** Disclaimer: I only own Zana**************
And this is the last chapter before next weekend.. today I go back to university again.. so I hope you all will like it! And don't worry, I won't talk about religion or anything similar, as some of you thought : ) You'll see how things make sense sooner or later : )
Thank you very much for everything! By the way,Namarie2legolas, I tried to send you an email but it was sent back, your address doesn't work..
See you next weekend!
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Deliver me, out of my sadness.
Deliver me, from all of the madness.
Deliver me, courage to guide me.
Deliver me, strength from inside me.
All of my life I've been in hiding.
Wishing there was someone just like you.
Now that you're here, now that I've found you,
I know that you're the one to pull me through.
Deliver me - Sara Brightman
Galadriel sat in front of me, looking around herself with her blue eyes. The rest of elves followed her, and then, I sat down. The meeting would be short, or this she said.. it seemed that she had discovered something and now she wanted me to leave at once. I was really scared, thinking about my possible future..
"Zana.." She spoke. "I had a vision, the one you had in your dreams.. and I already know the destiny of your journey" She stared at me for a while, and all elves did the same. Haldir frowned, and was about to speak when Galadriel gave him a warning look. "Tomorrow you will leave, Zana" I covered my face with my hands.. she said I would leave.. but.. alone?
"What about us? "Legolas asked, inpatient, standing up. "I won't allow her to go alone"
"Legolas.. sit down and wait.. "She looked at him, as if she was disappointed. "You're not acting like an elf, and you're a prince" But Legolas didn't look ashamed, quite the opposite.
"Galadriel, you can't let her go alone!" He was shouting, and all elves stared at him in surprise, also Gimli, who couldn't believe his friend's reaction.
"I said that the meeting is not over yet, so sit down" Galadriel looked angry and I got scared. Legolas sat down and took a deep breath. "As I was saying, Zana will leave tomorrow. Gandalf and I agreed that she will travel to the place from her dreams.. the Land of the Eternal Ice. " Gandalf came inside the room , apologising for being late.
"Something kept me in my room, Galadriel.. I'm sorry for the delay, but I was thinking about Zana.." He looked at me, with sad face. "She has to solve some things before leaving, or else she won't be able to take the right decision"
"We can't loose more time, Gandalf. And you know it.." She said, and the magician nodded.
"I know.." He whispered, and the sound of his voice increased all my doubts.. he looked scared.
"And now, we'll decide who will join her tomorrow, because not all of you must go" Galadriel gave a look around the table, and I saw Haldir tense. After some eternal minutes, she sighed. "Haldir.. I trust you more than any other elf in Lorien.. I know you will take reasonable decisions and that you won't allow your heart deciding for you.." Haldir nodded, and then looked at me. "So.. Haldir, you'll join her".
"And this is everything? What about me?!" Legolas shouted, but Galadriel's face turned into an angry face.
"It's the last time I warn you, Legolas.. shut up and let me speak!" She walked around us, thinking. She stopped in front of Gandalf, and they exchanged some looks. "Legolas.." She spoke, without looking at the elf. "You must go too, but the dwarf will be there.. he's the only one with neutral heart.. once we trusted him, and we'll do it again" Legolas smiled, but Gimli made a strange noise.
"What? To the Land of Eternal Ice? A dwarf can't go there!" He made a comical face, like a small child complaining, but when Galadriel looked at him, he calmed down. Galadriel went on speaking.
"But.. you all won't be alone in this journey.. someone else will join you sooner or later.." She looked in the distance, smiling.
"Who?" Haldir and I asked at the same time, and Galadriel smiled again with mystery.
"Zana.. you opened the door that joined our two worlds.. and you weren't alone when you did it.."
"What do you mean? But I can't remember the exact moment I came here!" I was shocked, unable to think about anything.
"You came here from the less expected place.. someone was following you at that moment.. someone special for you.."
"But this is impossible.. my boyfriend lives in another country, I wasn't with him the last week.." I said, completely lost. And I heard someone saying "Which boyfriend?", but in that moment I wasn't in the mood to explain anything.
"Who talked about a boyfriend, Zana?" Galadriel looked at me, always with that smile. "I've said someone special.. someone who took care of you, although you didn't realise.. someone who helped you twice, who made two big favours to you, and you never knew about them.." I was laughing because of nerves.
"No, this is impossible.. last week I was in classes, I was leaving my classroom and.." I started to remember.. I was in the faculty, classes were over.. and then I went upstairs, and.. everything disappeared.. "Oh.. now I know.. I'm starting to remember the moment!!" I shouted, standing up.
