** Disclaimer: I only own Zana ******************
Hello again, with another fast chapter : ) I still didn't check if I got reviews from the previous ones, I was too fast so now I'll see what you wrote : ) So, first comment.. I know that this seems to go nowhere, but don't worry, it will start making sense soon : ) Remember that I want to write a very long fic, I can't write an end unless I'll have it in my real life : ) Because somehow, this follows what is happening to me.. so maybe I will need a lot of time to decide what do I do with Zana and the rest of people : ) Thanks in advance for all your reviews!
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I remember when I met you
All the stars were hanging in mid-air
In these moments - nothing mattered
But the way you caught me in your stare
We were walking - we were talking
We were laughing about the state of our lives
How our fates brought us together
As the moon was rising in your eyes
On and on the night was falling
Deep down inside us
On and on a light was shining right through
The night that we fell under the spell of the moon
The light that will being me back to you
- La luna - Belinda Carlisle
After the bath we had lunch, in silence, under the sun. I sat with Haldir, who looked sad. Although I asked him what was wrong, I didn't get an answer. He just ate his food and kept his gaze in the distance. Legolas and Fern had started a conversation I was listening to, and I couldn't help feeling so grateful to Legolas for the way he was acting, making my friend more comfortable.
After one hour we decided to go on walking, before the dawn came. The path was a bit complicated because of the mud, and soon we would have difficulties to reach some stages of the land. The river was growing up, widening, the water came with more force and the deepness increased.
"We won't be able to advance more unless we'll manage to skip the river.." Legolas said, stopping and looking back. "We're five, and the path is too narrow.. we don't have boats, and everything would be a lot easier if we sailed on the river instead of walking by it"
"And how do you plan to get a boat?" Haldir asked with sarcasm, and Legolas shrugged.
"We could build a raft with trunks from trees.." Gimli suggested, but the elves gave him a sceptical look. The dwarf complained in his own language.
"It's not a too bad idea.. we have ropes, it could be possible.." I said, looking around myself. "We only have to cut some wood.."
"With what? Our hands?" Haldir was acting a bit childish at that moment and I felt angry with him.
"Ok, if you have a better idea.." I replied, looking at him.
"What if we go on walking? We'll think of something later.." Fern had saved the situation, and we all followed his suggestion. I walked with Haldir, and tried to find out what was happening to him.
"Haldir, something troubles you, I know.. but I can't understand why are you paying it with me.. with all of us.. it can't be so bad.." His face changed when he heard my words, as if I had said something completely wrong.
"You can't understand anything. Zana.." He whispered.. I remembered that Galadriel had a last talk with him the day we left.. and I remembered that he was hiding something since then.. but now my curiosity was bigger and I needed to know what was that. "Don't ask anything else, please.. I need to think.." He said, and I wasn't able to speak any more. He looked at the ground, lost in his thoughts. I kept a distance from him, and placed myself near from Fern. Legolas and Gimli were advancing in front of us.
"It's a big mistake, Zana" I looked at Fern, after those words that made me so confused.
"What is a big mistake? "I asked, and he pointed at the elves. I shrugged. "What?"
"You know that it's an impossible thing, they're inmortal.. you don't belong here.. you must return to your home.." His dark eyes looked in the distance. "Sooner or later you'll leave, this is just a dream" His words caused a big effect on me.. I realised that until now I never had thought about the consequences of loving an elf. I felt the tears in my eyes. Sure,it was an impossible love.
"It seems you know a lot about me.." I commented, sharply, a bit angry with him, with everything. I felt his hand in my shoulder.
"It's not my intention to make you feel bad.. I'm just showing you the reality.. you fell for them too soon, you've hardly been here for two weeks and you already feel that you belong to this world, but it's not true.. you're a human girl from 21rst century who belongs to the Earth.. like me.. and what we have to do now is find the way back home.." I looked at him, surprised.
"No! I can't leave like this, I have to finish this mission, whatever it is!" He shook his head, taking a deep breath.
"Forget about this world.. we can't know if it's real! Maybe we're just imagining it.. maybe it's a kind of parallel universe where they play with our minds, and they just show you what you want to see.. and live."
"No, stop talking, this is stupid.. Middle Earth is real because I'm here! I have feelings, they have feelings.." I pointed at Haldir. "And he loves me.." But Fern went on talking.
