Forbidden Attraction, Secret Desires
Author: Temptress_Kitten17
Rated: R
Disclaimer: I don't own Sailor Moon.
Chapter 12:
" Extra credit, Mina? Do you really think you two can fool us into believing THAT?" Jen asked.
" Jen, be nice," I said, this time siding with Mina. " If _you_ had a boyfriend that could send you to the higher realms of ecstasy, you would understand why Mina wants to ditch us."
" Yeah! That's right Jen! Guess you're the only one in this car right now who HASN'T had at least one or two sexual experiences! And I always thought Sere, Miss Mary Sunshine of Lollipop Lane, would be the LAST of everyone in our group to go this far already!"
I resented that remark, I really did. I was not such an innocent little angel anymore and I hadn't had an innocent thought in my head since my seventeenth birthday! I just hadn't felt old enough to DO those things. But now I was. I was almost eighteen damn it! There was no way I was going to stay a virgin at eighteen. That may have been good for Trista, but it wasn't good enough for me.
" Hey! I'm not Mary Sunshine anymore! Come ON! I blaze up with you now AND I read Cosmopolitan for the sex tips, AND I'm definitely gonna have sex with Darien the next time I go up there! In fact, I'm in the process of repairing the relationship with my father so that I can have an excuse to go back before my birthday!" I pointed out.
Mina had a weird look in her eyes. The kind of look that signaled she was thinking about something naughty. " Oh...can I give you some advice?" she asked. I shrugged. " Why not. You'd say it anyway." Mina grinned and her blue eyes sparkled with some dirty thought or secret. " Okay! Well, make sure he uses a condom and remember, energy and flexibility count!"
" MINA!" Jen exclaimed, turning a bright shade of red. Jen's still not used to Mina's blunt sex advice, I guess. I simply smiled knowingly.
" I'll keep that in mind," I said, not at all embarrassed by what she had said. Hell, I had already thought about the same thing.
" Oh! And if you wanna REALLY drive him crazy, you should squeeze him without warning! It works really well if your legs are over his shoulders...which is why ya gotta be flexible!"
" MINA!"
" Quiet Jen! Sere needs to hear this if she's wants to leave Darien gasping for breath and wanting more."
" Thanks for the advice Mina, but maybe we should stop talking about this for Jen's sake." I said. Mina sighed. " Okay, Sere. I'll send you the 'net address with more sex tips from Cosmopolitan-"
" I already have it in my favourites under ' entertainment' Mina." I stated. Mina grinned. " Oh look Jack! Our little Sere is all grown up!" she said, faking tears. Jen simply rolled her eyes.
Just then we pulled into my driveway. " Okay Sere, call me later on this week and we'll do something kay?" Mina said as I got out of the car. I nodded with enthusiasm. " Will do, Mina! Thanks for getting me out of the house for a bit."
" No prob! Have a good night Sere!"
" I will, but I'm sure you'll have an even BETTER night!" I teased. Jack grinned and put an arm around Mina." Oh, you bet we'll have fun! Mina's gonna be really tired tomorrow if things go according to plan!"
" Guys! I don't wanna hear it..." Jen whined from the back seat.
" Then just cover your ears Jen, 'cuz I've learned that they won't stop talking. So we can either ignore it or join in on the conversation! I choose the second one now that I got a taste of what I've been missing out on. You do whatever you want to."
Jen simply rolled her eyes as I shut the door. I waved to Mina and headed toward my house as they drove off. It was great seeing them again. I had been cut off from my grad classmates for months. I guess you never really start to miss all those people you thought you couldn't stand in high school until you've graduated and gone down different paths. It was kinda ironic in a way. Have I ever mentioned how much I hate irony?
I stepped into my house and kicked off my sandals. Mom was in the kitchen making dinner and Sammy had already claimed the computer for the rest of the evening. I smiled at my family's predictability. Nothing ever changes around here.
Sammy always has the same routines. He'll either come home from school, his friend's house or his after school club. Then he'll go straight for the computer or Game Cube and play until he's forced to come to the table for dinner. Then after he's done eating, he goes back on the computer or Game Cube until either I kick him off to play, or he has to go to bed. There are variations of this routine, but the activities are always the same.
