** Disclaimer: I only own Zana ****************
Hi again! I'm getting many new reviews and you all are so kind! Thank you very much! I would like to reply you all personally, but I'm afraid that my weekends are getting shorter every day, classes keep me busy most of time and I have to stay in the city where I study for the whole week..
Anyway, an anonymous reviewer called Flame told me something interesting.. he/she said : "Tolkien and C.S. Lewis were good friends. C.S. liked to have people from earth visit his world. Tolkien did not. He is hurling in his grave now." And now I say.. wow! I have envy of him/her, because he/she knows what Tolkien wanted, I mean, I suppose he/she read somewhere that Tolkien once said something similar to "I hope in the future years, after my death, nobody will send herself/himself to Middle Earth or else I'll be hurling in my grave". So I would like to ask to this person who wrote, and who didn't let me know his/her email address, so that I had to reply here, I would like to ask him/ her to tell me, please, where can I find this information on Tolkien tastes, because I would be very grateful.. of course, maybe it's privileged information from the Other World.. anyway, please, to those "brave" ones who doesn't give an email address and make.. "sharp" remarks... how do you want me to comment your critics if I don't know how to contact you? I appreciate all kind of critics as long as they come from brave people who are able to write me back or explain their real reasons for disliking my work.. because as I said, I think that nobody can know what would Tolkien be thinking right now.. and if somebody knows, please tell me, OK? Flame, no offence, but you didn't give me your address and I had to reply you in this public place.
Enough about this.. what I really appreciate and what really makes me update every weekend are all the nice reviews and all the kind people who are supporting me, and this is what it really matters! Thanks.
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There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more
Than wanting more
Than waiting on something other than this
Why am I feelin' like there's something I missed.....
There's gotta be more than life - Stacey Orrico
It was cold inside the cave, and as we were walking, the green river was growing up and the light became stronger. I was wearing a cloak that Legolas gave me, it seemed he wasn't cold at all, and he walked in silence, staring at the ground. I preferred the view of the shining liquid that was leading us to the Rivers.
And maybe I should stop thinking about Haldir.. maybe I should finally give up with everything, with all kind of hopes, all kind of feelings for both elves. It was obvious that they were confused, yes.. but I was starting to be sure that when I left Middle Earth they wouldn't have any trouble to go on with their lives. They had lived so many years and sure experienced many similar situations.. not with girls from my world, but it was impossible to believe that in thousands of years neither of them had been in love before.
Haldir didn't jump, Legolas did.. so what? Legolas had also made wonderful actions during the war, always helping his friends, he was a warrior and he was used to act like this. Well, but then Haldir should have jumped too.. I couldn't understand that. Or maybe I didn't want.. because probably, after all, he had realised that he was a too important elf from Lorien and I was just a simple mortal from an unknown world.
"What are you thinking about?" I turned to meet Legolas gaze, his question surprised me. Smiling, he waited for my answer.
"About nothing important" The ground was wet there, and I was trying not to fall. I felt Legolas hand in mine, helping me. "Thank you" I noticed I was blushing again.
"I'm sorry but I don't believe you. You look too concentrated to be thinking about nothing special" We crossed a stone arc that led us to a bigger hall, bigger and darker, although the green light filled it, as well as it had made before.
"Where do you think we are? "I asked, trying to change from subject. Legolas stopped and looked around, leaving my hand. I didn't know why, but I felt more alone with that loss. I sighed, and crossed my arms, holding the cloak.
"Are you cold?" He asked, worried, and then his gaze went somewhere.
"Just a bit.. "He went on looking at the corridor and seemed to be ignoring my reply.
