** Disclaimer: I only own Zana**********
This morning I found out that my reviews had increased from 64 to84, and I was so happy! Namarie2legolas, again thanks for everything!
Priestess of Anubis.. Be patient! : )
And to all of you, who are reading my story.. I'm always repeating myself but thank you very much!
I discovered this song.. I didn't like dance songs, but this one has something special and I decided to put it here.. somehow it made me think.. well, you should download it!
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At night you reach towards the sky
The world you see inside me eyes
And you know you've been here before
Always with me, you're never alone
So hold me forever
Let's stay together, never let me go
So hold me forever
I'm lost without you, won't you take me home
Forever- N-Trance
I opened my eyes, slowly, afraid of how would I find myself inside that sleeping bag. The sun was already high and it kept the small cave warm. I noticed that there was a lot of space there, and when I turned back I saw I was alone. For a moment I felt so scared.. what if Haldir had decided to leave me? But soon that thought went out of my head.. no, he would never make something like this.
I sat down and looked around.. what a wonderful view.. the light of the sun through the trees made a kind of green effect, magic. But I was thirsty, so I took some juice for the bottle.. it was almost over. And I looked at Haldir's bag, probably he would have something there. I picked it up and checked inside. I wasn't a curious person and I wasn't interested on what he had inside, but.. I found something so nice, a kind of pendant with a symbol on the front part.. a kind of big "L" wrapped by leafs.. I tried to open it but I felt a kind of beat inside my head.. the jewel started to shine and I heard a voice.. yes, a woman's voice.. I was so scared, wondering if I was becoming crazy.. that voice spoke in a strange language I couldn't understand. And as soon as I left the pendant, the feeling disappeared . I left everything where it was before, my heart beating so fast. Probably it was something that Galadriel had given him.. but.. why? With what meaning? Because as far as I knew, Galadriel was Celeborn's wife? Or maybe I was confused and all what I had read was forgotten? Yes, in that moment I couldn't tell who was who in that story. I heard steps, and returned to my seat in the sleeping bag. Haldir came walking ,slowly.
"Good morning, Zana.. I've been searching something , I heard noises last night and I just wanted to make sure" He sat near from me, and took his bag. I became nervous, and he looked at me. Sure he was hearing my heart again. But he didn't comment anything, he just smiled. And when he took the bag with food, his expression changed.. as if he had seen a ghost. Maybe he had realised about what I made .. maybe Galadriel talked to him.. "Have you heard that?" He asked, in low voice. I felt more relaxed, but only for a while, because now a bigger worry had come.
"No.. what's wrong?" he didn't reply, he just listened. His blue eyes concentrated on something in the distance, as if he was able to see something far away.
"Eat something fast.. here you have drinks. Because we must leave at once. Someone is following us" He looked at me and I froze. So I was right, the previous day I had heard something and it wasn't my imagination. I ate breakfast as fast as I could while we packed our things again.
We started to walk again, following another narrow path, and we agreed to be in silence.. I had to admit that I was very scared, after all, I didn't know everything about that world and I wasn't used to horrible creatures like orcs .. but.. there weren't orcs in Middle Earth after the war.. right?
"Haldir.." I whispered, and he turned back his head, frowning, as if he was going to shout "shut up!". "Do you think they are orcs?" Sure he saw my scared gaze, and he shook his head smiling.
"No.. I'm completely sure. Orcs have a strong smell and are noisy.. " We went on walking.
"Then.. who is following us?" I was afraid to ask, and he seemed to be thinking.
"Maybe I'm crazy, but.. I would say that an elf is coming, an elf and another being.."
"What? Who would follow us and why?" But Haldir didn't reply, and a strange smile came to his face, as if he knew the answer. "What? Why are you smiling?"
"I knew it.." He murmured to himself.. but didn't pay attention to me.
"What did you know? Haldir, please!" I took his arm and made him stop.
"We'll arrive in Lorien tomorrow in the morning.. don't worry about anything, nobody will hurt you. And don't go on asking or I'll become really angry" He shut up again and walked in front of me, so silent, for the rest of the morning. Boring, yeah.