Mom's routine is less predictable because she goes to work and then runs errands. Sometimes she'll go out on a date, but that's a rare occurence. One thing I can usually count on is that she's got dinner ready by five thirty. I walked into the kitchen to let Mom know I was home now. Then I went upstairs to change into my PJ bottoms and a pink T-shirt. I just don't see the point of staying dressed all day if you're just gonna stay home. I'd rather be comfortable. Just then the phone rang.
" Meatball Brains it's probably for you!" Sammy shouted up to me. I groaned. I had JUST gotten home and already somebody was calling me. I picked up my hot pink cordless phone and hit 'TALK.'
" Hello?" I said in a fake cheerful voice.
" Serena? Hi! It's Molly, whatcha doing tonight?"
" Sitting in my PJs on my bed, wrapped in a big fluffy quilt and watching my Sailor Moon tapes. Then I'm gonna yell at the TV and list all the things that the censorship jerks cut out, changed or messed up on AND shout out the Japanese attacks, henshin and names at the appropriate times!"
" So you're doing nothing."
" Did you not hear me, Moll? I just said I had plans!"
" Yeah, but that can be done any time. This plan I have is limited to tonight only!"
" What is it?"
" Well, there's this guy who says he knew you back in your old elementary school. I kinda showed him your picture, to make sure we were talking about the same Serena, and now he wants to see you-"
" Molly, why would somebody who probably tormented me suddenly take interest in me? What picture did you show him?"
" The one I took last Halloween of you dressed as the devil..."
" I was the Goddess of Temptation...YOU WHAT?!? Molly! I can't believe he saw that picture. No wonder he wants to see me! That dress was skin tight!"
The outfit I had worn to school that day had been chosen purely as a means of torture to every horny teenage boy in the place. I had selected a red halter dress that tied in the back with a low cut back. It came down to mid thigh and was so tight in the bust that a bra was completely unnecessary. I had a sheer red cape around my bare shoulders and wore knee-high black stilletto boots. My blonde hair had been longer then, coming to the middle of my back and a silver tiara completed my costume. It was an outfit that my mother would hopefully never find out about.
" I know! That's what makes it such a great picture for showing off to potential boyfriends for you-"
" Stop trying to set me up Molly! I HAD a boyfriend and I dumped him. I don't intend to look for another one for a long time!" I said, irritated with her meddling.
" But Serena, he's so insistent on meeting you. He said you had gotten super hot!"
" Well DUH! Of course I have. I had warned every guy in that stupid school that I would be hot when I turned seventeen and that I would make them regret teasing me. They all laughed at me. Well, I was right! I'm ALWAYS right about this stuff and you can tell him that I won't even consider going out with him. I'd rather watch anime episodes."
" Serena...if I just come over and ask you what's really up with you tomorrow while everyone's gone will you tell me?"
" Maybe. But don't YOU have school?"
" That bitch Ms. Olinite kicked me out again. I HATE her! She said I was on drugs just because I've lost weight and shit! It's SO annoying!"
" You got kicked out AGAIN? Molly, what the hell! I told you before to get your shit together and graduate!"
" Sere, there's more...but I'd rather tell you tomorrow."
" Okay. Come over around eleven or so and we'll talk. But DO NOT , I repeat DO NOT bring that guy with you or anyone else for that matter. And DON'T give him my number, address or e-mail! Got it?"
" Got it Serena. See you tomorrow!"
" See ya!"
" Bye!"
I hung up the phone and was about to head downstairs when the phone rang AGAIN! I growled this time. It was probably Molly or Amara. They were the only ones who called me so close to dinner time. I picked up the phone again.
" Hello?"
" Hey Pumpkin! How are you?" Dad asked. He sounded really happy.
" Oh hi Daddy! I'm fine, what's up?" I asked, my mood instantly shifting from annoyed to cheerful.
