** Disclaimer: I only own Zana***********
Back again! It's another kind of "changes" chapter.. well, a new phase starts and the next one will be intense.. but I won't say more : ) by the moment I update this.
Thank you very much for going on reviewing! What would i do without all of you? : ) Oh! If you want, you can tell me about your favourite songs.. I'm running out of songs ideas for each chapter, so suggestions are welcomed!
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Look at the stars
Look how they shine for you
And everything you do
Yeah, they were all yellow
So then I took my turn
Oh what a thing to have done
And it was all yellow
Your skin, oh yeah your skin and bones
Turn into something beautiful
D'you know?
You know I love you so
-Yellow- Cold Play
I woke up in the middle of the night.. it was so dark, and I looked at the sky. Stars were still there. I checked my watch. Four. And I wasn't asleep any more.. that was the last night I would spend like this, maybe.. we would arrive in Lorien and there I would sleep alone, in a room.. and then, if I couldn't go back to Mirkwood.. or even if I went back, they would give me another sleeping bag.. but why was I thinking of that?
I sighed and moved a bit, trying to find a more comfortable position. I noticed that Haldir was sleeping deeply, I could hear his slow breathing, and his arm was over me, but without making force.. yes, he was completely asleep. And I didn't want that night to finish, I was so confused. I turned my head, as slowly as I could, and then I moved until I faced him. Yes, again, like always.. and I knew that, although this situation was familiar to me, nothing would change, because after what had happened some hours before, I was more sure than ever that he didn't like me. And I closed my eyes, thinking. I remembered what Legolas had told me in my balcony.. and I smiled with that memory.. but I wasn't happy at all.. the elf of my dreams had made such a wonderful confession , all the days I had dreamed about that and.. nothing, I felt nothing.. because the only thing I had inside my head was the elf in front of me. If some days ago someone had told me that I was going to travel to Middle Earth, meet Legolas and, in the end, falling for Haldir.. no, I wouldn't have believed that.
Ok, I had to think of that.. I had to make sure that my feelings were what I thought they were in that moment.. but which feelings? How could I have feelings in such a short time? That was too complicated..
"Why are you smiling?" He asked with a nice smile. Yes, of course, he was awake.. and I blushed in the darkness.
"I was just thinking.." I said.
"You're always thinking.." His irony again.
"You too, Haldir.. and you also smile when you think.." He nodded, and we looked at each other in silence.
"Well.. "I was trying to start a conversation, I was a bit ashamed and I felt more shy than ever. "So I let you go on sleeping"
"You know I wasn't sleeping, Zana" That strange tone in his voice.. it sounded so different "And.. why did you wake up? Something troubles you? "
"I was thinking that tomorrow we'll arrive in Lorien and this makes me a bit nervous" I confessed, hiding some information about my real reasons.
"Don't fear anything.. you'll like my home" He sounded so convincing, yes. "And now, please tell me what really worries you" he smiled again.. it seemed he knew me better than I thought.
"What if I say that I can't tell you?" I said, in very low voice, with a big effort, because I knew the consequences that the phrase would cause. And I was right, he blinked and moved his head.
"Why not? "He asked with curiosity. His blue eyes searched on mines, and I tried to hide my face, but obviously I couldn't , we were too close. "What is it? Please, tell me if something is wrong"
"No, nothing is wrong, of course" I smiled. He looked more calmed. "It's only that.. well, it's difficult to tell you this.."
"Now I won't move from here unless you tell me, Zana.." He said so seriously that I got a bit scared. "Your heart tells me that there's something that makes you so nervous.. and you're blushing too.. I'm curious!" He was smiling now.
"Haldir, I can't ! So please, don't go on asking." I closed my eyes, but I felt his hand on my face. I couldn't believe that and, for a moment, I didn't know how to react. I opened my eyes and saw his confused gaze.
"I know that it's because of Legolas, Zana.." He whispered. "And I understand that you feel uncomfortable with me, because you miss him." His hand left my face, and I couldn't help laughing. He looked at me surprised. "Why are you laughing like Gimli? " He asked with sarcastic voice, and I ignored that remark.