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Legolas stopped, and Gimli behind him.
"What's wrong, Legolas?" The dwarf looked around himself.
"Haldir knows we're here.. I can notice it" His blue eyes stared at the distance. "He discovered me.." His voice was just a whisper. They went on walking, slowly.
During the night Legolas wasn't asleep, and he had decided to walk towards the place where Haldir and Zana were resting.. he had approached there as silent as he could.. and what he had seen made him shocked.. they both were sleeping inside the same.. sleeping bag, yes.. that view made him feel so bad and he had almost jumped there, shouted and.. killed Haldir.. he was so angry that he almost couldn't control himself. When he walked back with Gimli he was out of control.. but decided to calm down and think.. after all, that was predictable.. Haldir loved her and she was confused.. two days walking and sleeping together had been enough for her, enough to forget about everything from Mirkwood.. and he felt a kind of anger towards Zana. But it wasn't her fault.. neither Haldir's fault.. he had arrived too late and all was lost.
"What are you thinking, elf?" Gimli asked, looking at his worried friend. Something had changed since last night.
"Don't speak or he will hear us" His rude answer made the dwarf angry.
"I want to know what happens to you, or else I'll start singing so loud that even in Mirkwood they would hear us" He threatened, and Legolas believed him because he stopped walking.
"Ok, you want to know? Last night I saw Haldir and Zana sleeping together!" He shouted, and the dwarf opened his eyes to their limit. Then , his face became red, so red. Legolas stared at him, and then Gimli exploded like he used to explode, with strong laughs that spreaded all over the valley. He was shaking and laughing like he never did before, and Legolas became so angry, so mad at him. "It's not funny at all, how can you be like this, knowing how I feel about her?" And when Gimli calmed down, took a deep breath.
"I'm sorry, my friend, but this is too funny to see.. the Prince of Mirkwood loosing a stupid battle for a girl.. this is too much.. Legolas.. why are you wasting your time on this? You're a lot more important than any of them.. go back home, do your work and forget about Zana.. after all what we lived the past months, how can you .. spend your time following them? Don't you realise that you're making something you would have never made when the war happened? I can't recognise you, and I don't like this new elf". Legolas looked shocked after those words. He sat on a rock and covered his face with his hands.
"I don't know what is happening to me, Gimli.. but I can't give up, I just can't because I'm not like this. So I only ask you for this: walk with me if you want, or leave if you prefer.. but don't ever laugh or comment anything about this.. you can't imagine how I feel inside and you're hurting me more than one hundred arrows from any of Sauron's orcs" Gimli tried not to smile.. Legolas was becoming poetic.. but he shut up and nodded.
"I promise" After saying this, they both went on walking in silence.
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Haldir was thinking as he was walking.. Legolas was following him, probably with Gimli, and that surprised him a lot.. he couldn't have imagined that the elf was so serious about that girl.. and a strange feeling came to him.. He saw an enemy on Legolas.. but that was impossible, they both were elves, they were friends, they fought together.. and now, he.. hated him? No, that was impossible.. he sighed. He had a strange feeling, he wouldn't allow the elf to spoil anything.. but spoil what? What was happening in reality?
They started to climb a small hill, Zana behind him. He looked at her, she was staring at the ground, lost in her thoughts. And when he was looking at her he felt a warm feeling.. yes, something new, but nice.. as if he needed to protect her.. he smiled.. what would they think of him in Lorien? He really needed to arrive there, place himself and start being himself again.. that was lasting too much and he was too confused.. he was an important elf and he was apart from love and girls.. his mission was very different from that , he wasn't destined to love, he was a soldier. But those thoughts made him feel even worse.
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I was wondering why did Haldir have that strange smile again.. maybe he was laughing at me.. after all, I was so tired that I almost couldn't realise where I was.. it was amazing that, by that moment, I was making the journey in a good time.. yes, maybe I would even win the bet.. but the thing that worried me was the way back to Mirkwood.I would be too tired to walk so fast.. and then.. the bet would be lost.. I sighed, and Haldir looked back.
"Something worries you?" he showed a kind of curious gaze.. strange.. I was expecting a joke or an ironic remark.