"We've been walking half a day, and we still have a long way to make.. I'm afraid that it will become harder and I'm really looking forward being outside.." His voice sounded sad and that made me feel unsure. He noticed it and tried to smile, putting his hand on my shoulder.. yeah, how friendly.. what I needed by then was a big hug. "Don't worry, Zana. Time will pass faster tomorrow, after sleeping. Now you're tired and maybe we should sit for a while and have lunch"
"This sounds better than walking" I replied, looking for a place in the edge of the path.. I really loved that green light and the transparent water.. it was like being in a dream, in one of my dreams on Earth.. My memories about my home were different now, as if I had forgotten half of them.. I felt like a different person and the idea of coming back was killing me. I took my bag and looked for some food. Legolas sat in front of me.
"I needed to be alone with you for some time, Zana" I looked at him, ashamed of my reaction. My hands were shaking because of nerves and I dropped some water. He smiled.
"Well, I suppose that after jumping with me, I should say thank you.." That situation sounded familiar to me.. again, that movie I hated, the words "if you jump, I jump with you".. but in the mouth of Leonardo Di Caprio they didn't sound so well.. I didn't like that boy, I didn't like the movie and all the time I was remembering it. Titanic.. depressing.
"I jumped because I had to do it" I didn't expect that answer, it sounded too technical, as if he was a machine or a soldier who obeys orders from generals. When I looked at him, I saw half of a smile. Was he joking?
"Then, you had to jump, but not Haldir or Gimli.. why? Because you're in charge of mission? "There was irony in my voice, and he shook his head.
"Why do you want me to say something that will make you feel embarrassed? " His blue eyes on mines, and again I felt the heat in my face. "See?" Now he was laughing, but then the silence came between us. Still staring at me, he took a deep breath, and then looked into the water. "It will be difficult for me, Zana"
"What?" I was so confused, without knowing what to say.
"All this time I've been avoiding my thoughts, knowing how you feel about Haldir, I know I should stay away" He was looking at me and I only wanted to hide or run away. I wasn't ready to talk about that, not in that moment, I was too confused and nervous, and.. I didn't trust myself.
"You're not eating anything, and you should" Suddenly I became interested on food and I took my bag just to hide inside it, searching for something, although I didn't know what. I felt his hand in my arm.
"Zana" I looked at him, keeping my breath. Then , he left again and closed his eyes, shaking his head. "Nothing.." Murmured, and, without realising it, I sighed, recuperating my calm. What had just almost happened? I didn't want to know. And all what I knew was that I was avoiding him, he noticed it and it hurt him. Without thinking, I stood up and kneeled in front of him. He looked confused, but I was too.
"Legolas, I'm sorry if I'm making you feel uncomfortable. You were always so kind with me, taking care of everything.. you treated me better than anybody else here.. "We were too close, I wasn't aware of that until I felt his breath in my face.
"But then Haldir changed everything" He smiled sadly. Or was it my imagination? Were his blue eyes changing from colour?
"Honestly, I can't say anything at this moment.." I realised I was whispering, and I realised what I had just said. I stood up, suddenly, and came back to my seat. Legolas didn't say anything and we went on eating in silence.. or this I thought at first..
"Zana, I can't be like this. I must know what happens inside your head" He came and sat so close to me.. that situation.. was exactly like when Haldir , some days ago.. that was too much for me.
"Legolas, listen to me" I stopped him with my hand, surprised with his reaction. "Do you know that Haldir asked exactly the same some days ago? Do you know that you both are driving me crazy?" But this time he didn't give up neither, and came even closer. "Legolas, please.." But my voice was just a whisper, as he was touching my face with his hand.
"I can read in your eyes that things are not settled in your heart yet, Zana.. I'm seeing that I still have a chance" But I moved from my seat and stood up.
"A chance for what, Legolas? And then, what? My heart divided in two, unable to choose during many days, and when finally one of you really give the first step and take care of me.. now.. the other one wants something from me too, but things are not like this, Legolas.. my heart is not a toy and you can't play with me like this." My voice was shaking, and he stood up too and walked towards me.