"You're not objective, it seems they built your wishes inside your head, you're living a dream, your dreams, right? Is this what you dreamt about, Zana? Meeting those elves? " I couldn't reply that question.. he was right.. that was my dream from Earth.. but.. no, some things had happened, some new things that weren't meant to happen.
"Fern, I'm sure I'm not dreaming.. I never liked Haldir on Earth, I would have never loved him for sure! But he managed to make me fall in love with him, and this can't be part of a dream.. I used to dream about Legolas.. just this.. and the whole thing I'm living is something completely unexpected.. No, I'm sure I'm not dreaming so forget this idea"
"It was just a theory. I can't explain our arrival here, so I'm just saying that we can't know what is real or not.. be careful , Zana.. remember that we can't get lost here. We must go home and this is our first priority"
"No, this is your first priority, not mine. I won't move from here until I'll find out what the hell is going on" I was really angry by that time and Fern opted for shutting up. "And one more thing.. I was destined to come here, not you.. it's all your fault if you can't find the way back. I didn't force you to come. It's not my problem so please, don't try to convince me. Stay away from me if you plan to make me stop with this. " Haldir looked back, worried.
"Is everything OK, Zana? " He asked, and he gave a killing look to Fern.
"Yes, don't worry, I was just talking" I replied, walking next to him. Legolas also turned to see the human boy, this time with a suspicious gaze. I watched at him, absent minded. His blue eyes were cold, and caught me staring at him. A smile came to his face. A mysterious smile I couldn't decode.
"I would like to talk to Galadriel.. I wonder if she ever knew what would happen.." Legolas voice was low, talking to Gimli. Haldir turned his head, listening to them.
"Why do you want to talk to her?" He asked, a bit cold. Fern also walked faster to reach our position.
"Galadriel? " He asked, with curiosity, and then looked at me. "You also met her?" I nodded, and he sighed. "This is amazing.. it's like being inside a movie.." The elves looked at him, Haldir with a suspicious gaze, Legolas with interest.
"So you also know all of us.." He commented, and Fern smiled.
"Who doesn't ? You're very popular on Earth"
"This is something I'll never understand.." Haldir said to me, with half a smile. I smiled too, remembering some of the comments I heard about him from my friends.
"And you say we look exactly like those .. men who played us? Because I don't like the idea of being on a portrait on a shelf, or in a commercial where hundreds of human girls were staring at me.." Legolas commented, with a scared look. I laughed, thinking of his popularity on Earth.
"If you just knew how are things there.." I murmured, but Legolas heard me perfectly, and walked near from me.
"Now explain me this, Zana.." He demanded with a serious look. I was still laughing.
"You're very popular there indeed.. I think that almost all teenage girls around my world dream of you every day" He looked really scared.
"I wish I'll never visit this world" I somehow felt bad with that remark, and I didn't know why.. as if he was refusing to be part of my life.. but, after all, why would I care? Once I left Middle earth, they wouldn't come with me.. those sad thoughts changed my mood at once.
Haldir stopped walking and checked the path. It was to dangerous to go on walking in that direction. Gimli and Fern waited behind, while Legolas climbed a tree to check the distance.
"Too much mud here, we shouldn't go on.." Haldir commented, with a worried look.
"Things are not better here.." Legolas sighed, returning to firm land. "What do we do now?"
"We can't go on unless we'll get a boat, I'm afraid.. " Haldir's face turned pale, and he kneeled to check the ground. "We've been walking the whole day, and maybe for nothing.. " He looked desperate. Gimli put his small hand on his shoulder.
"We'll find a solution, I'm sure.." But his words didn't help too much. He looked at us, and shook his head, resigned.
"Why don't we cross to the other side of the river? Maybe the path is better there.." I suggested, although the idea of jumping into that water wasn't too pleasant.. the force of the liquid was strong and I had doubts about my swimming abilities. Fern walked to the edge and looked inside the river.
"It seems it's the only solution.." He commented, and Haldir stood up.
"It's too dangerous, we can't fight the force of the running" He looked so tall when he was close to Fern.
"But you said we have ropes, right? We'll tie them to the tree and we'll cross using them.. like in the army.." I looked at my friend and agreed with him.