"No.. I was just thinking.." I shrugged, and he smiled.
"Yes, me too.." We both kept silence. Like always. And the next hours passed like this.. walking, crossing forests, small rivers.. stopping to drink something.. but always in silence.. more than never before. Sometimes I looked at him, just to check if there was a new expression on his face.. but nothing.. he didn't look at me in the whole day.. and after some hours, after having lunch while we were walking, without stopping, I lost all notion of time.. I was really tired, I couldn't tell what time was it, but it was getting dark again and my legs didn't obey me.
"Haldir.." I almost couldn't speak. He stopped and came where I was standing. "I've been walking all day, we didn't stop for hours and I'm sorry, but I really can't go on, I'm sorry" I looked at him and he was smiling in the sweetest way.
"You walked like an elf and I'm proud of you. To be honest, I thought that you would give up soon.. but I see you're more resistant than I thought" He put his hand over my shoulder. "I was planning to stop near from here and look for a place where to sleep.. in the end of this path there's a nice open field. Come, walk just a bit more"
We arrived there and I threw myself in the ground.. it was an open field, with big and strong trees. We put our bags under one of them. It was a starry night and I sighed. I loved starry nights. We both sat and looked at the sky.
"I was wondering many times if in your world you can see the same stars" Haldir said, and I remembered that it was exactly what I had thought in Mirkwood. Surprised, I looked at him.
"Yes, I also wondered about this some days ago.. and we share the same sky at nights, nothing changed through those years and this is amazing.. because earth changed completely, but stars remained the same.." I leaned against the tree and smiled. The view was relaxing.. and I also realised that I was having a nice conversation with Haldir.
"Do you miss your world?" He asked, all from the sudden. And I looked at him.. he was staring at me too. After some seconds, I shook my head. "This means "no"? " He asked, with a smile.
"I don't miss my world and this is what scares me" I whispered. He turned a bit to see me better.
"Why does it scare you?" I saw a shooting star and didn't comment anything. I made a wish, but of course, I didn't believe in those things and probably it wouldn't become true. I watched at him.
"It scares me because when I'll return I won't be able to be happy never again" I realised about what I had said, and blushed.. but it was true. He moved his head and watched the landscape.
"But.. why do you have to go back?" His voice was just a soft whisper and I almost couldn't hear it..
"Usually bad things happen easily.. " I smiled, sadly. Yes, I was pessimistic.. but I knew that sooner or later that mission or whatever it was, would end.. and I would have to return to the modern world and I wouldn't be able to bear that. "Haldir.. I've been here only four or five days.. and I already found out that I don't want to leave.. so.. after being here during months.. how will I feel leaving this? I can't imagine it, it will be horrible!" I was almost crying, and he didn't say anything.
"You still don't know about your mission, Zana.. don't hurry things. We can't know what will happen.."
"We..?" I asked, surprised because he included himself in my plans. He shook his head.
"I mean.. you.. your mission". He stepped inside the sleeping bag, it was already dark and cold. "Come in, we must sleep.. it was a long and tired day" I looked at him and placed myself there. After some minutes I turned around to face him .
"Haldir.." He blinked, as if he was.. nervous? "What will happen after being in Lorien?"
"What do you mean?" he whispered, so close to me.
"What if I have to go on travelling? What if I can't go back to Mirkwood because the mission consists in something completely different? " He thought for some seconds.
"If you had to go on travelling , Galadriel would send the best soldiers to protect you." He smiled.
"Yes.. but. Who are the best soldiers? " I smiled too, and he shrugged.
"I don't know, we'll see.. I'm the Captain, so I'll select them"
"But they can't leave without their Captain.." I whispered, and he stared at me.
"You're right.." We both looked at each other for minutes, I would say. That silence again.. my heart again. "We must sleep, Zana" That broke the magic, yes.. definitely, he wasn't interested on me.. I was so happy that last night I hadn't kissed him.
"I know.." I turned around. "Good night, Haldir.."
"Good night" I felt his arm around me and, in that moment, I forgot about everything. About Earth, Legolas, about all the things that worried me. I just wanted to stay like that forever.