"I'm laughing because of what you said about Legolas.. you're totally wrong about this, and I don't know why you don't believe me!" He went on looking at me, and then moved his head.
"Why would I believe you, Zana?" He asked in a provocative way, like a challenge.. yes, he wanted me to talk too much.
"Well, it's your problem if you don't" I sat down, and then looked at his eyes, under my head. "And I repeat that I can't tell you anything about this, because... well, forget it and go on sleeping, ok? "I looked at the stars, and I noticed that he sat down too, next to me.
"Just answer this.." We looked at each other. "Just tell me if what you hide is so important that it's the thing that made you forget about your home.. if this is the mystery that causes this sadness when you think of leaving Middle Earth.." His whispers were charming, like the first time we had met in the halls of Mirkwood.
"Maybe.. "I whispered. And with that answer I saw his eyes brightening and I didn't know why.. he looked.. happy? I couldn't tell.. maybe it was my imagination. How could he be happy if he didn't know what I was talking about?
"I supposed so, yes.. "he murmured, laying again inside the sleeping bag.
"You supposed what? "He looked so sure about himself.. and he didn't reply, he just pointed at my seat.
"Go on sleeping, Zana. In two hours we'll leave again"
"I'm not asleep" I replied, and it was true . I was too nervous to sleep. But then I remembered.. the last night.. and suddenly I laid with him.
"You change your mind so easily, you know it? "He laughed.
"Shut up" I replied, but I was smiling. When he wrapped me with his arms again, I closed my eyes. And fell asleep.
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Legolas was staring at the stars, thinking, while Gimli slept some metres far away from him.. he had a too noisy breathing. His thoughts were concentrated on Zana.. he was trying to analyse what was inside his heart, because it was the first time he had found such an obstacle on his life. He had always been able to fix any problem.. he had survived in the most dangerous and complicated situations, but now he found himself totally lost. And he didn't like that.
The sun was rising in the horizon, a small red line over the mountains. He took a deep breath and looked in the distance, where a small fire was shining, almost disappearing.. there, it was there where Haldir and Zana were sleeping.. and the view of last night hurt him more than the first time. Standing up, he packed his things, taking a decision. As soon as they arrived in Lorien, he would look for Zana and tell her.. well, he had to think about that.
"Gimli, wake up" The dwarf complained, murmuring something impossible to understand. "Gimli!"
"What?" He sat down, looking around him. "It's still night, elf!" He shouted, pointing at the sky.
"It's almost six in the morning, we have to go on walking. "He waited for Gimli and searched in the distance again.. the fire had disappeared. "Come on, Gimli.. they're leaving!"
"Never, never again I'll be friend of an elf in love, never.." He was murmuring while he picked up all his things. "Ne-ver!"
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"Zana..Zana, wake up" I heard Haldir's voice in my ears, and I opened my eyes. It was still dark.
"What's wrong?" I asked , scared. But he smiled.
"Nothing, it's six and we must go on walking. I want to arrive in Lorien this afternoon and we must hurry. We'll eat breakfast on the way" he stood up, he already had packed all his things.
"You're too fast for me, Haldir.." I made everything slowly, I was so asleep.
"Yes, this is why I'll win the bet if we go back to Mirkwood" He smiled, but his words made me scared.
"If?.." I murmured.. something told me that I would never see Legolas again.. yes, all from the sudden he came to my head.
"I heard you.. but you shouldn't worry about it, you know you won't be alone "He walked towards me. "You know that Galadriel wouldn't allow you to walk alone in your mission"
"Yes, Galadriel, of course.." I said, with sarcasm. Haldir took my hand. I looked at him.
"Not only Galadriel.." He was so serious, and I blushed. Fortunately he started to walk and forgot about that magic moment, because in some minutes I was trying to reach him as we climbed on a hill.
The morning passed so fast, we both walking in silence again.. lost in our own thoughts.. I would have killed for knowing what was inside his head.. but maybe it was better not to know, because maybe I wouldn't have liked it..
The sun was already high in the sky and the landscape changed completely. We stopped in front of a new place.. as if suddenly all the vegetation had turned into forests.. deep forests that looked a bit scary. Haldir smiled, and for the first time in six hours, he spoke.