"Army? " The elves asked at the same time. But Legolas didn't wait for an answer.
"Yes, I agree, this is the only solution" He took his bag and we all did the same. We tied the ropes and made a long one. Then, Gimli put it around the strong tree.
"Now, someone has to cross first and tie it in the opposite side of the river.." I said, trying not to imagine who would be the first volunteer.. and I realised I had guessed well, because I froze when I heard Haldir's voice.
"I'll do it" And he jumped into the water, without doubting.. he barely could resist the force. Looking at me, he took a deep breath and disappeared inside the blue liquid.
"What is he doing? Diving is even more complicated!" Legolas shouted, scaring me.
"Don't say that, Legolas! He'll manage to do it!" I tried to sound convinced, I was so worried, shaking.. seconds passed and nothing came to the surface. Tears came back to my eyes again, and I felt Legolas arm around my shoulders. We all waited, almost without hope, after what it seemed a century.
"He's too late.." Gimli murmured, worried.
"I'm a good swimmer, I'll go too" Fern said, taking his bag.
"No, are you crazy? You don't even have a rope, you can't go too or else we'll also loose you!" I shouted at him, and he gave me a strange look. For a moment he didn't move, and then we finally heard Haldir's voice from the other side.
"I'm here! " He climbed the edge of the river and reached the tree, tying the rope around it. He removed the wet hair from his face and shook his hand. "Come on, everything is OK here!" He smiled , looking at me, and I was so happy to see him again. Legolas put his hand on my waist, making me walk to the edge. Fern was the first who jumped into the water, and I followed him. I noticed that Legolas was holding me all time, and this made me feel more sure.
"Don't worry, I won't let the river swallow you" He commented with a smile, and that encouraged me. I felt his breath in my neck, and Fern turned around.
"Wrap your arms around me, Zana.. " I obeyed, and we four started the difficult process. .I felt the water like knifes in my legs.. the river pushed me with a huge force and it was painful. I noticed the big effort that my friends were making, and I worried about our lives. Gimli was shouting in his own language, but I would swear he was laughing too. That dwarf was amazing. Even in the worst situations, he managed to stay happy.
" I swear that if I survive this situation I won't ever hide what I feel about anybody!" I couldn't help shouting, and I felt Legolas head very close to mine, and a soft laugh.
"Are you aware of what you're saying? Because I'll remind you it in some seconds, when we'll reach the other side"
"Stop talking or else you'll loose your forces!" Gimli complained. Fern was a good swimmer indeed, and we started to advance faster in that moment. Haldir was waiting for us, with a worried and scared expression on his face.
"Come on, you're almost here!" He said, looking at me.
"Remember what you swore" I heard Legolas voice over the noise of the water. He never gave up, he was impossible.
"Don't be happy too fast, we won't survive this" I said, half joking, but Fern got mad at me.
"Can you stop saying nonsense? We won't die here, not today!"
"Come on, boy!" Gimli shouted. "You're almost there!"
"Shut up, dwarf!! You're making me nervous!" I smiled, more calmed, when I saw Fern's hand holding on a rock. It was done and I couldn't believe that. He pushed himself out from the water, Haldir helping him. Then, I went outside, followed by Legolas and Gimli. We all fell in the ground, breathing strongly.
"We did it.." I murmured, staring at the sky above us. Haldir sat down and wrapped me with his arms. I felt Legolas gaze on mine, with a smile.
"Strange.." Haldir commented " Look at the moon" We all obeyed and I couldn't help leaving an exclamation. The moon was full again although it had been only two weeks ago, and that was impossible.. and the colour, it was blue, light blue.
"This doesn't have a logical explanation.. it looks like ice.." I said, and my words caused an effect on my friends, because they all stared at me.
"Like the Land of the Eternal Ice.." Gimli murmured.
"This is a sign.." Legolas said, looking at the sky. "And it's not getting dark yet, but it can be seen perfectly.." Haldir stood up and walked some metres, checking the path. Legolas sat on his place, close to me. " It was also a sign the night I was with you in your balcony" He whispered, with a smile. " The moon is leading us, Zana. Remember what you promised" He also left me alone, lost in my thoughts.
"I'm a bit lost, what are you talking about? " Said Fern, with a funny expression. I smiled.
"Forget it" I laid down and closed my eyes, thinking.
