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So.. is Haldir leaving?? : ) You have to read to know it! By the way, I'll use this space to say thanks to Nikki Stagerwell : ) You asked me to include feedback of your reviews, and I always forget.. I promise that in the following chapters I'll make some comments : ) Sometimes I send emails to some of you, but if you all prefer me to write here, I'll do it : ) Thanks for the reviews!!
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Then the rainstorm came, over me
And I felt my spirit break
I had lost all of my, belief you see
And realise my mistake
But time through a prayer, to me
And all around me, it came still
I need love, loves divine
Please forgive me now I see that I've been blind
Give me love, loves is what I need to help me know my name
Through the rainstorm came, century
And I felt my spirit fly
I had felt, all of my, reality
I realise what it takes
Love's divine - Seal
"Why did he leave?" I looked at Legolas face, and he shrugged, trying to smile.
"He acted like this for some reasons, I suppose.. but don't think about this any more.. we have to meet Gimli and escape from this horrible century" He looked around, separating from me, and walking towards the window. I saw Paris waking up.
"You can't see him, right?" I asked, and Legolas turned around, looking at me with a confused gaze. "Paris.." I pointed at the ground.
"Who are you talking to?" Paris asked, touching his head. Then, suddenly, pain could be seen on his face. "What's happening to me? I'm dizzy again.."
"You can't see Paris, and he can't see you.. he's your reincarnation" Legolas opened his mouth, and watched at the ground.
"Where is he?" He walked back, scared. "I can't meet him.consequences could be terrible.." He took my arm. "I must go, Zana.. I'll hide somewhere.. try to be alone in one hour, and I'll be back"
"No, Legolas.." I whispered, but he left me alone again. I noticed that Paris was waking up . I walked to meet him and kneeled. "Are you OK? What happened?" He looked at me, confused.
"I don't know.. I think I need to walk a bit.." He stood up, and I helped him, holding his arm. Finally his dark eyes seemed to de awake again, and he smiled. "I suppose it was the effect I got after listening to Haldir and Helen's conversation.. " I felt that pain, and I tried to think about something different, but the face of the elf, looking at me from the distance.. brought me too much pain.
"Come on, you need fresh air.." He walked with me, and when I was going to say goodbye to him and close the door, he stopped.
"You won't come with me? We can walk by the sea.." Obviously, he wanted to talk to me.. but I had to return in one hour to meet Legolas..
"But.. I'm a bit tired, Paris.."
"Please.." He took my hand, and I noticed he really felt bad. I sighed.
"OK, but I'll be back in no time.." With a smile, he let me pass in front of him and closed the door. The halls were dark, and I tried to look at each corner, behind every plant.. but Legolas wasn't there. We heard laughs from the big room, and I could imagine Gimli getting drunk there.. probably this was what he was doing.
The night was warm, starry.. the sound of the sea was close. We walked in silence, both of us lost in our own thoughts. Paris looked shocked, as if he had decided to give up everything. His nice face was dark, sad.. he kept his hands inside the pockets, and in that position he looked smaller. Like a child.
"I really love her.. she can't leave.." I heard his whispers, but said nothing. Despite of my feelings towards Legolas, Haldir had always been someone special for me.. I needed him more than I had thought. Tears were coming back to my eyes.
"Don't think about it any more, Paris.. you're hurting yourself, and now you'll need all your forces.." We stopped on a sandy hill, and sat down. The sea was calmed, small waves moved on the surface, and the sea breeze made me feel better. "You said she wasn't worth.. if she left, then you deserve someone better.." He looked at me angry.
"She's better than anybody else, what I've done for her lately can't be told with words. I don't know how was Haldir with you.. but you can't understand how I feel now"
"Why this sudden change of mood? First you tell me that they're' not worth, and now.. I can't understand why did you ask me to come with you" But I decided to shut up, and walk near to the sea. I didn't want to deal with that complicated man.. For some moments I couldn't believe he was Legolas reincarnation.