"This is my home. We're in my land.." He looked so different there.. even more arrogant, more confident.. and I felt so small. Yes, I felt as if he was a famous actor and I was the insignificant girl who looks at him in the distance. Terrible feeling in that moment, because I needed more support than ever. He walked a bit, but I stood there, unable to move. When he finally looked back I was a bit far away.. we stared at each other, and then I sat on a small rock. I saw that he was frowning, and came running.
"I'm scared, Haldir.. I'm scared because now things are different.." He sat next to me, looking with curiosity. I explained. "Until now, we both were guests in another land.. but now.. we're in your home, and.. well, I can't help feeling lonely.. you will have your own business here and.. "I didn't want to say what I was thinking. But he smiled and gave me his hand, helping me to stand up.
"I won't forget about you, Zana, if this is what worries you. We still have to discover lots of things about you.. and remember what Gandalf said.. I'm also involved in this story.. so stop saying nonsense and come with me inside the forest" I left his hand and followed him . Should I feel better? Because I didn't..
We walked for some time among the highest and biggest trees I had ever seen before.. the peace of that place was too.. magic.. as if at any moment a fantastic animal was going to show up. Haldir led me through complicated paths, and sometimes he had to help me or else I wouldn't be able to advance. He looked so concentrated, walking so fast. And with every step I gave, I felt more and more scared. Yes, I was afraid of Galadriel, afraid of what I would find out in Lorien.. afraid of my mission.
I heard the sound of the water near from us.. I remembered there was a river, but I couldn't see it. I just watched at the ground, avoiding all roots, stones and obstacles. The temperature lowered in that place, and the air became thicker.. I almost couldn't breath. The forest had its own defences and I was an intruder .
"Haldir.." I called him, and he stopped. He got scared when he saw my face, sure I looked more nervous that I thought I was. "Is this way too long?"
"Why? Do you feel bad? "He asked, worried.
"No, no.. but I feel as if I couldn't breath.. as if the forest was refusing me.." I saw surprised that he was laughing.
"You have a strong imagination, Zana.. where do you take your ideas from? How can a forest refuse you? "He was smiling, but I wasn't too convinced. "The forest wouldn't refuse you.. but if you weren't wanted here.. you wouldn't be alive by now. So go on walking with me and forget about your worries". That made me even more nervous. Yes, a forest that was able to kill intruders wasn't the best place.. but he said it had accepted me, so somehow I felt a bit better.. and followed him .
After some more minutes, my head started to spin.. I remembered the book ,the movie.. how they heard Galadriel's voice inside their heads.. and I waited.. but nothing happened.. no, because what I found was Galadriel herself, standing in front of us. Haldir greeted her in their own way, and she smiled so kindly at him that I couldn't help feeling.. jealous? No, that was stupid.. Haldir and Galadriel? No, no.. but those smiles.. suddenly she looked at me and I remembered that she was able to read minds, and I blushed deeply.
"So this is Zana.." She walked towards me, and Haldir nodded. I felt observed. "I'm so happy that you're here" she gave me her hand and smiled. I felt more calmed. Then, when she looked in my eyes, I finally heard the voices inside my head. "Forget about this stupid fear you have now.. can't you see that I already found my half- elf?" She laughed and Haldir looked at us with curiosity. I smiled too. Now she spoke in loud voice. "Follow us, Zana. Today you'll rest and see my home.. and tomorrow we'll see what destiny plans for you.." She spoke slowly. "Now, forget about everything until tomorrow. Haldir will take care of you. At night, come to my palace. A servant will lead you to your room, where you will find food and all what you need " She looked at him, and Haldir nodded. Then ,his eyes stared at me and smiled. I felt dizzy.. that place was so magic that all my senses were lost.. almost as if I was drunk.. I felt less shy, more self confident.. and more.. how could I call that? Daredevil?
We walked through the forest and finally I saw Lorien.. the awesome Lorien I had always imagined.. impossible to describe, I only could say it was a lot nicer than Mirkwood, blue lights, green lights all around the trees, the houses.. but not real houses, they were carved in the wood.. that view took my breath away, and I stopped.. just in the place that looked so similar to the place in the movie, where Legolas had heard the lament for Gandalf.. but it was better than in the movie, in real life things were so different and wonderful.