This morning I found out that my reviews had increased from 64 to84, and I was so happy! Namarie2legolas, again thanks for everything!
Priestess of Anubis.. Be patient! : )
And to all of you, who are reading my story.. I'm always repeating myself but thank you very much!
I discovered this song.. I didn't like dance songs, but this one has something special and I decided to put it here.. somehow it made me think.. well, you should download it!
****************** ***************** *********************
At night you reach towards the sky
The world you see inside me eyes
And you know you've been here before
Always with me, you're never alone
So hold me forever
Let's stay together, never let me go
So hold me forever
I'm lost without you, won't you take me home
Forever- N-Trance
I opened my eyes, slowly, afraid of how would I find myself inside that sleeping bag. The sun was already high and it kept the small cave warm. I noticed that there was a lot of space there, and when I turned back I saw I was alone. For a moment I felt so scared.. what if Haldir had decided to leave me? But soon that thought went out of my head.. no, he would never make something like this.
I sat down and looked around.. what a wonderful view.. the light of the sun through the trees made a kind of green effect, magic. But I was thirsty, so I took some juice for the bottle.. it was almost over. And I looked at Haldir's bag, probably he would have something there. I picked it up and checked inside. I wasn't a curious person and I wasn't interested on what he had inside, but.. I found something so nice, a kind of pendant with a symbol on the front part.. a kind of big "L" wrapped by leafs.. I tried to open it but I felt a kind of beat inside my head.. the jewel started to shine and I heard a voice.. yes, a woman's voice.. I was so scared, wondering if I was becoming crazy.. that voice spoke in a strange language I couldn't understand. And as soon as I left the pendant, the feeling disappeared . I left everything where it was before, my heart beating so fast. Probably it was something that Galadriel had given him.. but.. why? With what meaning? Because as far as I knew, Galadriel was Celeborn's wife? Or maybe I was confused and all what I had read was forgotten? Yes, in that moment I couldn't tell who was who in that story. I heard steps, and returned to my seat in the sleeping bag. Haldir came walking ,slowly.
"Good morning, Zana.. I've been searching something , I heard noises last night and I just wanted to make sure" He sat near from me, and took his bag. I became nervous, and he looked at me. Sure he was hearing my heart again. But he didn't comment anything, he just smiled. And when he took the bag with food, his expression changed.. as if he had seen a ghost. Maybe he had realised about what I made .. maybe Galadriel talked to him.. "Have you heard that?" He asked, in low voice. I felt more relaxed, but only for a while, because now a bigger worry had come.
"No.. what's wrong?" he didn't reply, he just listened. His blue eyes concentrated on something in the distance, as if he was able to see something far away.
"Eat something fast.. here you have drinks. Because we must leave at once. Someone is following us" He looked at me and I froze. So I was right, the previous day I had heard something and it wasn't my imagination. I ate breakfast as fast as I could while we packed our things again.
We started to walk again, following another narrow path, and we agreed to be in silence.. I had to admit that I was very scared, after all, I didn't know everything about that world and I wasn't used to horrible creatures like orcs .. but.. there weren't orcs in Middle Earth after the war.. right?
"Haldir.." I whispered, and he turned back his head, frowning, as if he was going to shout "shut up!". "Do you think they are orcs?" Sure he saw my scared gaze, and he shook his head smiling.
"No.. I'm completely sure. Orcs have a strong smell and are noisy.. " We went on walking.
"Then.. who is following us?" I was afraid to ask, and he seemed to be thinking.
"Maybe I'm crazy, but.. I would say that an elf is coming, an elf and another being.."
"What? Who would follow us and why?" But Haldir didn't reply, and a strange smile came to his face, as if he knew the answer. "What? Why are you smiling?"
"I knew it.." He murmured to himself.. but didn't pay attention to me.
"What did you know? Haldir, please!" I took his arm and made him stop.
"We'll arrive in Lorien tomorrow in the morning.. don't worry about anything, nobody will hurt you. And don't go on asking or I'll become really angry" He shut up again and walked in front of me, so silent, for the rest of the morning. Boring, yeah.