"This is not important now, Zana.. the important thing is who was following you.. but you don't know it, right? "I shook my head, I couldn't think of anybody who cared so much about me inside faculty.. in fact, students were almost like numbers for professors.. and they were competitive between them.. "Don't worry, Zana.. he will appear soon"
"He?" Now I was lost, definitely. My best friends there were girls. But Galadriel stopped looking at me and returned to her place.
"So this is over. The decision has been taken. Gandalf and I will be with you in a spiritual way.. and we wish you the best, dear girl "All elves stood up and left, and Gandalf came to talk to me.
"Good luck, Zana.. I hope to see you.. somewhere" He smiled mysteriously.
"Don't leave me like this!" I shouted, I wanted more explanations. But both Gandalf and Galadriel left me alone with Haldir, Legolas and Gimli. We all looked at each others.
"Argh!!" Gimli was shouting and jumping. "This can't be true!! Me and two crazy elves, and the girl who makes them crazy!! Why?? Why??" His face was red, and he was breathing strongly.
"Calm down, Gimli, this is serious, don't be stupid" Haldir gave him a cold look.
"No, you both will be behaving like humans and you both will be fighting for the girl, I already can see it!"
"Stop saying nonsense, dwarf" Legolas became angry, and then looked at us. "We have something important to do, right? Now it's time to forget about heart, because many things depend on her"
"I agree" Haldir said, and then he walked towards the door. "And now, please, I want to talk to Zana" Legolas gave him a freezing look, but left with Gimli. Haldir closed the door and went back to my place.
"Well.. it seems Galadriel trusts you a lot." I commented, because I didn't know what to say. But he didn't reply, he was looking for something in one of his pockets. Then, he made a face and looked at me.
"I want to say that I'm very happy to go there with you, Zana" He took my hand, and I blushed, like it always happened to me, yes.. "And the thing I don't understand is why Legolas and Gimli will go to.. but I respect Galadriel's will "He walked towards a window and I followed him. "Can I ask you something?" He suddenly spoke.
"Of course" I replied, although I wasn't too sure.. he looked at me.
"Maybe I'm getting too involved on this.. but I really can't stop my feelings.. I wanted to know if you also feel the same.. or , at least, if you feel something.."
"We already talked about this, Haldir.." I said, but he shook his head.
"You never said it clear, and I need to know, Zana" His blue eyes fixed on mines.
"I can say that I feel something about you, yes.."
"But?" He was expecting my answer and I felt nervous.
"I don't know if it's the same you feel about me, I only know that when I'm with you I feel.. different.. and I like this feeling" He smiled.
"I understand.. anyway, you still have to make some things clear.. about Legolas.." I blushed when he said this again. He knew me better than I thought.
"Haldir, don't start again with this, please.." He took my hand again and then looked for something.. after some seconds, he showed me a small ring, with a kind of dark blue stone with the shape of a flower on it.. I got really scared. "No, Haldir, this is going too fast and.."
"Don't speak , and let me explain.. I know what does this mean for humans, but don't worry.. for elves the meaning is different.. this is a ring that belonged to my family since always.. it's a special ring because wherever you will go, I'll be with you.. not in person, but spiritually.. and I want you to keep it" He put it in my finger.
"I can't accept it, Haldir.." I murmured, but he smiled.
"Of course you can, and you must. " He looked at me and came closer. I remembered Legolas words.. Haldir was stronger than me.. in some way it was true.. he always managed to make me confused or undecided.. when I was with him, I felt smaller.. but it also happened with Legolas.. I was really confused.. but I couldn't think too much, because in that moment he kissed me again and all my doubts disappeared, I just saw him there, standing in front of me, and when his arms wrapped me and I did the same, I was more sure than ever that.. maybe.. I was starting to love him.
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Legolas walked towards Galadriel's room. He knocked on her door, and when she opened, she shook her head.
"What's wrong, Legolas? Why can't you control your emotions?"
"I want to talk to you, if it's possible" She let him pass , and he sat down on a chair. She walked to the window, and watched the landscape. "Galadriel.. I don't agree with your decision of sending Haldir with her" She looked at him in surprise.
"Why? Which would be, then, the correct decision if you could take it?" She asked with sarcasm. Legolas frowned.
"Haldir loves her, he's not objective taking decisions.. the mission is too risky and important to spoil it because of a romance" Galadriel laughed at those words.