"This is too beautiful to be described.." I said, and Haldir smiled. He came close to me , and Galadriel left us alone, after saying goodbye with a smile.
"So do you like my home?" He asked, with a proud voice, but I had to admit it.. I was shocked.
"It's wonderful, Haldir.. I could stay here forever.." I didn't realise what I was saying, but he looked at me, surprised.
"Are you talking seriously?" I nodded, still incapable of any kind of reaction.. so I didn't think that his question was seriously.. I just nodded and didn't give more importance.
He led me to his house.. a small place near from a small blue lake.. we climbed a kind of stairs made in the wood, and came in. It was just a big room, with a bed, a kind of kitchen.. a big bath.. and from there, I could see the lake, the whole Lorien.. obviously he lived alone, and this made me happy in some way.. this meant he didn't have any elf girl.. I blushed when I thought of this.
"As you can see, I live alone" he said with a smile, reading my mind. "Galadriel will offer you a nice and comfortable place where to sleep, in her palace.." I looked at him.. although the palace would be wonderful and I would have all what I wanted.. the truth is that I didn't want to get separated from Haldir's side. He noticed my doubts, and looked so surprised. "You don't want to go there..? "He asked with.. a shy voice maybe?
"I don't know.. I mean, of course, but.. well.. "I didn't know what to say. "Well, I suppose I have to leave.. Galadriel said I had to go there in the evening.."
"Of course.." He reacted. "I'll go with you and we'll go on talking tomorrow."
Once in the palace, in my room, I felt so alone. The place was amazing, yes.. my bed was perfect, with jewels in the marble, with all what I had dreamed about.. a hot bath, food and drinks.. new clothes.. and peace.. but I felt sad, and I knew why. It was too hard to admit it.
I stepped inside the hot water and closed my eyes. I was really tired, and I needed to sleep that night. Lots of things would happen the following day, and I needed all my forces. After some minutes, I dried myself, put the pyjamas and went to bed. Yes, I was so tired.
Back again! It's another kind of "changes" chapter.. well, a new phase starts and the next one will be intense.. but I won't say more : ) by the moment I update this.
Thank you very much for going on reviewing! What would i do without all of you? : ) Oh! If you want, you can tell me about your favourite songs.. I'm running out of songs ideas for each chapter, so suggestions are welcomed!
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Look at the stars
Look how they shine for you
And everything you do
Yeah, they were all yellow
So then I took my turn
Oh what a thing to have done
And it was all yellow
Your skin, oh yeah your skin and bones
Turn into something beautiful
D'you know?
You know I love you so
-Yellow- Cold Play
I woke up in the middle of the night.. it was so dark, and I looked at the sky. Stars were still there. I checked my watch. Four. And I wasn't asleep any more.. that was the last night I would spend like this, maybe.. we would arrive in Lorien and there I would sleep alone, in a room.. and then, if I couldn't go back to Mirkwood.. or even if I went back, they would give me another sleeping bag.. but why was I thinking of that?
I sighed and moved a bit, trying to find a more comfortable position. I noticed that Haldir was sleeping deeply, I could hear his slow breathing, and his arm was over me, but without making force.. yes, he was completely asleep. And I didn't want that night to finish, I was so confused. I turned my head, as slowly as I could, and then I moved until I faced him. Yes, again, like always.. and I knew that, although this situation was familiar to me, nothing would change, because after what had happened some hours before, I was more sure than ever that he didn't like me. And I closed my eyes, thinking. I remembered what Legolas had told me in my balcony.. and I smiled with that memory.. but I wasn't happy at all.. the elf of my dreams had made such a wonderful confession , all the days I had dreamed about that and.. nothing, I felt nothing.. because the only thing I had inside my head was the elf in front of me. If some days ago someone had told me that I was going to travel to Middle Earth, meet Legolas and, in the end, falling for Haldir.. no, I wouldn't have believed that.
Ok, I had to think of that.. I had to make sure that my feelings were what I thought they were in that moment.. but which feelings? How could I have feelings in such a short time? That was too complicated..