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Legolas stopped, and Gimli behind him.
"What's wrong, Legolas?" The dwarf looked around himself.
"Haldir knows we're here.. I can notice it" His blue eyes stared at the distance. "He discovered me.." His voice was just a whisper. They went on walking, slowly.
During the night Legolas wasn't asleep, and he had decided to walk towards the place where Haldir and Zana were resting.. he had approached there as silent as he could.. and what he had seen made him shocked.. they both were sleeping inside the same.. sleeping bag, yes.. that view made him feel so bad and he had almost jumped there, shouted and.. killed Haldir.. he was so angry that he almost couldn't control himself. When he walked back with Gimli he was out of control.. but decided to calm down and think.. after all, that was predictable.. Haldir loved her and she was confused.. two days walking and sleeping together had been enough for her, enough to forget about everything from Mirkwood.. and he felt a kind of anger towards Zana. But it wasn't her fault.. neither Haldir's fault.. he had arrived too late and all was lost.
"What are you thinking, elf?" Gimli asked, looking at his worried friend. Something had changed since last night.
"Don't speak or he will hear us" His rude answer made the dwarf angry.
"I want to know what happens to you, or else I'll start singing so loud that even in Mirkwood they would hear us" He threatened, and Legolas believed him because he stopped walking.
"Ok, you want to know? Last night I saw Haldir and Zana sleeping together!" He shouted, and the dwarf opened his eyes to their limit. Then , his face became red, so red. Legolas stared at him, and then Gimli exploded like he used to explode, with strong laughs that spreaded all over the valley. He was shaking and laughing like he never did before, and Legolas became so angry, so mad at him. "It's not funny at all, how can you be like this, knowing how I feel about her?" And when Gimli calmed down, took a deep breath.
"I'm sorry, my friend, but this is too funny to see.. the Prince of Mirkwood loosing a stupid battle for a girl.. this is too much.. Legolas.. why are you wasting your time on this? You're a lot more important than any of them.. go back home, do your work and forget about Zana.. after all what we lived the past months, how can you .. spend your time following them? Don't you realise that you're making something you would have never made when the war happened? I can't recognise you, and I don't like this new elf". Legolas looked shocked after those words. He sat on a rock and covered his face with his hands.
"I don't know what is happening to me, Gimli.. but I can't give up, I just can't because I'm not like this. So I only ask you for this: walk with me if you want, or leave if you prefer.. but don't ever laugh or comment anything about this.. you can't imagine how I feel inside and you're hurting me more than one hundred arrows from any of Sauron's orcs" Gimli tried not to smile.. Legolas was becoming poetic.. but he shut up and nodded.
"I promise" After saying this, they both went on walking in silence.
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Haldir was thinking as he was walking.. Legolas was following him, probably with Gimli, and that surprised him a lot.. he couldn't have imagined that the elf was so serious about that girl.. and a strange feeling came to him.. He saw an enemy on Legolas.. but that was impossible, they both were elves, they were friends, they fought together.. and now, he.. hated him? No, that was impossible.. he sighed. He had a strange feeling, he wouldn't allow the elf to spoil anything.. but spoil what? What was happening in reality?
They started to climb a small hill, Zana behind him. He looked at her, she was staring at the ground, lost in her thoughts. And when he was looking at her he felt a warm feeling.. yes, something new, but nice.. as if he needed to protect her.. he smiled.. what would they think of him in Lorien? He really needed to arrive there, place himself and start being himself again.. that was lasting too much and he was too confused.. he was an important elf and he was apart from love and girls.. his mission was very different from that , he wasn't destined to love, he was a soldier. But those thoughts made him feel even worse.
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I was wondering why did Haldir have that strange smile again.. maybe he was laughing at me.. after all, I was so tired that I almost couldn't realise where I was.. it was amazing that, by that moment, I was making the journey in a good time.. yes, maybe I would even win the bet.. but the thing that worried me was the way back to Mirkwood.I would be too tired to walk so fast.. and then.. the bet would be lost.. I sighed, and Haldir looked back.
"Something worries you?" he showed a kind of curious gaze.. strange.. I was expecting a joke or an ironic remark.