"And if Haldir didn't go, you would take his place, Legolas.. because you also love her.. and even more.. there's anger in your heart and this is a real danger for the mission" Legolas was afraid that she would change her mind. "But I decided to send you anyway, although I shouldn't.. and do you know why?.. Because I think that there must be a chance for everybody, a chance to prove how wonderful each person is.. or elf.. and I trust you, Legolas.. I'm sure you won't do anything stupid and that when the moment will come.. your heart will be loyal and strong"
"Of course ,Galadriel..." Legolas whispered, looking at the ground, thinking. "What about this person from Zana's world? Who is he?" Galadriel smiled, and sighed.
"I'm afraid that Zana wasn't too aware about what she had on Earth.. she was an absent minded girl, too focused on her studies.. and she never paid attention to people, she was too shy, too unsecured, too.. human.. her self- esteem was so low that she didn't realise that someone from her place considered her better than she thought.. and this person helped her indeed.. but always from a hidden place.. because he was also shy and, his position in that place was.. higher than a student.. and mixing both worlds would have brought consequences for both of them.. this is why he always kept himself hidden.. although he was so young too, almost like her.."
"But what kind of person was him there? Why he couldn't talk to her, or show kindness directly? "Legolas was so surprised that good actions couldn't be shown sometimes on Earth. Galadriel smiled again.
"He was a young professor , Legolas.. although maybe you don't understand what does this mean, believe me that on Earth it would have been complicated for both of them.." Legolas was so confused, and curious.. and suddenly he felt bad.. maybe that human sent to Middle Earth would change the way of things, and Galadriel knew it..
"Galadriel.. what can I do to help Zana? "Galadriel looked at him in surprise.
"I'm glad that you forgot about your own feelings and that you're generous again .. and the best thing you can do to help her is simple.. don't press her any more.. be her friend and, when she will have to decide, she will make the correct choice, believe me.. but I can't tell more.. be a brother for her.. it's the best advice I can give you. Now, if you don't mind, I would like to think, and be alone for a while. Good luck, Legolas"
Legolas left the room and walked under the trees.. he felt a bit better.. Galadriel knew something about future that allowed him to keep a bit of hope. Unexpected things would happen, and whoever he was, that "professor" could change everything.. he smiled and walked through the wood. The fresh air brought hope indeed.
And this is the last chapter before next weekend.. today I go back to university again.. so I hope you all will like it! And don't worry, I won't talk about religion or anything similar, as some of you thought : ) You'll see how things make sense sooner or later : )
Thank you very much for everything! By the way,Namarie2legolas, I tried to send you an email but it was sent back, your address doesn't work..
See you next weekend!
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Deliver me, out of my sadness.
Deliver me, from all of the madness.
Deliver me, courage to guide me.
Deliver me, strength from inside me.
All of my life I've been in hiding.
Wishing there was someone just like you.
Now that you're here, now that I've found you,
I know that you're the one to pull me through.
Deliver me - Sara Brightman
Galadriel sat in front of me, looking around herself with her blue eyes. The rest of elves followed her, and then, I sat down. The meeting would be short, or this she said.. it seemed that she had discovered something and now she wanted me to leave at once. I was really scared, thinking about my possible future..
"Zana.." She spoke. "I had a vision, the one you had in your dreams.. and I already know the destiny of your journey" She stared at me for a while, and all elves did the same. Haldir frowned, and was about to speak when Galadriel gave him a warning look. "Tomorrow you will leave, Zana" I covered my face with my hands.. she said I would leave.. but.. alone?
"What about us? "Legolas asked, inpatient, standing up. "I won't allow her to go alone"
"Legolas.. sit down and wait.. "She looked at him, as if she was disappointed. "You're not acting like an elf, and you're a prince" But Legolas didn't look ashamed, quite the opposite.
"Galadriel, you can't let her go alone!" He was shouting, and all elves stared at him in surprise, also Gimli, who couldn't believe his friend's reaction.
"I said that the meeting is not over yet, so sit down" Galadriel looked angry and I got scared. Legolas sat down and took a deep breath. "As I was saying, Zana will leave tomorrow. Gandalf and I agreed that she will travel to the place from her dreams.. the Land of the Eternal Ice. " Gandalf came inside the room , apologising for being late.
"Something kept me in my room, Galadriel.. I'm sorry for the delay, but I was thinking about Zana.." He looked at me, with sad face. "She has to solve some things before leaving, or else she won't be able to take the right decision"
"We can't loose more time, Gandalf. And you know it.." She said, and the magician nodded.