"Why are you smiling?" He asked with a nice smile. Yes, of course, he was awake.. and I blushed in the darkness.
"I was just thinking.." I said.
"You're always thinking.." His irony again.
"You too, Haldir.. and you also smile when you think.." He nodded, and we looked at each other in silence.
"Well.. "I was trying to start a conversation, I was a bit ashamed and I felt more shy than ever. "So I let you go on sleeping"
"You know I wasn't sleeping, Zana" That strange tone in his voice.. it sounded so different "And.. why did you wake up? Something troubles you? "
"I was thinking that tomorrow we'll arrive in Lorien and this makes me a bit nervous" I confessed, hiding some information about my real reasons.
"Don't fear anything.. you'll like my home" He sounded so convincing, yes. "And now, please tell me what really worries you" he smiled again.. it seemed he knew me better than I thought.
"What if I say that I can't tell you?" I said, in very low voice, with a big effort, because I knew the consequences that the phrase would cause. And I was right, he blinked and moved his head.
"Why not? "He asked with curiosity. His blue eyes searched on mines, and I tried to hide my face, but obviously I couldn't , we were too close. "What is it? Please, tell me if something is wrong"
"No, nothing is wrong, of course" I smiled. He looked more calmed. "It's only that.. well, it's difficult to tell you this.."
"Now I won't move from here unless you tell me, Zana.." He said so seriously that I got a bit scared. "Your heart tells me that there's something that makes you so nervous.. and you're blushing too.. I'm curious!" He was smiling now.
"Haldir, I can't ! So please, don't go on asking." I closed my eyes, but I felt his hand on my face. I couldn't believe that and, for a moment, I didn't know how to react. I opened my eyes and saw his confused gaze.
"I know that it's because of Legolas, Zana.." He whispered. "And I understand that you feel uncomfortable with me, because you miss him." His hand left my face, and I couldn't help laughing. He looked at me surprised. "Why are you laughing like Gimli? " He asked with sarcastic voice, and I ignored that remark.
"I'm laughing because of what you said about Legolas.. you're totally wrong about this, and I don't know why you don't believe me!" He went on looking at me, and then moved his head.
"Why would I believe you, Zana?" He asked in a provocative way, like a challenge.. yes, he wanted me to talk too much.
"Well, it's your problem if you don't" I sat down, and then looked at his eyes, under my head. "And I repeat that I can't tell you anything about this, because... well, forget it and go on sleeping, ok? "I looked at the stars, and I noticed that he sat down too, next to me.
"Just answer this.." We looked at each other. "Just tell me if what you hide is so important that it's the thing that made you forget about your home.. if this is the mystery that causes this sadness when you think of leaving Middle Earth.." His whispers were charming, like the first time we had met in the halls of Mirkwood.
"Maybe.. "I whispered. And with that answer I saw his eyes brightening and I didn't know why.. he looked.. happy? I couldn't tell.. maybe it was my imagination. How could he be happy if he didn't know what I was talking about?
"I supposed so, yes.. "he murmured, laying again inside the sleeping bag.
"You supposed what? "He looked so sure about himself.. and he didn't reply, he just pointed at my seat.
"Go on sleeping, Zana. In two hours we'll leave again"
"I'm not asleep" I replied, and it was true . I was too nervous to sleep. But then I remembered.. the last night.. and suddenly I laid with him.
"You change your mind so easily, you know it? "He laughed.
"Shut up" I replied, but I was smiling. When he wrapped me with his arms again, I closed my eyes. And fell asleep.
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Legolas was staring at the stars, thinking, while Gimli slept some metres far away from him.. he had a too noisy breathing. His thoughts were concentrated on Zana.. he was trying to analyse what was inside his heart, because it was the first time he had found such an obstacle on his life. He had always been able to fix any problem.. he had survived in the most dangerous and complicated situations, but now he found himself totally lost. And he didn't like that.
The sun was rising in the horizon, a small red line over the mountains. He took a deep breath and looked in the distance, where a small fire was shining, almost disappearing.. there, it was there where Haldir and Zana were sleeping.. and the view of last night hurt him more than the first time. Standing up, he packed his things, taking a decision. As soon as they arrived in Lorien, he would look for Zana and tell her.. well, he had to think about that.