"Zana, I only want what is better for you, and I saw your eyes when I discovered you both kissing that day.. I saw your eyes when you realised I had jumped into the cave with you.. and I'm seeing your eyes right now, and they tell me that there's still hope for me in your heart.. I won't ever hurt you, I offer you a place in my home and.."
"You don't realise what are you saying!" I shouted, interrupting him. "I'm a mortal, Legolas! "He took my arm gently and nodded.
"I perfectly know what I'm saying.. but you didn't have those doubts when you gave the first step with Haldir.. and situation is the same with him! " When I looked at him I couldn't go on talking. He was right, I hadn't thought about that. All my world seemed to fall apart, all my hopes, dreams and strength. I had gone too far away with both elves. It was impossible, I could never stay there. Never. "Are you OK, Zana? "
"No.." I was about to cry.
"I'm sorry, it wasn't my intention to make you feel bad.." He tried to hug me but I refused him.
"No, it was your intention, Legolas.. and I must say that you were successful.. you managed to make me doubt about everything.. now I know that a mortal can't be with an elf and, now that I know it, I won't ever be with one of your class. "I looked at him, angry. "Do you know that if I chose you, I would get old and you would remain young forever? Would you be able to be with an old woman and not with pretty elves?" He looked sad, and got angry too.
"Do you think that my heart is so material? How can you say this about me?"
"You don't know what are you saying, Legolas.. please, now leave me alone or shut up, or just walk, but forget about me, forget about Haldir, forget that I ever came and.." But I couldn't go on speaking because he came closer and kissed me, the last thing I had expected. I didn't move for a while, unable to react.. I tried to think about Haldir, and I felt so bad, so guilty.. I was going to push Legolas away, but something inside stopped me and I kissed him back, letting his arms wrap and hug me.
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Haldir stopped walking. Gimli gave him a curious look. The elf was so absent minded, as if he had perceived something.
"What's wrong, Haldir? "But the dwarf got no reply. "Haldir.." The elf looked at him and smiled.
"Sorry.. I had a bad feeling for a moment, but now it's gone.." They went on walking, crossing the last part of the deep forest. The sound of water was closer, and some rocks showed up in the distance. "Gimli.. you like caves, mines.. "
"Of course, dwarves are experts on hidden places and.."
"Shut up and listen to me" Haldir's voice was sharp as he was looking around. "I can hear the sound of water, near.. so there must be a hole or an entry to a cave near from here.. maybe we could find it and come inside.. and meet them.."
"Yes.. maybe you're right.." Gmli spoke, walking around, looking for a rock. "There, I'll check there.. the entry is wet, so water is close. "He ran and jumped some plants, roots and stones. Finally he arrived there and Haldir waited, expectant. An eternity seemed to pass when he heard the dwarf's voice. "Come here! I found it!"
"Are you sure?" Haldir ran as fast as he could and met Gimli in the base of a huge rock. In a corner, a hole, big enough to let him pass.. but the idea wasn't too appealing.. he didn't know where would it finish.. if there would be enough space, or air.. suddenly he felt dizzy.. elves were not made for that. His heart was beating so fast.
"This is great, really great!" Gimli was delighted with the idea of coming into the cave. But when he turned to meet his friend's gaze, he noticed that something was wrong. Haldir was pale, so pale, as if it was too difficult to take a big decision. The dwarf beated on his arm, friendly. " Don't worry, Haldir. I'll go first, then come back and tell you if you'll be able to walk in.." Haldir seemed to react, recuperating some colour on his face.