"I know.." He whispered, and the sound of his voice increased all my doubts.. he looked scared.
"And now, we'll decide who will join her tomorrow, because not all of you must go" Galadriel gave a look around the table, and I saw Haldir tense. After some eternal minutes, she sighed. "Haldir.. I trust you more than any other elf in Lorien.. I know you will take reasonable decisions and that you won't allow your heart deciding for you.." Haldir nodded, and then looked at me. "So.. Haldir, you'll join her".
"And this is everything? What about me?!" Legolas shouted, but Galadriel's face turned into an angry face.
"It's the last time I warn you, Legolas.. shut up and let me speak!" She walked around us, thinking. She stopped in front of Gandalf, and they exchanged some looks. "Legolas.." She spoke, without looking at the elf. "You must go too, but the dwarf will be there.. he's the only one with neutral heart.. once we trusted him, and we'll do it again" Legolas smiled, but Gimli made a strange noise.
"What? To the Land of Eternal Ice? A dwarf can't go there!" He made a comical face, like a small child complaining, but when Galadriel looked at him, he calmed down. Galadriel went on speaking.
"But.. you all won't be alone in this journey.. someone else will join you sooner or later.." She looked in the distance, smiling.
"Who?" Haldir and I asked at the same time, and Galadriel smiled again with mystery.
"Zana.. you opened the door that joined our two worlds.. and you weren't alone when you did it.."
"What do you mean? But I can't remember the exact moment I came here!" I was shocked, unable to think about anything.
"You came here from the less expected place.. someone was following you at that moment.. someone special for you.."
"But this is impossible.. my boyfriend lives in another country, I wasn't with him the last week.." I said, completely lost. And I heard someone saying "Which boyfriend?", but in that moment I wasn't in the mood to explain anything.
"Who talked about a boyfriend, Zana?" Galadriel looked at me, always with that smile. "I've said someone special.. someone who took care of you, although you didn't realise.. someone who helped you twice, who made two big favours to you, and you never knew about them.." I was laughing because of nerves.
"No, this is impossible.. last week I was in classes, I was leaving my classroom and.." I started to remember.. I was in the faculty, classes were over.. and then I went upstairs, and.. everything disappeared.. "Oh.. now I know.. I'm starting to remember the moment!!" I shouted, standing up.
"This is not important now, Zana.. the important thing is who was following you.. but you don't know it, right? "I shook my head, I couldn't think of anybody who cared so much about me inside faculty.. in fact, students were almost like numbers for professors.. and they were competitive between them.. "Don't worry, Zana.. he will appear soon"
"He?" Now I was lost, definitely. My best friends there were girls. But Galadriel stopped looking at me and returned to her place.
"So this is over. The decision has been taken. Gandalf and I will be with you in a spiritual way.. and we wish you the best, dear girl "All elves stood up and left, and Gandalf came to talk to me.
"Good luck, Zana.. I hope to see you.. somewhere" He smiled mysteriously.
"Don't leave me like this!" I shouted, I wanted more explanations. But both Gandalf and Galadriel left me alone with Haldir, Legolas and Gimli. We all looked at each others.
"Argh!!" Gimli was shouting and jumping. "This can't be true!! Me and two crazy elves, and the girl who makes them crazy!! Why?? Why??" His face was red, and he was breathing strongly.
"Calm down, Gimli, this is serious, don't be stupid" Haldir gave him a cold look.
"No, you both will be behaving like humans and you both will be fighting for the girl, I already can see it!"
"Stop saying nonsense, dwarf" Legolas became angry, and then looked at us. "We have something important to do, right? Now it's time to forget about heart, because many things depend on her"
"I agree" Haldir said, and then he walked towards the door. "And now, please, I want to talk to Zana" Legolas gave him a freezing look, but left with Gimli. Haldir closed the door and went back to my place.
"Well.. it seems Galadriel trusts you a lot." I commented, because I didn't know what to say. But he didn't reply, he was looking for something in one of his pockets. Then, he made a face and looked at me.
"I want to say that I'm very happy to go there with you, Zana" He took my hand, and I blushed, like it always happened to me, yes.. "And the thing I don't understand is why Legolas and Gimli will go to.. but I respect Galadriel's will "He walked towards a window and I followed him. "Can I ask you something?" He suddenly spoke.
"Of course" I replied, although I wasn't too sure.. he looked at me.
"Maybe I'm getting too involved on this.. but I really can't stop my feelings.. I wanted to know if you also feel the same.. or , at least, if you feel something.."