Hello again, with another fast chapter : ) I still didn't check if I got reviews from the previous ones, I was too fast so now I'll see what you wrote : ) So, first comment.. I know that this seems to go nowhere, but don't worry, it will start making sense soon : ) Remember that I want to write a very long fic, I can't write an end unless I'll have it in my real life : ) Because somehow, this follows what is happening to me.. so maybe I will need a lot of time to decide what do I do with Zana and the rest of people : ) Thanks in advance for all your reviews!
************** **************** *************** *****************
I remember when I met you
All the stars were hanging in mid-air
In these moments - nothing mattered
But the way you caught me in your stare
We were walking - we were talking
We were laughing about the state of our lives
How our fates brought us together
As the moon was rising in your eyes
On and on the night was falling
Deep down inside us
On and on a light was shining right through
The night that we fell under the spell of the moon
The light that will being me back to you
- La luna - Belinda Carlisle
After the bath we had lunch, in silence, under the sun. I sat with Haldir, who looked sad. Although I asked him what was wrong, I didn't get an answer. He just ate his food and kept his gaze in the distance. Legolas and Fern had started a conversation I was listening to, and I couldn't help feeling so grateful to Legolas for the way he was acting, making my friend more comfortable.
After one hour we decided to go on walking, before the dawn came. The path was a bit complicated because of the mud, and soon we would have difficulties to reach some stages of the land. The river was growing up, widening, the water came with more force and the deepness increased.
"We won't be able to advance more unless we'll manage to skip the river.." Legolas said, stopping and looking back. "We're five, and the path is too narrow.. we don't have boats, and everything would be a lot easier if we sailed on the river instead of walking by it"
"And how do you plan to get a boat?" Haldir asked with sarcasm, and Legolas shrugged.
"We could build a raft with trunks from trees.." Gimli suggested, but the elves gave him a sceptical look. The dwarf complained in his own language.
"It's not a too bad idea.. we have ropes, it could be possible.." I said, looking around myself. "We only have to cut some wood.."
"With what? Our hands?" Haldir was acting a bit childish at that moment and I felt angry with him.
"Ok, if you have a better idea.." I replied, looking at him.
"What if we go on walking? We'll think of something later.." Fern had saved the situation, and we all followed his suggestion. I walked with Haldir, and tried to find out what was happening to him.
"Haldir, something troubles you, I know.. but I can't understand why are you paying it with me.. with all of us.. it can't be so bad.." His face changed when he heard my words, as if I had said something completely wrong.
"You can't understand anything. Zana.." He whispered.. I remembered that Galadriel had a last talk with him the day we left.. and I remembered that he was hiding something since then.. but now my curiosity was bigger and I needed to know what was that. "Don't ask anything else, please.. I need to think.." He said, and I wasn't able to speak any more. He looked at the ground, lost in his thoughts. I kept a distance from him, and placed myself near from Fern. Legolas and Gimli were advancing in front of us.
"It's a big mistake, Zana" I looked at Fern, after those words that made me so confused.
"What is a big mistake? "I asked, and he pointed at the elves. I shrugged. "What?"
"You know that it's an impossible thing, they're inmortal.. you don't belong here.. you must return to your home.." His dark eyes looked in the distance. "Sooner or later you'll leave, this is just a dream" His words caused a big effect on me.. I realised that until now I never had thought about the consequences of loving an elf. I felt the tears in my eyes. Sure,it was an impossible love.
"It seems you know a lot about me.." I commented, sharply, a bit angry with him, with everything. I felt his hand in my shoulder.
"It's not my intention to make you feel bad.. I'm just showing you the reality.. you fell for them too soon, you've hardly been here for two weeks and you already feel that you belong to this world, but it's not true.. you're a human girl from 21rst century who belongs to the Earth.. like me.. and what we have to do now is find the way back home.." I looked at him, surprised.
"No! I can't leave like this, I have to finish this mission, whatever it is!" He shook his head, taking a deep breath.
"Forget about this world.. we can't know if it's real! Maybe we're just imagining it.. maybe it's a kind of parallel universe where they play with our minds, and they just show you what you want to see.. and live."
"No, stop talking, this is stupid.. Middle Earth is real because I'm here! I have feelings, they have feelings.." I pointed at Haldir. "And he loves me.." But Fern went on talking.