"I'll be very grateful to you, Gimli. I really appreciate this action for your part. Really"
"No problem, wait here and don't go anywhere" The dwarf stepped inside the darkness, and started to walk. The ceiling wasn't too high, but maybe the elf would be able to crawl.. but at some point it became even smaller ,and now Gimli was sure that Haldir would have to stay in the forest.. but curiosity was too strong and he went on advancing.. after minutes he saw a green light, and the sound of voices, arguing.. he could distinguish some phrases.. yes, it was Zana.. and Legolas.. "Do you think that my heart is so material? How can you say this about me?" This was Legolas.. "but forget about me, forget about Haldir, forget that I ever came and.." This was Zana.. and then, silence.. Gimli went on walking and finally reached the exit.. he was going to shout and greet them when he saw something that paralysed his senses. Legolas took the girl and kissed her.. she looked upset, trying to move, but what made him freeze was her reaction, because all from the sudden she was kissing him back.
"I can't believe this.. my best friend.. kissing the human girl.. oh, poor Haldir.. I'm so happy that your eyes didn't see this" He thought, returning to the hole and coming back to the surface, shocked.
Haldir had been waiting, inpatient, wishing that the dwarf was back.. so when he heard Gimli complaining, he ran to the entry. The dwarf showed up, his face was pale, an unusual thing on him, and he was murmuring words in his tongue.
"Gimli, what's wrong? Tell me, can I go too? Is there enough space?" The dwarf saw his nervous blue eyes and felt sorry for him. Haldir saw hesitation on his gaze.
"I'm sorry, Haldir.." He didn't know if he should tell him or not.. "But.. I must tell you that.. well.." He took a deep breath, angry. "There's not enough space, I had to go back" Haldir looked so disappointed that he couldn't help feeling so sorry for him, and feeling angry with his best friend.. how could he dare to kiss that girl, knowing how did Haldir feel about her" "Tomorrow you'll meet her, don't worry about anything. "
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I pushed Legolas away, finally reacting. I was shocked and angry. And he looked ashamed.
"I'm so sorry ,Zana, but I had to know what did you feel about me.." I wasn't able to look for an answer, I was shaking.. thinking of Haldir, thinking of everything and nothing at the same time.
"Legolas.. I want to go out and leave this cave. I want to breath fresh air and see the sun.. I want.." He was staring at me and I hated what I was feeling. He took my hand, and I took it back too. What was I doing?
Hi again! I'm getting many new reviews and you all are so kind! Thank you very much! I would like to reply you all personally, but I'm afraid that my weekends are getting shorter every day, classes keep me busy most of time and I have to stay in the city where I study for the whole week..
Anyway, an anonymous reviewer called Flame told me something interesting.. he/she said : "Tolkien and C.S. Lewis were good friends. C.S. liked to have people from earth visit his world. Tolkien did not. He is hurling in his grave now." And now I say.. wow! I have envy of him/her, because he/she knows what Tolkien wanted, I mean, I suppose he/she read somewhere that Tolkien once said something similar to "I hope in the future years, after my death, nobody will send herself/himself to Middle Earth or else I'll be hurling in my grave". So I would like to ask to this person who wrote, and who didn't let me know his/her email address, so that I had to reply here, I would like to ask him/ her to tell me, please, where can I find this information on Tolkien tastes, because I would be very grateful.. of course, maybe it's privileged information from the Other World.. anyway, please, to those "brave" ones who doesn't give an email address and make.. "sharp" remarks... how do you want me to comment your critics if I don't know how to contact you? I appreciate all kind of critics as long as they come from brave people who are able to write me back or explain their real reasons for disliking my work.. because as I said, I think that nobody can know what would Tolkien be thinking right now.. and if somebody knows, please tell me, OK? Flame, no offence, but you didn't give me your address and I had to reply you in this public place.
Enough about this.. what I really appreciate and what really makes me update every weekend are all the nice reviews and all the kind people who are supporting me, and this is what it really matters! Thanks.
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There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more
Than wanting more
Than waiting on something other than this
Why am I feelin' like there's something I missed.....
There's gotta be more than life - Stacey Orrico
It was cold inside the cave, and as we were walking, the green river was growing up and the light became stronger. I was wearing a cloak that Legolas gave me, it seemed he wasn't cold at all, and he walked in silence, staring at the ground. I preferred the view of the shining liquid that was leading us to the Rivers.