" Well, I was wondering what you were doing on Thursday. See, I was wondering if maybe you wanted to come up here for a while..."
I jumped at the chance. A whole week or more with Darien! How great was this?
" Really? Of course I wanna come up! Are you coming down here to get me?"
" Yes Serena. I'll be there around noon to pick you up, okay?"
" Okay! I'm gonna go eat supper and then I'm gonna pack! This is so great! I love you Daddy!"
" Well I love you too sweetheart. Talk to you later. Everyone's really excited to see you. Raye and Darien are downstairs cleaning the TV room for you right now."
" Great! I gotta go now Daddy. Tell everyone hi for me!"
" I will. Talk to you later."
" Ciao Daddy!"
I hung up the phone, unable to stop smiling. * I'm gonna see Darien! I'm gonna see Darien!* I sang in my head. This day had just gotten ten times better! I quickly ran downstairs to eat the curried chicken and noodles Mom had made for me. I smiled at Mom to let her know I was enjoying my meal. Sammy was still on the computer, his meal beside him on the desk, barely even nibbled at.
" Sammy Tsukino, you get your butt to the kitchen table right now! You should know by now that you're not to eat in front of the computer." Mom scolded him. Sammy looked back toward us and whined. " But Mom, I have to finish this! Do you have any idea how many of my friends are depending on me to make this dreamscape game work? I gotta get it done tonight so that I can start on the other stuff tomorrow..."
" Now, Sammy!" Mom commanded. Sammy sighed and in the most dramatic way possible, he got off the computer and came sulking to the table. Mom pretended to ignore it.
" So what did your father want, Serena?" she asked me as I mixed myself a glass of ice tea.
" He asked if I wanted to come and stay with him for a bit. He said he'd pick me up next Thursday."
" Oh. Well it's nice that you two are finally getting along..."
" Mama, you're not going to be too lonely without me, right? I don't wanna leave you if you'll be lonely-"
" Don't be silly Serena. Of course I'm going to miss you, but I don't want you to just drop everything for me. You're almost an adult and I have to get used to you leaving home."
" I'd tell you what I think about you deserting us Serena, but nobody would listen to me anyway...after all, it's not like I have any thoughts or opinions or a life or-"
" Sammy that is ENOUGH!" My mother scolded as she glared at my brother. " I'm tired of this attitude of yours young man! All you do is come home in a bad mood, sit on the computer and shut everyone out. You do nothing but sulk and complain all the time. What has gotten into you?"
" Like anybody cares what happens in MY life...no, because according to everybody else I don't HAVE a life of my own. I don't have plans or a schedule. So why should anybody even consider me when making plans or giving out random detentions..." Sammy muttered to himself. Mom just sighed.
" I give up, there's no point in asking him anything because he's just going to sulk regardless. So anyway Serena, you should start getting your things ready. I know tomorrow is only Friday, but it's better to pack at least a week in advance so you don't end up forgetting anything. And be sure to tell all your friends so that they don't start making plans or try to call here while you're away."
" No problem! I'm gonna send Amy an E-mail as soon as I'm done this delicious meal!"
Sammy sat up straight and glared at me. " But..._I'm_ supposed to be on the computer tonight!"
" I'm only gonna be on my account long enough to send out all my e-mails." I reassured him, not wanting to deal with his bitching a second longer.
" Fine! Finish your dinner and type up your stupid e-mails."
I simply smiled. " Thanks Sammy!" I said.
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Molly came over the next day around ten in the morning. She had lost a lot of weight and her eyes were bloodshot. She looked so tired and worn out that I just had to know what had happened. " Hey Serena." Molly said as she stepped inside and kicked off her shoes.
" Molly you look terrible, I'm sorry to say. What happened?" I asked her as she sat down on my couch.
" Well, I feel just as terrible as I look Serena. I'm afraid I've made so many mistakes lately that I'm afraid to count them."
" You can tell me...Molly, what happened?" I asked, sitting across from her on the cream coloured sofa.
" I went back to Max again. I'm sorry, I promised you I wouldn't but Gods Serena, if you only knew how much I love him..."