The water was warm, and I left the sandals some metres away.. I liked the feeling of the sand under my feet, and finally I had a moment of peace, for myself.. although I kept an eye on Paris, who was sitting a bit far away from me. I didn't know what time was it, but I remembered about Legolas. I was going to turn around, when a bright thing called my attention. There, inside the water, there was something shinning in the moonlight. The waves brought it to my feet, and I picked it up. I opened my mouth in surprise, my heart started beating so fast and tears were falling down in my face. The ring that Haldir had given me.. it came back.
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"You must return to Greece and we'll avoid this war" Helen looked at Haldir, shocked, while he showed her the big ship ready for leaving.
"This is why you brought me here? You lied to me!" her face became red.
"I didn't lie to you.. I'm just helping my friends.. helping a whole empire. You're too selfish to realise about it.. I never said I loved you.. so I didn't play with you.. come on, Helen.. you also don't love me.." She kept silence for a moment, and then tears came to her eyes.
"He chose another wife.. how could he make this to me?.."
"He didn't choose it.. he was forced by the king.. but you can change things.. go back to Greece.. and ask him to go with you.. this way, you'll stop Achilles, his soldiers and all this crazy war.." Haldir sat with her on the sand. She seemed to be thinking.
"I can't go back.. I betrayed my husband Menelao.. do you know which is the punishment? " She asked, sadly. "They will kill me" Haldir froze, unable to understand those barbarian traditions. "And if I stay here.. they will protect me.. Troy is stronger than Greece.."
"Why don't you leave both empires, and go somewhere?" Haldir was trying to find a fast solution, time was running. She sighed.
"But.. where would we go?"
"You'll find a place.. but you can't allow this war, Helen.. it's crazy.. " They kept silence for a while.
"For a moment I thought you really loved me.." She looked at him, and he smiled.
"I admit that you're the most amazing girl I've ever seen.. but I'm not like the rest of men.. for some reasons I can't explain.." He touched his ears, under his hair. "I love someone with my heart and with my soul.. and they're not material.. appearance is not the most important thing for elves.."
"Elves?" She frowned, and Haldir realised about his mistake.
"Me, for me.." He replied, quickly.
"Paris loves my inside.. I'm sure.. he's not like the rest of men neither.. he's very similar to you.. as if you both were made with the same.. material" Haldir smiled, thinking about that Paris had the soul of an elf, after all..
"Leave with him, Helen.. he will come to you.." Haldir stood up, and she waited there.
"Where are you going?" She asked, scared.
"Don't fear anything.. I promise things will go well. I must solve some business" He left, with a mysterious smile on his lips. He had to find Zana.
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Paris stood up, while Zana kneeled on the sand.. what was that girl doing? He walked towards her, and suddenly stopped. His instinct told him something.. he turned around, and watched in the distance.. the lights in the harbour.. a big ship was ready to leave. His heart almost stopped beating.. he still had a chance, Helen hadn't gone yet. Running towards Zana, he took her by her arms, lifting her up.
"What's wrong? " She asked, and he smiled.
"I hope you'll get all what you want in your life.. meeting you was a great experience.." She looked surprised, and he noticed she was blushing.
"Paris.. why are you so happy?" He touched her face, and kissed her.
"This is a good bye kiss, Zana" She looked so shocked, and stood there while he walked away. "Good luck, with all my heart" He left with a smile.
"Paris.." She murmured.
Paris ran to the harbour. A group of sailors were getting ready to leave.. and he saw her. She was standing there, crying, wrapping herself with her arms. He smiled, and forgot about everything.. he knew they had to leave Troy, Greece and all the Mediterranean empires. They would go somewhere, he didn't care where.. he just wanted to be with her. When she saw him, she looked shocked.
"Paris!" Her blue eyes opened, and didn't know how to react. He hugged her.