"Gimli, wake up" The dwarf complained, murmuring something impossible to understand. "Gimli!"
"What?" He sat down, looking around him. "It's still night, elf!" He shouted, pointing at the sky.
"It's almost six in the morning, we have to go on walking. "He waited for Gimli and searched in the distance again.. the fire had disappeared. "Come on, Gimli.. they're leaving!"
"Never, never again I'll be friend of an elf in love, never.." He was murmuring while he picked up all his things. "Ne-ver!"
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"Zana..Zana, wake up" I heard Haldir's voice in my ears, and I opened my eyes. It was still dark.
"What's wrong?" I asked , scared. But he smiled.
"Nothing, it's six and we must go on walking. I want to arrive in Lorien this afternoon and we must hurry. We'll eat breakfast on the way" he stood up, he already had packed all his things.
"You're too fast for me, Haldir.." I made everything slowly, I was so asleep.
"Yes, this is why I'll win the bet if we go back to Mirkwood" He smiled, but his words made me scared.
"If?.." I murmured.. something told me that I would never see Legolas again.. yes, all from the sudden he came to my head.
"I heard you.. but you shouldn't worry about it, you know you won't be alone "He walked towards me. "You know that Galadriel wouldn't allow you to walk alone in your mission"
"Yes, Galadriel, of course.." I said, with sarcasm. Haldir took my hand. I looked at him.
"Not only Galadriel.." He was so serious, and I blushed. Fortunately he started to walk and forgot about that magic moment, because in some minutes I was trying to reach him as we climbed on a hill.
The morning passed so fast, we both walking in silence again.. lost in our own thoughts.. I would have killed for knowing what was inside his head.. but maybe it was better not to know, because maybe I wouldn't have liked it..
The sun was already high in the sky and the landscape changed completely. We stopped in front of a new place.. as if suddenly all the vegetation had turned into forests.. deep forests that looked a bit scary. Haldir smiled, and for the first time in six hours, he spoke.
"This is my home. We're in my land.." He looked so different there.. even more arrogant, more confident.. and I felt so small. Yes, I felt as if he was a famous actor and I was the insignificant girl who looks at him in the distance. Terrible feeling in that moment, because I needed more support than ever. He walked a bit, but I stood there, unable to move. When he finally looked back I was a bit far away.. we stared at each other, and then I sat on a small rock. I saw that he was frowning, and came running.
"I'm scared, Haldir.. I'm scared because now things are different.." He sat next to me, looking with curiosity. I explained. "Until now, we both were guests in another land.. but now.. we're in your home, and.. well, I can't help feeling lonely.. you will have your own business here and.. "I didn't want to say what I was thinking. But he smiled and gave me his hand, helping me to stand up.
"I won't forget about you, Zana, if this is what worries you. We still have to discover lots of things about you.. and remember what Gandalf said.. I'm also involved in this story.. so stop saying nonsense and come with me inside the forest" I left his hand and followed him . Should I feel better? Because I didn't..
We walked for some time among the highest and biggest trees I had ever seen before.. the peace of that place was too.. magic.. as if at any moment a fantastic animal was going to show up. Haldir led me through complicated paths, and sometimes he had to help me or else I wouldn't be able to advance. He looked so concentrated, walking so fast. And with every step I gave, I felt more and more scared. Yes, I was afraid of Galadriel, afraid of what I would find out in Lorien.. afraid of my mission.
I heard the sound of the water near from us.. I remembered there was a river, but I couldn't see it. I just watched at the ground, avoiding all roots, stones and obstacles. The temperature lowered in that place, and the air became thicker.. I almost couldn't breath. The forest had its own defences and I was an intruder .
"Haldir.." I called him, and he stopped. He got scared when he saw my face, sure I looked more nervous that I thought I was. "Is this way too long?"
"Why? Do you feel bad? "He asked, worried.
"No, no.. but I feel as if I couldn't breath.. as if the forest was refusing me.." I saw surprised that he was laughing.