"You're not objective, it seems they built your wishes inside your head, you're living a dream, your dreams, right? Is this what you dreamt about, Zana? Meeting those elves? " I couldn't reply that question.. he was right.. that was my dream from Earth.. but.. no, some things had happened, some new things that weren't meant to happen.
"Fern, I'm sure I'm not dreaming.. I never liked Haldir on Earth, I would have never loved him for sure! But he managed to make me fall in love with him, and this can't be part of a dream.. I used to dream about Legolas.. just this.. and the whole thing I'm living is something completely unexpected.. No, I'm sure I'm not dreaming so forget this idea"
"It was just a theory. I can't explain our arrival here, so I'm just saying that we can't know what is real or not.. be careful , Zana.. remember that we can't get lost here. We must go home and this is our first priority"
"No, this is your first priority, not mine. I won't move from here until I'll find out what the hell is going on" I was really angry by that time and Fern opted for shutting up. "And one more thing.. I was destined to come here, not you.. it's all your fault if you can't find the way back. I didn't force you to come. It's not my problem so please, don't try to convince me. Stay away from me if you plan to make me stop with this. " Haldir looked back, worried.
"Is everything OK, Zana? " He asked, and he gave a killing look to Fern.
"Yes, don't worry, I was just talking" I replied, walking next to him. Legolas also turned to see the human boy, this time with a suspicious gaze. I watched at him, absent minded. His blue eyes were cold, and caught me staring at him. A smile came to his face. A mysterious smile I couldn't decode.
"I would like to talk to Galadriel.. I wonder if she ever knew what would happen.." Legolas voice was low, talking to Gimli. Haldir turned his head, listening to them.
"Why do you want to talk to her?" He asked, a bit cold. Fern also walked faster to reach our position.
"Galadriel? " He asked, with curiosity, and then looked at me. "You also met her?" I nodded, and he sighed. "This is amazing.. it's like being inside a movie.." The elves looked at him, Haldir with a suspicious gaze, Legolas with interest.
"So you also know all of us.." He commented, and Fern smiled.
"Who doesn't ? You're very popular on Earth"
"This is something I'll never understand.." Haldir said to me, with half a smile. I smiled too, remembering some of the comments I heard about him from my friends.
"And you say we look exactly like those .. men who played us? Because I don't like the idea of being on a portrait on a shelf, or in a commercial where hundreds of human girls were staring at me.." Legolas commented, with a scared look. I laughed, thinking of his popularity on Earth.
"If you just knew how are things there.." I murmured, but Legolas heard me perfectly, and walked near from me.
"Now explain me this, Zana.." He demanded with a serious look. I was still laughing.
"You're very popular there indeed.. I think that almost all teenage girls around my world dream of you every day" He looked really scared.
"I wish I'll never visit this world" I somehow felt bad with that remark, and I didn't know why.. as if he was refusing to be part of my life.. but, after all, why would I care? Once I left Middle earth, they wouldn't come with me.. those sad thoughts changed my mood at once.
Haldir stopped walking and checked the path. It was to dangerous to go on walking in that direction. Gimli and Fern waited behind, while Legolas climbed a tree to check the distance.
"Too much mud here, we shouldn't go on.." Haldir commented, with a worried look.
"Things are not better here.." Legolas sighed, returning to firm land. "What do we do now?"
"We can't go on unless we'll get a boat, I'm afraid.. " Haldir's face turned pale, and he kneeled to check the ground. "We've been walking the whole day, and maybe for nothing.. " He looked desperate. Gimli put his small hand on his shoulder.
"We'll find a solution, I'm sure.." But his words didn't help too much. He looked at us, and shook his head, resigned.
"Why don't we cross to the other side of the river? Maybe the path is better there.." I suggested, although the idea of jumping into that water wasn't too pleasant.. the force of the liquid was strong and I had doubts about my swimming abilities. Fern walked to the edge and looked inside the river.
"It seems it's the only solution.." He commented, and Haldir stood up.
"It's too dangerous, we can't fight the force of the running" He looked so tall when he was close to Fern.
"But you said we have ropes, right? We'll tie them to the tree and we'll cross using them.. like in the army.." I looked at my friend and agreed with him.