" He hurt you, didn't he? I warned you already that he would mess up again. Molly, how can you keep on doing this to yourself?"
" There's more. I'm carrying his child, but he denies it's even his. He says I'm just a slut and that I was cheating on him...but he's been cheating on me...and I'm not the only girl who's pregnant with his kid."
I simply sat there, stunned for a few minutes as Molly continued to talk. It amazed me how much one person could severely mess up their life in only a few months. " Why...Molly, you're only sixteen. How can you be so...stupid?" I asked, no longer caring about tact. She needed me to call her on her stupidity right now. If I sugar coated my words they wouldn't have much impact on her.
" I KNOW. I Know that I keep making stupid mistakes all the time. I don't know why I do it, but I REALLY wish I could stop! This is the third time that I've had to get an abortion! The other times I was just lucky that my body got rid of the kid before I could spend the money to get rid of it myself. Serena, you have to help me out here. You have to help me get over Max for good, so that I never make this mistake again!"
" I can't do that Mol, you don't REALLY want to stop. If you did, you would have just quit. You wanna know why you keep going back and making the same mistakes? It's because deep down you LIKE it. You're getting something you like when you choose to do these actions. It doesn't matter how much I yell at you or say that it's wrong; as long as you get your 'reward' you'll keep going back. Think of Max as an addiction; he's bad for you but he gives you something you like. To break this habit, you're gonna have to figure out just why you keep going back. What is it you like about your relationship?"
" That's easy! Max is really good in bed! Plus I feel so attractive when I'm with him."
" There you go! You're addicted to sex and you feel that in order to be worth anything to anybody, you have to be in a relationship. Molly, I've SEEN how you act when you're single. It's almost like you can't be happy unless you're dating someone. Your cure is simple; stay away from guys for six months. Instead you have to find out who you are and what you REALLY want from life. AND GO BACK TO SCHOOL!!!"
Molly nodded, a smile on her face. " Okay Serena! Now, tell me why YOU'RE avoiding guys now." I shrugged my shoulders. I really didn't want to tell her yet. Not after my lecture on being addicted to sex. " I just don't feel like dating anybody right now..."
" Oh. Well okay Serena, I won't try to set you up anymore. I should probably go now since I gotta take care of some stuff. I'll talk to you later, okay? Maybe we can do something on Thursday."
I shook my head. " No can do, Moll. I'm afraid I'm leaving for Dad's that day and I don't know how long I'm gonna be gone. We'll correspond via e-mail and instant messages for the duration of my stay."
Molly simply nodded her head leaving me wondering if she even understood what I had said. Molly's not much for the fancy, intellectual words. My problem is that I often forget who it is I am speaking with. Then I start to use a lot of intelligent words that often intimidate or confuse people. So much for the Dumb Blonde sterotype.
" Okay then. I'll talk to you online, Serena. Just make sure not to confuse me with all those big words you like to use. And I hope that your family will at least understand you..."
" Okay, will do Moll. Later!" I said as I opened the door and let her pass. She waved and walked down the driveway. I shut and locked the door behind her and went over to the computer to check on my e-mail.
Amara had written back, warning me not to get caught if I was going to keep seeing Darien. Amy wrote back telling me that she was really excited that I was coming up and that she was going to take me out shopping now that she could drive. I sent her back a quick note about maybe making plans that Saturday. Then I went upstairs to pack some more things. Opening my dresser drawer, I pulled out my pink leopard print jewelery box and emptied the entire contents of it into the zip up pocket of my black binder. The piece of paper that my aunt and uncle had placed with my 'present' remained at the bottom of the box. The words in black marker reading ' IF YOU'RE GONNA DO IT, USE THESE EVERY TIME.'
" Don't worry, I will." I whispered as I shut the box and placed it back in my top drawer.
Temptress: Thank you to all who reviewed my story. I'm trying to get this finished but there's just so much I have to write. It probably won't be finished by my birthday...but I can try and get most of it done. I've just got a lot going on right now since my friend and I have been hanging out with some REALLY hot guys lately. I'll try and get more out soon, kay?