"I'm leaving with you, Helen.. lets go far away from here.. and don't ever leave me" Her tears disappeared and she smiled. "I love you"
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I put the ring in my finger again.. somehow it gave me forces.. I was shocked. What had just happened? Paris left.. I followed him.. and saw Helen.. without Haldir. I was standing there, incapable of believing what I was seeing.. the couple stepped into the ship.. they were kissing each other.. they were leaving! But this couldn't happen.. History had been changed, and this would bring consequences for the future of the humanity!
"This is a mess.." I murmured. "History is changed.. oh, no.." I watched the ship parting, and then walked back to the beach. I was alone, my future would be different.. I was responsible of all future consequences.. I couldn't breath, I felt dizzy and sat on the sand. For a moment, I thought the ring was shining.. but it was just my imagination.. I couldn't understand what had really happened between Haldir and Helen.. and why all from the sudden Helen was with Paris.. then.. where was Haldir? I wasn't able to think. I only wanted to cry. I would never see Paris again.. Legolas was in danger.. Gimli getting drunk.. and Haldir.. why did I have hope? Why was I thinking that maybe he didn't have anything with Helen? If I could only talk to Gandalf.
A soft wind came, and I realised I had to go back and meet Legolas. We would find a solution for everything.. it seemed that in each century something was solved.. Fern was killed and he was an obstacle for us.. but being in Troy was only bringing problems.. I wondered what would happen in that place that could help us in our mission. Walking back, and looking at the sand, I didn't realise there was someone else with me. I looked up and stopped.
"Hello, Zana" He spoke, softly, with a smile.
"Haldir.." I murmured, I wasn't able to speak. A silence came, while we stared at each other. He walked towards me.
"Everything is solved.. I got it.." His blue eyes looked nicest than ever before.
"What did you get?" He looked at my finger, distracted.
"You found it" Taking my hand, he analysed the ring. He was so surprised, as if that event had settled things down. "It's amazing.."
"You didn't reply my question.." I noticed my hand shaking.
"You're nervous.. and your heart is beating fast again" Murmured with a smile.
"This is how things work.." I tied to think clearly, I wanted to know what happened with Helen. "What about her?" He looked at the sky.
"I had to play a trick on Helen.. and it worked.. now she's leaving with Paris and the war was stopped"
"Do you know that this will bring consequences for the future of Earth? You changed the History" He nodded.
"I was meant to do this.. trust me" We stared for some time.
"How can I trust you.. if you left with her? " I felt tears in my eyes again.
" I didn't leave with her in the sense you think.. it was part of my plan"
"You didn't help me" I whispered. He sighed, and came closer.
"I knew Legolas would be there for you" I smiled sadly.
"Some days ago you wouldn't allow him to do it because you would have done it by yourself.. when you still loved me" I was surprised when I saw the expression of his face. For a moment I thought that things hadn't change at all.
"Zana.. nothing happened with Helen.. and if I hadn't done this.. where would you be now? Paris wouldn't have chosen you.. he would have become crazy.. can't you see that all things happened because of a reason?" I had to agree with him, but I was still confused. "What's wrong ,Zana?"
" You can't imagine how I felt.. thinking that you were with her.." I was surprised with my sincerity.. I was almost saying that I still loved him.. I blushed. I wished that things would have been the same as before.. when he was fighting for my love.. now I felt alone. I didn't have anybody. But I remembered Paris words.. sure there's someone who would make this for you..
"I'm sorry if I hurt you.. I thought you trusted me more.. I'm an elf, not a human, remember? "He said, with a smile.
"Does this change things?" I asked, sadly, and to my surprise, he smiled again, as if he was happy.
"Of course it does, Zana.. when an elf gives his heart.. it's forever.." I stopped breathing, wishing to hear more words like those ones.. but he remained silent.
"Unless a Fountain of truth comes into his way.." I expected a yes, a nod.. but he didn't say anything. He just came closer.
"Not when a Tor fixes things again" I was shocked.
"What.. do you mean?" Was that what I wanted to hear?!
"Zana.. Legolas needs us.." He started walking, but I couldn't help feeling a big hope inside me. Did he mean what I thought he was meaning? All I got was a smile from him, asking me to walk fast.