And maybe I should stop thinking about Haldir.. maybe I should finally give up with everything, with all kind of hopes, all kind of feelings for both elves. It was obvious that they were confused, yes.. but I was starting to be sure that when I left Middle Earth they wouldn't have any trouble to go on with their lives. They had lived so many years and sure experienced many similar situations.. not with girls from my world, but it was impossible to believe that in thousands of years neither of them had been in love before.
Haldir didn't jump, Legolas did.. so what? Legolas had also made wonderful actions during the war, always helping his friends, he was a warrior and he was used to act like this. Well, but then Haldir should have jumped too.. I couldn't understand that. Or maybe I didn't want.. because probably, after all, he had realised that he was a too important elf from Lorien and I was just a simple mortal from an unknown world.
"What are you thinking about?" I turned to meet Legolas gaze, his question surprised me. Smiling, he waited for my answer.
"About nothing important" The ground was wet there, and I was trying not to fall. I felt Legolas hand in mine, helping me. "Thank you" I noticed I was blushing again.
"I'm sorry but I don't believe you. You look too concentrated to be thinking about nothing special" We crossed a stone arc that led us to a bigger hall, bigger and darker, although the green light filled it, as well as it had made before.
"Where do you think we are? "I asked, trying to change from subject. Legolas stopped and looked around, leaving my hand. I didn't know why, but I felt more alone with that loss. I sighed, and crossed my arms, holding the cloak.
"Are you cold?" He asked, worried, and then his gaze went somewhere.
"Just a bit.. "He went on looking at the corridor and seemed to be ignoring my reply.
"We've been walking half a day, and we still have a long way to make.. I'm afraid that it will become harder and I'm really looking forward being outside.." His voice sounded sad and that made me feel unsure. He noticed it and tried to smile, putting his hand on my shoulder.. yeah, how friendly.. what I needed by then was a big hug. "Don't worry, Zana. Time will pass faster tomorrow, after sleeping. Now you're tired and maybe we should sit for a while and have lunch"
"This sounds better than walking" I replied, looking for a place in the edge of the path.. I really loved that green light and the transparent water.. it was like being in a dream, in one of my dreams on Earth.. My memories about my home were different now, as if I had forgotten half of them.. I felt like a different person and the idea of coming back was killing me. I took my bag and looked for some food. Legolas sat in front of me.
"I needed to be alone with you for some time, Zana" I looked at him, ashamed of my reaction. My hands were shaking because of nerves and I dropped some water. He smiled.
"Well, I suppose that after jumping with me, I should say thank you.." That situation sounded familiar to me.. again, that movie I hated, the words "if you jump, I jump with you".. but in the mouth of Leonardo Di Caprio they didn't sound so well.. I didn't like that boy, I didn't like the movie and all the time I was remembering it. Titanic.. depressing.
"I jumped because I had to do it" I didn't expect that answer, it sounded too technical, as if he was a machine or a soldier who obeys orders from generals. When I looked at him, I saw half of a smile. Was he joking?
"Then, you had to jump, but not Haldir or Gimli.. why? Because you're in charge of mission? "There was irony in my voice, and he shook his head.
"Why do you want me to say something that will make you feel embarrassed? " His blue eyes on mines, and again I felt the heat in my face. "See?" Now he was laughing, but then the silence came between us. Still staring at me, he took a deep breath, and then looked into the water. "It will be difficult for me, Zana"
"What?" I was so confused, without knowing what to say.
"All this time I've been avoiding my thoughts, knowing how you feel about Haldir, I know I should stay away" He was looking at me and I only wanted to hide or run away. I wasn't ready to talk about that, not in that moment, I was too confused and nervous, and.. I didn't trust myself.
"You're not eating anything, and you should" Suddenly I became interested on food and I took my bag just to hide inside it, searching for something, although I didn't know what. I felt his hand in my arm.
