Now that things are becoming more and more complicated.. : )
*************** *********** ****************
The dice decide my fate
And that's a shame
In these trembling hands my faith
Tells me to react, 'I don't care'
Maybe it's unkind that I should change
A feeling that we share
Such a shame- Talk Talk
Silence wrapped us during the following two hours.. I was tired again, and Haldir walked in front of me, showing the path.. sometimes he turned back to check if I was there, and then he went on walking.. we crossed small forests, small rivers.. I didn't feel the cold any more, because those elvish clothes were really warm and I was moving constantly. Anyway, at some point I started to miss hot coffee, and I wished I had something warm to drink.
We were near from the valley we had seen from the top of the hill. The grass covered the ground, and the rocks were bigger there.. strange landscape.. tall and leafy trees, a small river and the sound of thunders.. really amazing, and once more, I would have killed for a camera. The breeze was cold, and I looked at the sky. Maybe it was going to start raining soon.
"We must hurry a bit now, Zana.. soon we'll arrive in a quiet place where there's a small lake and a cave. It will be raining and we need a shelter" Haldir stopped to tell me this.
"Faster than now? Ok, ok.. but I'll be dead soon!" I said, taking a deep breath.
"Don't exaggerate, come on" He took my arm and pushed me. After some minutes he was again too advanced and I walked alone behind him. That was so boring.. but the landscape was worth..
Now we were entering in a deep forest, dark, I would say.. Haldir walked a bit slowly, as if he was checking something.. he stopped and then chose a path. I followed him and after advancing some steps we ended in a wonderful place.. that was the word for it, wonderful.. it looked like a garden. A huge rock had a cave inside, small one, where we would be able to sit and rest protected from rain. Around it, tall trees and, in the centre, a small lake, so small that it looked more like a swimming pool. Great. A place where to take a bath. The light turned into green, because of leafs, and there was peace there, it made me feel a lot better.
"We can spend here some time until you'll feel more rested" Haldir said, putting his bag inside the hole of the rock. Then he walked towards the water, and with his hand he tested temperature, smiling. "I knew there was a hot lake near from Lorien and I finally found it"
"Hot? This is great!" I shouted, throwing my bag on the ground and kneeling next to him. Yes, it was hot and clear, a light green water that invited me to come in. I looked at Haldir, he was serious. I wondered what was inside his head. Something worried him, that was sure. "Haldir.. " he looked at me. "Do you feel well?" he was surprised with my question, and stood up.
"Of course, why do you ask me this?"
"Forget it" I whispered, and carrying my bag to the small cave, I looked for the toilet products, and also for clean underwear. I was so happy because finally I was able to enjoy a hot bath.. but.. I realised about something. I didn't have swimsuit, of course.. and I had to wash the underwear so I wouldn't be able to use it as a bikini.. well, of course I couldn't take a bath to become clean wearing dirty underwear.. "Great" I murmured, thinking.
"What's wrong?" Haldir walked towards me, and looked at the things I had in my hands. And he smiled. "Oh.. I understand" He sat with me, and sighed. "You see.. I have the same problem.. " I looked at him and at first I didn't understand.
"What do you mean?" And his eyes were looking at my bag, and then at me, and I realised about that.. "Ok, we have a problem.. what would Gimli do on a situation like this one?" I asked, and Haldir laughed.
"Gimli would never worry about taking a bath, Zana" He had an evil smile. " Ok, we'll make turns.. the first turn is for you, in the meanwhile I'll go for a walk around this place and I'll return in ten minutes.. you have to be ready by then because I'll come back and I don't want surprises" He was smiling, and then stood up. "And then you will go for a walk and you will leave me alone during the same time.. we agree on this?" I nodded, standing up . I left my boots near from the bag, and I started to unbutton the warm sweater. But Haldir was still there.
"So.. do you plan to leave?" I asked, with irony. And to my surprise, he looked shocked and apologised, leaving soon. He was acting so strange, and I couldn't tell why. I went on with the process and finally I stepped into the water.. it was deep enough and it covered almost all my body.. and it was so warm.. I would have stayed there for hours, but I had few time.. I put some shampoo and gel and then I swam until I removed all the soap. That place was magic.. great.. and I lost notion of time.. I closed my eyes and relaxed after the hard day walking and climbing. The smell of the elvish products was so nice, like the smell of the forest.