So.. is Haldir leaving?? : ) You have to read to know it! By the way, I'll use this space to say thanks to Nikki Stagerwell : ) You asked me to include feedback of your reviews, and I always forget.. I promise that in the following chapters I'll make some comments : ) Sometimes I send emails to some of you, but if you all prefer me to write here, I'll do it : ) Thanks for the reviews!!
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Then the rainstorm came, over me
And I felt my spirit break
I had lost all of my, belief you see
And realise my mistake
But time through a prayer, to me
And all around me, it came still
I need love, loves divine
Please forgive me now I see that I've been blind
Give me love, loves is what I need to help me know my name
Through the rainstorm came, century
And I felt my spirit fly
I had felt, all of my, reality
I realise what it takes
Love's divine - Seal
"Why did he leave?" I looked at Legolas face, and he shrugged, trying to smile.
"He acted like this for some reasons, I suppose.. but don't think about this any more.. we have to meet Gimli and escape from this horrible century" He looked around, separating from me, and walking towards the window. I saw Paris waking up.
"You can't see him, right?" I asked, and Legolas turned around, looking at me with a confused gaze. "Paris.." I pointed at the ground.
"Who are you talking to?" Paris asked, touching his head. Then, suddenly, pain could be seen on his face. "What's happening to me? I'm dizzy again.."
"You can't see Paris, and he can't see you.. he's your reincarnation" Legolas opened his mouth, and watched at the ground.
"Where is he?" He walked back, scared. "I can't meet him.consequences could be terrible.." He took my arm. "I must go, Zana.. I'll hide somewhere.. try to be alone in one hour, and I'll be back"
"No, Legolas.." I whispered, but he left me alone again. I noticed that Paris was waking up . I walked to meet him and kneeled. "Are you OK? What happened?" He looked at me, confused.
"I don't know.. I think I need to walk a bit.." He stood up, and I helped him, holding his arm. Finally his dark eyes seemed to de awake again, and he smiled. "I suppose it was the effect I got after listening to Haldir and Helen's conversation.. " I felt that pain, and I tried to think about something different, but the face of the elf, looking at me from the distance.. brought me too much pain.
"Come on, you need fresh air.." He walked with me, and when I was going to say goodbye to him and close the door, he stopped.
"You won't come with me? We can walk by the sea.." Obviously, he wanted to talk to me.. but I had to return in one hour to meet Legolas..
"But.. I'm a bit tired, Paris.."
"Please.." He took my hand, and I noticed he really felt bad. I sighed.
"OK, but I'll be back in no time.." With a smile, he let me pass in front of him and closed the door. The halls were dark, and I tried to look at each corner, behind every plant.. but Legolas wasn't there. We heard laughs from the big room, and I could imagine Gimli getting drunk there.. probably this was what he was doing.
The night was warm, starry.. the sound of the sea was close. We walked in silence, both of us lost in our own thoughts. Paris looked shocked, as if he had decided to give up everything. His nice face was dark, sad.. he kept his hands inside the pockets, and in that position he looked smaller. Like a child.
"I really love her.. she can't leave.." I heard his whispers, but said nothing. Despite of my feelings towards Legolas, Haldir had always been someone special for me.. I needed him more than I had thought. Tears were coming back to my eyes.
"Don't think about it any more, Paris.. you're hurting yourself, and now you'll need all your forces.." We stopped on a sandy hill, and sat down. The sea was calmed, small waves moved on the surface, and the sea breeze made me feel better. "You said she wasn't worth.. if she left, then you deserve someone better.." He looked at me angry.
"She's better than anybody else, what I've done for her lately can't be told with words. I don't know how was Haldir with you.. but you can't understand how I feel now"
"Why this sudden change of mood? First you tell me that they're' not worth, and now.. I can't understand why did you ask me to come with you" But I decided to shut up, and walk near to the sea. I didn't want to deal with that complicated man.. For some moments I couldn't believe he was Legolas reincarnation.