"No.. I was just thinking.." I shrugged, and he smiled.
"Yes, me too.." We both kept silence. Like always. And the next hours passed like this.. walking, crossing forests, small rivers.. stopping to drink something.. but always in silence.. more than never before. Sometimes I looked at him, just to check if there was a new expression on his face.. but nothing.. he didn't look at me in the whole day.. and after some hours, after having lunch while we were walking, without stopping, I lost all notion of time.. I was really tired, I couldn't tell what time was it, but it was getting dark again and my legs didn't obey me.
"Haldir.." I almost couldn't speak. He stopped and came where I was standing. "I've been walking all day, we didn't stop for hours and I'm sorry, but I really can't go on, I'm sorry" I looked at him and he was smiling in the sweetest way.
"You walked like an elf and I'm proud of you. To be honest, I thought that you would give up soon.. but I see you're more resistant than I thought" He put his hand over my shoulder. "I was planning to stop near from here and look for a place where to sleep.. in the end of this path there's a nice open field. Come, walk just a bit more"
We arrived there and I threw myself in the ground.. it was an open field, with big and strong trees. We put our bags under one of them. It was a starry night and I sighed. I loved starry nights. We both sat and looked at the sky.
"I was wondering many times if in your world you can see the same stars" Haldir said, and I remembered that it was exactly what I had thought in Mirkwood. Surprised, I looked at him.
"Yes, I also wondered about this some days ago.. and we share the same sky at nights, nothing changed through those years and this is amazing.. because earth changed completely, but stars remained the same.." I leaned against the tree and smiled. The view was relaxing.. and I also realised that I was having a nice conversation with Haldir.
"Do you miss your world?" He asked, all from the sudden. And I looked at him.. he was staring at me too. After some seconds, I shook my head. "This means "no"? " He asked, with a smile.
"I don't miss my world and this is what scares me" I whispered. He turned a bit to see me better.
"Why does it scare you?" I saw a shooting star and didn't comment anything. I made a wish, but of course, I didn't believe in those things and probably it wouldn't become true. I watched at him.
"It scares me because when I'll return I won't be able to be happy never again" I realised about what I had said, and blushed.. but it was true. He moved his head and watched the landscape.
"But.. why do you have to go back?" His voice was just a soft whisper and I almost couldn't hear it..
"Usually bad things happen easily.. " I smiled, sadly. Yes, I was pessimistic.. but I knew that sooner or later that mission or whatever it was, would end.. and I would have to return to the modern world and I wouldn't be able to bear that. "Haldir.. I've been here only four or five days.. and I already found out that I don't want to leave.. so.. after being here during months.. how will I feel leaving this? I can't imagine it, it will be horrible!" I was almost crying, and he didn't say anything.
"You still don't know about your mission, Zana.. don't hurry things. We can't know what will happen.."
"We..?" I asked, surprised because he included himself in my plans. He shook his head.
"I mean.. you.. your mission". He stepped inside the sleeping bag, it was already dark and cold. "Come in, we must sleep.. it was a long and tired day" I looked at him and placed myself there. After some minutes I turned around to face him .
"Haldir.." He blinked, as if he was.. nervous? "What will happen after being in Lorien?"
"What do you mean?" he whispered, so close to me.
"What if I have to go on travelling? What if I can't go back to Mirkwood because the mission consists in something completely different? " He thought for some seconds.
"If you had to go on travelling , Galadriel would send the best soldiers to protect you." He smiled.
"Yes.. but. Who are the best soldiers? " I smiled too, and he shrugged.
"I don't know, we'll see.. I'm the Captain, so I'll select them"
"But they can't leave without their Captain.." I whispered, and he stared at me.
"You're right.." We both looked at each other for minutes, I would say. That silence again.. my heart again. "We must sleep, Zana" That broke the magic, yes.. definitely, he wasn't interested on me.. I was so happy that last night I hadn't kissed him.
"I know.." I turned around. "Good night, Haldir.."
"Good night" I felt his arm around me and, in that moment, I forgot about everything. About Earth, Legolas, about all the things that worried me. I just wanted to stay like that forever.