"Zana" I looked at him, keeping my breath. Then , he left again and closed his eyes, shaking his head. "Nothing.." Murmured, and, without realising it, I sighed, recuperating my calm. What had just almost happened? I didn't want to know. And all what I knew was that I was avoiding him, he noticed it and it hurt him. Without thinking, I stood up and kneeled in front of him. He looked confused, but I was too.
"Legolas, I'm sorry if I'm making you feel uncomfortable. You were always so kind with me, taking care of everything.. you treated me better than anybody else here.. "We were too close, I wasn't aware of that until I felt his breath in my face.
"But then Haldir changed everything" He smiled sadly. Or was it my imagination? Were his blue eyes changing from colour?
"Honestly, I can't say anything at this moment.." I realised I was whispering, and I realised what I had just said. I stood up, suddenly, and came back to my seat. Legolas didn't say anything and we went on eating in silence.. or this I thought at first..
"Zana, I can't be like this. I must know what happens inside your head" He came and sat so close to me.. that situation.. was exactly like when Haldir , some days ago.. that was too much for me.
"Legolas, listen to me" I stopped him with my hand, surprised with his reaction. "Do you know that Haldir asked exactly the same some days ago? Do you know that you both are driving me crazy?" But this time he didn't give up neither, and came even closer. "Legolas, please.." But my voice was just a whisper, as he was touching my face with his hand.
"I can read in your eyes that things are not settled in your heart yet, Zana.. I'm seeing that I still have a chance" But I moved from my seat and stood up.
"A chance for what, Legolas? And then, what? My heart divided in two, unable to choose during many days, and when finally one of you really give the first step and take care of me.. now.. the other one wants something from me too, but things are not like this, Legolas.. my heart is not a toy and you can't play with me like this." My voice was shaking, and he stood up too and walked towards me.
"Zana, I only want what is better for you, and I saw your eyes when I discovered you both kissing that day.. I saw your eyes when you realised I had jumped into the cave with you.. and I'm seeing your eyes right now, and they tell me that there's still hope for me in your heart.. I won't ever hurt you, I offer you a place in my home and.."
"You don't realise what are you saying!" I shouted, interrupting him. "I'm a mortal, Legolas! "He took my arm gently and nodded.
"I perfectly know what I'm saying.. but you didn't have those doubts when you gave the first step with Haldir.. and situation is the same with him! " When I looked at him I couldn't go on talking. He was right, I hadn't thought about that. All my world seemed to fall apart, all my hopes, dreams and strength. I had gone too far away with both elves. It was impossible, I could never stay there. Never. "Are you OK, Zana? "
"No.." I was about to cry.
"I'm sorry, it wasn't my intention to make you feel bad.." He tried to hug me but I refused him.
"No, it was your intention, Legolas.. and I must say that you were successful.. you managed to make me doubt about everything.. now I know that a mortal can't be with an elf and, now that I know it, I won't ever be with one of your class. "I looked at him, angry. "Do you know that if I chose you, I would get old and you would remain young forever? Would you be able to be with an old woman and not with pretty elves?" He looked sad, and got angry too.
"Do you think that my heart is so material? How can you say this about me?"
"You don't know what are you saying, Legolas.. please, now leave me alone or shut up, or just walk, but forget about me, forget about Haldir, forget that I ever came and.." But I couldn't go on speaking because he came closer and kissed me, the last thing I had expected. I didn't move for a while, unable to react.. I tried to think about Haldir, and I felt so bad, so guilty.. I was going to push Legolas away, but something inside stopped me and I kissed him back, letting his arms wrap and hug me.
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Haldir stopped walking. Gimli gave him a curious look. The elf was so absent minded, as if he had perceived something.
"What's wrong, Haldir? "But the dwarf got no reply. "Haldir.." The elf looked at him and smiled.