"Army? " The elves asked at the same time. But Legolas didn't wait for an answer.
"Yes, I agree, this is the only solution" He took his bag and we all did the same. We tied the ropes and made a long one. Then, Gimli put it around the strong tree.
"Now, someone has to cross first and tie it in the opposite side of the river.." I said, trying not to imagine who would be the first volunteer.. and I realised I had guessed well, because I froze when I heard Haldir's voice.
"I'll do it" And he jumped into the water, without doubting.. he barely could resist the force. Looking at me, he took a deep breath and disappeared inside the blue liquid.
"What is he doing? Diving is even more complicated!" Legolas shouted, scaring me.
"Don't say that, Legolas! He'll manage to do it!" I tried to sound convinced, I was so worried, shaking.. seconds passed and nothing came to the surface. Tears came back to my eyes again, and I felt Legolas arm around my shoulders. We all waited, almost without hope, after what it seemed a century.
"He's too late.." Gimli murmured, worried.
"I'm a good swimmer, I'll go too" Fern said, taking his bag.
"No, are you crazy? You don't even have a rope, you can't go too or else we'll also loose you!" I shouted at him, and he gave me a strange look. For a moment he didn't move, and then we finally heard Haldir's voice from the other side.
"I'm here! " He climbed the edge of the river and reached the tree, tying the rope around it. He removed the wet hair from his face and shook his hand. "Come on, everything is OK here!" He smiled , looking at me, and I was so happy to see him again. Legolas put his hand on my waist, making me walk to the edge. Fern was the first who jumped into the water, and I followed him. I noticed that Legolas was holding me all time, and this made me feel more sure.
"Don't worry, I won't let the river swallow you" He commented with a smile, and that encouraged me. I felt his breath in my neck, and Fern turned around.
"Wrap your arms around me, Zana.. " I obeyed, and we four started the difficult process. .I felt the water like knifes in my legs.. the river pushed me with a huge force and it was painful. I noticed the big effort that my friends were making, and I worried about our lives. Gimli was shouting in his own language, but I would swear he was laughing too. That dwarf was amazing. Even in the worst situations, he managed to stay happy.
" I swear that if I survive this situation I won't ever hide what I feel about anybody!" I couldn't help shouting, and I felt Legolas head very close to mine, and a soft laugh.
"Are you aware of what you're saying? Because I'll remind you it in some seconds, when we'll reach the other side"
"Stop talking or else you'll loose your forces!" Gimli complained. Fern was a good swimmer indeed, and we started to advance faster in that moment. Haldir was waiting for us, with a worried and scared expression on his face.
"Come on, you're almost here!" He said, looking at me.
"Remember what you swore" I heard Legolas voice over the noise of the water. He never gave up, he was impossible.
"Don't be happy too fast, we won't survive this" I said, half joking, but Fern got mad at me.
"Can you stop saying nonsense? We won't die here, not today!"
"Come on, boy!" Gimli shouted. "You're almost there!"
"Shut up, dwarf!! You're making me nervous!" I smiled, more calmed, when I saw Fern's hand holding on a rock. It was done and I couldn't believe that. He pushed himself out from the water, Haldir helping him. Then, I went outside, followed by Legolas and Gimli. We all fell in the ground, breathing strongly.
"We did it.." I murmured, staring at the sky above us. Haldir sat down and wrapped me with his arms. I felt Legolas gaze on mine, with a smile.
"Strange.." Haldir commented " Look at the moon" We all obeyed and I couldn't help leaving an exclamation. The moon was full again although it had been only two weeks ago, and that was impossible.. and the colour, it was blue, light blue.
"This doesn't have a logical explanation.. it looks like ice.." I said, and my words caused an effect on my friends, because they all stared at me.
"Like the Land of the Eternal Ice.." Gimli murmured.
"This is a sign.." Legolas said, looking at the sky. "And it's not getting dark yet, but it can be seen perfectly.." Haldir stood up and walked some metres, checking the path. Legolas sat on his place, close to me. " It was also a sign the night I was with you in your balcony" He whispered, with a smile. " The moon is leading us, Zana. Remember what you promised" He also left me alone, lost in my thoughts.
"I'm a bit lost, what are you talking about? " Said Fern, with a funny expression. I smiled.
"Forget it" I laid down and closed my eyes, thinking.