Author: Temptress_Kitten17
Rated: R
Disclaimer: I don't own Sailor Moon.
Chapter 12:
" Extra credit, Mina? Do you really think you two can fool us into believing THAT?" Jen asked.
" Jen, be nice," I said, this time siding with Mina. " If _you_ had a boyfriend that could send you to the higher realms of ecstasy, you would understand why Mina wants to ditch us."
" Yeah! That's right Jen! Guess you're the only one in this car right now who HASN'T had at least one or two sexual experiences! And I always thought Sere, Miss Mary Sunshine of Lollipop Lane, would be the LAST of everyone in our group to go this far already!"
I resented that remark, I really did. I was not such an innocent little angel anymore and I hadn't had an innocent thought in my head since my seventeenth birthday! I just hadn't felt old enough to DO those things. But now I was. I was almost eighteen damn it! There was no way I was going to stay a virgin at eighteen. That may have been good for Trista, but it wasn't good enough for me.
" Hey! I'm not Mary Sunshine anymore! Come ON! I blaze up with you now AND I read Cosmopolitan for the sex tips, AND I'm definitely gonna have sex with Darien the next time I go up there! In fact, I'm in the process of repairing the relationship with my father so that I can have an excuse to go back before my birthday!" I pointed out.
Mina had a weird look in her eyes. The kind of look that signaled she was thinking about something naughty. " Oh...can I give you some advice?" she asked. I shrugged. " Why not. You'd say it anyway." Mina grinned and her blue eyes sparkled with some dirty thought or secret. " Okay! Well, make sure he uses a condom and remember, energy and flexibility count!"
" MINA!" Jen exclaimed, turning a bright shade of red. Jen's still not used to Mina's blunt sex advice, I guess. I simply smiled knowingly.
" I'll keep that in mind," I said, not at all embarrassed by what she had said. Hell, I had already thought about the same thing.
" Oh! And if you wanna REALLY drive him crazy, you should squeeze him without warning! It works really well if your legs are over his shoulders...which is why ya gotta be flexible!"
" MINA!"
" Quiet Jen! Sere needs to hear this if she's wants to leave Darien gasping for breath and wanting more."
" Thanks for the advice Mina, but maybe we should stop talking about this for Jen's sake." I said. Mina sighed. " Okay, Sere. I'll send you the 'net address with more sex tips from Cosmopolitan-"
" I already have it in my favourites under ' entertainment' Mina." I stated. Mina grinned. " Oh look Jack! Our little Sere is all grown up!" she said, faking tears. Jen simply rolled her eyes.
Just then we pulled into my driveway. " Okay Sere, call me later on this week and we'll do something kay?" Mina said as I got out of the car. I nodded with enthusiasm. " Will do, Mina! Thanks for getting me out of the house for a bit."
" No prob! Have a good night Sere!"
" I will, but I'm sure you'll have an even BETTER night!" I teased. Jack grinned and put an arm around Mina." Oh, you bet we'll have fun! Mina's gonna be really tired tomorrow if things go according to plan!"
" Guys! I don't wanna hear it..." Jen whined from the back seat.
" Then just cover your ears Jen, 'cuz I've learned that they won't stop talking. So we can either ignore it or join in on the conversation! I choose the second one now that I got a taste of what I've been missing out on. You do whatever you want to."
Jen simply rolled her eyes as I shut the door. I waved to Mina and headed toward my house as they drove off. It was great seeing them again. I had been cut off from my grad classmates for months. I guess you never really start to miss all those people you thought you couldn't stand in high school until you've graduated and gone down different paths. It was kinda ironic in a way. Have I ever mentioned how much I hate irony?
I stepped into my house and kicked off my sandals. Mom was in the kitchen making dinner and Sammy had already claimed the computer for the rest of the evening. I smiled at my family's predictability. Nothing ever changes around here.
Sammy always has the same routines. He'll either come home from school, his friend's house or his after school club. Then he'll go straight for the computer or Game Cube and play until he's forced to come to the table for dinner. Then after he's done eating, he goes back on the computer or Game Cube until either I kick him off to play, or he has to go to bed. There are variations of this routine, but the activities are always the same.