The water was warm, and I left the sandals some metres away.. I liked the feeling of the sand under my feet, and finally I had a moment of peace, for myself.. although I kept an eye on Paris, who was sitting a bit far away from me. I didn't know what time was it, but I remembered about Legolas. I was going to turn around, when a bright thing called my attention. There, inside the water, there was something shinning in the moonlight. The waves brought it to my feet, and I picked it up. I opened my mouth in surprise, my heart started beating so fast and tears were falling down in my face. The ring that Haldir had given me.. it came back.
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"You must return to Greece and we'll avoid this war" Helen looked at Haldir, shocked, while he showed her the big ship ready for leaving.
"This is why you brought me here? You lied to me!" her face became red.
"I didn't lie to you.. I'm just helping my friends.. helping a whole empire. You're too selfish to realise about it.. I never said I loved you.. so I didn't play with you.. come on, Helen.. you also don't love me.." She kept silence for a moment, and then tears came to her eyes.
"He chose another wife.. how could he make this to me?.."
"He didn't choose it.. he was forced by the king.. but you can change things.. go back to Greece.. and ask him to go with you.. this way, you'll stop Achilles, his soldiers and all this crazy war.." Haldir sat with her on the sand. She seemed to be thinking.
"I can't go back.. I betrayed my husband Menelao.. do you know which is the punishment? " She asked, sadly. "They will kill me" Haldir froze, unable to understand those barbarian traditions. "And if I stay here.. they will protect me.. Troy is stronger than Greece.."
"Why don't you leave both empires, and go somewhere?" Haldir was trying to find a fast solution, time was running. She sighed.
"But.. where would we go?"
"You'll find a place.. but you can't allow this war, Helen.. it's crazy.. " They kept silence for a while.
"For a moment I thought you really loved me.." She looked at him, and he smiled.
"I admit that you're the most amazing girl I've ever seen.. but I'm not like the rest of men.. for some reasons I can't explain.." He touched his ears, under his hair. "I love someone with my heart and with my soul.. and they're not material.. appearance is not the most important thing for elves.."
"Elves?" She frowned, and Haldir realised about his mistake.
"Me, for me.." He replied, quickly.
"Paris loves my inside.. I'm sure.. he's not like the rest of men neither.. he's very similar to you.. as if you both were made with the same.. material" Haldir smiled, thinking about that Paris had the soul of an elf, after all..
"Leave with him, Helen.. he will come to you.." Haldir stood up, and she waited there.
"Where are you going?" She asked, scared.
"Don't fear anything.. I promise things will go well. I must solve some business" He left, with a mysterious smile on his lips. He had to find Zana.
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Paris stood up, while Zana kneeled on the sand.. what was that girl doing? He walked towards her, and suddenly stopped. His instinct told him something.. he turned around, and watched in the distance.. the lights in the harbour.. a big ship was ready to leave. His heart almost stopped beating.. he still had a chance, Helen hadn't gone yet. Running towards Zana, he took her by her arms, lifting her up.
"What's wrong? " She asked, and he smiled.
"I hope you'll get all what you want in your life.. meeting you was a great experience.." She looked surprised, and he noticed she was blushing.
"Paris.. why are you so happy?" He touched her face, and kissed her.
"This is a good bye kiss, Zana" She looked so shocked, and stood there while he walked away. "Good luck, with all my heart" He left with a smile.
"Paris.." She murmured.
Paris ran to the harbour. A group of sailors were getting ready to leave.. and he saw her. She was standing there, crying, wrapping herself with her arms. He smiled, and forgot about everything.. he knew they had to leave Troy, Greece and all the Mediterranean empires. They would go somewhere, he didn't care where.. he just wanted to be with her. When she saw him, she looked shocked.
"Paris!" Her blue eyes opened, and didn't know how to react. He hugged her.