"Sorry.. I had a bad feeling for a moment, but now it's gone.." They went on walking, crossing the last part of the deep forest. The sound of water was closer, and some rocks showed up in the distance. "Gimli.. you like caves, mines.. "
"Of course, dwarves are experts on hidden places and.."
"Shut up and listen to me" Haldir's voice was sharp as he was looking around. "I can hear the sound of water, near.. so there must be a hole or an entry to a cave near from here.. maybe we could find it and come inside.. and meet them.."
"Yes.. maybe you're right.." Gmli spoke, walking around, looking for a rock. "There, I'll check there.. the entry is wet, so water is close. "He ran and jumped some plants, roots and stones. Finally he arrived there and Haldir waited, expectant. An eternity seemed to pass when he heard the dwarf's voice. "Come here! I found it!"
"Are you sure?" Haldir ran as fast as he could and met Gimli in the base of a huge rock. In a corner, a hole, big enough to let him pass.. but the idea wasn't too appealing.. he didn't know where would it finish.. if there would be enough space, or air.. suddenly he felt dizzy.. elves were not made for that. His heart was beating so fast.
"This is great, really great!" Gimli was delighted with the idea of coming into the cave. But when he turned to meet his friend's gaze, he noticed that something was wrong. Haldir was pale, so pale, as if it was too difficult to take a big decision. The dwarf beated on his arm, friendly. " Don't worry, Haldir. I'll go first, then come back and tell you if you'll be able to walk in.." Haldir seemed to react, recuperating some colour on his face.
"I'll be very grateful to you, Gimli. I really appreciate this action for your part. Really"
"No problem, wait here and don't go anywhere" The dwarf stepped inside the darkness, and started to walk. The ceiling wasn't too high, but maybe the elf would be able to crawl.. but at some point it became even smaller ,and now Gimli was sure that Haldir would have to stay in the forest.. but curiosity was too strong and he went on advancing.. after minutes he saw a green light, and the sound of voices, arguing.. he could distinguish some phrases.. yes, it was Zana.. and Legolas.. "Do you think that my heart is so material? How can you say this about me?" This was Legolas.. "but forget about me, forget about Haldir, forget that I ever came and.." This was Zana.. and then, silence.. Gimli went on walking and finally reached the exit.. he was going to shout and greet them when he saw something that paralysed his senses. Legolas took the girl and kissed her.. she looked upset, trying to move, but what made him freeze was her reaction, because all from the sudden she was kissing him back.
"I can't believe this.. my best friend.. kissing the human girl.. oh, poor Haldir.. I'm so happy that your eyes didn't see this" He thought, returning to the hole and coming back to the surface, shocked.
Haldir had been waiting, inpatient, wishing that the dwarf was back.. so when he heard Gimli complaining, he ran to the entry. The dwarf showed up, his face was pale, an unusual thing on him, and he was murmuring words in his tongue.
"Gimli, what's wrong? Tell me, can I go too? Is there enough space?" The dwarf saw his nervous blue eyes and felt sorry for him. Haldir saw hesitation on his gaze.
"I'm sorry, Haldir.." He didn't know if he should tell him or not.. "But.. I must tell you that.. well.." He took a deep breath, angry. "There's not enough space, I had to go back" Haldir looked so disappointed that he couldn't help feeling so sorry for him, and feeling angry with his best friend.. how could he dare to kiss that girl, knowing how did Haldir feel about her" "Tomorrow you'll meet her, don't worry about anything. "
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I pushed Legolas away, finally reacting. I was shocked and angry. And he looked ashamed.
"I'm so sorry ,Zana, but I had to know what did you feel about me.." I wasn't able to look for an answer, I was shaking.. thinking of Haldir, thinking of everything and nothing at the same time.
"Legolas.. I want to go out and leave this cave. I want to breath fresh air and see the sun.. I want.." He was staring at me and I hated what I was feeling. He took my hand, and I took it back too. What was I doing?