Mom's routine is less predictable because she goes to work and then runs errands. Sometimes she'll go out on a date, but that's a rare occurence. One thing I can usually count on is that she's got dinner ready by five thirty. I walked into the kitchen to let Mom know I was home now. Then I went upstairs to change into my PJ bottoms and a pink T-shirt. I just don't see the point of staying dressed all day if you're just gonna stay home. I'd rather be comfortable. Just then the phone rang.
" Meatball Brains it's probably for you!" Sammy shouted up to me. I groaned. I had JUST gotten home and already somebody was calling me. I picked up my hot pink cordless phone and hit 'TALK.'
" Hello?" I said in a fake cheerful voice.
" Serena? Hi! It's Molly, whatcha doing tonight?"
" Sitting in my PJs on my bed, wrapped in a big fluffy quilt and watching my Sailor Moon tapes. Then I'm gonna yell at the TV and list all the things that the censorship jerks cut out, changed or messed up on AND shout out the Japanese attacks, henshin and names at the appropriate times!"
" So you're doing nothing."
" Did you not hear me, Moll? I just said I had plans!"
" Yeah, but that can be done any time. This plan I have is limited to tonight only!"
" What is it?"
" Well, there's this guy who says he knew you back in your old elementary school. I kinda showed him your picture, to make sure we were talking about the same Serena, and now he wants to see you-"
" Molly, why would somebody who probably tormented me suddenly take interest in me? What picture did you show him?"
" The one I took last Halloween of you dressed as the devil..."
" I was the Goddess of Temptation...YOU WHAT?!? Molly! I can't believe he saw that picture. No wonder he wants to see me! That dress was skin tight!"
The outfit I had worn to school that day had been chosen purely as a means of torture to every horny teenage boy in the place. I had selected a red halter dress that tied in the back with a low cut back. It came down to mid thigh and was so tight in the bust that a bra was completely unnecessary. I had a sheer red cape around my bare shoulders and wore knee-high black stilletto boots. My blonde hair had been longer then, coming to the middle of my back and a silver tiara completed my costume. It was an outfit that my mother would hopefully never find out about.
" I know! That's what makes it such a great picture for showing off to potential boyfriends for you-"
" Stop trying to set me up Molly! I HAD a boyfriend and I dumped him. I don't intend to look for another one for a long time!" I said, irritated with her meddling.
" But Serena, he's so insistent on meeting you. He said you had gotten super hot!"
" Well DUH! Of course I have. I had warned every guy in that stupid school that I would be hot when I turned seventeen and that I would make them regret teasing me. They all laughed at me. Well, I was right! I'm ALWAYS right about this stuff and you can tell him that I won't even consider going out with him. I'd rather watch anime episodes."
" Serena...if I just come over and ask you what's really up with you tomorrow while everyone's gone will you tell me?"
" Maybe. But don't YOU have school?"
" That bitch Ms. Olinite kicked me out again. I HATE her! She said I was on drugs just because I've lost weight and shit! It's SO annoying!"
" You got kicked out AGAIN? Molly, what the hell! I told you before to get your shit together and graduate!"
" Sere, there's more...but I'd rather tell you tomorrow."
" Okay. Come over around eleven or so and we'll talk. But DO NOT , I repeat DO NOT bring that guy with you or anyone else for that matter. And DON'T give him my number, address or e-mail! Got it?"
" Got it Serena. See you tomorrow!"
" See ya!"
" Bye!"
I hung up the phone and was about to head downstairs when the phone rang AGAIN! I growled this time. It was probably Molly or Amara. They were the only ones who called me so close to dinner time. I picked up the phone again.
" Hello?"
" Hey Pumpkin! How are you?" Dad asked. He sounded really happy.
" Oh hi Daddy! I'm fine, what's up?" I asked, my mood instantly shifting from annoyed to cheerful.
" Well, I was wondering what you were doing on Thursday. See, I was wondering if maybe you wanted to come up here for a while..."