"You have a strong imagination, Zana.. where do you take your ideas from? How can a forest refuse you? "He was smiling, but I wasn't too convinced. "The forest wouldn't refuse you.. but if you weren't wanted here.. you wouldn't be alive by now. So go on walking with me and forget about your worries". That made me even more nervous. Yes, a forest that was able to kill intruders wasn't the best place.. but he said it had accepted me, so somehow I felt a bit better.. and followed him .
After some more minutes, my head started to spin.. I remembered the book ,the movie.. how they heard Galadriel's voice inside their heads.. and I waited.. but nothing happened.. no, because what I found was Galadriel herself, standing in front of us. Haldir greeted her in their own way, and she smiled so kindly at him that I couldn't help feeling.. jealous? No, that was stupid.. Haldir and Galadriel? No, no.. but those smiles.. suddenly she looked at me and I remembered that she was able to read minds, and I blushed deeply.
"So this is Zana.." She walked towards me, and Haldir nodded. I felt observed. "I'm so happy that you're here" she gave me her hand and smiled. I felt more calmed. Then, when she looked in my eyes, I finally heard the voices inside my head. "Forget about this stupid fear you have now.. can't you see that I already found my half- elf?" She laughed and Haldir looked at us with curiosity. I smiled too. Now she spoke in loud voice. "Follow us, Zana. Today you'll rest and see my home.. and tomorrow we'll see what destiny plans for you.." She spoke slowly. "Now, forget about everything until tomorrow. Haldir will take care of you. At night, come to my palace. A servant will lead you to your room, where you will find food and all what you need " She looked at him, and Haldir nodded. Then ,his eyes stared at me and smiled. I felt dizzy.. that place was so magic that all my senses were lost.. almost as if I was drunk.. I felt less shy, more self confident.. and more.. how could I call that? Daredevil?
We walked through the forest and finally I saw Lorien.. the awesome Lorien I had always imagined.. impossible to describe, I only could say it was a lot nicer than Mirkwood, blue lights, green lights all around the trees, the houses.. but not real houses, they were carved in the wood.. that view took my breath away, and I stopped.. just in the place that looked so similar to the place in the movie, where Legolas had heard the lament for Gandalf.. but it was better than in the movie, in real life things were so different and wonderful.
"This is too beautiful to be described.." I said, and Haldir smiled. He came close to me , and Galadriel left us alone, after saying goodbye with a smile.
"So do you like my home?" He asked, with a proud voice, but I had to admit it.. I was shocked.
"It's wonderful, Haldir.. I could stay here forever.." I didn't realise what I was saying, but he looked at me, surprised.
"Are you talking seriously?" I nodded, still incapable of any kind of reaction.. so I didn't think that his question was seriously.. I just nodded and didn't give more importance.
He led me to his house.. a small place near from a small blue lake.. we climbed a kind of stairs made in the wood, and came in. It was just a big room, with a bed, a kind of kitchen.. a big bath.. and from there, I could see the lake, the whole Lorien.. obviously he lived alone, and this made me happy in some way.. this meant he didn't have any elf girl.. I blushed when I thought of this.
"As you can see, I live alone" he said with a smile, reading my mind. "Galadriel will offer you a nice and comfortable place where to sleep, in her palace.." I looked at him.. although the palace would be wonderful and I would have all what I wanted.. the truth is that I didn't want to get separated from Haldir's side. He noticed my doubts, and looked so surprised. "You don't want to go there..? "He asked with.. a shy voice maybe?
"I don't know.. I mean, of course, but.. well.. "I didn't know what to say. "Well, I suppose I have to leave.. Galadriel said I had to go there in the evening.."
"Of course.." He reacted. "I'll go with you and we'll go on talking tomorrow."
Once in the palace, in my room, I felt so alone. The place was amazing, yes.. my bed was perfect, with jewels in the marble, with all what I had dreamed about.. a hot bath, food and drinks.. new clothes.. and peace.. but I felt sad, and I knew why. It was too hard to admit it.
I stepped inside the hot water and closed my eyes. I was really tired, and I needed to sleep that night. Lots of things would happen the following day, and I needed all my forces. After some minutes, I dried myself, put the pyjamas and went to bed. Yes, I was so tired.