"We already talked about this, Haldir.." I said, but he shook his head.
"You never said it clear, and I need to know, Zana" His blue eyes fixed on mines.
"I can say that I feel something about you, yes.."
"But?" He was expecting my answer and I felt nervous.
"I don't know if it's the same you feel about me, I only know that when I'm with you I feel.. different.. and I like this feeling" He smiled.
"I understand.. anyway, you still have to make some things clear.. about Legolas.." I blushed when he said this again. He knew me better than I thought.
"Haldir, don't start again with this, please.." He took my hand again and then looked for something.. after some seconds, he showed me a small ring, with a kind of dark blue stone with the shape of a flower on it.. I got really scared. "No, Haldir, this is going too fast and.."
"Don't speak , and let me explain.. I know what does this mean for humans, but don't worry.. for elves the meaning is different.. this is a ring that belonged to my family since always.. it's a special ring because wherever you will go, I'll be with you.. not in person, but spiritually.. and I want you to keep it" He put it in my finger.
"I can't accept it, Haldir.." I murmured, but he smiled.
"Of course you can, and you must. " He looked at me and came closer. I remembered Legolas words.. Haldir was stronger than me.. in some way it was true.. he always managed to make me confused or undecided.. when I was with him, I felt smaller.. but it also happened with Legolas.. I was really confused.. but I couldn't think too much, because in that moment he kissed me again and all my doubts disappeared, I just saw him there, standing in front of me, and when his arms wrapped me and I did the same, I was more sure than ever that.. maybe.. I was starting to love him.
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Legolas walked towards Galadriel's room. He knocked on her door, and when she opened, she shook her head.
"What's wrong, Legolas? Why can't you control your emotions?"
"I want to talk to you, if it's possible" She let him pass , and he sat down on a chair. She walked to the window, and watched the landscape. "Galadriel.. I don't agree with your decision of sending Haldir with her" She looked at him in surprise.
"Why? Which would be, then, the correct decision if you could take it?" She asked with sarcasm. Legolas frowned.
"Haldir loves her, he's not objective taking decisions.. the mission is too risky and important to spoil it because of a romance" Galadriel laughed at those words.
"And if Haldir didn't go, you would take his place, Legolas.. because you also love her.. and even more.. there's anger in your heart and this is a real danger for the mission" Legolas was afraid that she would change her mind. "But I decided to send you anyway, although I shouldn't.. and do you know why?.. Because I think that there must be a chance for everybody, a chance to prove how wonderful each person is.. or elf.. and I trust you, Legolas.. I'm sure you won't do anything stupid and that when the moment will come.. your heart will be loyal and strong"
"Of course ,Galadriel..." Legolas whispered, looking at the ground, thinking. "What about this person from Zana's world? Who is he?" Galadriel smiled, and sighed.
"I'm afraid that Zana wasn't too aware about what she had on Earth.. she was an absent minded girl, too focused on her studies.. and she never paid attention to people, she was too shy, too unsecured, too.. human.. her self- esteem was so low that she didn't realise that someone from her place considered her better than she thought.. and this person helped her indeed.. but always from a hidden place.. because he was also shy and, his position in that place was.. higher than a student.. and mixing both worlds would have brought consequences for both of them.. this is why he always kept himself hidden.. although he was so young too, almost like her.."
"But what kind of person was him there? Why he couldn't talk to her, or show kindness directly? "Legolas was so surprised that good actions couldn't be shown sometimes on Earth. Galadriel smiled again.
"He was a young professor , Legolas.. although maybe you don't understand what does this mean, believe me that on Earth it would have been complicated for both of them.." Legolas was so confused, and curious.. and suddenly he felt bad.. maybe that human sent to Middle Earth would change the way of things, and Galadriel knew it..
"Galadriel.. what can I do to help Zana? "Galadriel looked at him in surprise.
"I'm glad that you forgot about your own feelings and that you're generous again .. and the best thing you can do to help her is simple.. don't press her any more.. be her friend and, when she will have to decide, she will make the correct choice, believe me.. but I can't tell more.. be a brother for her.. it's the best advice I can give you. Now, if you don't mind, I would like to think, and be alone for a while. Good luck, Legolas"
Legolas left the room and walked under the trees.. he felt a bit better.. Galadriel knew something about future that allowed him to keep a bit of hope. Unexpected things would happen, and whoever he was, that "professor" could change everything.. he smiled and walked through the wood. The fresh air brought hope indeed.