I jumped at the chance. A whole week or more with Darien! How great was this?
" Really? Of course I wanna come up! Are you coming down here to get me?"
" Yes Serena. I'll be there around noon to pick you up, okay?"
" Okay! I'm gonna go eat supper and then I'm gonna pack! This is so great! I love you Daddy!"
" Well I love you too sweetheart. Talk to you later. Everyone's really excited to see you. Raye and Darien are downstairs cleaning the TV room for you right now."
" Great! I gotta go now Daddy. Tell everyone hi for me!"
" I will. Talk to you later."
" Ciao Daddy!"
I hung up the phone, unable to stop smiling. * I'm gonna see Darien! I'm gonna see Darien!* I sang in my head. This day had just gotten ten times better! I quickly ran downstairs to eat the curried chicken and noodles Mom had made for me. I smiled at Mom to let her know I was enjoying my meal. Sammy was still on the computer, his meal beside him on the desk, barely even nibbled at.
" Sammy Tsukino, you get your butt to the kitchen table right now! You should know by now that you're not to eat in front of the computer." Mom scolded him. Sammy looked back toward us and whined. " But Mom, I have to finish this! Do you have any idea how many of my friends are depending on me to make this dreamscape game work? I gotta get it done tonight so that I can start on the other stuff tomorrow..."
" Now, Sammy!" Mom commanded. Sammy sighed and in the most dramatic way possible, he got off the computer and came sulking to the table. Mom pretended to ignore it.
" So what did your father want, Serena?" she asked me as I mixed myself a glass of ice tea.
" He asked if I wanted to come and stay with him for a bit. He said he'd pick me up next Thursday."
" Oh. Well it's nice that you two are finally getting along..."
" Mama, you're not going to be too lonely without me, right? I don't wanna leave you if you'll be lonely-"
" Don't be silly Serena. Of course I'm going to miss you, but I don't want you to just drop everything for me. You're almost an adult and I have to get used to you leaving home."
" I'd tell you what I think about you deserting us Serena, but nobody would listen to me anyway...after all, it's not like I have any thoughts or opinions or a life or-"
" Sammy that is ENOUGH!" My mother scolded as she glared at my brother. " I'm tired of this attitude of yours young man! All you do is come home in a bad mood, sit on the computer and shut everyone out. You do nothing but sulk and complain all the time. What has gotten into you?"
" Like anybody cares what happens in MY life...no, because according to everybody else I don't HAVE a life of my own. I don't have plans or a schedule. So why should anybody even consider me when making plans or giving out random detentions..." Sammy muttered to himself. Mom just sighed.
" I give up, there's no point in asking him anything because he's just going to sulk regardless. So anyway Serena, you should start getting your things ready. I know tomorrow is only Friday, but it's better to pack at least a week in advance so you don't end up forgetting anything. And be sure to tell all your friends so that they don't start making plans or try to call here while you're away."
" No problem! I'm gonna send Amy an E-mail as soon as I'm done this delicious meal!"
Sammy sat up straight and glared at me. " But..._I'm_ supposed to be on the computer tonight!"
" I'm only gonna be on my account long enough to send out all my e-mails." I reassured him, not wanting to deal with his bitching a second longer.
" Fine! Finish your dinner and type up your stupid e-mails."
I simply smiled. " Thanks Sammy!" I said.
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Molly came over the next day around ten in the morning. She had lost a lot of weight and her eyes were bloodshot. She looked so tired and worn out that I just had to know what had happened. " Hey Serena." Molly said as she stepped inside and kicked off her shoes.
" Molly you look terrible, I'm sorry to say. What happened?" I asked her as she sat down on my couch.
" Well, I feel just as terrible as I look Serena. I'm afraid I've made so many mistakes lately that I'm afraid to count them."
" You can tell me...Molly, what happened?" I asked, sitting across from her on the cream coloured sofa.
" I went back to Max again. I'm sorry, I promised you I wouldn't but Gods Serena, if you only knew how much I love him..."