"Your time is over" I heard his sarcastic voice and opened my eyes, making sure that water covered me completely. He was standing in the edge of the lake, with his ironic smile. " And you forgot to pick up the towel, you're a mess.." He showed me it, and then turned around. "Go out from the water and wrap yourself, it's cold outside" And I didn't know what to do.. I couldn't walk completely naked in front of him.. I knew he wouldn't watch, but.. it was like walking naked in the street, although you knew that it would be empty.. I just couldn't. "Zana.. go out from the water" He asked again.. and I supposed I had to do it. Taking the towel and making sure that he was looking far away in the distance, I stepped outside. The cold wind made me breath strongly.
"Uf, it's so cold and this towel it's too small" I shouted, and he laughed.
"I know, this is why you must hurry, dry yourself and then look for something to light a fire" He turned around and checked me. Why did he do that? I felt so embarrassed. I wasn't able to move, so frozen I was. "Zana, hurry or you'll catch a cold!" And he was right, yes.. so I ran towards the cave and hurried as I never had hurried before.
Yes, but I did everything, getting dressed, forgetting that he was still there behind me.. I put the underwear and then my clothes, everything, in front of him. When I was warm again I stopped and blushed deeply, aware of what I had done.. I wished he wasn't there, I wished he had the decency to look at another place.. so when I turned around and I saw him staring at the lake, I sighed, happy. Yes, after all, he was a nice elf and he was a gentleman.
"Are you ready?" He asked, but didn't look back.
"Yes, yes.." I walked towards the path, leaving him alone. The forest was so deep that I almost couldn't see anything beyond the trees. I noticed that birds weren't singing.. maybe because it was winter, I don't know.. but that silence was a bit scary.. I didn't walk too far away, afraid of getting lost. When I stopped to go back, my heart almost stopped beating. I had heard a noise. yes, I was completely sure. I searched for someone or something with my eyes.. and I remembered all the stories I had read, how girls sent to Middle Earth were caught by orcs.. but the war was over , I shouldn't be afraid.. anyway, I was in the land of magic, I could find anything there.. and this scared me.. I waited but nothing happened. Whatever it was, it was gone. And ifelt a hand on my shoulder, and I shouted.
"Hey, it's me!" Haldir tried to calm me, but I was too scared. He had been so fast washing and I was surprised. I really didn't expect him there.
"I heard a noise, and I was waiting for something and then you came.." I took a deep breath. "One day you'll kill me, Haldir of Lorien, I told you this lots of times" He was smiling at me.
"We're alone here, Zana. Don't worry. Now come back, we have to eat something, and we'll make a fire for the night." I looked at him with surprise.
"For the night? But it's midday.." He nodded.
"Well, a strong storm is coming and I'm sure we'll have to wait here, inside the small cave.. maybe some hours" He looked at me, and I shrugged.
"It's ok with me.. I suppose" And we walked back together.
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"You, stupid dwarf" Legolas looked at Gimli so angry. They were hidden behind a bush when they saw Zana. "She almost discovered us!"
"It's not my fault, we've been walking the whole time behind them, you weren't patient enough to wait one more day, of course.. you had to leave three hours after they left, elf" Gimli stood up, looking at Legolas so angry.
"Don't complain and lets look for a shelter" Legolas looked around himself. "We must stay far away from Haldir"
"I know, this is why we had agreed on waiting one-more-day" Gimli spelled the last part, beating on Legolas arm. "Why did you hurry so much? Why?"
"You know why, so stop talking or.." But he looked at Gimli and sighed. "I'm sorry, Gimli.. I just couldn't wait more inside palace. What if something happened to them? "
They both walked for one hour in the opposite direction, looking for a shelter that was enough far away from Zana and Haldir, and they found another cave. Legolas sat down and closed his eyes. The hours he had spent without Zana had been too long.. he missed her more than he thought he would, and the waiting was killing him. Two days almost.. and two days more before arriving in Lorien. The bet they made was about eight days.. so if things went on like this, Zana would win. He smiled with this thought. That girl was amazing.
"I'm hungry" Gimli complained. He took Legolas bag and looked for lembas.
"It was you the one who insisted on walking with me, so now you have to carry with the consequences" The dwarf made a noise and then stepped inside his sleeping bag.
