I am so super inspired now, prodigal was on today, and absolutely nothing is more inspiring than Andrew in his underwear. I love that boy, I bought "O" yesterday, he's so mean in that movie, and it's weird to see sweet Wilson say the F word so many times. Just proves that Andrew is a great actor *sigh*

Oh, yeah sorry, I was writing a story here wasn't I . . . .

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Mary shook McKenna's hand, "Nice to meet you" she said with a smile.

"So you're Mary!" she exclaimed, "Wilson has told me a lot about you, its great to put a face to the stories!" she smiled wide, she was so cute it was almost sickening.

"I'm going to walk Mary out, I'll be right back," he said kissing McKenna's cheek.

Mary and Wilson left the pool hall and headed for her car, "so, she seems sweet," she told him, "How long have you guys been together?"

"8 months," he told her smiling, "I love her to death,"

The word 'love' made Mary shudder. It wasn't that Wilson was 'in love' it was the whole Idea of love itself. Mary knew there was no such thing as love, it was just something people made up as an excuse for all of the stupid things they did.

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When Mary got home Lucy was sitting in the kitchen with some cookies and milk. "Hey" she said when Mary walked into the kitchen.

"Hi," Mary said hopping up on the across from Lucy, she looked around, "so where is everyone?"

"Well," Lucy said dipping her cookie into the glass of milk, "Kevin is out on a call, Friday nights can get a bit crazy sometimes. And the twins are sleeping, mom and dad went to a charity function of some sort, Martin is out with Cecilia, Ruthie is at a sleepover, and I'm here" she shrugged.

"Is there anything left from dinner?" Mary said getting off the counter and heading for the fridge.

"Mom made mac and cheese before she left, there might be some left" Lucy watched Mary dig through the refrigerator, "so where did you go anyway? Mom was flipping out thinking that you left for good 'cuz you were mad." "Well I am thinking about getting an apartment as soon as Carlos gives me my stuff back, then I can go do drugs without mom worrying." Lucy looked at her shocked, "I was at the pool hall!" Mary laughed, she walked over and squeezed Lucy's shoulders, "it's called a joke"

"Sorry, I know" Lucy said laughing at herself for believing Mary would be that stupid after everything that had happened, that wasn't how Mary solved problems, "so did you have a good time?" Lucy asked her.

"Yeah, it was noisy, I liked that. Oh and I saw Wilson" Mary started heading for the stairs.

"Whoa whoa wait!" Lucy called; "come back here!" she was not going to let her out of this easily.

Mary stopped and turned to face her sister, and then she slowly came back down the stairs and into the kitchen.

"So?" Lucy said patting the chair next to her, hoping Mary would take it and they could have a good old fashioned girl talk.

"So we talked for awhile, and then I met his girlfriend, and that's it" Mary said nonchalantly. Then she got up to go back upstairs.

Lucy grabbed her arm, "and you're ok with that?"

"Yeah, why wouldn't I be?" Mary said confused.

"Because you were in love with him at one point in your life." Lucy explained as if this were something Mary should already know, "or maybe more than one"

"That was a long time ago" Mary said with hurt in her voice, "I don't want to talk about love ok? I don't believe in love."

Lucy stood up and approached Mary, "just because you've had a few bad experiences doesn't mean you should give up on it entirely." Lucy desperately wanted Mary to have the life that she did, "you know after Jeremy I thought I would be alone forever, and then Kevin came along, and it's so amazing Mare" she smiled desperately trying to convince her sister that someday it will all work out.

"Yeah," Mary said angrily, "good for you" and then she stomped up the stairs.

Lucy sat back down with tears in her eyes. It was so hard for her to understand what Mary was going through. She really wanted to help Mary out, be a good sister. But she couldn't even fathom how she would feel if Kevin did that to her. She was jealous of Roxanne for such a long time, but those were just suspicions, Mary had proof.

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Well, I'm not at home right now so I don't know if y'all liked the last chapter, and that worries me, so I'm just gonna hope for the best here.

Keep reviewing! Maybe Mary will love again if you do!