" He hurt you, didn't he? I warned you already that he would mess up again. Molly, how can you keep on doing this to yourself?"
" There's more. I'm carrying his child, but he denies it's even his. He says I'm just a slut and that I was cheating on him...but he's been cheating on me...and I'm not the only girl who's pregnant with his kid."
I simply sat there, stunned for a few minutes as Molly continued to talk. It amazed me how much one person could severely mess up their life in only a few months. " Why...Molly, you're only sixteen. How can you be so...stupid?" I asked, no longer caring about tact. She needed me to call her on her stupidity right now. If I sugar coated my words they wouldn't have much impact on her.
" I KNOW. I Know that I keep making stupid mistakes all the time. I don't know why I do it, but I REALLY wish I could stop! This is the third time that I've had to get an abortion! The other times I was just lucky that my body got rid of the kid before I could spend the money to get rid of it myself. Serena, you have to help me out here. You have to help me get over Max for good, so that I never make this mistake again!"
" I can't do that Mol, you don't REALLY want to stop. If you did, you would have just quit. You wanna know why you keep going back and making the same mistakes? It's because deep down you LIKE it. You're getting something you like when you choose to do these actions. It doesn't matter how much I yell at you or say that it's wrong; as long as you get your 'reward' you'll keep going back. Think of Max as an addiction; he's bad for you but he gives you something you like. To break this habit, you're gonna have to figure out just why you keep going back. What is it you like about your relationship?"
" That's easy! Max is really good in bed! Plus I feel so attractive when I'm with him."
" There you go! You're addicted to sex and you feel that in order to be worth anything to anybody, you have to be in a relationship. Molly, I've SEEN how you act when you're single. It's almost like you can't be happy unless you're dating someone. Your cure is simple; stay away from guys for six months. Instead you have to find out who you are and what you REALLY want from life. AND GO BACK TO SCHOOL!!!"
Molly nodded, a smile on her face. " Okay Serena! Now, tell me why YOU'RE avoiding guys now." I shrugged my shoulders. I really didn't want to tell her yet. Not after my lecture on being addicted to sex. " I just don't feel like dating anybody right now..."
" Oh. Well okay Serena, I won't try to set you up anymore. I should probably go now since I gotta take care of some stuff. I'll talk to you later, okay? Maybe we can do something on Thursday."
I shook my head. " No can do, Moll. I'm afraid I'm leaving for Dad's that day and I don't know how long I'm gonna be gone. We'll correspond via e-mail and instant messages for the duration of my stay."
Molly simply nodded her head leaving me wondering if she even understood what I had said. Molly's not much for the fancy, intellectual words. My problem is that I often forget who it is I am speaking with. Then I start to use a lot of intelligent words that often intimidate or confuse people. So much for the Dumb Blonde sterotype.
" Okay then. I'll talk to you online, Serena. Just make sure not to confuse me with all those big words you like to use. And I hope that your family will at least understand you..."
" Okay, will do Moll. Later!" I said as I opened the door and let her pass. She waved and walked down the driveway. I shut and locked the door behind her and went over to the computer to check on my e-mail.
Amara had written back, warning me not to get caught if I was going to keep seeing Darien. Amy wrote back telling me that she was really excited that I was coming up and that she was going to take me out shopping now that she could drive. I sent her back a quick note about maybe making plans that Saturday. Then I went upstairs to pack some more things. Opening my dresser drawer, I pulled out my pink leopard print jewelery box and emptied the entire contents of it into the zip up pocket of my black binder. The piece of paper that my aunt and uncle had placed with my 'present' remained at the bottom of the box. The words in black marker reading ' IF YOU'RE GONNA DO IT, USE THESE EVERY TIME.'
" Don't worry, I will." I whispered as I shut the box and placed it back in my top drawer.
Temptress: Thank you to all who reviewed my story. I'm trying to get this finished but there's just so much I have to write. It probably won't be finished by my birthday...but I can try and get most of it done. I've just got a lot going on right now since my friend and I have been hanging out with some REALLY hot guys lately. I'll try and get more out soon, kay?