"It's cold" He went on murmuring, and Legolas almost lost his patience. "And I'm bored"
"Gimli!" He shouted, looking at the dwarf. "Please.. shut up.. or go back to Mirkwood" His blue eyes were cold and the dwarf shook his head.
"Love spoils elves, my friend.. you're not funny any more. I'll be sleeping until tomorrow so don't wake me up"
Rain came, strong rain that forced them to go a bit deeper in that cave. Legolas looked at the sky and sighed.. that would last some hours and the waiting would be horrible again.. hours inside the cave and with an asleep dwarf..
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Two hours had passed since we had lunch and since we had to go inside the cave. It was big enough for both of us and the thing I most liked was that it looked like a balcony from where I could see the rain and thunders without any danger. But it was cold.. the cold rock that made me shake. Haldir had been quiet again, and suddenly he looked at me.
"You're cold again.. " He said , taking his bag. "Use the sleeping bag" I looked at him, not very sure. "Zana.." he said, insisting. And I made a kind of bed and stepped inside. It was six or seven in the afternoon , already getting dark.. and I was so tired.. really tired. The fire we made was small but it kept the place warm. The truth is that I felt very well.
"It will be raining all night.." Haldir murmured, and I looked at him. He was absent minded, thinking.. like always, his gaze lost somewhere. "So.. " He said, turning around to sit facing me. " How will we spend those hours?" We stared at each other for some time. I noticed that soon I would blush, so I looked at the sky.
"It's almost dark.. I think we should sleep and rest and tomorrow wake up earlier.." I saw him smiling.
"I see you don't want to talk about anything tonight" I was playing with the sleeves of the sweater, trying to keep me calmed. My heart was beating fast again.. why???
"What do you want to talk about?" I looked at him again.
"About your heart" he whispered.
"What?" Now I really blushed deeply.
"About your beatings.. it's amazing how fast and strongly it beats.." he said in low voice. I covered myself with the sleeping bag, as if that could hide the noise. And he laughed.. "No, don't worry, you can't avoid it"
"My heart beats like this when I'm angry" I lied, trying to look upset. But I knew he wouldn't believe me, and his smile told me this. Another uncomfortable silence. The rain became stronger, also the thunders. And Haldir had to sit just next to me to keep himself protected from water. Yes, too close, like always. I didn't move, I couldn't.
"Zana.." He started to speak but he made a pause.. "I know that the idea of sleeping makes you uncomfortable" His eyes on mines, and I felt embarrassed again. "And you know that I also can feel the cold and I need the sleeping bag.." I nodded, but didn't say anything. All from the sudden I was shocked again. "Well.. I think we should sleep, it's already dark" He waited for my reply, but I didn't know what to say. I just moved to let him a free place.. He came inside and we laid down. "Zana, now you have to come closer or else I won't be able to close this" I would have said that he was smiling.. but I wasn't able to look directly at his face. So I repeated the last night's operation and finally we were comfortable enough to try to sleep. But again, I couldn't. I couldn't , I couldn't, I couldn't. A strong thunder made me jump inside the sleeping bag.. it had fallen near from there.
"This was so..!!" I said, changing from position, scared. And I was facing him. So close to him that I could feel his breathing in my face. I closed my eyes. "I'm sorry.. that scared me, I mean, it's not like being inside your flat during a storm.." But he didn't reply. I opened my eyes, and he was still staring at me. All time. "Haldir.." He didn't reply. And I came closer. I had to do it and I didn't know why.. our faces so close that just with a small movement I would have kissed him. "Can I ask you something..?" I whispered.. but he didn't reply.. that was strange.. I had a big need in that moment.. I needed to kiss him, I was coming closer and closer, and he didn't complain.. so maybe that was "the moment".. but all the magic disappeared as soon as I discovered that he was already sleeping! Sleeping! Anyway, I was glad , I almost had made a big mistake, a big nonsense! What was I thinking about?! I moved again and looked at the opposite direction.. my heart was beating fast, yes.. something had changed inside me and if Haldir had been awake now he would be firing me from the sleeping bag. I closed my eyes and tried to calm down.
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Haldir's heart was beating so fast, as fast as possible.. he was pretending to be sleeping.. and again that girl made him shocked.. was he dreaming or she was trying to kiss him? Was she going to ask for permission? She was strange indeed.. but now he was too amazed to rest. He needed to think about that big change on her. And to his surprise, he needed a big self control or else he would have moved some millimetres and kiss her back. What was happening to him?