"I'm leaving with you, Helen.. lets go far away from here.. and don't ever leave me" Her tears disappeared and she smiled. "I love you"
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I put the ring in my finger again.. somehow it gave me forces.. I was shocked. What had just happened? Paris left.. I followed him.. and saw Helen.. without Haldir. I was standing there, incapable of believing what I was seeing.. the couple stepped into the ship.. they were kissing each other.. they were leaving! But this couldn't happen.. History had been changed, and this would bring consequences for the future of the humanity!
"This is a mess.." I murmured. "History is changed.. oh, no.." I watched the ship parting, and then walked back to the beach. I was alone, my future would be different.. I was responsible of all future consequences.. I couldn't breath, I felt dizzy and sat on the sand. For a moment, I thought the ring was shining.. but it was just my imagination.. I couldn't understand what had really happened between Haldir and Helen.. and why all from the sudden Helen was with Paris.. then.. where was Haldir? I wasn't able to think. I only wanted to cry. I would never see Paris again.. Legolas was in danger.. Gimli getting drunk.. and Haldir.. why did I have hope? Why was I thinking that maybe he didn't have anything with Helen? If I could only talk to Gandalf.
A soft wind came, and I realised I had to go back and meet Legolas. We would find a solution for everything.. it seemed that in each century something was solved.. Fern was killed and he was an obstacle for us.. but being in Troy was only bringing problems.. I wondered what would happen in that place that could help us in our mission. Walking back, and looking at the sand, I didn't realise there was someone else with me. I looked up and stopped.
"Hello, Zana" He spoke, softly, with a smile.
"Haldir.." I murmured, I wasn't able to speak. A silence came, while we stared at each other. He walked towards me.
"Everything is solved.. I got it.." His blue eyes looked nicest than ever before.
"What did you get?" He looked at my finger, distracted.
"You found it" Taking my hand, he analysed the ring. He was so surprised, as if that event had settled things down. "It's amazing.."
"You didn't reply my question.." I noticed my hand shaking.
"You're nervous.. and your heart is beating fast again" Murmured with a smile.
"This is how things work.." I tied to think clearly, I wanted to know what happened with Helen. "What about her?" He looked at the sky.
"I had to play a trick on Helen.. and it worked.. now she's leaving with Paris and the war was stopped"
"Do you know that this will bring consequences for the future of Earth? You changed the History" He nodded.
"I was meant to do this.. trust me" We stared for some time.
"How can I trust you.. if you left with her? " I felt tears in my eyes again.
" I didn't leave with her in the sense you think.. it was part of my plan"
"You didn't help me" I whispered. He sighed, and came closer.
"I knew Legolas would be there for you" I smiled sadly.
"Some days ago you wouldn't allow him to do it because you would have done it by yourself.. when you still loved me" I was surprised when I saw the expression of his face. For a moment I thought that things hadn't change at all.
"Zana.. nothing happened with Helen.. and if I hadn't done this.. where would you be now? Paris wouldn't have chosen you.. he would have become crazy.. can't you see that all things happened because of a reason?" I had to agree with him, but I was still confused. "What's wrong ,Zana?"
" You can't imagine how I felt.. thinking that you were with her.." I was surprised with my sincerity.. I was almost saying that I still loved him.. I blushed. I wished that things would have been the same as before.. when he was fighting for my love.. now I felt alone. I didn't have anybody. But I remembered Paris words.. sure there's someone who would make this for you..
"I'm sorry if I hurt you.. I thought you trusted me more.. I'm an elf, not a human, remember? "He said, with a smile.
"Does this change things?" I asked, sadly, and to my surprise, he smiled again, as if he was happy.
"Of course it does, Zana.. when an elf gives his heart.. it's forever.." I stopped breathing, wishing to hear more words like those ones.. but he remained silent.
"Unless a Fountain of truth comes into his way.." I expected a yes, a nod.. but he didn't say anything. He just came closer.
"Not when a Tor fixes things again" I was shocked.
"What.. do you mean?" Was that what I wanted to hear?!
"Zana.. Legolas needs us.." He started walking, but I couldn't help feeling a big hope inside me. Did he mean what I thought he was meaning? All I got was a smile from him, asking me to walk fast.